Sure enough, when it came to Concubine Jin, his brows furrowed into a Sichuan character, as if he was mentioning a person he didn't want to hear, a dangerous border area. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info I understand that he doesn't want me to mention this person, and a careless touch will remind him of some unpleasant things, such as Wanli's matter.

He looked a little disgusted, but he deliberately maintained this mood in front of me, and said lightly: "This is not your business, it is not too early for me to send you back, okay?" His expression returned to indifference.

"Then what do you say that I should take care of, and what I should not do?" Murong Chenxi, why do I only let me see your strong side, but you don't want others to see your pain? Maybe they're right, I should try to understand the person in front of me, his past, his present, his future, and even everything about him. I don't want you to only take care of my emotions, I cry and you accompany me, I am sad and you comfort me, yes, there are still you when I am sad, but what about yourself, who is there when you are sad, why are you always alone and silently bear all this.

Murong Chenxi stopped and turned his back to me, I couldn't see any of his emotions at this moment.

He looked at me and was silent for a word.

After a while, he spoke: "Bingxi, she and you have only had a few faces, not relatives, why do you want to be like this?" He was right, I was so focused on doing it that I didn't pause to think about why I was the way I did. She and I are not related, why should I help her, is it because of Murong Chenfeng's request? No, I think it's more in my own mind.

"Maybe it's a match." I thought for a moment and said, "Aren't you really going to go for her birthday this year?" I looked at him and continued, "If it were my birthday, I would have been disappointed that the person I had been hoping for didn't come." Murong Chenxi stared at me, and he couldn't see what he was thinking in his deep eyes. After a while, he slowly spoke, "Give me some time, some things don't mean you can let go." His words made me feel a little gratified, at least he tried to do it, blood is thicker than water, the mother-son relationship between him and Concubine Jin is inseparable in this life, although it is a pity for me to fight motherly love since childhood, but it is not impossible to help others.

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November 10th, this day is Concubine Jin's birthday, before leaving I told him that today is his mother's birthday, he didn't make a sound after listening, and then I and Qianping went out to prepare to enter the palace to go to Jinyun Palace.

On the way, although I seemed calm, I was vaguely worried. I don't know if Murong Chenxi will come, and his silence makes me unsure.

"Princess, did you say that the prince would come?" Qianping saw my concerns and asked, yes, this girl is just as unsure as I am.

I shook my head and said, "Everything that should be done has been done, everything that should be said has been said, and the decision on whether he comes or not is up to him, not you and me." ”

Resigned to fate, he said so, but in his heart he hoped that he would appear in Jinyun Hall at that time.

"Princess, you have done your best in this matter, if it doesn't work, I can't blame you, the Seventh Prince and Concubine Jin will understand." Qianping comforted me and said.

I promised someone at the beginning, but if I couldn't do it, I would feel a little disappointed in my heart.

"Hopefully, this year's birthday will be different." I said to myself.

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It was a coincidence to say that it was unfortunate that I met Murong Chenfeng outside the palace gate, and I heard that Murong Chenfeng came to see me when I was sick. But I was in a coma at that time and didn't know when he left the house.

When Murong Chenfeng saw me, the first thing he said was concern: "Are you well?" ”

I smiled and said, "Lord Meng is worried, Bingxi is no longer in trouble. ”

Murong Chenfeng nodded, and said with confidence: "I came to the house that day and met you with a fever, the fourth brother accompanied you to take care of it, I couldn't help on the side, seeing that the fourth brother was worried about you, I could only be anxious, I regretted that I didn't send you back to the prince at the beginning, otherwise it wouldn't have rained, fortunately, you are fine now." Murong Chenfeng blamed himself a little.

When I mentioned that day, I was a little moved, only I knew in my heart why I was drenched in the rain and why I had a fever and was sick that day. But it was also because of this rain that I really woke up, and it was also because of this rain that I realized that I had already let go of what I no longer belonged to, instead of desperately trying to keep it. So, I am thankful for the baptism that the rain brought me and woke me up.

I said: "Misfortune and blessing depend on each other, and the seven princes do not need to blame themselves." ”

Murong Chen looked at me slightly, didn't know why, and said slowly: "You can see this serious illness." ”

I smiled and said, "Whether you can see it or not depends on your attitude towards things, the prince is here today for Concubine Jin's birthday?" ”

"yes. Today, on Concubine Jin's birthday, I entered the palace to congratulate her. Murong Chenfeng didn't think about my previous words, and then replied, looking at only me and Qianping, "Fourth brother, he?" ”

"Fourth brother, he didn't come?" He said slowly, with some disappointment in his eyes.

"He said it would take some time, and you know his temper, after all, it doesn't happen overnight, and I told him before I left the house. Let's go, let's enter the palace! "Murong Chenfeng didn't say any more, and entered the palace with me.

When I arrived at the Jinyun Palace, it was almost the same as usual, and there was no festivity as I imagined, it stands to reason that this is the birthday of Concubine Jin, and the dormitory should be more or less joyful than usual. Murong Chenfeng was not as surprised as I was, but he was used to it, and he didn't feel that anything was wrong.

"This is Concubine Jin's birthday, why isn't the palace more festive?" I asked Murong Chenfeng beside me in a puzzled whisper. Every time you have a birthday, the imperial grandmother and the royal brother will hold a lively birthday banquet for you, there are lion dancers, there are singing, there are dancing・・・・・・・・ as well as everyone's gifts and blessings, which is as cold and deserted as this.

He said: "It's Concubine Jin's own meaning, every year on her birthday, the fourth brother is missing, so she ordered to go down and not hold a birthday banquet, and then on this day except everyone came to congratulate and there is no difference between usual, you just get used to it." Then he looked at me with a blank look on his face.

In the heart of Concubine Jin, the emperor is her survival in this palace, and Murong Chenxi is her lifeline, the person she cares about the most, if you don't get the blessing of the person you care about the most, what's the point of being lively in the form, it's better to cancel it and be quiet. I sighed, other people's birthdays are happy to be birthday stars, but for her is not as usual.