Chapter 38 asks what to do
Murong Chenfeng told me that every year when Concubine Jin's birthday arrives, Murong Chenxi always has an excuse to go out to run errands, seeing that Concubine Jin's birthday is approaching, she must very much hope that her son can be by her side. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info
I haven't heard the news that he is going out these days, and I have inquired from the housekeeper to no avail, just in case, after thinking about it, I decided to find him to understand, it is better than asking people everywhere and thinking about it.
One day, I saw Murong Chenxi staying in the study practicing calligraphy, so I lingered at his door and waited for him to come out. Murong Chenxi usually likes to practice calligraphy and painting in the study when he has nothing to do, saying that practicing calligraphy and painting can make people's hearts calm, I have never entered his study, except that the housekeeper in the house often goes to his study to clean it, it is rare to see others enter his study, it seems to be mysterious, I don't know what it looks like inside. However, I heard that his handwriting is clean and hard, and his writing is extremely good-looking, and the emperor has praised his handwriting, but he has heard people talk about it, but he has never seen it with his own eyes, and I don't know if it is as others say.
Just as he was thinking about it, Murong Chenxi came out of the house, saw me at a glance, closed the door and walked towards me gently.
"Why is it alone here?" He looked at me, with a smile on his lips, and asked me in a gentle tone.
"Huh? Forehead? I ・・・・・・ "I faced him, and I didn't know how to say the words on the tip of my tongue for a while, so I asked him directly?" Or ・・・・・・ when did I become so mother-in-law and mother-in-law?
"Is there anything wrong with me?" He saw that I lowered my head and didn't speak for a while, so he said slowly after a while.
I nodded to him, thinking, anyway, I have to ask, it's better to ask now, leave early, leave early, and get rid of it early, and don't bother about it.
"Does the prince have any plans to go out these days?" I asked.
He looked at me silently, the air was so quiet that I was a little uncomfortable, and I looked away from him, not knowing what he was thinking at the moment, so that I didn't answer my question immediately. After a pause, he nodded at me and said, "Maybe!" He replied in the affirmative, but it was not impossible.
Possibly! The tone of his answer was flat, and I had a wry smile in my heart, what a simple three words, but it was very bad news for me, and I had been entangled in the answer for a long time, and it was so light and concise to say.
What Murong Chenfeng said was really right, he intended to leave, he didn't want to face it, he could only escape.
"Is this something you've been doing these days?" He asked, staring at me.
I nodded and quickly shook my head, explaining: "No, I just heard the Seventh Prince inadvertently say that you always have to go out at this time of year, so I passed by here today and asked." "I made a casual excuse to prevaricate, and it always sounded contradictory. I have never asked him to go out to do errands, and I have no intention of asking, and it is inevitable that I am a little unreasonable to care about him today, and it is purely normal for him to be suspicious even if he is suspicious.
He was slightly stunned, the smile on the corner of his mouth gradually dissipated, and there was a hint of chill in his deep eyes, he stared at me and said lightly: "Ao, is it?" Did the seventh brother tell you the reason why I went out? ”
I was stunned for a moment, and took a long breath, he saw everything so clearly, even the matter of Murong Chenfeng taking me into the palace to Jinyun Hall that day, he knew it in his heart clearly, in advance. He deliberately didn't mention it before, and now he broke it, and if I still pretend that he doesn't know anything, wouldn't it be too hypocritical.
"Since you are clear in your heart, why do you need to say more about Bingxi." I snorted.
Half-ringing, the corners of his mouth twitched, and said: "In these days, the seventh brother and you are close, although I don't say it, how can I not know the reason, I understand his intentions, he and my brother have been thinking about me for many years, just ・・・・・・" He paused, looked at me, and continued: "It's just that I don't want you to be involved in this matter, and now I can't convince myself for the time being, so I'd rather you be fine." ”
I looked up at him, he stared at me quietly, why did he, a person who seemed cold to me, just say something that made my heart beat inexplicably faster, a warm current invaded the bottom of my heart, such a feeling was familiar, as if I hadn't felt like this for a long time, and it seemed like being by my side all the time. It seemed to me that I was just a stand-in for him in honor of another woman, how could his words today give me the illusion that he cared about me, was this really my delusion? Or did he just treat me like another woman?
Except for Murong Chenfeng, I have never seen him talking and laughing with other brothers, in my impression he is a prince who is difficult for people to approach, but for me, he appears by my side from time to time, regardless of my deliberate alienation and indifferent attitude.
Murong Chenxi, are you good to me just because of my face? If it weren't for my face, which resembles your former princess, you would still be like this? I asked myself in a whisper of disbelief.
It's better not to see each other than to see each other, and how ruthless it seems to be affectionate.
I said calmly: "Thank you for your concern, just like the prince said, the prince can't convince himself, and the same ice tide can't persuade himself to give up." ”
He looked away and sighed helplessly: "The seventh brother said that you are very smart, how can you admit death in this matter." ”
He said I admit death, I laugh, why don't you? If you don't admit death, you won't marry me, and I won't be your princess, maybe we may never know each other, and we won't come to the Northern Desert and stay in your palace to be your princess. If you can see the knot in your heart, Concubine Jin will not see me, Murong Chenfeng will not look for me, I will not be troubled by this, let alone look for you, now you should be by Concubine Jin's side.
"Maybe Bingxi only takes matters into account for what he thinks is necessary and worth doing." I said.
Hearing me say this, I don't know what Murong Chenxi thinks.
"Does it have to be like this?" Murong Chenxi looked at me with a serious face and asked.
I said, "This sentence should be right for me to ask you." ”
His eyes were lowered, he sighed lightly, there was no expression on his face, and they were silent for a while, and then he said, "Can I ask you a question?" ”
I looked at him suspiciously, not knowing what he was going to ask me, and said, "Lord Wang, you ask." ”
He looked at me and said word by word, "Do you regret agreeing to marry me in the camp?" ”
I was stunned, I didn't want him to ask this question, in the face of his waiting, I hesitated for a moment, I asked my heart, if it were earlier, I would definitely not hesitate to say that I was unwilling to marry him.
The matter has come to this, and I can't help but regret it, and I don't want to think about things that have become a foregone conclusion, because I know that it is useless to think about it, since it is useless, why bother yourself.
"I don't know."
"Don't know?" He asked.
I said: "If I don't regret my answer, the prince must think that it is not Bingxi's true words, and if I say I regret it, I am afraid that the prince will be unhappy when he hears it." Since neither of them could satisfy the prince, Bingxi could only answer that he didn't know. But since I decided to marry you in the first place, I knew that it was impossible to go back to the past, so I told myself not to think about it. ”
He looked at me and stopped talking.
"It's nothing, I'll go back first." I asked.
He graciously, "Go ahead."