Chapter Seventy-Two: Helplessness
At this time, in the room, Shi Xiaohui was sitting on the bed, she had stopped crying, I sat opposite Shi Xiaohui, and the two looked at each other quietly. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info
After a moment, feeling a little awkward, I opened the drawer, took out a pack of cigarettes, and lit one.
Shi Xiaohui asked in surprise, "Zhang Shiyi, when did you learn to smoke?" Smoking is not good. ”
I spat out a smoke ring and said, "Well, don't you like me anymore?" ”
Shi Xiaohui lowered her head and said, "I like it, I just said that smoking is not good for your health, so you better smoke less." ”
Looking at Shi Xiaohui's appearance, my heart couldn't help but ache faintly. I've never felt this before, is that what the book says? Taking another puff of my cigarette, I nodded, "You guessed right, I was hiding from you." ”
Shi Xiaohui was not surprised, looked at me and said, "Why? ”
I was silent for a while, then sighed and said, "I avoided you because I was afraid of liking you, or rather, I already liked you." ”
Hearing this, Shi Xiaohui wanted to stand up, I took a step forward, reached out and pressed Shi Xiaohui back to the side of the bed, and said, "You sit over there, let's have a good talk." ”
Shi Xiaohui showed a happy expression on her face at this time, and her tone softened a lot. He nodded and said, "Since you like me, why are you hiding from me?" ”
Looking at the joy on Shi Xiaohui's face, my originally firm heart softened a little. I took a few puffs of cigarette and said, "I've thought about it for a long time, and I didn't want to tell you what I wanted, but I overestimated my liking and underestimated your liking." ”
Shi Xiaohui looked puzzled, but didn't say anything. Just looked at me quietly. There was anticipation in his eyes.
I can't bear to look at it directly, don't look over it and say, "Shi Xiaohui, do you believe it, fate?" ”
Shi Xiaohui asked suspiciously, "Fate? What do you mean by that? ”
"It's our encounter, it's fate." I said.
Shi Xiaohui nodded and said, "Well, I believe, and then what?" ”
"Since you know that meeting is fate, then if I say that if I like you, I will kill you, and it is fate, do you believe it?" I asked,
Shi Xiaohui said in surprise: "How is it possible, aren't we all doing well now?" ”
I snuffed out the cigarette in my hand, lit the second one, and said, "This is fate, didn't you just say that you believe in fate?" ”
Shi Xiaohui shook her head and said: "Isn't there also a saying that people will win the sky, I believe that as long as two people truly love each other, they will be able to break through all obstacles." ”
I shook my head: "Fate is so easy to change, those who think they have changed their destiny are actually just living along the trajectory of their original destiny." Love is not omnipotent, or in other words, love is also a kind of fate. ”
Shi Xiaohui shook her head and said, "Impossible, you are so smart, your master is so interested, is there no other way to change it?" ”
I smiled wryly and said, "My master tried, but he failed. ”
Shi Xiaohui still didn't believe it, and continued: "Your master also said that your future achievements will definitely be higher than his. You can..."
I didn't let Shi Xiaohui continue, but said, "Even if I am better than my master, I will fail." Because I'm smart, I don't try, because the cost of failure is not my death, but your death. You know, if I'm with you and I'm the one who dies in the end, I'll try, because if I fail, it's just me who dies. ”
When Shi Xiaohui heard this, tears flowed down again and said, "Why, I will meet you." At first I was just curious, and the more I learned about you, the better I found you, the better you are, the more I like you. ”
I finally managed to say what I had been hiding in my heart, and I felt relaxed at this time. sighed: "This is fate, Xiaohui, you are still young, you will meet a better person than me in the future." I said that I am a Taoist priest and a special talent, but in fact, I am not as good as an ordinary person. ”
Shi Xiaohui didn't speak, but continued to cry.
I continued: "You know, I'm not an ordinary person, and there's no benefit in following me. My identity is destined for me not to live an ordinary life like ordinary people. ”
Shi Xiaohui didn't speak, just cried. Seeing this, my heart couldn't help but hurt even more. gritted his teeth, walked in front of Shi Xiaohui, and hugged Shi Xiaohui. At this time, Shi Xiaohui threw herself into my arms and cried even louder.
I only felt a burst of dampness and heat in my chest, and I involuntarily shed tears, touching Shi Xiaohui's head, and said: "I also used to be conceited that I was born smart, there is nothing I can't learn, and there is nothing I can't solve, but during this time, I have turned over a lot of books, many, many, and checked all the books I can find." I spent all night flipping through books and researching information, and in the end, I found that I was also a useless person, because I couldn't find a way, and I couldn't like you. ”
Shi Xiaohui cried and said, "Zhang Shiyi, it's impossible for me to forget you." ”
I smiled bitterly and said, "Forget it, Xiaohui, even if we can't forget, let's put each other in the bottom of our hearts." ”
In a moment, Shi Xiaohui pushed me down on the bed at once, and I was caught off guard, not knowing what to do. Shi Xiaohui pressed me under her and wanted to kiss me. I looked away and said, "Don't do that, no." ”
Shi Xiaohui suddenly shouted: "I don't care, I don't care." "As soon as he said, he actually wanted to take off my clothes. I naturally knew what Shi Xiaohui wanted to do, an impulse instantly filled my brain, and there was only one thought in my heart, yes, why do you care so much? So I reflexively pressed Shi Xiaohui under the bed, and at this moment, I saw Shi Xiaohui's face, which is such a familiar face, which makes me like it so much, I like her laughter, I also like her pouting and getting angry, and I like her to call me Zhang Shiyi on a shelf.
I instantly woke up and jumped out of bed. At this time, Shi Xiaohui was closing her eyes, feeling that I had gotten out of bed, and when I opened my eyes, I saw that I was sitting on a chair again, smoking a cigarette, and her eyes showed disappointment.
I tried my best to calm my breath, and said with a wry smile for a moment: "If you can, we will still be friends in the future, if you don't want to see me, I can transfer schools." ”
Shi Xiaohui got up and smiled miserably, and said, "Zhang Shiyi, I really want to hate you, but I can't hate." You are so good. In the future, let's be classmates, I won't come here again. After saying that, I got up and left the door alone.
I sat down in my chair, tilted my head, took a deep puff of my cigarette, and said, "Shi Xiaohui, thank you for liking me." But, I'm sorry, I can't like you. ”