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I pursed the corners of my mouth and didn't answer.

The bamboo curtain hanging from the window was lifted by the wind, and the street was bustling with people. As soon as the room fell silent, I felt a faint smell of wine wafting through the air.

Liang Gongzi poured himself a glass of wine, and when he was about to drink it, I asked him, "You said before that you had something to tell me, what is the matter?" ”

He smiled, put the wine cup down, and said, "I want to tell you to be more careful and take care of yourself." After a pause, he said, "Just now you said, 'When the time and space are repeated, some things will be different', so you should pay more attention." ”

"Thank you for your concern." I smiled and said, "I'll take care of it." ”

He smiled and said astringently: "Xiao Wan, don't talk so detached. ”

I lowered my head, tapped my fingers lightly on the cup, and said, "It's not that I'm alienated, it's that I feel that I can't repay you anything but say 'thank you'." If I don't even say 'thank you', I'm very upset. ”

He had no words.

I raised my head and said slowly, "It's rare for Zhuo Niangzi to come so far to see you." ”

He pursed his lips and said, "Senior sister, she grew up with me since she was a child, and the relationship between us is very deep. ”

"Why...... Don't think about it...... What about Zhuo Niangzi? I asked hesitantly.

After asking, I felt that this sentence was very redundant. It's not that I don't know that emotional things are reluctant, but when I think of what Mrs. Fang Caizhuo said to me, I still can't help but say it. This sentence actually has the meaning of persuasion.

He looked lonely, was silent for a long time, and said, "Did my sister tell you not to associate with me?" ”

I was stunned for a moment and said, "What she said makes sense." After a pause, he said, "In your previous life, you also suffered a lot because of me, right?" ”

"You are the one who has been suffering, and I only regret that I didn't protect you well." He said in a deep voice.

"No, don't think so," I said, "but I've been thinking for a long time why I've ended up like that. I think it's all my own creation. I cast the lake myself, that's my own problem......"

"If it weren't for that situation, how would you have thrown yourself into the lake?" He said earnestly, "You still take all the blame on yourself as before." You said that you chose those for yourself, so you don't blame others. ”

"There's nothing wrong with that," I added, "but I didn't end up with the consequences of my choices." After a pause, I continued: "Liang Gongzi, I don't know if I told you before, I am occasionally very melancholy, a kind of inexplicable melancholy. If I don't get through that depression, it will sink me deeper and deeper into the depression, and eventually, I will probably do something bad. ”

He looked at me, his eyes flashing with pain, and said, "You said that." Once, when you came to the Jade Tea Hall to look for me, you rarely drank alcohol, but you brought a can of wine from the Jinwu Restaurant and said that you wanted to invite me to drink. Although I was a little puzzled, I still relied on you. ”

"Such a large porcelain bowl," he gestured to me, "you drank a bowl and got drunk." When you are drunk, you talk a lot, and you are full of strange things, you say that you feel uncomfortable, and I ask you, but you can't tell what it is...... and kept saying that you were not good, and then you got drunk and didn't know what to do. ”

I was silent for a while and said, "So, the person who decides my life and death is actually myself, the past time and space will not be easily changed, and what I need to change the most is myself." ”

He smiled slightly and said, "You still like to speak in such a tone." ”

"What's wrong with that?" I wondered.

"It's like," he said, looking at me, "you're the only one left in the vast expanse, and there's nothing left of you." ”

"I didn't think so." I argued.

He didn't continue to argue with me, but said to me: "Xiaowan, you are not alone, when you are depressed, you think, I am still here, always there." ”

I looked at him, and my heart instantly felt as if it was filled, and a wonderful feeling surged in my chest, and I was faintly uneasy, and subconsciously clenched my hand.

He slowly reached over and put it under my fist, and with a slight force, he tried to pull my fingers open.

Something seemed to have escaped and startled me.

I came back to my senses, retracted my arm as if I had been burned, and then stood up and said, "Liang Gongzi, I have to go back." ”

"Oh," he said, "well. ”

As soon as I walked to the door, he suddenly said behind me: "Don't think too much about Mr. Bai's affairs, I will tell you if there is any news." ”

"Well," I said, leaning over slightly, "thank you." With that, he walked out of the private room.

When I left Jinwu Restaurant, I bought another can of wine before taking the carriage back to Lanfu.

In the past few days, he has lived a very peaceful life in the mansion, and Xu is worried that Lan Sheng will return soon, so no one stirs up trouble.

I was so happy and comfortable that I didn't go to my mother-in-law's place in the morning and evening to annoy her, and the meals were brought to the yard where I lived. On weekdays, I looked for the time to turn out the letters of Zhu Shuzhen and read them again, and now I know that "Xiao Gongzi" is Liang Gongzi, and when I read these letters again, I feel a little different.

Thinking of a small pomegranate in the garden that was still blooming, I went to the garden to look at it, and when I came back, I drew it on paper.

When I stopped writing, it was the end of the hour, and when I thought that Lan Sheng would be back tomorrow, my heart gradually became happy, and I went to the couch after washing.

Don't be excited before going to bed, maybe I was overjoyed because Lan Sheng was coming back, so I couldn't sleep after lying on the couch for a long time. I tried to count the sheep and beat evenly with my feet, but to no avail. After a long time, I was probably exhausted, my mind was not very clear, and my thoughts were gradually blurred.

I don't know how long it took, but I vaguely felt very uncomfortable in my body, as if I was being pressed by some heavy object, unable to move, and extremely hot.

I opened my eyes in a daze, it was pitch black, I thought I was in a dream, but the sensation on my body became clearer and clearer.

My body was indeed pressed, a hard, burning hand pressed against me, and there was the sound of heavy breathing in the tent.

I panicked and screamed.

A pair of hands suddenly held my face tightly, the weight on my body was lighter, and a voice sounded above, "Sister Wan, Sister Wan, are you awake?" ”

Lan Sheng replied. I let out a soft "um" and his hand loosened and propped himself up at my sides.

I was still a little confused, and asked him, "What are you doing here?" (To be continued.) )

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