[Date: May 13, 2937.]

"Lily is lily, the question is, what should you do with Xiaoshi?"

"Forehead ......" (The content of this chapter is more circular, most of them are direct statements of thought, if you don't understand, please skip the next chapter.) Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info)

Sometimes, a sentence can overwhelm you, you don't know how to answer, you don't know how to deal with things, and you don't know where you're going next. Shi Xiaowen could only stand here, staring blankly at Ould, staring blankly into her eyes, she didn't have any idea what to do, or, she had too many ideas, and because she was thinking about things even with the future.

People live in this world, but their hearts are not here, and they are with friends, but they have no sense of belonging. This is how Xiao Shi feels now, empty and empty, with nothing to rely on.

It's true that you can't figure it out if you think about it. In a universe full of mysterious events, anything can happen, and you can travel to this world by yourself, which is also a kind of mystery, which is also due to the universe, which cannot be explained clearly. You're standing here, holding everything that the human race has developed, but what's the use?

You can do it all, maybe it's a president, maybe it's an empress, maybe it's an artist, maybe it's a civil servant, maybe it's a beggar, maybe it's a little more humble person. But what's the point of this, from another point of view, these are useless, the effort you put in and your position are always relative, and you get these material things just to satisfy your spiritual needs. Looking at it, your life has been going on from beginning to end, you have experienced everything, but you have not experienced anything, you have felt the coldness of human affection, and you have also felt the warmth, but are these really important to you? What you seek can only be what you see, so that you simply cannot surpass yourself.

In this time of only one second of eye contact, Shi Xiaowen's brain was running wildly. Since the heavens have driven you crazy, then you are crazy! This is the decisive moment.

"Don't show this expression, there are no absolute things in the world, you can also go and live in our house." The eldest sister encouraged her like this, but she didn't know that the woman in front of her had supernatural thoughts in her head.

There is no absolute thing in the world, ha, what a stupid sentence, logically this sentence is fundamentally wrong, there is no absolute thing, but this sentence itself is absolute, just like a spear and a shield ridiculous. However, it is also a fact that the world is so contradictory, and you can't find a way out of the contradictions.

"Is that okay?" is an answer, Xiao Shi's mind is not here at all.

She is now thinking about her future, her present, her past, and how to do it is very important. It's so pointless to live for so long, but it's full of laughter and laughter, proving the meaning, it's really a contradiction. When one's goal is not achieved, there will be contradictions and dilemmas. I can indeed go to my eldest sister's house to escape the war, avoid the things that I should face, and then live happily with her, or do something else. But that's not what I'm after.

What is most important to a person? Is it money, power, love? Is it just what you can see? Or alive and dead? But did you do it, does it really make sense?

Xiao Shi is very unclear about what her goal is... Money-seeking? No, absolutely not, if you get money, you will still die; The quest for power? What's more, power is a thorny throne, you can grab it, but you don't sit for a long time, even if it is a long time, you don't know how much you have to pay for it; So is it love? No, you never know if the person next to your pillow has lied to you for a lifetime.

Xiao Shi's sense of trust has been completely destroyed, she and the people around her are like two worlds, her scheming is extremely heavy, like a jade transferred into the deep sea, not flashing.

"It's okay to go to our house! Sister Shi~" Wei'er next to her had a smile on her face, and she didn't know how much she was hiding after her innocent expression.

Shi Xiaowen couldn't believe them, let alone herself, she couldn't trust anyone without a clear goal, because she didn't know where to put these people. has a clear goal, and the people around her have an accurate purpose for her, and she will use the people around her to achieve her ideals. But now she has no purpose.

Under the gaze of her eldest sister, she found that she had nothing, and she ......

Xiao Shi smiled, her expression did not show what her brain was thinking at all, and said, "Let's talk about it then, in case there is any accident." ”

"Well, I don't expect an accident, so that's it, let's stay at my house or Wei'er's house when the time comes." People always have a sixth sense, which allows you to perceive things that the first five senses can't.

"Thank you, big sister, thank you, Wei'er." Just like Xiaoshi's smile now, the eldest sister can see it clearly, and just like the eldest sister's eyes, Xiaoshi also knows that she is guessing what she thinks.

But what Xiao Shi thinks must not be said, and it is better not to mention the things that happened to the little boy before. Her heart was out of control, and a large number of thoughts were spinning around, one by one being rejected by herself, like the feeling of not knowing how to redeem herself when death was coming. But Shi Xiaowen felt that she didn't need to be redeemed, because she thought she was already dead.

As the saying goes, some people are alive, but in fact she is dead!

She is indeed living here now, she is a good person, she has food, drink and feelings, and has her own six senses, sight, hearing, smell, touch, taste, and intuition, but at this time, her first five senses have long been numb, and the most important thing is the sixth sense. Shi Xiaowen's sixth sense told her that she was dead, and this was the biggest doubt for her.

Why do you feel like you're not making sense in life, and what does that mean? Why is the money, power, and love that I usually value not being valued by myself, but more concerned about life and death, but I feel that I am not afraid, on the contrary, I am even more afraid that I don't know why I put life and death on my body together.

Some people are dead, but she is still alive; Some people are alive, but she is dead. Many people think that they understand this sentence, the former is a good word, the latter is sarcasm, in fact, he didn't think about it at all. Compared with the latter sentence, the latter is not worse than the former. When a person dies, he stays behind, but the heart dies, and he stays with the body. Why can't a soldier like himself who fought for his country be the latter? People are alive, but the heart has long died for the country! This is the meaning of Shi Xiaowen's life, to live for the country.

But now, this country is not her hometown, and she has no feelings for him, and this flag is not worth her life.

"Every minute, the only person who lives is himself. Such a person who lives is actually dead. ”

"Eh, Sister Shi, what are you talking about? Be louder. ”

I didn't notice that my strong thoughts actually drove my mouth and said it, but fortunately the voice was not loud.

"Oh, I said yes, it's so tiring."

"It's good to walk a little longer, and soon we'll be on the street of my hometown." It seems that it has been fooled.

Xiao Shi secretly sighed, but her eyes collided with Ould, which made Xiao Shi's eyes flicker.

"Little sister, remember what I said? Just ask any questions and I will answer them truthfully. "The eldest sister should know a thing or two about her own thoughts.

"No, no."

Hearing the two speak, Willow's demon tail fell, stopped waddling, and she was listening intently to the conversation between the two.

"You look like you're confused about the future right now, aren't you?" poked straight at the center, which surprised Xiao Shi a little. To say that in the past two years, she has hardly spoken to Ould, and when it comes to the critical moment, everything is exposed.

"No, how could it be." Xiaoshi smiled slightly, very embarrassed.

"It feels like you're being taken advantage of, isn't it?" This question made Shi Xiaowen very strange, but he felt as if he had found something.

"How do you say this, what does it mean to be taken advantage of?" Strong thoughts are changing, and Xiao Shi thinks that she has found another way out for her brain, or she will have to be ruined by herself.

"You're living here, you're not planning or doing your own thing, but you're still doing it in a plan. It feels like you're getting farther and farther away from the people around you, you can't trust it, it's like you're the only one left alive in the world, everyone else is God or some unknown force, you need to have a goal, and then use everything available around you to complete your goal. Do you feel this way? ”

"Eldest sister, I..." Xiao Shi's right hand was placed on her pistol holster, and she gently unlocked the sleeve lock, but her expression and words and deeds still seemed to be in a normal conversation with her.

"Eldest sister, I don't mean anything else, it's just that I've always had this feeling, so I ran away from home."

Shi Xiaowen's hand lock was closed again, she was too worried, at least there was no crazy event in her head now.

"Don't you have any other way to deal with this? The feeling of being taken advantage of, and the feeling that I am very small and weak..."

"The weak self doubts himself, and the weak one has no fear of death?" The crimson eyes are always so mysterious, and Xiao Shi feels that she doesn't have to be bad in some ways.

"Well, that's it."

"Then congratulations on you being stuck in the bottleneck," Xiao Shi's eyes showed doubt, she didn't think it was completely related to the bottleneck, "Look at it from another angle, a person finds that he is weak, which means that he has the ability to judge himself." But not everyone can see their weakness, and not everyone can do something that is not fatal. What you lack now is not a goal, but a practical action, because all you have to do now is to get out of this planet, so that you have the right to think about the future. ”

"Big sister, little sister, what are you talking about, it sounds like a book from heaven."

"I'm praising Xiaomei, she has the temperament of a king."