After coming to this world, from the original confusion to the determination to "find him", in fact, she has been looking for various ways to escape from reality.

She couldn't accept Xia Qingzhu's disappearance, and she couldn't accept starting her life again without any guilt.

The collapse of the apocalypse eventually eroded her heart, and negative emotions such as killing, betrayal, and despair could not be regarded as a big dream as she herself thought, these were all real happenings.

In those years of struggling to survive, she had a personal experience, even if she showed that she was as careless as recalling other people's stories, this kind of self-hypnotic self-comfort still could never erase the huge rift in her heart.

Human nature, regained life, and the instinct to survive made it not easy for her to end her life, although she also had several times when she wanted to commit suicide because of her emotional breakdown from life to death, from death to life, but she finally survived.

It's okay to say it's cowardly, it's okay to say it's reluctant, but every time I think about whether even she disappears, will no one in the world remember him anymore, and I can always support it.

But life can go on, but life has long since died.

In the first five or six years, she desperately absorbed the knowledge of this world, kept exercising herself, and didn't communicate too much with people, in fact, it was just so that she could find more motivation to survive, and she didn't want to communicate too much with people, and she was aware of the hollowness in her heart, and she didn't even dare to recall too many memories about him.

Later, Mu Linggen was measured, and this information once made her empty heart roar, and the two worlds were forcibly linked together, and then she hoped that he would come to this world like her, even if it was still the corpse of the original world.

Once such a thought arises, she clings to it, like the last straw, even if she subconsciously knows that it may be her own extravagance, she must grasp this extravagant hope to live.

It is only possible to survive.

If you can't find it in ten years, you will have a hundred years, if you can't find it in a hundred years, you will have a thousand years, and if you can't find it in a thousand years,

The monk's life was long, and even if she could not find it for the rest of her life, she at least survived with his memories and the extravagant hopes for him!

She is ready to be lonely for the rest of her life and always live in her thoughts, so after entering the sect, she has no intention of making friends with others and avoiding too much contact with people, she is afraid that if she has too much contact, she will be nostalgic, nostalgic for the liveliness of the crowd, nostalgic for the care of friends, and finally will stay and be reluctant to leave.

Because she knew that she couldn't stay, and once she stayed, the despair and grief of his death would spread, and all the negative emotions in the end would also face an explosion, and she needed a glimmer of hope to suppress these emotions, so even if it was a fake life, she had to hold on to it and not let up.

Once she has an emotional breakdown, she will face only one result, like in the previous life, she will almost go crazy, and this life may be a demon!

She needs a light to guide the way, in the previous life it was him, in this life, she still doesn't want to change, it's still him.

Even if he only exists in memory!

But now, let her find a goal of survival, a new kind of flame, a special flame that exists because of her, a flame derived from the ability of the previous world, its existence has witnessed her two lives, witnessed their bits and pieces, no emotion, no betrayal, will always accompany her own flame!

Thinking about it, An Yi had already laughed, the laughter became louder and louder, hoarse, and finally even brought out the slightest cry.

An Yi staggered to the window, looking at the crescent moon in the sky, looking at this representative object that always carries thoughts on the earth......

After a long time, he gradually came out of his thoughts, stopped laughing, and leaned against the wall with all his might, but the light in his eyes became brighter and brighter.

Hey, I have finally found a partner who will never leave, it will accompany me to live in this strange world, accompany me to live on the road to find you, even if one day even I have forgotten what you look like, it will follow me from that world will remind me that my life carries all the memories about you!

......

The three-day holiday ended soon, in addition to cultivation, what An Yi did the most was to go shopping and Taobao in the retail market, although there was no big gain, but at least he gained more knowledge, and he also bought some relatively uncommon spirit grass and materials.

The mental struggle that day may have slightly eliminated some of the demons that had haunted her all year round, so that her divine consciousness went one step further, and directly entered a stage similar to the Great Perfection of Qi Refining, only one opportunity was missing to reach the foundation, although the cultivation was not advanced, but the true qi in the body was more condensed, and a lot of true qi impurities were also removed.

Three days later, when she returned to the sect from Fang City, she first went to the medicine garden to take a look, and these spiritual grasses were almost ready to be harvested, and after giving two miscellaneous servants, she went to the library building.

After the pair of cards, I entered the library building, went straight to the innermost row of bookshelves on the second floor, found the jade slip about the divine consciousness that I had hurriedly glimpsed, read it roughly, and then found a book about how to burn the jade slip with spiritual sense, handed it to the deacon to burn, handed over the spiritual stone, and left.

When he returned to his residence, he carefully studied the two jade slips, then took out a blank jade slip and burned it on the jade slip with the divine sense he had just learned:

Lost Continent Floating World Calendar 54,637 years, Mingyue Guoping City settled the six daughters, An Yi, born with fire, stored in the sea of knowledge, the young divine consciousness opened, not limited to cultivation, no precedent, specially named the spiritual fire;

Roughly recorded the characteristics of the spiritual fire she had discovered so far, in order to keep it secret, she also specially bought a jade box with a prohibition, put it away, closed the prohibition and put it away, although such a method of secrecy may not be useful, but it can only be so at present.

The next day, An Yichen was eating breakfast in the canteen after practice, and she usually received her own share and ate it alone in the corner.

Because she was low-key enough and rarely spoke, almost no one would come up to talk to her, and she was happy to eat alone in the corner as usual.

Eating every bite of food seriously, in the last life, the rarity of food made her cherish every bit of food, and therefore made her reluctant to eat Bigu Dan, even if Bigu Dan can resist the impurities brought by many foods, she would rather eat food for three meals a day.

was eating quietly, An Shujing, who had never come up in the past, suddenly came to An Yi's face, followed by a Linglong.