In the deeper night, the sound of the rain seemed to be a little quieter, but the coolness came up, the jade hand stretched out the quilt wrapped tightly around the body, and Huang Zhenxi turned around. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

Outside the window is the rain-soaked air, the body is filled with a tired heart, and the fairy tale in the memory has slowly melted.

"You think that if you take off this skin, you can easily succeed, you think that you can let go of yourself and live in hypocrisy, this is the real entertainment industry, you think that letting go of pride and self-esteem is the fastest secret to success. Is this what you know and understand? Naively to realize self-worth and chase dreams. ”

"Zhenxi, Dad is old, and you have grown up too..."

"As long as you come back to help Dad, Dad will promise you..."

"If you want me to come back, my mother won't run, you can see me when you get home... When you come back, Mom will make you something to eat, and make what you like..."

"What if your father has three long and two short, leaving us orphans and widows..."

"This doesn't work, that doesn't work, how can you come back and give up your ethereal dream of being an actor, just rely on the stage play you are playing now that no one watches?"

......

"For the sake of dreams, no means are compromised, no hesitation to give up everything, sacrifice everything, look for the so-called shortcut, win the so-called success, is it worth it? Have you thought about it? Never regret it? ”

The faces of his parents and his faces continued to overlap in Huang Zhenxi's mind, and those words still seemed to echo in her ears.

When I encounter difficulties and setbacks, I think of the little girl at the beginning, and I tell myself that you can only be rewarded if you have paid for your dream! Regardless of whether it succeeds or not, as long as I have paid for it, I have no regrets.

I tried hard, persevered, and didn't let everything in this world have a chance to slowly melt the heart of the little girl with a double ponytail.

Right? Or wrong? Tears burst out of the embankment...

Father! I'm sorry, my daughter is not filial, my daughter will succeed, can you be patient and wait?

And ...... "you"

I'm not just so eager for quick success for my own naïve dreams, I don't want to be just an ordinary person who does nothing or a nameless little actor, that will make me more and more distant from you, I don't want to be left behind and can only look at your back from afar, I want to get closer, closer, closer......

Tears blurred the vision, and in the dim light, along the delicate skin, slid down the pillow.

I used a stand-in...

The next morning, the rain was still falling sparsely outside the window.

Huang Zhenxi, who woke up early, didn't get up, stared at the ceiling with blank eyes, and lay down until the afternoon, when she got up and walked into the bathroom, turned on the shower head, and didn't take off her clothes, taking a bath in the cold early spring.

Let every drop of water kiss her skin, the water was warm, but it could not warm the cold and loneliness in her heart.

I changed out of my soaked pajamas, dried them briefly, didn't bother to put on makeup, and went out after a little tidying up.

Gangnam District, Seoul, stepping on the drizzling rain, shuttling through the alleys, slowly walking to the depths of the alleys, you will find that there is a café there, there are only two work-study students in it, a barista and pastry chef, and it is said that there is a mysterious owner, but unfortunately no one has ever seen it.

There are few guests here, and under the rain and fog, it is even more empty.

The cold wind is whining, the rain is dancing lightly, looking up at the sky, there is no enthusiasm of the sun, no irritability of cicadas.

Hwang Jin-hee sat alone in the empty store, using his thumb and forefinger to pinch the delicate spoon at random, and unconsciously stirring it in the coffee cup in a clockwise direction.

The heat, curling and lingering, slowly rose from the mouth of the porcelain cup as delicate as white jade, spreading like smoke and mist.

On the delicate little face, the expression is still so calm, without a trace of ripples, the only difference is the slender and thick eyelashes, stained with a little moisture, in the misty air, faintly revealing a little imperceptible sadness, helplessness, with a little sourness, a little dazed.

Putting down the small spoon, Huang Zhenxi put one hand on his lap and the other jade hand supported his chin and sat on the table by the window. She kept her face as close to the mouth of the cup as possible, trying her best to feel the limited warmth, but the heat on her face blurred her vision.

Li Yaling has been here for a while, sitting quietly next to Huang Zhenxi, staring at her pale side face without a trace of blood, without makeup but still exquisite, at this time with sadness and sourness, her misty eyes looked straight out of the window, and for a moment, Li Yaling's heart was slightly touched.

seemed to be infected with that inexplicable sadness, and didn't open his mouth to disturb her, listening to the music that kept looping in his ears, looking at the raindrops outside the window, and sitting quietly.

Huang Zhenxi unconsciously took a sip of the coffee in front of him, a long time has passed, and the coffee is no longer as warm as it was at the beginning, and the thick liquid runs slowly along the esophagus, a little bitter, and a little astringent through the heart, tasting helplessness and sadness. She frowned slightly, put down her coffee, and realized that she didn't know when, Li Yaling was already sitting on the side.

"Oh, Yaling, how long have you been here? Sorry, Ernie was a little distracted. ”

"It's okay, I've just arrived, Ernie what were you thinking just now, so engrossed."

After sitting upright for a long time, Li Yaling leaned back slightly, and changed to a more comfortable posture, lazy like a cute kitten.

Shaking his head, Huang Zhenxi gently sketched the scattered hair with his tail finger, "No, some old things from the past, don't mention it, by the way, what do you want to drink?" ”

"Whatever." Li Yaling responded casually.

"How can you order anything?" Huang Jinxi felt funny and helpless.

"Hmm... Then ask for a cappuccino. ”

seems to have a phobia of choice, Li Yaling wrinkled her good-looking eyebrows for a long time before she cautiously spoke, clenched her little fists and plucked up her courage, as if she had made a very important decision.

Looking at Li Yaling's cute movements, Huang Zhenxi laughed, "Hehe, okay, Cappuccino, I usually drink this a lot." ”

Reaching out to one of the two work-study waiters, Huang Zhenxi ordered two cups of cappuccino, one for Li Yaling, and one for himself, the cup was already cold just now.

"Coffee is cold, and drinking something cold in the winter is not good for your health."

She always remembered that.

Li Yaling didn't notice the fleeting color on Huang Zhenxi's face, but looked up curiously at the decoration of the store, swinging her slender calves, leaning on a small pillow behind her back, holding one in her hand, and occasionally stretching out her white and tender little finger like a jade onion to poke the armrest of the sofa, feeling it concave and bounce up amazingly to the touch, full of freshness.

"Ernie, how did you find such a nice place? When I came here just now, I almost got lost after looking for a long time. ”

Taking advantage of the gap after ordering, Li Yaling, who was leaning back, raised her face and asked curiously, "I haven't come out for a long time, but I didn't expect to come out this time, I will arrive in such a good place, so happy!" ”

Since she became a video anchor, because of the reversal of day and night, she has basically never gone out, let alone shopping and drinking coffee, and after going to work in Han Jun Trade, although she no longer turns day and night upside down, she has little time to be busy.

"I also found it by chance when I was shopping alone, and if I am lucky, I may also say that it is fate. How? Don't you usually go out for a walk? ”

Li Yaling sighed, "No, I have been a female anchor on a video website for a while, at that time, I was sleeping during the day, and I had to broadcast live at night, and the live broadcast was until the early hours of the morning, and I didn't know where to go when I went out." Although I have time now, I have very few friends, and I don't have the heart to come out alone. ”

Huang Zhenxi was a little surprised, "What? Wuli Yaling is so beautiful and cute, I feel sorry for her, how can I have fewer friends? ”

"I met when I was a child, and I lost contact when I grew up, and the new acquaintances all had various purposes, and I didn't dare to make deep friends, Ernie, do you say that the more people grow up, the more lonely they are." seemed to feel that she was a failure, Li Yaling's small mouth bulged, her eyebrows drooped into a figure, and her clear eyes were full of disappointment and helplessness.

Huang Zhenxi was deeply touched, and at the same time sighed, reached out and gently rubbed Li Yaling's little head, "Yes, people, the more you grow up, the more lonely you are, the more mature you are, the more lonely you are." ”

After a pause, looking at Li Yaling on the other side and nodding with deep sympathy, Huang Zhenxi continued: "The more you grow up, the more pure your heart will no longer be as pure as before, the more difficult it is to have heart-to-heart fellowship, and the more lonely you are. The older you get, the more responsibility you have, the more you know, the more you think, and the more you have troubles. ”