Yu Jiao looked at the white-haired figure in the mirror, and then looked at the empty room, feeling that this life was really desolate. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

She has always been a person from her childhood, from her youth to her gray hair.

No one cared about what she wanted, never thought only about what she got from her.

Why is it that she is also a child of the Yu family, just because she is a girl and an older sister, she should dedicate her life to her younger brother.

Since childhood, the family conditions are not good.

Since she was six years old, she has had to get up early to help the family cook rice, stir-fry vegetables, and make pig food.

In charge of the adults' meals, the pigs, chickens, and ducks at home, in addition to cooking and washing the floor, cleaning up everything in the house, but also going up the mountain to hunt pigweed, the family is also poor, and they can't afford to buy cattle, otherwise, even the cow grass will be cut together.

And her brother, who is only a year and a half younger than her, does nothing.

She had a lot of opinions about this at the time.

Mom said, my brother is still young, only four and a half years old, how can he help you work?

But she forgot that when she was more than four years old, she was short enough to reach the height of the stove, so she had to set up a chair to make a fire and cook.

My parents went to work in the mountains every day, either to open up the wasteland or to farm, and the family had few fields, so they could only open up more wasteland.

She grew up later, looking back on this period of time, she knew that her parents were also very hard, she should have done more, done more, and there was no dry cleaning, but why, she was the one who had always worked?

She was ten years old and her brother was eight years old.

I was already in school at that time.

The family couldn't afford to pay the tuition because she cried and shouted that she wanted to go to school, and her parents finally agreed and took her to school.

In the first semester, I owed tuition to the school on credit, and when I went back in the second semester, my younger brother was unhappy.

Because last semester, at the end of the semester, the teacher asked the siblings to go home to get their tuition.

The two of them were not the only ones in the class who were driven home to urge tuition, but the younger brother just felt shameless, and he started again in the second semester, saying that he was not willing to pay the tuition on credit.

And the family's money is just enough to pay one person.

Dad said: "Jiaojiao, it's useless for girls to read so many books, as long as they are beautiful and have sharp hands and feet, they can find a good family in the future, or we won't study?" ”

She refused, but her arms couldn't reach her thighs.

Eventually, he dropped out of school.

God knows, when she saw other children reading aloud with textbooks in the schoolyard, she wished she was one of them.

Her grades have always been the first in her class, and her teacher's favorite student is her.

When she was beating pigweed, she quietly passed by the back of the classroom and quietly hid outside to listen to the class, and was discovered by the teacher, who did not scold her, but gave her the used textbook.

She put it away like a baby.

But the family is busy, and they don't have time for her to read.

Those few books, books with the kindness and expectation of the teacher, were just put on hold.

Then her days were spent in household chores and trivialities.

I am so busy every day that my feet don't touch the ground, but I don't know what the effect of being busy is, the conditions at home have always been like that, even if I die, I am still so poor.

She couldn't figure out why she was so tired every day.

The younger brother has to do his homework, the younger brother wants to buy comic books, the younger brother wants to buy toy guns, and the younger brother wants to watch cartoons...... My brother can do whatever he wants, but she only has to work.

She has not resisted, since she dropped out of school, she has been silent at home, and once again deliberately did not feed the pigs, and when her mother came back, she heard the pigs screaming so badly, and the slap was a slap.

"You're going to die, you know how to play all day long, don't you hear that the pig is hungry?"

She was anxious when the pig was hungry, and she didn't see her so anxious when she was hungry.

She is hungry, sick, she has always been suffering, her mother never cares, the pig can be used to sell it for money when she grows up, what can she give her mother if she eats and buys medicine?

It's a waste of food and money.

Maybe if she wasn't still a little useful and could help the family do things well, her mother probably wouldn't give her food.

The days were hard to endure, and it was hard to get by.

When she finally turned fifteen, she couldn't wait to follow her sister from the same village to work.

Learn to be a tailor, from cutting sleeves and buttons at the beginning, to being able to cut a complete piece of clothing later.

She behaved well in the factory, was diligent in her hands and feet, and was valued by an eldest sister who wanted to teach her to make clothes, and the eldest sister was very famous at that time, and she was the best-looking tailor in the factory to make clothes.

She was very happy and hurriedly agreed, and since then she has followed her eldest sister to work hard, working overtime, and learning diligently under the eldest sister.

When she was twenty-two years old, she was introduced to a young man from the factory next door, and the two slowly came together, except for more than a year when it was time to talk about marriage.

Yu Jiao took someone home, and when her parents heard that the other party's salary was lower than Yu Jiao's, they resolutely disagreed.

"As long as I'm alive for one day, don't even think about marrying him, Yu Jiao, you have this heart dead!"

Yu's mother resolutely opposed it, and even forced her to die.

Yu's father also said on the side: "Jiaojiao, let's discuss this matter again, I have told you since I was a child, a girl's marriage is the same as a second reincarnation, how can you find someone with good economic conditions and rich family, what's the use of being like you, the money is not as much as yours, you still think about it, do you want to marry and raise his family?" ”

She refuted, but in the end it didn't work, and her parents didn't know what method they used, so that the young man would hide when he saw her.

Her parents wanted to marry her to a rich man, because she was good-looking and had a good temperament, and they asked others to introduce her to those rich people, bosses, and the like.

There are also people who like her, but she doesn't agree to it, so she is screwed with them.

This twist is screwed to the age of thirty.

When he was 30 years old, his 28-year-old brother suddenly suffered kidney failure and was admitted to the hospital.

No matter how it is treated, it can't be cured, and in the end the doctor said that Yu Zihua had to be replaced with a kidney.

The whole family went for a check-up, and finally determined that Yu Jiao's kidney was the most suitable.

Yu Jiao cut a kidney to Yu Zihua, although she has always been envious and jealous of this younger brother, and sometimes there is a trace of hatred, but no matter what, he is also her younger brother.

She couldn't watch him die.

Besides, her parents would not agree, they were afraid that she would not, and they looked at her during that time, like a prisoner, for fear that she would run away with the money.

The younger brother's illness was cured, but it also cost her so many years of savings.

His hundreds of thousands of surgery fees were the savings she had saved when she was fifteen years old.

At the age of thirty, he lost a kidney and was penniless.

She thought she should get married, but at this time, except for those widowers with children, all good men were robbed by others. Where did she find someone to marry?

You can't just grab one and get married.

She didn't find it, so five years later, when she was thirty-five years old, she met the young man who talked to her about marriage again, holding his wife and children, smiling happily.

She turned around, not daring to look at his face, and went home crying all night.

If it weren't for the fact that she was a little bit worse at the beginning, she would be the happy little woman behind him, but everything was ruined.

Ruined by my parents and younger brother.

She left the city where she used to work and went to a place that no one knew, and never contacted her family again.

Who knows that fate is like this, and it loves to joke.

Ten years later, Yu Zihua also moved to her city and met her.

"Sister, your parents are dead, and you haven't come back to mourn, it's really unfilial!"

Her parents died, and Yu Zihua accused her of being unfilial, but she was not angry, she really didn't feel it at all, how could this be?

When she heard that her parents were dead, she was not sad at all, she really didn't feel uncomfortable at all.

"Sister, you are really amazing, as soon as you left, I couldn't find you when I got sick later. You should have had a good life all these years, and I'm miserable. ”

Yu Sihua complained to her, and she couldn't stop talking when she opened the chatterbox: "Sister, I don't ask you to help me now, just help your nephew." ”

Yu Jiao smiled coldly: "I can't care!" ”

In her life, since she was a child, her father didn't love her mother, how much she paid for her parents and Yu Zihua, and now she is alone, why should she care about his son?

It's not her son! Even her son won't be in charge all the time.

"Sister, please, if you don't care, you will die if you are rich."

Yu Zihua, a man who is nearly forty years old, actually cried with a whimper, like when he was a child, he felt that he had been wronged, and he relied on crying to vent, as long as she cried, her parents, and sisters would rely on him for everything.

"Sister, I am such a son who is rich and noble, you have seen him hug him back then, and the old Yu family is such a lone seedling."

Yu Zihua cried breathlessly, as if he was going to die.

His wife also heard that Yu Zihua had such a sister, and knew that the hope of saving her son was here, so she also begged.

Yu Jiao knew from their narrative that Yu Fugui had a girlfriend, this girlfriend was beautiful, but she liked to gamble, eat, drink and have fun, and everything was glued.

Because of this, his girlfriend lost money, came out to find Fu Fugui, took her to the casino to sign a loan shark agreement, coaxed Yu Fugui to sign, took the money and left.

Yu Fugui had nowhere to run, so he was caught by a loan shark, cut off a finger and sent it back, along with a sentence - "If you don't want people to die, you can send 100,000 yuan." ”

How can Yu Zihua have 100,000 yuan, his eyebrows are burning, and meeting Yu Jiao is simply a savior!

"Sister, lend me 100,000 yuan, save it first, and I will definitely pay you back."

Yu Jiao was reluctant, but she couldn't bear his pleading, and she was inexplicably soft-hearted.

Yu Zihua got the money and fished out Yu Fugui.

As a result, Yu Fugui did not change his stubborn nature, and went to gamble again.

When she found Yu Jiao to borrow money again, Yu Jiao was very angry.

Yu Zihua said: "Sister, anyway, you are not married, you have no children, everything you will not be rich in the future, give him the money, and he will give you a pension, right?" ”

Pension......

Yu Jiao smiled sarcastically, she is old now, she has nothing, where is the person who said she was going to provide for her in the old age?

In fact, Yu Fugui didn't have gambling money at all, all the money she gave was used by Yu Zihua, opened a hot pot restaurant, and used her money as start-up capital.

In her life, she was killed by her parents and younger brother.

She's not reconciled!

Yu Jiao pulled out an ugly smile, in this life, she has lost too much.

I have experienced so much suffering, but I haven't seen the essence of my family yet.

Who in this world will think about you, and who will feel sorry for you?

Who will be single-minded and dig out the heart and liver for you?

No one will think about you but yourself, at least not her ruthless family.

Yu Jiao smiled sarcastically, how did she live until now to understand, and only then did she think of being good to herself.

It's a pity that it was too late to understand.

She burned herself like the sun all her life, but she didn't get happiness.

She is so eager for happiness, so eager for someone to spoil her.

But I never got it.

Now she is gray-haired and old, and when the oil runs out, she has no relatives by her side.

Experience the bleak taste of the evening scene alone, and embark on the road to Yellow Springs alone.

The moment I swallowed my breath, my heart was full of unwillingness.

Why did she live so miserably?

Why can't she live for herself once?

There are so many beautiful things in life, and she hasn't done them.

Yu Jiao swallowed her last breath, and a strong desire surged in her heart:

She wants to go to school, get married and have children, have children and grandchildren, and manage Yu Zihua to die.

She wants to be happy for herself, for herself only once.

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Bai Jiao almost sighed, such a low demand, and even used her soul as a price to exchange for a chance to be happy.

This is a woman who has been suppressed and abused, kind-hearted, deceived and ruined all her life.

If Yu Jiao had been a little ruthless, figured it out early, and got rid of her parents and Yu Zihua, she would have been able to live a good life a long time ago.

The heart is broken, and there is not enough free and easy heart to deal with, I can't find the belonging of the soul, I can't find the value of life, and because the residual family affection is swayed, I can't be ruthless, so I will be miserable all my life.

Bai Jiao cleaned up a little and understood.

"Alas!"

With a long sigh, Bai Jiao smiled, feeling that she had really taken on a good task.

It was now the time when she left her home to work as a seamstress in the city, and she was just fifteen years old.

Bai Jiao thought that when she earned her first salary, she could leave the county seat and go to a place where Yu's family couldn't find it.

When the time comes, the sky is high and the birds will fly, and the sea will be wide and the fish will jump, just find someone to marry.

But after thinking about it, Yu Jiao seemed to be quite satisfied with the young man from the factory next door in her previous life, should she think about it?

In Yu Jiao's memories, she has always been obsessed with this person, and she should be able to help catch people.

However, it is also possible to wait until you are twenty-two years old to come back.

Maybe she met a better man in the meantime? You can also think about others.

……

First of all, it is necessary to make money and get out of here.

Then go to college, find a good man to marry, have children, live in a big house, do a big business, be happy where your family can't see, or be happy in front of them.

Bai Jiao planned it, packed up her work, and returned to the staff dormitory.

I just came here today, and I was in the factory all day, cutting clothes and trimming with scissors.

Big scissors, the handles are sore.

Bai Jiao washed her face, climbed into bed and fell asleep.

I was so tired that I didn't even dream a night.

When she got up the next day, Bai Jiao first went to the street for two laps and played two sets of Tai Chi before coming back.

It was estimated that the time was up, so I entered the factory and started the day's work.

I picked up a soft ruler and made a mark, spread out the clothes, and cut them off one by one.

At first, it was a bit handy, but after cutting it for a while, that familiar feeling returned.

After cutting the pile of clothes on the ground every day, you can rest, and the mark glanced at it, about 800 to 1,000 pieces of clothing a day.

So the hand holding the scissors will really shake.

Bai Jiao raised her hand and looked at it, these hands were already covered with thick calluses, how could a person who had done any work from childhood to adulthood have a pair of white and slender hands?

Layers of thick skin and scar scratches.

Blind with such a slender skeleton and beautiful hand shape, they are all ruined!

In the future, she has to take good care of these hands, but she can't toss like this anymore. (To be continued.) )