Chapter 31: I Have No Light
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The French writer Romain Rolland said, "The most terrible enemy of life is that there is no clear goal." ”
"Do you have a dream?"
After listening to the story told by Han Muxuan, Huang Zhenxi was thinking about the meaning and philosophy of the story, when he suddenly heard the question thrown by Han Muxuan, and he couldn't react for a while.
"As an actor, you have officially debuted, maybe your dream now is to be able to become a successful actor, a trending actor."
After a while, Huang Zhenxi raised her slender hand and brushed the hair that fell to her ears, and her delicate pretty face carried a hint of reminiscence.
"I loved watching TV when I was very young, and I was very curious and new about everything, and I imagined how nice it would be if I could be on TV. Gradually, I fell in love with acting, so I thought about becoming an actor when I grew up, and when I grew up, I realized that it was not so easy to be an actor, and I ran into walls everywhere, and finally I could only act in dramas first, desperately trying to accumulate experience, and I was constantly looking for opportunities in the middle, but it was 8 years in a flash, and I was still me, I didn't become an actor, and I was still unknown. ”
"Maybe the emperor pays off, this year I finally got a chance to participate in the first work, although it was a vase, but I was very pleased, and then participated in the speeding scandal, I don't know why you chose me at that time, I am not good at acting, and everyone is very beautiful, so I am very grateful."
Taking a sip of coffee, Hwang Jin-hee continued: "My dream now is to become an excellent actor and show the fruits of my previous accumulation and hard work, but this is not all my dream, I also want to be able to meet a suitable man who takes care of me and is good to me, and form a happy family." As she spoke, her voice became softer and softer, and her face slowly turned red.
"What about your dreams?"
Han Muxuan stretched out his hand to summon the waiter, asked for a bottle of red wine, opened it, poured two glasses, handed one to Huang Zhenxi, picked up the cup and took a sip, felt a cigarette and lit it, he took a deep breath and spit out thick smoke.
"I don't know, I often don't know what I'm supposed to do. The dreams of my childhood are getting farther and farther away, and I am always overwhelmed by the grinding of wind and frost and the heaviness of the years, I don't know what to do next, and I don't know what dreams I have. ”
Through the swirling white smoke, Han Muxuan's slightly lonely voice faintly transmitted to Huang Zhenxi, Huang Zhenxi waved his hand to disperse the attacking fog, without any disgusting or uncomfortable expression on his face, he still looked at Han Muxuan softly, his eyes were clear, and he spoke softly.
"I don't know what kind of experience you've had, I don't know your specific age, sometimes I think you're too mature, I think you're older than me, but it's impossible to look at your appearance, I often wonder, what kind of person are you? Let's not talk about specific dreams, let's talk about goals, a man's goals are not all to make money, have power, and be a good man, in my opinion, you have achieved all of these. ”
"Huh!" Han Muxuan chuckled lightly and snuffed out the cigarette butt, "I used to care, but now it doesn't matter, sometimes I pay a lot, and I use all my scheming and means, and finally I get what I want, but when I have it, I find it useless." However, it is neither possible nor realistic for me to give up what I have now. ”
Picking up the goblet, Han Muxuan drank the red wine in the glass in one gulp, and continued to speak while adding wine.
"Dreams are important and arguably the most important thing in life. It can give us hope, and it can keep us imaginative and creative. If a person does not have a dream, that person's life begins to be miserable, and I don't want my life to become a tragedy. Many people who have dreams are so far from success because of burnout and lack of self-confidence. I'm not, I'm not tired, I'm confident, so I often use the story of "Little Clock" to emphasize myself. ”
"Tell yourself that you don't have to think about the future, a year, or even a month from now, just think about what I want to do today, what I want to do tomorrow, and then work hard to complete it, just like that clock, ticking every second, maybe I will have a dream in the future, and now I should do something for my dream in advance! ”
The past and present lives add up to more than thirty years, and the mentality of having experienced too much is completely out of sync with the appearance of youth, maybe this is the root cause.
Once, Han Muxuan's heart was very small, as long as he had enough food, enough clothing, and enough use, all that was left was to create a relaxed environment for his family, so that he would not be frowning and stretched thin for money.
In this life, he has done these things, and he has no regrets, he needs a dream or goal to determine his future direction, and he doesn't know why he talked so deeply to Huang Zhenxi today, maybe he simply wanted to talk to someone, maybe he really drank a little too much.
"That's it, let's not talk about it, it's all mediocre people, cheers!" Han Muxuan raised his wine glass and touched it with Huang Zhenxi, "Sometimes people can't distinguish between ideals and desires, of course, many times there is not much difference between the two, have you ever thought about what kind of person you want to be?" ”
Huang Zhenxi swallowed the red wine in his mouth, put down the wine glass, and replied without hesitation, "Be a good person." ”
Han Muxuan smiled happily, "It's the hardest thing to be a good person." ”
"It's okay." Huang Zhenxi stopped holding a small spoon and stirred in the coffee cup, and replied very seriously.
"I just want to be a good person in my heart, I used to think about what kind of person I want to be, at that time, I cared too much about the eyes of others, and I was easily influenced by others. Now I'm very determined, I don't care at all, whether others want to admit it or not, how they see me, that's someone else's business. ”
"Your idea is very good, I once heard such a sentence: as long as I am willing to be a good person honestly and do my duty, and I am worthy of my heart in this life, then there will be one more good person in this world, and I can be regarded as changing the world with myself." Speaking of this, Han Muxuan paused and laughed.
"Miss Huang Zhenxi, are you willing to be a person who changes the world?"
Looking at Han Muxuan's clear eyes and bright smile, Huang Zhenxi was a little embarrassed in her honesty, bowed her head and said coquettishly: "If there is a chance, everyone wants to change the world." ”
"Haha, come, for the beauty of Huang Zhenxi, who changes the world, let's have a toast!" Han Muxuan raised his glass with a wicked smile.
"Nasty, are you making fun of me? Hum! Huang Zhenxi said coquettishly, reached out and pinched out a small fist and slammed Han Muxuan.
"Haha, I don't have it, there is no excuse for the crime I want to add, women and villains are all tigers and leopards!"
"Yikes! You're a villain, you're a tiger and a leopard, and I'll beat you if you say anything else. ”
"Alright, alright, drink bar, don't get drunk tonight, cheers!" In the face of the woman's reluctance, Han Muxuan decisively raised the white flag.
"Don't, whoever wants to stay drunk with you, I don't want it." As she spoke, Huang Zhenxi still picked up the cup and touched it with Han Muxuan, saying no, her body was honest.
"Ah, you can't keep the bottom, this is Laipi, the wine is too bad, whoever keeps the bottom is Laipi, I've done it, you see, there is not half a drop left." Seeing that Huang Zhenxi was about to put down the cup after only taking a small sip, Han Muxuan was anxious, and hurriedly shouted, and after speaking, he turned the empty cup upside down, showing that he had not left half a drop of good wine.
What are you kidding, you want to steal chickens, now men and women are equal.
"This is red wine, not beer, how can it be reasonable to kill all of them and not have half a drop left?" Helplessly, Han Muxuan stared tightly, Huang Zhenxi had to drink it all, and also reversed the cup to indicate that he was also half a drop, and glanced at Han Muxuan charmingly, "What a stingy man." ”
Huang Zhenxi just wanted to pick up the coffee in front of him, but was stopped by Han Muxuan, "The coffee is cold, drinking cold things in winter is not good for your health." ”
The atmosphere became warm, as if the heaviness just now was blowing like the wind. Han Muxuan occasionally laughed a few words in exchange for the beauty's light anger and pink fist, and frequently raised his glass to invite him to drink, and decided to have a good time.
It didn't take long for Han Muxuan to find that the beauty in front of him had a double vision, and then he simply fell asleep sitting with a crooked neck.
Huang Zhenxi put down the glass, picked up the bottle and added the wine, and didn't see the wine pour out for a long time, after a closer look, he found that the wine bottle was empty, stretched out his pink tongue and licked the wine stains on the corner of his mouth, such a tempting scene but no one saw it, it's a pity!
Huang Zhenxi reluctantly put down the empty wine bottle, only to find that Han Muxuan on the other side had fallen asleep for some time, and at this time he leaned his neck on the sofa and breathed evenly.
Huang Zhenxi walked around the table and sat down next to him, quietly looking at the sleeping face with closed eyes, not as bright as usual, and the thick handsome eyebrows were also relaxed and stretched, with a quiet face.
This fan-like man, the closer she gets, the more she can't see clearly, just like Huang Zhenxi herself said, sometimes she thinks that he has a mature temperament that does not match her age, and sometimes she is easily confused by his young appearance, which makes people involuntarily get closer and understand.
"Mu Xuan, wake up, it's time for us to go."
"Hmm..."
Huang Zhenxi pushed Han Muxuan, but there was no reaction, what should I do now? Will you just leave him here?
Summoning the waiter, Huang Zhenxi took out his wallet to pay the bill, and with the help of the waiter, he took Han Muxuan to the door of the hotel and called a taxi, Huang Zhenxi first stuffed Han Muxuan in, and then got into the car.
Fang Back Cave in Seocho District, took out the key to open the door and entered the house, skillfully pressed the switch to turn on the light, Huang Zhenxi struggled to put Han Muxuan on the side of the bed, and it took a long time to successfully place the dead pig-like man on the bed.
Huang Zhenxi sat on the edge of the bed, kneading her sour shoulders, driving a big man like Han Muxuan all the way, and she was really tired to death as a little woman. Poured a glass of water and drank it, went to the bathroom to wash up briefly, Huang Zhenxi came to the bed with a towel to help Han Muxuan wipe his face.
I thought that this man was quite well-behaved when he was drunk, and when he decided to take him home, he was up and down, although he was very tired, but it looked really cute like this, good q!
After putting away the towel, removing his coat, taking off his shoes and socks and putting them in the shoe cabinet at the door, Huang Zhenxi returned to the room and covered him with a quilt.
And Han Muxuan, who found that someone was approaching next to him, subconsciously wrapped his hands and hugged her tightly all of a sudden, Huang Zhenxi broke free a few times without breaking away, and after seeing that Han Muxuan had no other movements, he also slowly fell asleep.