Hardly anyone thought I was going to be transferred to the Cultural Center. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info I went at that time.

However, reality hit me so hard! As soon as I arrived at the cultural center, I wrote two novellas one after another, namely the above-mentioned "Fledgling" and "Swen Sweeping", which were published in the headlines of the eighth and twelfth issues of Guangxi Literature in 1994, and were grandly launched by the magazine as a so-called new star in the literary world. But my sister's work can't be solved. The main reason is that the vacant land in the playground of the cultural center is favored by real estate businessmen and is ready to be developed. It was a piece of public welfare land, a place for the people of the county to gather for leisure, but the government wanted to develop it for businessmen free of charge and build a 28-story "Tianyuan Building". The impact and controversy of this incident in 1995 was so huge that it could be said to be unprecedented, and the heads of many departments, such as land, planning, culture, and other departments, government officials came forward to block them, and the debate was quite heated at the meeting, and some officials were even dismissed, but they failed to resist the will of the chief of the most important leaders, and still developed. At that time, ******** was later promoted to the deputy secretary of the Liuzhou Prefectural Party Committee, and was sentenced for accepting bribes, so in Zhu Ji's "Not Happy", there is an article called "Hearing that Deputy Secretary Liao of the Liuzhou Prefectural Party Committee was shuanggui and sentenced, it is not also fast"!

It was from the end of 1994 to 1995, when newspapers and television boasted that this building was "the first floor in Guidong", but the word "building" was pronounced in the vernacular as the word "ugly", so the whole county knew that it was called "the first ugly in Guidong" where we are, and "ugly", also called "ugly", means "quite bad". For example, if you say that this person is of bad moral character, you can say, "This person is very ugly"; This thing is very inferior, it can also be said that "this thing is very ugly"; Doesn't do things well. It's a mess, but it's said "this thing is in the wrong place." This building is indeed very "ugly", I don't know why, it has not been built until now, and it is only four floors, becoming one of the most touching places in the county (now called the city). Even when a leader insists on doing something else, people will warn him: Don't be so hot-headed, you have to see the ending of "Tianyuan Mansion"!

That's all off-topic. My sister's job was not resolved, and I was disheartened and filled with anger. I feel sorry for my sister for not being able to help her find a job that suits her. What is even more infuriating is that the cultural system at that time still continued to enter a lot of people, transferred a lot of contract workers and cadres, and also entered the establishment, all of which were said to be suppressed by the leaders at the top, and had to be solved at the bottom. That kind of depression has nowhere to tell, it's useless to say, that time is the most indulgent time for drinking, often getting drunk and unable to sleep. In order to take care of my emotions, the leaders of the Cultural Affairs Bureau gave me the position of deputy director of the Cultural Center. At the same time, it also aroused another ideal for me, to be a bureaucrat, to be an official, and to do everything easily. At that time, I wanted to go to the countryside to be an official, and many people of the same age had already gone down, saying that they were on a temporary post, but no one had ever looked for me. Later, a friend in the county party committee told me that if you want to go down, it will not be very easy, just find a member of the Standing Committee and send 10,000 yuan or 20,000 yuan. Zhu Ji's daughter was young at the time, and she was waiting for the money to be used, and her debts had not been paid off, so she wanted me to buy an official with 10,000 yuan or 20,000 yuan, so how could it be?

In 1997, after a few months of vacancy, the director of the cultural center was put up for public election. A total of six people signed up, and after passing a written test, an interview, a public speaking and an organizational assessment, I was finally selected. But before I took office, a leader told me that you can become a curator, and it is inseparable from the care of a certain leader, and you have to thank him, otherwise your future work will not be good. I began to panic, for fear of offending the leader, so under the guidance of others, I invited the leader to the song and dance hall, and borrowed 3,000 yuan to give him, which was the first time in my life to "give a generous gift". At that time, I naively expected that the leader would not accept it, but he actually accepted it with a calm expression, put my envelope in his pocket, and encouraged me to work hard - I have never seen such a brazen person, and he said at the meeting yesterday that he would fight corruption and promote clean government! Speaking of this leader, I also interviewed him in October last year, he is already the director of a certain city bureau, is at the department level (I heard that he was arrested recently), of course, he will not remember me, so he sent so little 3,000 yuan, that is so long ago (if the discipline inspection department comes to investigate this matter, Zhu Zhi can cooperate with your investigation, but you must not arrest me as a briber, I am also forced to do it, the money I borrowed has not been returned to others). He was still talking about integrity and leadership personality in front of me, and I really wanted to vomit at that time.

To be honest, as a member of the Communist Party, I don't know whether to believe what the organization told me, or whether to trust my own judgment. Organizationally, the vast majority of leaders are pure, but I feel like it's the opposite. In my stupid thoughts, people who want to be officials must have their reasons: some hope that someone will send him money, some hope to glorify their ancestors, and some hope to have both wealth and wealth. Maybe there will be someone who doesn't eat the fireworks of the world, he has only one thought, he wants to serve the people, but I have never met, I still don't believe, and I will never believe that there will be such a person. One day, a few of us reporters played cards together, and everyone joked: Will the county magistrate really confiscate the bribes received from others? Everybody said, I don't believe 10% of them are killed. None of us are parties and have never been county magistrates, so it's hard to say. Ding Yangning, ******** of Zhenghe County, Fujian Province, said that if you don't get rich if you are promoted, you won't invite me to come; The official does not collect money, and there is no capital when he returns. I think that's right, he's more in line with human nature.

I have always had such a very stupid thought, when I ******, it is very difficult to investigate corrupt officials and bribes. After all, both parties to the receiver are carried out in a very secret situation, God knows that you know and I know, who will say it? Besides, if I pay a bribe, I will go to jail if I speak out, why should I say it? So I invented a "Zhu's Anti-Corruption Law" (I'll apply for a patent another day), that is, anyone who gives bribes, as long as you say it, is not guilty, not only is it not guilty, but you will also be rewarded! In this case, I can guarantee that the number of bribes will be eight or nine tenths less. I once told a friend who was working in engineering about this idea, and he laughed!

The period from 1997 to 2000 was the most difficult three years for me, and the difficulties and humiliations I suffered during the three years I was a petty official are unbearable. If you can't do a good job, you will be scolded from above; If you do a good job, but you don't give the credit to the leader, you will be scolded. The leader has a look, you can't understand it, and you are scolded so much that your head is bloody. In the past three years, I have held an average of one meeting a day, which is equivalent to one task a day, and more than half of them have not been completed according to the wishes of the leaders, so they have been scolded by the leaders. There are some things, if you follow the will of the leader, most of them are not in line with the wishes of the employees. There are more than 50 people in the unit, and the finance only gives the salaries of 28 people, and you have to find a way to do the rest. Drowning in a lot of trivial things all day long, it is really a rat entering the bellows, and both sides are angry. I didn't expect it to be so difficult to be a petty official. Mr. Li Hongzhang said: The easiest thing in the world is to be an official, and if this person can't even be an official, it will be too useless. Now it seems, what nonsense!

Zhu You's personality is so stubborn, so I often talk back to the leader, and the leader at that time said in public that he wanted to get rid of me, saying that mine was not, and slandering me with some groundless things, I think that this road to becoming an official is really impossible to go on. In addition, I didn't get any benefits from being an official, for three years, I have been trying to transfer my sister in, but I didn't get the approval of the superiors, but a few came in one after another to ask me to sign and agree to receive, some of them didn't notice it, so I came in - the cultural center as a pension unit, but it is the first choice for many official wives or relatives and friends. I was so frustrated that I thought I would go crazy if I were to be a curator for another year and a half. In addition, due to the housing reform, after I bought three houses in the unit, the debt increased by 30,000 yuan in vain, and it was less than 2,000 yuan for two years, and my monthly salary was 450 yuan at that time. I was in a state of confusion like never before.

Several of my friends are in the same situation. For a while, we even discussed doing some business, and the three of us, Mr. Li Tuo and Mr. Chen Dasheng, opened an open-air ice flower stall, called Blue Checkered Ice Flower City, selling beer, ice flowers, and snails. We invested more than 1,000 yuan each, rented all kinds of utensils, and opened without any formalities. But on the first day, half a bucket of ice flowers was confiscated by the upright people at the epidemic prevention station, and after negotiations, they promised to postpone the formalities before they could open. However, due to the lack of manpower and poor management, it closed down in less than a month, and there was no return. Later, I tried other small businesses, but none of them worked. I also tried to write a book, someone asked to write a 300,000-word martial arts novel: Su Qi'er, the Ten Tigers of Guangdong Martial Arts, after receiving a deposit of thousands of yuan from others, I found a quiet place, wrote for about 20 days, and finished the manuscript, but in the end it was not done. I still have the manuscript in hand, and I think it's still well written.

In the days that followed, many young people recounted their fledgling experiences, all of which went through a process of adaptation, struggle, and disappointment. I haven't seen anyone who has had a smooth ride. Perhaps, Zhu Zhi's experience is more fortunate than some friends, I just want to say: in such a day, almost everyone has to go through such a stage, and they have to face the reality, this is a cruel life, he will not follow your wishes, often the greater your hope, the greater the hope.

I know that for a person with a personality like me and a social background, becoming an official is a dead end. I don't have the capital, and I don't have the business acumen, and I am sure to die when I do business. In the spring of 2000, our league resigned, and this was the first principal leader in our county to resign, and he was elected to take office, which caused a strong shock in the unit and organizational department. They all know why, and there are many reasons for this, and I don't want to say it, lest some people look at it and get angry. At the same time, I decided to leave the unit and develop outside, so I applied for the "Bagui Metropolis Daily" sponsored by the Nanning Evening News and was hired. Coupled with the start of the Guangxi contract writer, I successfully signed the contract, so I came to Nanning, ending my difficult days

It wasn't until 2015 that my brother, who used to sleep on the floor together, said that in fact, I was like a bird flying around on the branches of a tree all these years, and when I saw which fruit was ripe, I flew over to eat it, but in fact I couldn't eat anything, so I kept flying around - this reminded me of the monk who ran around, exhausted by the sound of bells one after another, and finally starved to death on the road.

And he has been immersed in this grassroots level for more than ten years, and is now a member of the Standing Committee of a city. This tells us a truth, in the workplace, endure loneliness, endure hardship, don't be "so high", "this mountain looks at that mountain high", sooner or later it will succeed.

Otherwise, what is "the heart is higher than the sky, and the life is as thin as paper"? Here it is.