It's the summer of 2016 and it's hot. www.biquge.info From 2011 to 2014, I, Mr. Zhu Zhi, like a migratory bird, would live in the Seventh People's Hospital of Nanning City for a period of time every winter, just because the predecessor of the Seventh Hospital was the Nanning Acupuncture Research Institute, and it is said that acupuncture and moxibustion kung fu is very good. However, I didn't change anything. Thirty years ago, the tallest building in Nanning, Wanghuo Tower, was less than 100 meters to the left of the hospital's entrance, and Nanning's most famous landmark, Chaoyang Square, and the department store were close at hand, but I couldn't come there due to illness. I silently watched the clouds roll over the city, and watched the redbud flowers bloom and fall on the Republic Road.

Lemy Kellmister, the lead singer and bassist of the veteran British heavy metal band "Motorhead", died a few days ago, and he once exclaimed: "I'm old, I'm 70 years old, this is so fucking ridiculous, how could this happen to me?!" And now I exclaimed: "I'm sick too, I'm still so young, this is so ridiculous, how could this happen to me?!" ”

Once, my next bed was an old man in his 80s, due to an enlarged prostate, the operation cost a huge amount of 12,000 yuan, and his family had no money and did not do it. In a ward next to it, there was an old lady in her 70s, a retired employee of the unit, and I heard the old lady say that the old man was very handsome when he was young. Yes, it's handsome. She is also an avid suitor. My wife and I were shocked. He, just like Mr. Zhu Zhu, is pitiful, humiliating, dirty, obscene, and has he ever been handsome? makes people laugh and pee, which shows how unreliable looks are.

Or take the old man as an example, his monthly pension is 80 yuan (better than nothing); The two retired old men in their 80s in the ward next to them have a monthly pension of more than 8,000 yuan, and the hospitalization expenses are fully reported. It makes people sigh that "the same people don't have the same life". What is a vulnerable group? In 2015, some people said that banks were a vulnerable group, which made people laugh dumbly.

Due to my serious illness, I spent every day in my hospital bed thinking and whimsical. More than 10 years ago, I started a blog and wrote a lot about it. Perhaps, in these days of boredom, I should write it down, and if I insist, it is an autobiography of mine.

However, someone poured a basin of cold water on me, and the autobiographies were all written by celebrities, such as Clinton's "My Life", Zhao Zhongshen's "Caprice of Years", Lu Qiuluwei's "Walking Rose", Bai Yansong's "Pain and Happiness", Cui Yongyuan's "But That's It", and so on. Besides, what kind of autobiography do you write when you are so young, just like a thirteen-year-old girl who is pregnant, is it too early, right?

Writing a book was my plan more than a decade ago. I was 24 years old when I graduated from college. My wish is: when I have a house, a car, and enough savings to make a good life for my family, then I will write a book. But after 5 years, I found that it was even harder to achieve that dream than to reach the sky. So the dream became: when I had a savings that would allow me to support my family even if I didn't work for a year, then I would put pen to paper. After another 5 years, I found that it was also an almost unattainable goal. So I had a new idea: when my life was better, I started writing, and after a few more years, I thought it was just wishful thinking. So, I set a new goal for myself, if I really don't have time, then wait until I am 70 years old, and now, I can't guarantee whether I will live to be 70 years old.

I'm in my 40s. Stephen Chow said: If people don't have ideals, what is the difference between them and a salted fish? I don't want to be a salted fish, I thought I might be able to write a few books that would teach you a little bit: do your best, even if the whole world abandons you, don't abandon yourself.

However, my friend was worried about whether the book could be published and whether it could be sold. I remember that Lu Xun said in the advertising words for "Literature and Art Liancong": "What is the ambition of 'breaking through 50,000 copies', how dare we, as long as there are thousands of readers willing to give support, we will be good." "Lu Xun is like this, how good can I be? Perhaps, my book will sell at least 100 copies. Because in my book, more than 100 literate characters are written, and they are all alive. I'll call them one by one: Hey! So-and-so, you were written into my masterpiece by me, buy a copy and take a look! My friend laughed dumbly.

Don't laugh, be serious, write a book! I said, once I become famous, what can you write "Mr. Zhu Zhi in My Eyes - Looks Beautiful", "Me and Mr. Zhu Zhi - The Story I Have to Tell", "Zhu Zhi Writes an Autobiography, Yuan Fang, What Do You Think", "Zhu Zhi Writes an Autobiography, My Friends and I Are Stunned", "Why Did Zhu Zhi Write an Autobiography?" You know", "Fire tongs Liu Ming, I like the autobiography", "Writing an autobiography, Mr. Zhu Zhi is still quite hard", "Reading Zhu Zhi's autobiography, I am also drunk" and other insider articles. Friends laughed and peed.

Second, I just want you to know that not only are you living so hard in this world, but people as talented as Mr. Zhu are also struggling to survive just like you. Speaking of the songs "Downstream and Backward Stream" and "Don't Decorate Your Dreams", you must be like thunder, her original singer, lyrics and composition is Cai Guoquan, who is a heavyweight singer in the Chinese music scene in the 80s of the last century, but because of a traffic accident in 2002, he was left with a lifelong disability and could not take care of himself.

Third, if you want to do something, do it now. Say important things three times, early, early, early. The movie "Etude" from Taiwan tells the story of Ming Xiang graduating from university, and in order to leave a different memory for his youth, he embarked on a bicycle journey around the island. "Because there are some things that you don't do now, you won't have the opportunity to do them again," he said. Even if the whole world has abandoned you, don't abandon yourself. Yes, Zhang Ailing said: You have to be famous as soon as possible, if you come too late, the happiness will not be so happy. Why don't you do it now?

During the Anti-Japanese War, enemy planes often came to Chongqing for air raids. At that time, everyone cried for their fathers and mothers, and fled for their lives, only hating themselves for missing two feet. Once when the air raid siren sounded, Shen Congwen, then a teacher in the Chinese Department of the United Nations University, ran fart and urine, and when he passed Liu Wendian, Liu Wendian, who was the president of Anhui University and a professor of the Department of Chinese Literature of Southwest United University, was furious and scolded Shen Congwen: "I ran to preserve the essence of the country and teach "Zhuangzi" to students; Students run to save the cultural fire, but you damn it, what are you running with! It is said that Shen was speechless.

I'm running so hard to write these books!

As for the name of my book, it really makes me rack my brain. I have seen many patients who have had strokes, myasthenia gravis, Alzheimer's disease, advanced cancer, ...... They all seek death, cannot survive, have no dignity, and have no hope. However, as the old saying goes, it is better to die than to live. Then they had to stay alive. Actually, I, the poor old man, am not angry and dying? So, the book is called "Lai Alive".

It's the summer of 2016 and it's hot. I, Mr. Zhu Zhi, am like a fish on the beach under the scorching sun, lingering on my breath.