Chapter 268: Waking Up (4)

Sometimes it's quiet, as if the hustle and bustle has nothing to do with it, even if it's attached to the mediocre music and the bombastic crowd, it's quiet as if it's never been there. www.biquge.info We don't know how to love ourselves, we can't see the direction of the future, only the occasional moment of death, confirm that this road is lonely but absolute, in order to get rid of all the emotions on the verge of collapse.

When we want to understand ourselves and the importance of this world, the most lonely thing is that you can never reconcile with your true self, and despite the encouragement and seemingly kind reach around you, sobriety and self-esteem make it difficult for you to open your mouth and ask for help, and the person who seeks help will be looked at differently, called hypocritical and weak.

So - there is only silence.

I've already experienced all of this, and as for the "despair", I didn't think it should have come so early, but thinking about the almost 20 years of sunshine, it's time to experience something.

Spending a night washing away all memories of him with tears and leaving the scars of despair is a wonderful way to let go. Maybe it's too unforgettable, maybe it's too deep in love, too deep in the wound, I can only use this method.

Staring at each other with a faint gaze, both sides revealed a tacit message. One was deeply trapped, the other had already jumped out of the encirclement, only standing outside the trap with a faint smile.

I used to cruelly want to see the heart-rending scars of hearing the word "breakup", but now I suddenly experience that kind of despair, but it is beyond my ability to bear.

Or maybe my life is a complete tragedy. Wei and I, just like the short section between Jia Baoyu and Lin Daiyu, I may have received his grace in my previous life, and I am destined to repay it with tears in this life. In this way, when I am with him, I cry, after the breakup and as friends, and even more so now when the break is so complete.

For the first time, I really experienced what it was like to be dependent on the person who made you desperate when you were desperate. Maybe in this complicated world, I shouldn't be able to find poor people like me! Maybe I'm really dependent on him, used to the feeling of being led by him to the world, used to being protected by him with peace of mind, so when he gets tired and lets go, I will be disoriented, I can't find the way ahead, and I can't find the traces I have walked.

"Lovers often need to break to the ground to release each other." I believe in that, at least for me I should be the only one to let go!

Sitting in that car, in the car that was far away from his location, my eyes seemed to be closed and looking out of the window, dizzy, I didn't dare to blink, I was afraid that the moment I closed it, I would no longer be able to open it, and I would never see the figure of the person I wanted to see but shouldn't see. Suddenly feeling top-heavy, I don't know where to put my head is right, maybe there is no suitable place for him for a long time. At that moment, I lost my senses, I didn't know if I fell asleep or fainted, and no one noticed anything wrong with me. After all, I woke up before I reached the finish line, or I just fell asleep, but why did my cheeks feel so cold and my chest felt so stuffy? I don't know the answer, and no one cares to give me an answer at this point.

Getting off the bus, I stood in the crowd waiting for the bus, or waiting for someone, someone who would never pass me again. The 105 bus had arrived, I shuffled up with heavy steps, found a seat, and the cool breeze outside the window blew, and I fell asleep, and I was sure that I did not faint, because his figure appeared in my dream. When I opened my eyes, I burst into tears.

Everything was just a mistake, I got on the bus that went to school in the opposite direction, farther and farther away, farther and farther away, I didn't speak, I just cried. I think there will be a time when we reach the end.

I spent a full afternoon catching up on my sleep, while also spending an afternoon sketching out his outlines......

When I woke up, I didn't dare to sleep again...... So I took a shower, disguised myself again, and simmered away the maturity and vicissitudes. I was dressed very studently, a simple long sleeve, a pleat, a pair of boots, with such a simple dress to confuse the world, but also to deceive myself, I am a sunny girl, even if there are tears in the corners of my eyes. With my disguise in disguise, I entered the illusory world and decided to spend the night in the world of ables.

There, I searched for my past and present lives, and until I tested my past lives, I no longer doubted my ability to disguise myself. In my previous life, I was a fox, an animal that disguised itself the most, and it had a very nice name - Ling Ruoer. Maybe the fox is an animal that can't have love, because the "fox" and the "lonely" are so close that he and I have no intersection.

The reincarnation of several cities, I don't know where we have met, where we have lost each other, and where we have lost each other......

I don't want to hurt each other, although I was always hurt in the past encounters, at the moment of separation, "cherishing" each other's lives may be the best ending.

He left, leaving behind a sentence of "You're a good girl, you'll find a better boy for you." ”

I left, leaving a few lines of tears and a belated "You must be happy......

Perhaps the most urgent thing is the most beautiful scenery, and the most hurtful are the most genuine feelings.

When you are desperate, you wander without praying for any hope.

When you are desperate, you wander without any extravagance.

When you are desperate, you wander, even if no one cares

When you are desperate, you wander and don't come back to you.

When you are desperate, you will not be lonely and hesitant.

When desperate to wander, fearless and sentimental.

When you are desperate, you can wander no matter how much your emotions hurt.

When you are desperate, you don't stop looking back.

When you are desperate, you go wandering without concern and reverie

When you are desperate, the road is very long, and you have no scruples to wander.

When you are desperate, go wandering.

When you are desperate, pack your bags and wander abroad.

I want to say sorry to all of you, there have been a lot of things lately, and I hope you will support me a lot, alas!

To be honest, I've been through a lot, so let's talk about it with everyone!

In September, just this September, I had everything in vain, I was all in vain!

There are some things that don't fit to be said, and for the first time I'm feeling tired, what!

Alas! Not much to say, I recommend a book "You Used to Be All I Have", young love, budding feelings, that year...... We seem to be just right!

You always say I'm too reckless and temperant, but for me, you're my whole world.

Like once upon a time, we were each other's possession. (To be continued.) )