"What's wrong? I'm asking, about the deepest part of your memory. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info the most painful ...... Recall. ”

The battlefield with his eyes closed could not see Hakuriyu's expression, and even if he opened his eyes, he could only see Hakuriyu's blurry back, and there was no way to know his current expression

Therefore, the battlefield is not able to understand the current mood of Hakuriyu

Don't understand

I don't know what kind of idea Hiroyu had in mind to ask such a question

I don't understand why Hiroshi is doing this

I don't understand, I don't understand at all, I don't understand at all

Clearly......

Obviously, judging from the information obtained from those inexplicable conversations before, Hakuriyu should not have done these things

There is absolutely no way to do such a thing

The battlefield was puzzled and puzzled by this

But in any case, this is not the time to think about these things, and the battlefield Yuan, who has been silent for a long time, began to speak slowly

Because there can be no silence - in this atmosphere.

Even if you don't want to talk about it, you can't say no.

It has nothing to do with one's own will

Atmosphere is not something that can be distorted by the will of an individual

This is called formality

“…… Mother. ”

A place that is gradually beginning to take shape

Follow the steps to get started

"Mother...... Addicted to cult ......"

Indulge in a new religion of a bad nature.

She said so.

Give up all your possessions, even at the cost of debt, until the whole family collapses. Even now, after the divorce, my father is still living a sleepless life in order to pay off the debts at that time.

That should be the most painful memory of the battlefield, right?

Even if it compares to the weight it has lost?

Of course.

It's more painful over there, that's for sure.

There is no doubt that this is a matter of course

But

Really?

Really, is that all?

As if she was running away, she thought deeply, unwilling to continue digging

Know each other, understand each other, and share the same secret

This kind of behavior will gradually form an invisible chain that binds the two together, whether they are willing, happy or disgusted, there will be an invisible connection between the two

This is called bonding

It's enough, at this point, it's enough, you don't have to go on

Hakuriyu said to herself in her heart

It's unnecessary, it's superfluous, it's meaningless, and all of this has no value

Extra fetters ...... It's a burden

A person whose body is bound is like a caged bird, unable to soar freely in the sky

But

"Is that all?"

The body, involuntarily, reacted

The lips, uncontrollably, uttered words of incomparably cruel utterance

"But in that case, it's not a big deal at all. Freedom of belief is recognized in Japanese law. No, if I want to say, there is such a thing as freedom of belief that is a right recognized by human beings. What the mother of the battlefield hara believed in and prayed for, those are only a matter of methodology. ”

"So, it's not just that."

Bo Liyou, with declarative sentences rather than interrogative sentences, so asserts

"Say, what else."

Battlefield Hara was silent, frowning as if he was thinking about something, as if he had encountered the most incomprehensible thing, and bit his lower lip hard

"At home...... Mother brought a man who was a cadre of that religious community......"

"Cadres? What is he here for? ”

"Say yes...... Cleanse. ”

"Yes, purification, purification, so how do you do it?"

"Say it's a ceremony...... Will...... I"

The one who is always arrogant, who always lays a solid barrier with a cold face, who takes the first step to hurt others before he can be hurt, who always likes to speak violently, said in a voice full of pain

"To -- to be violent to me."

"Violence...... Does that mean violent? Or is it - in a sexual sense? ”

"Sex...... in the sense. Yes, that man, wants to ...... me"

As if enduring countless pains, Battlefield Hara continued

"Trying to violate my ......"

"Yes......"

Bo Liyu raised his head and looked up at the sky, tonight's sky, there is no trace of starlight, maybe it is the relationship between the increasingly serious environmental pollution, and even the moonlight has not been revealed, if it weren't for a few candles lit in the shrine, maybe you can't even see the other party's figure

Darkness, pure darkness, darkness without a trace of light at all, as if falling into the deepest abyss, where there is absolutely no trace of redemption, without the slightest hope, only despair

It was as if I was the only one left in the world, a feeling of loneliness that had been completely abandoned

The mood of the battlefield at that time is not like the sky at this time?

That unnatural strong notion of chastity.

Strong vigilance.

The sense of defense is high, and the awareness of attack is excessive.

All this seems to find an explanation.

There is also an overreaction to the shrine

In the eyes of the layman's battlefield, the shrine itself represents religion, and in this respect, it is no different

"The monk who doesn't follow the rules......"

"That's a Buddhist point of view, and different religions have different teachings, but if they want to infringe on you, do you mean that they are trying to do so?"

"I picked up the spikes next to me and hit him."

"What a brave boy."

"He was bleeding from his head and rolling on the ground in pain."

"So, saved?"

"Yes."

"Wouldn't that be nice?"

"But...... My mother didn't come to my rescue......"

Always...... All the time standing by and watching

Battlefield Yuan said lightly

"Not only that, but also blamed me ......"

"That's it?"

"No, mother, she ......"

"Because of the injuries of the cadres...... Have you taken the punishment upon you......"

At this point, Hakuriyu can probably guess how things are going

"And rightfully...... Because my daughter injured the cadre......"

"Yes. So whether it's property, a house, or land...... There is even debt...... My family was completely ruined. Completely ruined...... It's completely ruined, it's obviously like this, but the collapse continues. And going on......"

"Your mother, how is it now?"

"I don't know...... Probably continuing her faith. ”

"Do you feel pain?"

"Painful ......"

"Why is it painful, isn't it already irrelevant to her?"

"I want to ...... If there is no resistance at that time, at least ...... It's not going to turn out like this. ”

It shouldn't collapse, right?

Probably won't collapse.

"Really...... Is that what you think......"

"Yes."

"Really, is that what you think......?"

“…… Yes. ”

"If that's the case, then, Battlefield Hara-san, this is your wish."

"In any case, no matter how heavy it is, it is something you have to carry, and if you want others to share it for you, you can't do it."

"So, open your eyes and take a good look, Battlefield Hara-san."

"In any case, as an ordinary person, it is not an exaggeration to say that it is a miracle to see such a scene in modern times."

"Hahahaha!! Young man, although your words are very unpleasant, they are unexpectedly pleasant! The person who caused the miracle, you guy, really don't plan to be my Fengzhu! ”

"Haha, I'm a shrine maiden, Kanako, I can't do such a thing."

When I opened my eyes, what I saw in front of me was no longer the scene of Hakuriyu talking and laughing alone into the air

Teenager's side

God, dwells in heaven

In the empty air, floating

There is no frightening appearance, no deliberate use of one's power to create any miracles

Just exist there

Just exist there

There is a kind of loneliness and ...... that people can only look up blankly sacred

Inviolable, unapproachable, incomprehensible, incapable of conversing

[If there are two worlds, it is absolutely impossible to truly understand each other, and man and God are good examples. 】

But what if we have to understand each other? What if you don't do that? 】

[Then we need a medium, a medium that conveys the will of both sides to the two worlds, a medium.] 】

[I'm still a little different from ordinary shrine maidens.,Ah,It's not about gender.,Although the gender is different, it's also a difference between me and ordinary shrine maidens.]

Hakuriyu's words reverberated in Battlefield Hara's mind like a slideshow

Call out to God, communicate with God, and know God

To be relied upon by God and to convey God's will

…… and, incomparably reverent to God, unwavering faith in God

Is Hakuriyu different from ordinary shrine maidens...... Battlefield Yuan suddenly realized that although it was only on the surface, from the surface, it was possible to explore some of the essence a little

What Hakuriyu did was something that an ordinary shrine maiden would never have done anyway

From the very beginning, the boy talked and laughed with God without any scruples

In an extremely presumptuous way

Call God by name

Immediately, though, Battlefield noticed something else

"Ahh!!h

Battlefield Hara screamed loudly.

His expression was full of consternation, his body trembled, and he sweated for a moment

ps:Although I've explained it to a few readers in the book review area.,But let's talk about it here.,A few days ago, the author's area suddenly couldn't enter.,Rainbow customer service, modify mobile phone binding, contact editor, send email, or something for a long time.,I didn't solve this stupid problem until today.,I'll try to make up for the chapters that have been interrupted these days...... Well, as much as possible

PS2: This is the second watch, and there will be a second watch tomorrow