Chapter II

After the return of spiritual consciousness, Xie Yinan was reborn back to the age of 4, which happened to be the year of Xie Yinan's father's death.

To tell the truth, Xie Yinan is still blind, she can't accept that her soul in her thirties is gently and skillfully packed in the body of a 4-year-old girl, although that is what she once was, she has not been able to grow up.

What made her even more uncomfortable was that the day she opened her eyes was when her father was buried. In her previous life, sporadic memories told her that on the day of her father's burial, she and her three-year-old brother had held a crockpot in their hands, stumbled and frightened and went to the mountain to clear the way for their father. The adults sternly told her to walk from the door of her house to the east, after passing a large pond, climb up a small hill, pass the gate of the elementary school, walk more than 300 meters inside, go up the mountain, reach the front of her father's new grave, respectfully place it on both sides of the new grave, and then go down the mountain and return.

Be cautious when you say on the way.

In fact, Xie Yinan and her three-year-old brother didn't say a word on the road, not because they were tired, not because they were sad, but because they were afraid.

Yes, Xie Yinan only remembers the feeling of being afraid. What was she afraid of, she was afraid that her father would climb out of the new grave on the mountain at night to join her, because she clearly remembered that the day before her father died, she snatched the snack that her father bought for her brother, a small packet of spiced melon seeds, which cost 5 cents. Xie Yinan also pushed his younger brother, but he was so weak that he couldn't stand the strength of Xie Yinan's anger, so he sat on the ground with his little buttocks and cried loudly on the spot.

Xie Yinan is not afraid, just cry if you want to cry, it's good to faint from crying, save trouble! Because she is the only adult in the family. She can rest assured that she boldly bullied her brother, pinched his cheek, hit his thigh, and picked the inner skin of the thigh, so that the force is great, it hurts, and it does not leave traces. Xie Yinan tried it a few times, and it was true.

The old man is good when he speaks, every proverb!

But now, Xie Yinan looked at the busy and chaotic home not long ago, and it was deserted in an instant, and his mother and grandmother sat in the hall without saying a word, looking at each other coldly. The younger brother stood behind her timidly, as if this person he had always regarded as an enemy could protect his whole body at this moment, and he was clinging to each other tightly, and Xie Yinan could feel his younger brother tremble slightly.

He was scared. The child has a natural sensitivity to danger, and although he does not know what he will face next, he knows that danger is coming.

Xie Yinan knew that her mother would soon take her and her younger brother back to live abroad. Grandma, she is naturally unwilling, crying, scolding, slapping and rolling are all ineffective. 's mother is hard-hearted and bent on separating from her grandmother, Xie Yinan remembers that when her mother left in her previous life, she even separated a needle and a load of firewood from her grandmother.

At this time, Xie Yinan has completely calmed down and accepted the present, she never thought that she would have the opportunity to be reborn, she had many regrets in her previous life, she thought, she should find a way to intervene, reborn again, there is no reason to live as aggrieved as in the previous life.

's father is dead, Xie Yinan doesn't feel much, the reason is naturally that his father is patriarchal and has never ignored her, and the formation of any relationship needs you to come and go, unilateral feelings, yes, but it won't be Xie Yinan and her father. In the past 4 years, Xie Yinan has understood that he lives like a little transparent, and it is not an exaggeration to say that his father does not love his mother. What's more, even if Xie Yinan was reborn a few days earlier, knowing that her father would get drunk and take sleeping pills because of her mother and grandmother's Mao Dun, she had to think about whether she wanted to save her father's life. The timing was perfect for her to have to worry about how a 4-year-old girl insisted on sending her father to the city for gastric lavage, or snatching the bottle of medicine before the incident, and she didn't have to face a never-ending quarrel at home.

This is probably the only insistence that Xie Yinan has in this life and in his previous life combined, home, can be dilapidated, can be simple, and even stormy, but it must be peaceful. She doesn't like to quarrel endlessly, she is not used to smashing pots and bowls, even if Xie Yinan in the last life was very angry, she never quarreled with anyone in person, at most, she bit her lip.

There was a discrepancy in her memory, her mother did not propose to separate the family that day, she glared at her grandmother, pulled Xie Yinan and her younger brother into the room, and left her grandmother alone in the hall.

Before closing the door, Xie Yinan glanced at his grandmother through the crack in the door, the person in front of him was not too old, his face was delicate, square, and he could vaguely see the beautiful face of his youth. The red head rope in Xie Yinan's memory was replaced with strips of white linen cloth, neatly tied in the brown hair that had not yet turned white. This color was very common in Xie Yinan's previous life, brown is a color that elite white-collar workers on the streets and alleys particularly prefer, and this popular hair color is enduring and lasting.

But she knew that her grandmother's hair color was not specially smudged, she worked and dried it under the scorching sun all year round, from dark to light brown to dark brown, I don't know how many years.

Xie Yinan didn't sympathize with this not too old lady, she was a selfish person, and poor people must have something to hate, she looked at her not for anything else, but to see if she could coincide with the person who adopted the orphan in her memory. She was disappointed, Xie Yinan didn't see a little bit of love in her solemn face. This made her very embarrassed, and she didn't know if she wanted to stay.

According to the version of the previous life, if she stays to live with her grandmother, then she will be all pampered by her grandmother, and it will not be a problem to eat, wear and go to school, she knows that her grandmother has a little savings, and the young orphan who was adopted by her in her previous life, grandma took good care of her, if this young orphan is not mentally retarded, Xie Yinan will probably be jealous.

Her mother said that she was going out and told Xie Yinan to take good care of her younger brother, so she went away like a gust of wind. Xie Yinan wanted to tell her very much, she had not eaten a drop of water since she woke up from rebirth in the early morning to this evening, she was really hungry, why didn't she give something to eat, she didn't dare to expect that she would have the opportunity to be reborn again after starving to death, even if she did, she didn't want to experiment, the risk was too great.

As soon as Xie Yinan got up and stood up and was about to go outside to find something to eat, his younger brother grabbed the corner of her clothes in horror, looked at her with the expression of a stray dog, and his little eyes were full of tears, and he didn't want to fall off, Xie Yinan thought of Aunt Qiong Yao's Ziwei Yinshuang and other girls out of place, Xie Yinan knew that this younger brother's little appearance when he grew up could be called a disaster for the country and the people, more like a disaster than himself, but he didn't expect that he would have such charm when he was a child, and he couldn't help but hold his forehead and sigh, good Xie Yinan, it is worthy of killing the feelings of countless boys and girls, Receive their heart's secret thank you for the scourge!

Xie Yinan didn't want to pretend to be kind, in fact, she was too hungry to adjust the expression on her face, she asked Xie Yinan: "Why are you pulling me?" ”

"Sister!" The tears in Xie Yinan's eyes finally fell, and there was a heavy rain downpouring, and the White Lady flooded Jinshan Temple. Xie Yinan had a headache, she knew that crying children had candy to eat, but after living a lifetime, she had never relied on this skill to get any sugar, even marshmallows that were hundreds of times inflated. Of course, she would not have a good impression of this kind of behavior, in fact, Xie Yinan could not have the slightest affection for any young child. She hates young children, paranoidly hates them.

Because Xie Yinan has a weak heart, she is afraid of seeing herself pretending to be selfish in the eyes of young children. She knows that she is not hiding well, and she will inadvertently pour out the evil thoughts in her heart, she hates the hateful self, just like the witch always has to put on a heavy black coat, which is her weapon and her weapon. But in the eyes of young children, she was asked to abandon her weapon and disarm her gun without spending a single soldier, and she was naturally unwilling to like it.

"Sister, don't go." Xie Yinan's flood of tears did not stop, he even increased the strength of his crying, which had gradually changed from hard throat to sobbing, Xie Yinan had no doubt that he would be greeted with a howl in the near future.

"Don't cry, what kind of manly husband is crying, it's a shame." Xie Yinan scolded him mercilessly. If Xie Yinan just thought that her mother would marry a bastard soon, and since then she has been in dire straits in her life and wants to stay with her grandmother, then staying away from Xie Yinan is also the top priority. Reliving her life, she doesn't want to live for anyone anymore, even if it's a minute or a second. She has done enough for Xie Yinan in her previous life, and in this life, she just wants to live for herself.

"Sister," Xie Yinan held back his crying, looked at Xie Yinan with a sob, and didn't speak, but the hand holding the corner of his clothes was still clenched. Xie Yinan's heart softened instantly, she has never been a cold and hard person, Xie Yinan knew that she was soft-hearted in her previous life. In this life, it seems that I know.

She knew that her brother was just scared, as she had been in the previous life. She squatted down and hugged him gently, and told him: "Sister is not leaving, sister is just hungry and wants to find food, what about you, aren't you hungry?" ”

Xie Yinan nodded lightly in her arms, but still didn't speak.

"Then let's go find something to eat, shall we?" Xie Yinan asked him, then pulled him out of his arms, glanced at the water stains on his shirt with disgust, pulled his sleeves to wipe away his tears and snot for him, his red and swollen eyes and the tip of his nose did not hide his appearance at all, Xie Yinan secretly cursed in his heart!

The two got up and were about to go out, but they happened to meet the grandmother outside the door, Xie Yinan raised his eyes and found that his grandmother was holding two bowls of food in her hands, smelling the smell, Xie Yinan knew that what was in the bowl must be leftovers after the white event. This kind of food similar to the Northeast stew actually tastes very good, and the oil and water are enough, if you send a bowl to the people who come to help the white thing, everyone will say thank you happily.

"Grandma." Xie Yinan shouted first, looking at the food in her grandmother's hand with an aggrieved face, and realized more and more that her decision to stay was correct.

"Shuang'er is hungry, grandma has a hot meal, take it and eat it." Grandma is an old-fashioned person, her patriarchal heart is no less than Xie Yinan's father, just look at the names of the sisters and brothers, her name is taken by her grandmother, and her brother's name is taken by her father.

Twins? That's what two boys meant.

Xie Yinan wanted to roll his eyes at the sky, grandma, your wish is destined to be frustrated.

"Thank you, grandma, let's go to the church and eat with grandma." Xie Yinan knew that her grandmother and mother had already divided the Chu River and Han realm, and neither side would set foot in each other's territory, so she thought that she would start cultivating a relationship with her grandmother now, so she decided to go to the hall to eat with her grandmother without thinking about it.

The upper hall is actually the lower hall, and the house is a very classical quadrangle structure, with black tiles and red bricks. The church is not, it collapses. It was simply enclosed with a piece of cloth or glue that could not be distinguished, and the field was behind, and it was dusk at this time, when the fragrance of rice was overflowing.

Soon, the summer harvest will begin. Xie Yinan looked at the small white flowers blooming on the green leaves outside, and his heart was happy, a bumper harvest, that is hope.