Chapter 20: True Integration
"Big brother, I'm not a child, it's good that you are busy with yourself, but if you can't do it, I'll rest at home tomorrow. "She doesn't like them to take care www.biquge.info of her like a child, and she doesn't like them to care about her too much." It makes her feel useless, and it makes her feel like a burden.
"Yue'er, the last time you decided to stay, we already said that you are not a burden to us, and you don't need to have any worries. As long as you grow up peacefully, we are most happy to experience the five of us, including the past months, all the good things that we have never had. We all know that you are special and that you can take care of yourself, but you should not forget that you are different from you in the past. No matter what it is, you have to try to accept it, to like, if you can't accept it, you can say no, we will respect your opinions and choices, but such rejection is not accommodation, nor coping, but follow your heart. ”
After experiencing the last time he picked up waste and built a shed, Yueyao reminded him. From that time, he knew that he had to let Yue'er really integrate into them, otherwise the more they gave, the more she would be depressed and guilty anyway.
Then he said: "In our eyes, you are our youngest sister, no matter when and where, we will always worry about whether you are doing well, this is instinct. From the moment you wake up, you are our family, connected and inseparable. We don't need to care, we don't need any reason, we just want to be nice to you, just like you feel for us. ”
She understands everything the eldest brother says, and because she understands, it makes her feel more and more uncomfortable, even if she is her past self, she has never had such family affection. Because it's too pure! It's not that mother and grandpa don't love her, but because she's not their only one. In addition to her, they have other people and things they care about, and here, in their eyes and hearts, the first place is always her. She believes that even in the future, they will do so.
She always thought she had treated them as family, but no, she didn't! She gave them advice, taught them martial arts, told them about the existence of the Purple Key, and all she did was give them trust and repay their favors. All along, she was weighing gains and losses. They are right, real family members do not distinguish between each other, do not care about gains and losses, and do not measure how much or too little affection is given.
It was she who was wrong, and she was outrageously wrong, and all the calculations in her heart made them cautious and dilemma about her. She won't be like this again in the future, she can't do much, but she will do her best to protect them, grow with them, support, tolerate, understand, and respect them.
She looked at the eldest brother who was squatting in front of her with a calm and sincere expression, as well as the second, third and eldest sisters standing beside her, and choked up: "I know, it was my fault before, and I won't do this again in the future." We are family! ”
"It's okay, Yue'er, if only you could think clearly. Do you want to go up the mountain or stay home tomorrow? Hearing Yue'er say this, his nervous mood relaxed, he was really afraid that Yue'er wouldn't be able to get out of the horns.
"Big brother, I want to go into the mountains with my eldest sister." As soon as she finished speaking, she heard a "poof", looked back in the direction of the third brother, and knew that she had been teased again. I couldn't help but chuckle out loud.
"Yue'er stay with me in the afternoon. I've just finished eating, so I'll rest here with her. Big brother, you can go and get busy. I'll call you if there's something. ”
"That's good. Yue'er, you follow your eldest sister, Jia Ze and me in the afternoon, Jia Xuan is still a separate group. Zhang Jiahang saw that Yue'er should go down, got up and beckoned the two younger brothers to take their things and go inside.
After Zhang Yueyao cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks and put the bedding under the big tree to tidy up, she let Yue'er, who had already eaten, lie down, covered her with a small quilt, and coaxed her to sleep. She took the embroidery work and started to work again. There won't be any beasts here, but it's better to watch from the sidelines.
Half-asleep and half-awake, Zhang Yue'er suddenly heard the eldest sister's eager shout, she opened her eyes vigorously and saw the eldest sister who was crying anxiously, and thought something was wrong, and couldn't help but say anxiously: "Eldest sister, what happened?" ”
When she opened her mouth, she realized that her throat was hoarse, her head was a little heavy, and her chest was uncomfortable.
"Yue'er, you woke up, you had a fever when you fell asleep, did you feel anything uncomfortable?" She was really afraid that Yue'er's fever would cause her heart disease, and every time Yue'er had a minor illness in the past, they would be worried.
"Eldest sister, don't cry, I just have some discomfort in my throat and a little headache, and everything else is fine."
Seeing that Yue'er's eyes were half-closed, she didn't breathe as before, and there was no sweat on her forehead, Zhang Yueyao was a little relieved. wiped his tears, stabilized his mind and said: "Yue'er, can you take out the medicine, I will decoct the medicine for you now, you lie down first, and then ask the eldest sister to get up and drink the medicine when the medicine is cold." ”
"Okay, eldest sister, you wait a minute." She breathed slowly, took out the medicine in the space, and then said carefully: "Big sister, don't call them big brother." When I drink the medicine, I'll be fine. ”
"Okay, Yue'er, the eldest sister doesn't call them. Don't talk too much, close your eyes and get some rest. ”
After watching Yue'er lie down again, Zhang Yueyao made a fire and boiled medicine, and carefully wiped Yue'er's palms and feet with the hot water that had been boiled before. After wiping it, he probed Yue'er's forehead with his hand, and the high fever on his head subsided a little, but he still didn't dare to take it lightly. It's noon now, and the eldest brother won't come back until Shen Shi, so they must keep watch over these two hours. Fortunately, I asked Yue'er to bring the medicine with me last time.
Before that, Zhang Yue'er completely sobered up, and the eldest sister fed her medicine in a daze, and she really didn't have much energy to speak at that time. It's a lot better now, and my body isn't as heavy as it used to be.
"Yue'er, you're awake, how are you now? Still have a headache? ”
"Sister, I'm much better. Don't worry. Zhang Yue'er reassured.
Zhang Yueyao looked at her carefully again, and when she saw that she was fine, she hurriedly brought the cooked porridge. "Yue'er, drink some porridge first, and then eat some shepherd's cabbage. Just sit down, and the eldest sister will feed you. ”
Zhang Yue'er didn't refuse, she was indeed a little hungry when she got up to sleep. So with the eldest sister's hand, I drank half a bowl of porridge and ate a few bites of fried camellia, which finally made the eldest sister let go of her worries.
"Eldest sister, I'm awake now, and I don't have a fever, you go and get busy, just stay around here, I'll be fine."
"No, Yue'er, let's wait for them here." At this time, many people have entered the mountains again. Although this place is not easy to spot, however, she had lit a fire before, so I have to say otherwise. Besides, she can't let go of Yue'er's situation now.
Zhang Yue'er saw that she was worried, and she no longer persuaded her.