There are heavy buildings to lead the way, there is no danger all the way, and it is like walking in his own back garden, so that Lin Chujiu doesn't know what to say. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Seven days later, Lin Chujiu and Chonglou walked out of the forest and onto a path.

Chonglou pointed in the direction of the north, "That's the way back to Dongwen's capital," his arm moved slightly, and pointed in another direction, "That's the way to the Demon Palace, where are you going?" ”

The two directions seemed to give Lin Chujiu a choice, but in fact there was no choice.

Lin Chujiu hesitated for a moment and asked weakly, "Can I choose neither?" "She doesn't have to be subject to the doctor system now, she can be regarded as half a free body, and she doesn't want to go back to the capital. Of course, she didn't want to go to the Demon Palace and face the heavy building.

"What? Want to go alone? Chonglou's words were bitten very hard, and he said them very slowly, obviously angry, and still very angry.

"I ......" Lin Chujiu hesitated for a moment, but still gritted his teeth and said: "I didn't think about going to the Demon Palace, and I didn't plan to go back to the capital, especially now." ”

"Why?" What did Xiao Tianyao do? Let Lin Chujiu be so disgusted to go to the capital?

Lin Chujiu didn't directly answer Chonglou's words, but tried to pull out a smile that didn't care, "Do you know, why did I fall into that tree forest?" ”

Without waiting for Chonglou to speak, he replied: "It was because I wanted to go back to Beijing by myself and go on the road alone, so that the enemy in the potential shadows saw the opportunity and set up an ambush to kill me." You know, in order for me to leave safely, the people who protected me died in front of me one by one. Because of my willfulness, because of my damn unspeakable self-esteem and inferiority, I killed them. ”

As he spoke, Lin Chujiu's face was covered with tears, and the tears without sound made people sad to watch.

"I've killed so many people, how can I ...... How to have the face to go back. The more Lin Chujiu spoke, the more he blamed himself, and finally he couldn't hold it anymore, squatting on the ground, low his head and crying, "They didn't have to die, it's all because of me, I killed them, I really don't have the face to go back." ”

She wasn't a coward, she wasn't cowardly, but she was really afraid, afraid that when she returned, she would face the accusations of her dead guards, and the accusatory glances of their families.

"It's me who is willful, it's me who doesn't understand, and it's me who killed them. Dozens of lives were lost because of them, they, they ...... Originally, I didn't have to die. Lin Chujiu bit his lip and tried his best not to let himself cry, but the effect was not good.

These days, she has been condemned and disturbed by her conscience. These days, when she closes her eyes, it's the picture of the tragic death of those guards.

These days, she's been hypnotizing herself to forget about it and stop thinking about it, but she can't.

It's okay in the woods, the huge pressure of life makes her have no time to think about it, and when she walks out of the woods, no matter how much she hypnotizes herself, she can't say that she is innocent.

She is guilty, and she is the culprit who killed them.

"I regret it, I really regret it. I shouldn't have willfully asked to go back to Beijing alone, and I shouldn't be arrogant enough to think that I should protect myself. In the end, I survived, but my protector died. My willfulness has killed so many people, and I really don't have the face to go back to Beijing. ”

"If it weren't for my willfulness, if it weren't for my anger with Xiao Tianyao, things wouldn't have turned out like this at all."

"I killed so many people, how can I have the face to go back and face them, how can I ......"

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The more Lin Chujiu cried, the more sad he became, and the more he cried, the greater the self-blame and guilt in his heart. Chonglou stood aside, trying to step forward to comfort her several times, but his hand reached halfway and took it back.

He doesn't seem to be comforting!

Moreover, he does not seem to be qualified.

After waiting for a long time, Lin Chujiu didn't stop, but there were signs of crying, Chonglou finally couldn't help it, and said with a dark face: "Ahem...... Don't cry, it's noisy. "The people who protect her are all dead, Lin Chujiu will feel guilty and blame himself, he can understand, but as for all the faults, do you blame yourself?

Besides, they were not killed by Lin Chujiu, they were not strong enough to protect Lin Chujiu. It's good that they are not held accountable for their dereliction of duty, why does Lin Chujiu blame himself?

"Isn't it just a few guards, their duty is to protect you, if they don't protect you, they die at the hands of the opponent because of their own lack of strength, what do you have to do with it?" When a few guards die, they blame themselves and don't dare to face it, how can such a woman be Princess Xiao?

"It's not the first time someone has died in front of you, what are you sad about?" I didn't feel that Lin Chujiu was soft-hearted before. There are not a few people who died to protect Lin Chujiu before, although Lin Chujiu was sad, he didn't blame himself to the point where he didn't dare to face it.

Lin Chujiu shook his head and choked up: "That's different, that's not because of me, this time it's all because of me, they could have not died." "This time it's all because she and Xiao Tianyao are angry, her willfulness.

"What's the difference? Isn't it all bad to protect you? Lin Chujiu, the patience of this seat is limited, you get up for me and wipe my face clean, this seat has no spare time to accompany you to cry here. ”

It's just crying, a group of people are tossing half-dead to find Lin Chujiu, she is good, she doesn't want to report the news when she is safe, but she doesn't dare to face it because of self-blame and guilt, it's useless.

"You only think about the dead, do you ever think about the living? Lin Chujiu, don't be too selfish. Chonglou saw Lin Chujiu hugging a ball, crying like a little pitiful, and a nameless fire burst out of his heart for no reason.

"A living person? Who? No one in the Lin family cares about my life or death, they wish I died early. Lin Chujiu was also tired of crying, and after crying, she didn't feel so uncomfortable in her heart.

She is not a weak, kind woman after all. Although I blame myself, although I feel guilty, although I blame myself for all my mistakes, I will not die of excessive grief.

She was selfish, she blamed herself, she felt guilty, she was uneasy, but she didn't think about resisting her life.

"The only person alive in your eyes is the Lin family? Idiot! "Chonglou has the heart to strangle Lin Chujiu.

Isn't this woman always sharp and talking? Now what's going on? Every sentence is so angry that I can't wait to slap her to death.

"That's right, and Xiao Tianyao, the king of Xiao. However, it doesn't matter to him whether I live or die, he can marry another man when I die, and he doesn't have to keep a festival for me. Lin Chujiu wiped away the tears on his face, and pulled out a smile that was even more ugly when he cried, "I have been missing for more than 20 days, Xiao Tianyao's people have not found me, they must have thought that I was dead, and it is not good for anyone to return to the capital at this time." Instead of causing trouble to people, it is different to return to the bridge and pass by the road. ”

What are you going to do when you go back?

Back in the capital, it's just troublesome......

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