A lot of things are not as I thought, originally I thought that the relationship with Hong Ye would get better and better, but I was surprised to find that since that night, my relationship with her suddenly became tense, which I didn't expect.

When I work during the day, she and I have a relationship as colleagues, and we can talk about things at work, which can be said to be everything, everything, and there is absolutely nothing abnormal in the eyes of outsiders, and even I sometimes have delusions.

But when we sat on the bus after work, we suddenly became strangers to each other, and there was no topic to talk about, and sometimes we could say a word or two, but soon it was over, and the routine of playing cards in the evening was also stopped.

Every time Hong Kui called her to play cards, she always shirked that she was tired and wanted to rest.

Hong Ye is no longer as enthusiastic about me as before, she used to call me to eat enthusiastically when she opened the meal, but now she doesn't, she always sits there silently and eats alone, many times, it is Hong Kui who comes to call me to eat.

And I often walk to the balcony after dinner, stand for a while, then wash up and go to sleep!

This made Hong Kui wonder why, and said that the two of them suddenly became nervous!

Actually, I don't know why Hong Ye suddenly seems to have changed as a person? At home, she doesn't like to talk, and she is cold and silent to people, isn't it? I can't imagine Hong Ye's mood at the moment, and this mood, she has been maintaining, it seems that she is deliberately keeping a distance from me, this way of approaching a cold war has always made me feel very uncomfortable, and I have always been blaming myself.

The more she is silent, the more I think about it, the more I guess, Hong Ye and I are just friends and colleagues, no matter how good it is, it is just a good friend and a good colleague, but our behavior has already exceeded this relationship, I know that this kind of unclear thing, especially for a girl who is usually more conservative, is unacceptable and will be responsible.

Thinking of this, I began to feel guilty in my heart, but everything happened, how can I make up for it?

I stood on the balcony and looked up at the starry sky at night, a chaotic celestial river meandering from north to south, until the distant sky, the stars near the celestial river blinked mischievous eyes and flashed, as if mocking me.

"You haven't slept yet?" Hong Kui stood behind me at some point.

I turned my head to look at her, she was wearing lilac pajamas tonight, her long hair was scattered like a waterfall over her shoulders, she looked so petite and cute.

"Not yet, I can't sleep a little bit!" I responded.

"Well, it's a little hot tonight, so it's going to rain, right?" Hong Kui said lightly.

"The weather forecast says there will be heavy rain tonight!" I said.

"The weather forecast is still relatively accurate, and from my life experience, every time it rains heavily, it must be unusually hot and stuffy, so stuffy that people can't breathe, just like tonight." Hong Kui took a few steps forward, walked to the edge of the balcony and said holding on to the railing.

"It seems that you are still a very careful girl and know how to summarize some rules in life!" I said with my hands behind my back and a smile.

"Your analytical ability is still very strong, and you can find my strengths at a glance, but although I can summarize, there is one thing that I have not summarized for a long time." Hong Kui said.

"What is it?" I asked.

"It's my cousin's heart!" Hong Kui hesitated for a while, but finally spoke, "Let's talk about it, I can feel what happened between you and her, otherwise my cousin wouldn't have suddenly changed overnight!" ”

I thought she was going to ask some academic questions, but it turned out that she was asking her cousin, in fact, this question is also the question I am most afraid of communicating with people now, I raised my hand and pressed my forehead, thought for a while, and said: "Actually, I don't know, we both saw her sudden change, I think to find out the reason for her sudden change, it is better for her to say it herself!" ”

"I've asked a few times, she won't say anything, she will shed tears when she asks, this is not her style, although my days with my cousin are not very long, but I still know my cousin very well, I guess, since she refuses to say, I will ask you, you must know the ins and outs of the matter, the cause and effect!"

"What if I say I don't know?" I asked rhetorically.

"Impossible, my cousin's reaction must be related to acquaintances, otherwise with her character, she would have told everything about everything, in this family, the people my cousin is familiar with, except for me, is you, since I am an uninformed person, then you must be the one who knows, maybe it has something to do with you!" Hong Kui looked at me and said a little aggressively.

I was silent for a long time, I didn't say anything for a long time, and I didn't know where to start.

Hong Kui waited for a long time, but finally couldn't wait, "Why did you choose to be silent?" Shouldn't we help her solve my cousin's current problem? ”

I shook my head.

"If you want to help, why don't you help?" Hong Kui asked.

I was speechless again.

"If you choose to escape, you'll only hurt your cousin!" Hong Kui said.

"I can't help her!" I said.

"How do you know if you don't do it?" Hong Kui asked rhetorically, "Let's go, I'll take you to see her, and you can explain things clearly in person." ”

Hong Kui suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me away.

"I'm not going!" I tried to shake her hand off, but she grabbed it tighter.

"You are a man, you have to dare to take responsibility when you do things!" Hong Kui said angrily, "If you don't take responsibility, I will look down on you, bully the little girl, what kind of man, tell you the truth, in fact, I know what happened between you." ”

I looked up at her in astonishment and said in disbelief, "You? What did you say? Insult? ”

"Don't think I don't know anything, living under the same roof, I can find some clues even if I am a fool, not to mention that I am still a more careful girl, in fact, I have discovered some secrets on the sofa, I am also a woman, I also understand many things, I advise you to be honest and tell your cousin clearly, otherwise, I will make you regret it for the rest of your life!" Hong Kui suddenly let out cruel words.

She said it firmly, not like a joke!

"Alright! I'll go! "I compromised.

Hong Kui pulled me to the door of the master bedroom, and then let go of the hand that grabbed me, she knocked on the door, there was no response inside, Hong Kui knocked again, then the door of the master bedroom opened silently, the door opened, a cold air rushed to the face, it turned out that Hong Ye stayed in the room, turned on the air conditioner, the moment the door was opened, the cold air in the room poured out, and the sudden cold air made me shudder.

"Cousin, what's the matter?" Hong Ye asked.

"It's okay, it's so hot outside, we want to come in and rub the air conditioner." Hong Kui said with a smile.

"Then come in and sit down!" Hong Ye saw me, and lowered his head indifferently, as if he hesitated whether to let me in.

"It's inconvenient for me to go in, right?" I hesitated.

"It's okay! The weather is so hot, how nice it is to have air conditioning! After Hong Kui finished speaking, he took my arm and went in.

Hong Ye looked at Hong Kui's appearance and didn't stop it.

Hong Kui pulled me in, found a place to sit down, this is the second time I entered the master bedroom, I feel that the last time I entered the master bedroom is still vivid, after sitting down, a cool feeling hit the whole body.

"Cousin, you're so cool here, can we rub the air conditioner here tonight?" Hong Kui said mischievously.

"You guys? Tonight? One night? Rubbing the air conditioner? Hong Ye muttered in surprise.

"That's right!" Hong Kui said affirmatively.

"How's that going to work?" Hong Ye seemed to come back to his senses, "You are in this business, he can't do it!" She pointed her finger at me.

"Why not? I don't have an opinion, I don't dislike it, what are you afraid of? Didn't you two sleep together? Hong Kui's words broke the sky, and his words were amazing, so shocked that Hong Ye didn't say anything for a while.

"Hong Kui, don't talk nonsense, when have we slept together?" Seeing that Hong Ye didn't say anything for a while, I hurriedly retorted.

Hong Ye came back to his senses from surprise after hearing my words, "That's right! Little girl, tell you to talk nonsense, tell you to chew the root of your tongue! She raised her hand to hit Hong Kui lightly, and said angrily.

Hong Kui said with a smile while being beaten and resisting: "Cousin, don't fight, you are deceiving yourself by beating me, the secrets on the sofa, you can see for yourself, it is all real evidence, it tells me, what happened to you, I am also a woman, I also understand!" ”

Hong Ye stopped beating lightly and said suspiciously, "What did you say?" ”

"Cousin, you should let go of yourself, don't dwell too much on this matter, young people are more open now, you don't know, just take me as an example, in fact, I have been-"

"What's going on?"

"It's already the same as you! And I've talked about more than one boyfriend, so many! Hong Kui stretched out four fingers.

"All four—"

"Yes!" Hong Kui nodded and smiled, "If I were you, wouldn't I have gone crazy a long time ago?" ”

"What do you say? You-" Hong Ye was speechless in surprise.

In addition to Hong Ye, the most surprised person is me, I really didn't expect that the little Hong Kui has experienced such a colorful love life, if she didn't say it herself, I'm afraid I can't dream of it, this is not an era compared to the green years when I was in college, although I am only two years higher than her, which makes me really embarrassed!

"Everything I said is true, if you don't believe it, you can call my current boyfriend and ask if it's clear!" Hong Kui said with a smile.

Suddenly, I only heard a crisp sound of "pop", which woke me up in contemplation, I raised my eyes, but saw Hong Ye slapped Hong Kui fiercely, and Hong Kui fell to the ground.

This slap was really powerful, and I saw a few red finger prints instantly appear on Hong Kui's face.

"How can you be so irresponsible to yourself?" Hong Ye said angrily.

Hong Kui covered his face, with tears in his eyes, and looked at Hong Ye with a surprised face, I saw that the atmosphere was a little wrong, and I had a feeling of wanting to dissuade me, and a feeling of wanting to slip away.

"What girl in college hasn't had a few boyfriends now? Is it that you are too feudal and conservative, like a lady of all people, self-assured, do not make friends with people, and your eldest cousin is much more open than you, no wonder you still can't find a boyfriend? Beat me back, I hate you! She wept and opened the door and ran out.

The sudden change made me stunned, not knowing what to do.

Hong Ye suddenly realized something, and quickly chased after her, and when she ran to the door, she turned her head to look at me and said, "What are you still doing there?" Hurry up and help me chase it! ”

Hearing Hong Ye's shout, I realized that Aoi had run out of the house, and I didn't care about anything, so I ran out with Hong Ye, but when we ran out of the house, Hong Kui had already disappeared, and it was even more difficult to find in the dim night, so we had to walk out of the community quickly, and when we met people, we asked if we saw a girl in purple running over, and many people waved their hands and said they didn't see it.

We walked around and couldn't find it, anxious like ants on a hot pan.

I thought to myself, where can this Hong Kui run in the blink of an eye? It's okay if nothing happens, but if something happens, it's a big problem!

"It's all my fault! The spur of the moment hurt her! Hong Ye said anxiously: "But don't anything happen?" ”

"Don't blame yourself, it's important to find someone first!" I comforted her and said, "Hong Kui just ran out, she won't run too far, if I guessed correctly, in order to avoid us, she must have chosen a remote place with few people!" Hong Ye, think about it carefully, which places are more remote, and which places Hong Kui has been to and are more familiar with? ”

Hong Ye looked at me and nodded, "There are fewer passers-by going north, it's relatively remote, and my cousin is also very familiar with that place, will he go there?" ”

"Let's go, let's go and see!" I took Hong Ye's hand and hurriedly looked for it, I suddenly felt that Hong Ye's hand was a little stiff, she seemed to be hesitating about something, but it was important to find someone, I didn't care about it!

Luckily, we met a kind middle-aged woman who said that she had just seen a girl running past her crying.

Hong Ye and I glanced at each other, and the girl was most likely Hong Kui, so we looked in the direction that the middle-aged woman had just pointed out.

"Cousin is right!" Hong Ye suddenly said, "I am a feudal and conservative person, I don't dare to face it when I do things, and as a result, I hurt the people around me, my sister is much better than me, and I am not good!" It's all my fault! I deserve to not find a boyfriend for the rest of my life! She began to wipe the tears from her hands incessantly.

Watching her keep blaming herself, I felt a little unbearable.

I was about to say a few words of comfort to her, but suddenly she spoke again.

"It was all my fault that night! It's my blood surging for a while, I shouldn't take the initiative to approach you, I know you don't have me in your heart, just treat me as a good friend, but I suddenly have you in my heart, your shadow lingers in my mind, and I don't know why I am so obsessed with you? I don't know why I suddenly became like this?

In fact, I have been restraining myself, hinting that I need to be calm, but I still can't hold back, I know that even if something happens, it can't change your opinion of me, if something happens, you have to be with me, what's the use? Your heart is not in my body, and it will leave after all, so it is better to be a hundred and stop thinking about it! ”

After listening to Hong Ye's words, I turned my eyes to look at her, looking at the woman in front of me, I suddenly had a new understanding of her, I found that all my previous thoughts and guesses were wrong, not because she didn't like me, deliberately kept a distance from me, deliberately seemed cold, deliberately silent, but she was afraid that I didn't like her, but because of some things I was forced to live with her, she thought it was unfair to the other party, it was very cruel, How painful it is to live with a person she doesn't like for a lifetime, so she chose to be silent, chose to escape, chose to give up, and would rather be unhappy than let the other party live in pain.

I finally understood why she blamed herself before saying that she deserved not to find a boyfriend, and she was all about others, but she never thought about herself, and never considered how to find her own happiness, whenever a friend or roommate competed for the same role, she always chose to give up, how could she be favored by the opposite sex?

I held her hand tightly, hoping to ease her pain and self-blame.