Chapter 16: Monologue of the Heart
Liu Hongxia put a piece of fresh squid on her plate for Sister Zhang Lina, looked at her, and said in a very straightforward tone and seemed to be very euphemistic: "I want to talk to you about that Section Chief Feng, you won't mind, right?" Let's talk as if we were sisters! ”
Zhang Lina's fair face suddenly blushed, but she quickly said with relief: "It's okay, what do you mind?" As long as something is not wronged, you should have the courage to face it... Sister Liu, just say whatever you want, you're right, we're sisters, there's nothing ...... between us."
Liu Hongxia took a sip of the cool draft beer and asked, "Lina, if someone says that I have that abnormal relationship with Section Chief Feng, will you believe it?" ”
Zhang Lina pondered for a moment and said, "I won't believe this...... I don't believe anyone would say that! But Section Chief Feng has bad intentions towards you, that's his wishful thinking! ”
Liu Hongxia looked at her with complicated eyes. "Why do you trust me so much? Knowing people and faces but not hearts, who knows who is like? ”
"Sister Liu, this evaluation of you is not my opinion alone, in fact, I have only been in the finance department for a few days? Some of your things are what they told me...... The name of the person, the shadow of the tree, all the people who know you in the factory, none of them have a bad evaluation of you. Especially in your handling of the relationship with Section Chief Feng, there is no one who does not admire. Everyone knows that Section Chief Feng chased you in the past, and after becoming your top boss, he still wants to force you to submit to you with both hard and soft....... if you change to another woman, he will take you down. But you have been guarding your innocence, which is really impressive...... So, you're a woman worthy of respect, and even if someone says something wrong, I won't believe it..."
Liu Hongxia's heart stirred like porridge, thinking: I am almost not a woman worthy of respect, and I am being talked about behind my back like you. But she only sighed softly and said, "I'm about to disrespect myself, and I've been around the trap all day, maybe one day I'll fall into it...... Lina, did you want to be like this in the first place? No way? ”
Zhang Lina lowered her head, fiddled with the draft beer glass in front of her, and said, "Sister Liu, how can you be the same as me?" You are a person with a lot of self-control, but I don't have it, otherwise I wouldn't have been taken down by him so quickly! ”
Liu Hongxia stared at her and asked, "Lina, I want to ask something that shouldn't be asked, is there any element of love in this kind of relationship between you and Section Chief Feng?" ”
Zhang Lina smiled bitterly and said, "Sister Liu, I shouldn't have any feelings, maybe it should be for him, right?" A man is an insatiable animal, and he will adore the bodies of all beautiful women..."
"But I'm not a beautiful woman, I know this, so why does Section Chief Feng still pester me like this?" Liu Hongxia was indeed puzzled by this question, and she wanted to get a reasonable answer from her mouth.
Zhang Lina frowned with a good-looking brow, thought for a while and said, "Sister Liu, although your appearance is not beautiful, you are a woman with a beautiful temperament. Is there a good saying: people are not cute because they are beautiful, but beautiful because they are cute, and you seem to confirm this sentence! Maybe he'll really like you, right? He wants to get you and wants to get me, it will be two different feelings, right? ”
"Lina, how did you get along with him in the first place? You don't mind saying that, do you? Mind it! ”
"What's there to mind about? That's what happened anyway! Zhang Lina took another sip of draft beer, and said with a confused look, "I am a girl who has only finished junior high school and does not have any diploma, neither I nor my partner have a decent job, and everything after we get married has to be created from scratch." Later, I was arranged to the financial department of this garment factory through a lot of effort, and I did this good job that many people envied. But soon after coming, Section Chief Feng made it clear that letting you come in does not mean that you will grasp it, I will give you a one-month probationary period, stay if you do a good job, and leave if you don't do well. Sister Liu, you know, there is no iron rice bowl now, and it is up to others to decide which unit to employ, if you want to keep you, you will keep you, if you don't want to keep you, no one can interfere with others. I know that my stay is in the hands of Section Chief Feng. He also hinted to me more than once: Your good and bad work are all his words, and you know the implication......"
Of course, Liu Hongxia understands that situation, which is similar to her current situation, so at this moment she deeply understands Zhang Lina's unspeakable hardships. She said: "Of course I can imagine this, he not only hints at you this, but also enlightens you about a lot of things that you can't think of..."
"Yes," Zhang Lina said, "he often enlightens me like that, saying that your body is worth something, or is your future worth it?" I face his greedy gaze every day, you don't know, my new husband and I are very in love, and the thought of betraying him makes my heart feel as uncomfortable....Knowing that I had my first relationship with Section Chief Feng half-pushed, I didn't completely decide to betray my husband. One day, the last day of the probationary period, and when I got off work in the evening, Section Chief Feng called me to his office......"
Zhang Lina took another sip of draft beer and continued:
"As soon as I entered the office door, he slammed it back. This time, his words were not so tactful, but pointed out two ways to me straightforwardly: if you want to stay in the financial department and continue to work, then take off ~ pants immediately, if you don't want to take off ~ pants, then don't come to work tomorrow, your probation period has arrived, and the factory doesn't need such a talent like you! I was panicked and didn't know what to do... But then he made a move, pinned me to the bed in his office, and savagely ripped off my pants....... and I was struggling...... It wasn't until his thing inexorably entered~ that I had no choice but to push half and half to stop! Sister Liu, maybe you don't know this kind of relationship yet, with the first time, the second time you don't care very much, just like that, I became his lover, and at that time my husband and I were married for less than half a year......." Saying this, Zhang Lina began to drink with sad eyes and confusion.
"Have you thought about marrying him?" Liu Hongxia also took a sip of wine and asked.
"I didn't think I would marry him. He also knew that I would not marry him, so he did not ask for anything other than the body, as long as he was happy as he called, he was satisfied! ”
"Does your husband know?" Liu Hongxia asked.
"Of course I don't know, how can anyone want to know about this kind of thing?" Zhang Lina said worriedly.
"But sooner or later he'll know, have you thought about it? What happens when your husband finds out? ”
"Thought, but don't know what to do! .......Let's talk about it, let's mix it up for a while! In short, everything has happened, it is irretrievable, it is useless to think too much, let it be fate! ”
Liu Hongxia also nodded helplessly: Yes, what can you do if you don't rely on fate? It's hard to be a woman, and it's even harder to be a professional woman.
"Sister Liu, you invited me to drink today, wouldn't it just be to listen to me?" Zhang Lina had a hunch that she would have something very important, and she would never invite her because she wanted to know about the bad things about herself and Section Chief Feng.
"There's something I want to tell you about something that's scratching my head... Of course, it has something to do with Section Chief Feng. The situation is similar to the situation when you were bullied by him..."Liu Hongxia stared at her eyes and said hesitantly.
Zhang Lina looked at her in surprise and asked, "Could it be that you also begged him and were coerced by him?" ”
"I've got a bit of a handle in his hands. Well, there was a slight error in my account, and he found out. It's big or small, and once he speaks out, the consequences for me are severe. He gave me two days and today is the last day. also laid out two paths for me...... Just like you, I'll have to answer him this afternoon after work! ”
"But how can I help you with something like this?" Zhang Lina asked puzzled.
"That's right, as long as I can avoid today, I will have a way to solve this matter tomorrow. I thought, can you get her pestered tonight? Then he'll postpone pestering me for a day! ”
"Sister Liu, I understand what you mean. But I'm afraid I won't be able to do it today. My husband just came back from a business trip for half a month in the morning, and I have to deal with my husband after work today and all night, and he still doesn't know about me and Section Chief Feng, and I have to continue to hide it, so I can't let him see any of my flaws.......I'm really sorry, Sister Liu! ”
Liu Hongxia was disappointed for a while, but she said: "It's okay, I'll find a way again!" But in fact, she knew there was no way out.
Zhang Lina looked at Liu Hongxia apologetically, explained closely, and said, "Even if my husband doesn't come back today, I'm afraid it will be difficult to ask him out." Actually, I've already gone to make an appointment with him this morning. I'm worried that he will ask me to accompany him at night, and my husband is at home again, so I want to ask him out during the day, so that his desires~ hope can be vented, so that he won't harass me at night. But when I asked him out, he was indifferent and told me that I didn't want to do something special in the past two days! Maybe that's what he's talking about, right? According to this inference, he is already ready, and he will not let you go today! ”
"Lina, if tonight, I really lose ~ to him like you did for the first time, then you won't be jealous?" Liu Hongxia herself didn't know why she was asking this.
Zhang Lina smiled relievedly: "I don't have vinegar to eat." He and I are in a relationship of mutual use, he needs my body, I need his work to protect me, it's as simple as that. We're not even lovers, and every time I accompany him to do that, I don't have a grudge in my heart, and I think about my husband in my heart......"
Liu Hongxia shook her head in pain: "This scoundrel is really insatiable......"
Zhang Lina said thoughtfully: "Maybe he will treat you... Could it be an ingredient of love? ”
Hearing such words, Liu Hongxia unconsciously trembled.........