Usually, after saying a wrong sentence, the human mind will make up the series of imaginary brains of "if I don't have it" in frustration.

Miraculously, I didn't do anything at the moment, and I began to regret it.

If I hadn't been here, if I hadn't seen her, if I hadn't left the people around me and walked into the crowd with heavy steps.

Does that mean that things don't develop beyond my control?

It's a pity that there is no prophet!

When I felt a large blank space in my head, the sound of music in my ears pierced my ears.

I looked at the charming girl on the stage with a blank look.

Her black hair turns colorful in the light, and the aura she exudes attracts everyone's attention. Maybe my gaze was too close. Her swaying body paused, her misty eyes blurred with alcohol for a few seconds. After focusing, he was completely stunned. The nearest boy had been staring at her fiercely, and now when he saw that the opportunity had come, he hooked the corners of his mouth and kissed her on the neck.

I immediately felt the urge to rush up and slap her twice, but I stopped between the trembling palms.

It wasn't because she viciously pushed the boy away first, but because her dull gaze was like a cat that had fallen into the mire. I hate myself for being dirty.

There were waves of noise in the unknown crowd around her, louder than her dusty "sister".

And so the last of my last remaining expectations and prayers were shattered by this familiar voice.

The stubbornness and insistence of climbing the cliff even after exhaustion slammed her ground to the ground when she carefully called out to me "sister" for the second time.

Then a lot of butterflies flew out of the fleshy body.

All I was left with was a soulless body.

Satsuki moved her body in a panic, wanting to come up to me from the stage. I shook my head and involuntarily took a step back.

She saw that I had a tendency to go, and she did not hesitate to risk falling off the stage. Jumped off the top and fell to the level ground without any suspense.

Lying on his stomach in the most embarrassed position, the stiletto heels on his feet seem to break if he breaks slightly.

I simply didn't look at it, and when I turned around and was about to leave, I saw Wu Ya's unbearable face looking at Xiaoyue's location lovingly.

Maybe in the eyes of onlookers, the first thing I should do is care about Satsuki's condition.

Instead of letting her hold my hand as if she was pleading, she would only shout: "Sister".

I turned my head and looked at her white knees blooming with bright colors, and said with a blank face, "Do I know you?"

She was stunned stupidly, her expression changed and changed sharply, and finally slowly let go of her hand.

I turned my head again and walked out of the bar without looking back.

I'm afraid that no matter where I stay, even if I say one more word, I will have the possibility of rushing over and tearing her to pieces.

But I can't do that, because she's not my little moon. My Satsuki doesn't look at me sadly with that face decorated with makeup.

She will always be that clean, spotless child.

From the gray vision to the peculiar colors of the road at night, he stopped, panting and hunched over and exhaled heavily.

As if in this way, when the brain is deprived of oxygen, it can think of nothing.

Otherwise, how can I force myself to face this fact before me?

Wu Ya chased after me, her eyes stopped worriedly, and then patted me on the shoulder comfortingly. Seeing that I was squatting steadily on the ground, there was no possibility of falling, so I said for a long time: "Wang Qi, go see Xiaoyue!" ”

I looked up at her fiercely, squeezing a few words out between my teeth, "She's not Satsuki." ”

"Wang Qi!" Wu Ya called me helplessly.

In fact, she didn't ask me about my condition first, but when I asked me to see Satsuki, I knew that I should know how sad Satsuki would be inside!

Until she suppressed her anger and said righteously: "Wang Qi, you can't just think about yourself being uncomfortable, what kind of person Xiaoyue is usually, you know best as a sister." Now that she has become like this, no matter what the reason is, you Wang Qi can't escape it. What's more, she is Xiaoyue, and she can't tolerate anyone else except you in her eyes. Where did you come from to accuse her? ”

I got up and grabbed Wu Ya's arm, shaking it like crazy, "Is that my fault?" Did I make her like this? You don't know anything, so why point fingers? ”

"Yes, I don't know, but if it were me, no matter what she did, the first thing I would do would definitely not be to dislike her like a chicken."

I shook off her hand vigorously, and the demon in my heart seemed to be piercing my heart with a sharp object.

I couldn't breathe because it hurt, so I could only shout, "Yes, I just dislike her, I dislike her to the point that I'd rather the indulgent person be myself than her." ”

Wu Ya's originally stiff expression cracked, and then she rushed over and hugged me tightly without warning.

The palm touched the back of my head, and her ears were full of her thick nasal voice, but she forced herself to calm down and said, "Wang Qi, we can't mess up, Xiaoyue is still waiting for us." She said that she was not afraid of death, but she was afraid of breaking your heart. Such a sister, I can't ask God to worship the Buddha, how can you leave her? ”

I shook my head in despair, and after my body was fixed, I didn't cry or make a fuss, like a dead man.

Wu Ya, who was frightened, was frightened, covered her mouth and cried.

I let go of her arms, and instead pulled her undeniably to the bar, with only one thought in my heart, to take Satsuki away. Whether it's a bar, a city and a family that is physically and mentally exhausted.

Satsuki is like a part of my body, I hate her, I like her, I share my joys, sorrows and sorrows with her and take them back. Always treated her with caution and put her things first. In fact, in the end, what I am most afraid of is that she will become the same person as my aunt.

I always thought that I was doing well, and that Satsuki would be more mature and strong after going through family changes.

It turned out that the most unfortunate person was me, and the next time I covered my ears and stole the bell, I would trap myself in the fairy tale I had woven and revel in.

She obviously gave a lot of hints, but I actually let things develop, and complacently saw the torture as a tempering for her growth.

What am I?

Back at the bar, I was in a panic at the flickering lights.

The scene quickly disappeared into the nightlife, and no one would worry about it.

Along the edge of the crowd, I looked around and saw Satsuki sitting at the wine table on the right, her slender fingers holding a beer bottle and pouring it into her mouth.

The girl who came with her couldn't take it by it, snatched the beer bottle from her hand, and shook her limp head and body twice, barely holding her dizzy head with her palms.

"Okay Lin Yue, don't drink it, my dad came here for the first time and gave me two ears, I didn't even lift my eyelids and continued to play. What's there to be sad about? Besides, didn't your sister take you badly? ”

Xiao Yue pulled the corners of her mouth and smiled charmingly, "Don't compare your dead father with my sister." ”

The girl rolled her eyes, her body moved rhythmically with the music, and she replied obviously perfunctorily: "Yes, your sister is good, no one in the world is as good as your sister!" ”

Satsuki didn't answer, picked up the beer bottle on the edge, and continued to put it in her mouth.

The girl saw that she couldn't control it, so she simply drank with her, and after grunting her stomach, she raised her eyes suspiciously and asked, "Then what are you drinking now?" Don't ask for a favor or something? ”

"How to get there? She won't believe anything I say now. I can only drink bottle by bottle, and before I get to my stomach, maybe she'll come back to me! ”

"Do you want to be so masochistic?"

"You know what? She is my sister and Wang Qi, she will definitely be reluctant to leave me here! Xiao Yue paused, choked up, looked at the wine bottle stupidly, tears shattered from the eye sockets and "snapped" and dripped on the transparent glass.

I strode over and snatched the wine bottle from her hand without saying a word, Wu Ya followed behind at a loss, she thought that after I compromised, I would gently coax Xiaoyue.

Unexpectedly, it was such a stiff face.

Satsuki was stunned for a moment, then unexpectedly pushed me away, using a lot of force, causing her to take several steps back.

She roared weakly in a strong nasal voice, "Why are you coming back?" ”

The girl who was chatting with her just now saw this kind of troublesome scene, and walked away in fear.

I froze where I was, looking into her eyes as clear as the ocean. No longer moving, never thought that the person who called me "sister" in a sweet voice and would throw himself into my arms when he was happy would one day push me away.

The thoughts that surged out at that moment finally triumphed over anger.

I dragged my heavy body into her and whispered, "Satsuki, let's go home!" ”

Xiao Yue couldn't stand up with a smile after hearing this, pointed to her nose, and asked me in disbelief, "Go home?" Does my Lin Yue have a home? Do you tell me I have one? ”

"Satsuki!" I called out to her in exhaustion.

She suddenly lay on the table, staring at the beer bottle in front of her like stagnant water, as if talking to herself, "If I had it, why did I live in your house when I was a child?" Why doesn't my grandmother like me? Why should I follow her to live this life under the fence? ”

Satsuki confided in the resentment that had accumulated in my heart, and I didn't even dare to step forward to comfort her.

Because there is no way to refute everything she says.

Then she slowly straightened up from the table and looked at me sadly, "Why did she want me to move out since I've been living in your house for so long?" Sister, why didn't you keep me? ”

My panicked reaction at this time was like that of an undistracted actor, holding the corner of his clothes tightly and shaking his head unconvincingly.

Xiao Yue smiled, and the tears that had been stopped fell again, "Sure enough, you are also a burden to me!" ”

Wu Ya rushed out, she still said righteously as she accused me just now: "Xiaoyue, how can your sister be like this, she sees you as more important than herself!" ”

"Really? So why didn't she deny it? Has she forgotten that I will believe whatever she says? ”

I looked at Satsuki's expectant eyes, the lies that popped up to my lips, and choked up alive in my throat.

Wu Ya shook my arm anxiously, "Wang Qi, you say!" ”

I stayed in place like a puppet, listening to the countless voices around me, but Xiaoyue's lonely laughter was the clearest.

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