Ahhh The author is a big idiot, I turned off the computer after writing yesterday and didn't publish it!

I just remembered that yesterday's one hasn't been posted yet.

I'm sorry~~ Shame crawls away ~~~

She Xinyue thinks it's really a good weather today! As she got off the plane, she stared at the gray sky that represented the unique style of T City, and couldn't help but laugh out loud. The city she hasn't lived in for long now feels like home.

It's good to live alone! Carefree. She Xinyue took back her carry-on luggage and walked out of the airport.

She didn't go anywhere, but went straight home. She was not familiar with this road, but she still insisted on reversing the bus a few times, and finally came back.

This community is called Mingyue Sea, and the irony is that there is not even a puddle in the community, let alone the sea. She Xinyue pursed her lips, the vision of choosing to settle down is really bad, not far from here there is a new steel mill, and the towering chimney keeps spitting thick gray smoke day and night, which makes She Xinyue feel like she can't breathe.

The most depressing thing is that the community is not a high-rise, there is no elevator installed, but her home is on the top floor, and she needs to go up layer by floor, I really don't understand how she has lived her life in the past ten years.

Everything needs to be re-accustomed, but it doesn't matter, it only takes a few days, and the most she has is time.

Carrying a bag, going upstairs, opening the door, entering the house, all in one go, just when she was about to close the door, she was shouted: "Sister She, you are back!" ”

She Xinyue paused, she lowered her head slightly, a strand of hair would cover half of her face, squeezed out a big smile and turned her head: "Yes, I just came back." ”

"How? Is Yunnan fun? What souvenirs did you buy and came back? The young man who was greeting She Xinyue outside the door opened the door on the other side while laughing.

"Oh, I bought some, I'm a mess, I'll give you some to try when I'm done." She Xinyue breathed a sigh of relief, she wasn't too familiar, but she was okay.

"Hehe, then I'm welcome, I haven't been to such a far place, it's good to try their specialties, thank you Sister She first." The young man scratched his head a little embarrassedly, and before he could say anything, he was dragged into the house by his wife, who had already heard the movement.

The hostess of the door glared at She Xinyue dissatisfiedly, she didn't mean to hide it at all, her husband had already dragged her into the house, but she didn't close the door and go in, but scolded her husband loudly as if she was deliberately saying it to others, but when she heard She Xinyue's ears, there was always some meaning of scolding: "I've never seen a woman in my last life, right?" When you see a mother, you will have a spring, and you have so much to say to a woman who can be your mother a few years older, what's wrong? Lack of motherly love? ……”

She Xinyue was a little annoyed, but she couldn't say anything, this kind of shadowless thing plus a woman who was nervous and extremely unconfident in herself, She Xinyue's mouth not only lowered her character, but also made this woman retort excitedly like a chicken blood.

Closing the door and scolding the woman who was as noisy as five hundred ducks scolding the street, the world was finally quiet.

The dust inside the house is surprisingly much, and it is no wonder that the city is already heavily polluted, and no one has cleaned it up for more than a week, which is very unbearable.

She Xinyue resigned herself to her fate, she didn't have time to tidy up, so she went out to buy a lot of bleach first, went home and found a few old clothes to change into, and then tore off a bath towel to wrap her hair, and then began to clean.

The edges and corners, a trace of hair, and a single stain were cleaned.

It wasn't until late at night that She Xinyue straightened up tiredly, didn't care about resting, carried a large pile of garbage, threw it into the trash can downstairs at night, and went home to wash and rest.

She Xinyue sat on the plane for several hours, and packed up the housework for several hours non-stop, so tired that she fell asleep as soon as her head touched the bed.

Early the next morning, She Xinyue woke up early, she made a simple but nutritious breakfast for herself while humming a song, she is no longer young, she must learn to take care of her body, and a healthy life starts with breakfast.

Well, the weather is nice today, She Xinyue thought as she ate breakfast, hoping that from today onwards, she could be freed from that rigid, bureaucratic job.

How can it be said that resignation is such a serious matter, She Xinyue finished breakfast, took out the resignation letter she had prepared a long time ago, and went out.

When she passed by the trash can downstairs, she didn't notice that the bag of garbage she threw down yesterday had been opened and rummaged through, and there was a lot of missing things in it.

District Organization Department, She Xinyue is the first time to come, and I hope it will be the last time. She explained her intentions, put down her resignation letter, and left without the surprise of everyone looking at monsters.

It didn't take long for everyone in her original unit to know that She Xinyue had officially resigned. Yan Keying's heart is very blocked, even if She Xinyue is a kind, she hasn't come to work for so long, Yan Keying covered for her, only said that she took annual leave, but she didn't expect that Ya really did what she said!

Well, the Tao is not the same, everyone has resigned, and she doesn't even want to come back to say hello, and she stabs it directly, what else is she reluctant to do? Anyway, in a unit like theirs, there are many people and few people who can't show it at all, so let her go.

Since then, She has joined the ranks of unemployed homeless people, staying at home most of the time, only going out in the early morning or late afternoon, soaking in the Internet, and wandering around. I don't know how easy life is.

Think about it, in such a big city with millions of people, but no one knows you. As long as you want, you can cut off all the connections, be in the middle of the city, be a happy marginal person, and enjoy a different pleasure in life.

Some people are afraid of this loneliness and would rather wronged themselves than desperately integrate into this society and prove their social value, so why bother?

She Xinyue took a sip of beer and sat cross-legged on the chair on the balcony, the night breeze blowing slowly on her, such a night, she couldn't help but be intoxicated.

How many years have passed, those former selves, overlapping together, finally converged, fermented, brewed, and integrated into the current her.

I don't know which philosopher said that there is no future for those who have no past, because your past guides you in the direction of progress, or fall, or rise up, lose the past, how can you prove who you are?

If it was possible, She Xinyue thought to herself, she would rather be a person with no past.

The past is too painful, painful for her to choose to forget at any cost.

She Xinyue raised her head and finished the wine in her hand, and threw the can into the pile of empty cans at her feet. Her eyes revealed unprecedented vulnerability, those familiar and strange far and near clear and blurred faces, gathered in front of her eyes, opened and closed her mouth, not knowing what to say, She Xinyue's eyes drew a tear, her hand, stretched out to another bottle of wine