【Chapter 30】Long time no see
Such a concise eight words, tempered and simple, the feelings to be expressed, but it is difficult and difficult. If it's a friend, "long time no see" is the joy after the reunion. And if it is a lover, to be exact, a former lover, then what this word wants to talk about is probably only the sadness that has been separated for a long time. "It's been good lately" is even more entangled, if she is doing well, I'm not happy, if she says it badly, I'll be even more unhappy, just so entangled, for a moment as if time has stopped, if it weren't for the "I'm doing well" on the other end of the phone, what about you? It's a good life, your girlfriend is beautiful and considerate, cherish it." Zhang Ruoxuan's words seemed to be unintentional, but I really didn't know how to take the following.
With our familiarity for so long, I actually felt a sour taste from this sentence, but then I shook my head again and threw the thought out of my mind. Just kidding, people also have someone to accompany you, how can you be jealous of the people around you? If it's true, why break up in the first place.
"Calling you today, I don't mean anything else, and I'm not entangled, I just want to tell you something, do you know Zeng Chun's recent whereabouts? Or do you know him? Do you know his past, his present? Although we have been separated for more than half a year, I really don't know who you are by your side now, but I still don't want you to regret it in the future...... "I feel that there is still a lot to say
"Enough, I'm tired enough. Don't talk to me about this anymore, we've broken up, it doesn't matter how I am with you, no matter how he is, I'm willing. Zhang Ruoxuan said this sentence emotionally, and then turned off the phone with a snap.
"Good, good, good! All your business is none of my business, and I don't want to care, from today onwards it is none of my business whether you live or die, okay! He said a quick "goodbye" and hung up. Because I was afraid that if I hit for a second longer, I would be uncontrollably yelling at her, which was really stupid, blinded by lard. Her lukewarm attitude made me uncomfortable, and I wanted to ask her if the two years of relationship she had been together day and night couldn't match Zeng Chun's words, a hug. At that moment, I felt a little bit of hatred in my heart, hated her determination, hated her for not caring, hated that she didn't care about what she said to me. If it weren't for the love that was too deep, how could there be hatred now? I don't feel where I am anymore, I just want to say that I'm very tired now, very tired. I really want to find a bed to sleep in, the kind that can't wake up for a long time.
I have woken up in nightmares countless times, and in my dreams, Zhang Ruoxuan and I were separated from life and death. So, no matter how much I cared, I couldn't think of her anymore. I suddenly told myself fiercely that we had separated, and everything was the same. So, I'm me, she's her, there's no unnecessary care, and there's no need to worry about what will happen to her.
Every time I wake up and think about it, my heart aches. The scene in the dream broke my heart. Even though there are many times, I still think of her, and I silently flash her figure in my heart, but as long as I think of the sadness and embarrassment in my dreams, I will stop rationally.
I think of the future I had planned with Zhang Ruoxuan. We are so young and immature, we eat with the same spoon, listen to music with the same earbuds, drink from the same bottle, and even discuss whether we want a boy or a girl in the future. When I was young, I was happy to think that I would live with the person in front of me for a lifetime, so I expected everything in the future, and I was sure that it would come true. It wasn't until many years later, when we experienced the pain of growing up, the changes in love, and when we walked through thousands of mountains and rivers, we would suddenly wake up to the fact that so many years of time were just fairy tales made by God to lie to you, just to have a belief to support you to believe in love.
I suddenly remembered that I fell in love with an old song that year, and the singer sang affectionately, walking in the cold wind of the winter night, and the scattered trampling was a dream. How about the moment of loneliness, sure that you have loved me; Stay in the cold breeze of the winter night...... Love tears blurred my eyes, and I couldn't help humming that song on the side of this deserted street. The clammy cool breeze blew on the body, and there was a slight coolness.
I wrapped my clothes around the outside, struggled to struggle with my heavy eyelids, and quickened the pace of going home, and the night I got home, I didn't sleep.
The next morning, with two big dark circles under my eyes, I came to the hospital with my mother to pick up my father, and all the procedures for discharge had been completed, so I walked out of the hospital directly with my father's things, around the corner of the hospital. I actually saw a familiar person. A person I have always remembered and never forgotten - Zhang Ruoxuan.
How could she be in this hospital, I suddenly had this sentence floating through my mind.
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