After only half a year of junior high school, Zhu Feng had a serious disgust with school under the suffocating love of his mother. In fact, this description may not be accurate, because what Zhu Feng hates is not to draw knowledge from books, he actually loves to read books, what he really hates is the so-called classmates who are in the rebellious period of youth, speak and act impulsively, are completely reckless, and are accustomed to using words as a sharp weapon to poke people's hearts and lungs.

The word youth and ignorance has become a talisman for their despicable and casual harm to others. He didn't want to talk to them anymore, and he didn't want to sit on pins and needles in the classroom in front of the teacher's strange gaze. Because his mother sent him to school every day and was ridiculed, he fought with almost all the boys in his class, coupled with the plummeting academic performance and unwillingness to obey the teacher's discipline, Zhu Feng had already changed from an unknown middle school student to a bad student who had a headache when the teacher saw him, and he frowned when he mentioned him, as if he was not a living student who could be educated well, but a toad who squatted on their instep but could not immediately step on it.

He really didn't want to go to such a school for a day, so later he had a showdown with his mother and wanted to drop out of school and stay at home, with a very tough attitude. Zhao Xia has been dependent on her son for many years, and she has long been accustomed to seeing her son as her future dependence, and reluctantly agreed to her son's intention not to go to school when she tried to persuade her son to no avail. Zhu Feng, who started his truant career, soon got acquainted with a group of young people in society, smoking, drinking, fighting, and being proficient in everything, he fell extremely fast, and he was used to disguise. No matter what kind of ruffian and hooligan he looks like outside, he always sticks to his mother when he returns home, coquettish and cute.

Zhao Xia doesn't know anything about her son's affairs outside, she is a typical Chinese housewife, she has learned the three from the four virtues in the feudal remnants of thought, in addition to showing a strong dependence on her son psychologically, in other things, she is actually very obedient to her son, such a strong love for children and a mother who only raises a character is the biggest disaster in Zhu Feng's life. When he slid step by step towards the abyss of depravity. He was supposed to be his closest relative, but he didn't notice it.

Midsummer. Y City is a northwest city, the temperature difference between day and night is very large, it is noon at this time, and the wide asphalt road is wide. Under the sun's father-in-law's sparing effort. It becomes shiny and shiny. It seemed that it would be roasted in the next second, and it was half-dead and chirping on the slightly wilting tree, and there were few pedestrians on the road. No one is impatient. At noon on the hottest day of summer, I come out under the sun to suffer.

Zhu Feng actually didn't want to come out, although it was very hot in the building, the old squeaky electric fan at home could still be used at the top. The reason why he didn't want to stay at home and would rather endure the heat than come out was his mother.

originally thought that if he didn't go to school, Zhu Feng would be able to live a quiet life. But Zhao Xia is too good at nagging, recently Zhu Feng followed a group of friends in society, going out early and returning late every day, Zhao Xia rarely saw him, and even deprived him of the time to say a few words on the way to school. Zhao Xia thought that her son was flustered, and finally when her son went home for dinner at noon, she took his hand and chattered non-stop. From the embarrassment when he wore open crotch pants and didn't remember, he talked about how to learn professional knowledge well, how to be filial to his mother and other unnutritious nonsense in the future.

In fact, this is not the first time Zhu Feng has heard his mother mention how difficult it is at home. In the past, he would still feel sorry for his mother, and he would also aspire to grow up in the future to be a good talent, earn money and honor his mother. But saying too much like this is like Xianglin's sister-in-law crying for his unblessed child, which makes Zhu Feng, who already has a rebellious mentality, feel bored. Later, when Zhao Xia spoke more, Zhu Feng said, "I begged you to give birth to me, and I will push it back", choking Zhao Xia's face like a marquee. However, Zhu Feng was young at that time, and he still had a sense of humanity in his heart, although his temper came up, he couldn't help but say a few words to his mother, but he still couldn't see her sad and sad, and then he simply couldn't see her out of sight and was not upset, even if he was roasted outside in the sun at noon, it was better than listening to his mother's magic voice at home.

He sat under a poplar tree, smoking a shovel of inferior cigarettes, and kicked the tree in annoyance, trying to drive it away from the chirping of the tree. The place where he hangs out most often is near the old school. He is very familiar with this realm, and the possibility of being bullied is small, coupled with mixed society, he recognized a very prestigious big brother, and beat his classmates who used to laugh at him crying dad and calling his mother. Therefore, as soon as he appeared near the school, basically his former classmates would walk around when they saw him, so that Zhu Feng, who always felt that he couldn't raise his head before, had a happy feeling of turning over and being the master of the house, and always thought that he would come to the school from time to time to show off his might.

So although the school is now on summer vacation and there is no one, he is still willing to go around here, so boring Wow, in one afternoon, Zhu Feng has smoked half a box of cigarettes and eaten five ice creams, and he is so bored that he doesn't know what to do.

His group of fox friends and dogs are all comfortably blowing electric fans at home, taking a nap, and he is the only one hanging out alone, which is really boring.

Just when Zhu Feng seriously considered whether to stay here, when the fragrant roasted pork belly, or when he went home to listen to his mother's nagging, a girl who wore a red dress and looked very beautiful passed in front of him.

He was only thirteen years old at the time, and he had a precocious heart. I haven't been in school for more than half a year, and under the influence of his fox friends and dog friends, I have watched a lot of colored CDs, and the naked men and women in the picture are entangled in the ambiguous sound, which makes him feel red and heartbeat when he thinks about it, and his physiology reacts naturally. He also wanted to find someone to try when he couldn't help it, and there were a few little sisters who mixed with them, and their style was quite open, and there were not a few who could come once anytime and anywhere. But Zhu Feng didn't know whether it was because he was young and his body was not yet mature, or he thought that these women were too dirty, he instinctively didn't want to touch them, until now he was actually a boy, and he was ridiculed by his group of friends I don't know how many times.

It's just a little more knowledgeable than teenagers of the same age. He still has zero experience in chasing girls, he doesn't think that when he meets a woman like his mother, he can still dream about his future married life, if every woman is so virtuous after marriage, he still lives his own life.

But today, seeing a passionate, beautiful and mature girl, Zhu Feng finally understood that he liked this type. He stared greedily at the girl's beautiful face, recalling the passionate movements in the color movies he watched. The body reacted immediately. I couldn't help but whistle at the beauty.

The distance between the two is not close, and Zhu Feng deliberately wants the other party to notice him, and the whistle is so clear that half the street can hear it. The girl in red on the opposite side was of course no exception. The beauty of the girl in red. It is a kind of beauty between youth and maturity. Zhu Feng had never seen this type of girl before. He was surrounded by a ring of nose rings and dressed in fancy clothes. The little sister who smokes, drinks and swears and has a higher voice than him, at first glance sees the new type, and the attraction to him is fatal.

The girl in red on the opposite side obviously saw him too, there was no way there were only the two of them on the whole street, Zhu Feng waved his hand as if flattering, the girl in red couldn't pretend not to see it if she wanted to. Such a young child, he didn't learn well, and played a hooligan whistle on this strange woman on the street, especially when he looked at his eyes so obscenely, staring directly at her ****. It is impossible for any woman not to be angry when she encounters such a thing, the girl in red scolded: "Mao hasn't grown up yet, so if you don't learn well, what kind of tutor?" After speaking, he turned his head and walked away quickly.

No matter how common it is, I believe that any woman who encounters someone blowing a hooligan whistle on her and looking at her with perverted eyes, will scold one or two sentences, and there are those who are bold and bad-tempered, and the scolding may be many times worse than this sentence. But Zhu Feng, who lacked father's love in the process of growing up, listened to this sentence in his heart.

He remembered what others had scolded him when he had finished a fight. The teacher who once taught him, the parents of the students who were beaten, the mother who hated iron and steel, and the neighbors with disgusted faces, their expressions were different, and the motives for scolding him were also different, but the meaning of the words was surprisingly consistent, all of them thought that he should not live in this world, his father died early, and he was a mongrel who had a mother and no father.

The three big words of no tutor hovered over Zhu Feng's head, shattering his reason with a bang. The girl in red, who fled far away, perfectly blended with the teacher's impatient face and her mother's eyes that hated iron but not steel. Why did they dislike him? Why should they look down on him? When he makes mistakes, no one is willing to really stand up and discipline him, always stand on the moral high ground with a sense of superiority, accuse him of his mistakes with righteous words, and teach him a lesson as a matter of course, but no one helps him analyze how he was wrong, where he was wrong, and how he will change it in the future. In their eyes, he is the garbage of this society, a superfluous tumor, even if he dies today, except for his mother, who will really cry in pain, others must be celebrating in their hearts even if they don't say it on their faces, right?

Zhu Feng, who is still immature in mind, but entered the society early, the little seedling he hated in his heart has grown up again, he hates all those who look down on him, he hates him too much, but he always teaches his mother a lesson.

Since then, Everest has been wandering around the school at the same time, trying to see the girl in red again. Finally one day she appeared again, still wearing a red dress, calling friends, wanton, smiling, you can see from her face that she lives very comfortably, she enjoys her current life, compared to herself who is as mediocre as bean sprouts, Zhu Feng's heart is full of powerlessness and inferiority. He and her seem to be two extremes of life, one is happy and sunny, endearing, and the other is gloomy and deep, unpleasant. All the qualities of the girl are what Zhu Feng wants but does not have. What he can't get is the best, he wants to get this girl in red.

Why can't you be like that? And why can't I get someone like that? He is gloomy, he is self-defeating, he has all kinds of bad habits, so he is always around him who is indifferent to everything, he wears heavy makeup at a young age, and he dresses like a little sister like a grass chicken, and others will not even look at him.

Zhu Feng, who is only thirteen years old, doesn't understand that for a nineteen-year-old girl, he is still just a minor child, who will fall in love with this child?

Zhu Feng began to follow the girl in red in a planned way, he wanted to understand her life in all aspects, and wanted to understand her as a person, so unconsciously, he followed his father's old path and stared at the girl in red for two months, and he was finally discovered by the other party.

Zhu Feng stood in front of her with a little shyness and uneasiness, his face red and red. This time he was suddenly blocked in the middle of the road, and he was not mentally prepared at all. After a long day of hard work, there is still no way to say frankly that I like you. One of the girl's male friends was impatient at first, such a small child didn't learn well, and followed a big girl all day long. He has been seen more than once, it is the girl in red who has always wanted to save him some face, and is unwilling to teach him a lesson in public. But this stinky boy has no intention of restraining at all, and many of her friends know that she has a little admirer, and basically take this matter as a joke, which makes several suitors of the girl in red feel very embarrassed. That's why someone couldn't help but stop Zhu Feng in public, wanting to give him a big facelessness.

A teenager is at the time when his skin is at its most tender, and if he does it himself, he will definitely not come again in the future, which is good for everyone. When Zhu Feng was still trying to express his youthful feelings for a long time, the boy friend slapped it down, followed by another slap, and in front of the public, Zhu Feng stood still and couldn't move, allowing the other party to slap him more than a dozen times, warning him not to follow the girl in red in the future, and then pulled everyone away without looking back.

Zhu Feng himself is fragile and sensitive, even if the onlookers around him don't know him, he feels very embarrassed. It is often said that love and hate only exist between a thought, and how deep the love is, how deep the hate is, and the depth of the love will be responsible. Without saying a word, he returned to his room, Zhu Feng fell on the bed, grabbed the quilt and covered his head, he had only one thought in his mind, he couldn't get her, he must destroy her and never let others get it.

He grabbed a can, opened it, and the room was filled with the smell of formalin. Inside was a swollen human hand, which belonged to his father. For a while, when he was in a bad mood, he fell asleep with this man in his arms, as if his father had never left. Now he can be regarded as the most fragile time in his 13 years of life, his cheeks are slightly swollen, and he can see people's palm prints clearly if he carefully distinguishes. He needs to draw some strength from his father to support him in his journey. (To be continued.) )