I happened to go to the mall and found that this year is particularly popular to give my mother a pendant, so I bought one for my mother under my daughter's mentions.

My mother was very happy and said, "Ning Dai, it's the first time you've given me a gift when you're so old!" ”

I was very depressed: "Are you praising me? ”

My mother opened the gift box with a smile and was shocked: "Is it still a phase?" This pony's pendant is exquisite. ”

When my daughter heard this, she immediately came to her senses, jumped down from the sling chair and went straight to my mother shaking her pendant and shouting: "Grandma, grandma, you see, I have it too!" Mine is KT's! ”

My mom hesitated and asked, "Huh?" How is hers a cat? I remember that there were puppies and ponies, why don't I remember that there are cats? ”

My dad just came out of the study and replied to my mother's question for me: "Little Dai's mother, are you 250?" ”

My mom was full of confusion and repeated my dad's words to herself: "Two-five-zero! What does 250 mean? ”

The daughter innocently answered for her grandmother: "It's two hundred and five grandmothers." ”

Actually, I didn't want to go back to my parents' house because I was afraid to face my father.

Just like now, watching TV with him will have an invisible sense of oppression. I really envy my daughter for being able to sit next to my dad so happily.

In fact, the person I love the most in this world is my dad, he is my idol and my role model. Facts are always tangled.

When I was younger, I liked to follow him the most, I liked to get tired of being around him, and I liked to pluck his ears the most. But that's just the time.

At one time, I became more and more fond of keeping a silent distance from my dad. For example, I was still laughing just now, and as soon as he appeared, I would immediately remain silent.

Watching my daughter watch TV on my dad's belly, I walked away with a little bit of a god.

My mom came over with fruit, and I came back to my senses.

But it suddenly woke up my doubts. The distance between me and my dad may have risen at the moment when my birth mother died. Or maybe it was born the moment my little mom walked in the door.

This woman I keep calling mom is my mom.

My own mom left this world when I was 9 years old.

Maybe more than ten years ago, my mother and I were still mutually repulsive. But since I gave birth to a child, the moment when I knew how to empathize as a mother and wife, my bad feelings for my mother slowly dissipated unconsciously.

I used to feel, I fussed, I cried, I lost my temper, and my dad never understood me. In his opinion, as long as he gives me money that he can't spend, he gives me a qiē. I've always felt like my dad didn't care about my happiness anymore since my mother died. He would only be me and never considerate.

When I negotiated a divorce with Gong Xiaoyi, my father once asked me, "Do you want your daughter to follow the same path as you?" ”

I was in a state of transit, and I didn't understand whether my father was saying this because he understood my unhappiness or if he was just recalciling with what he was going through.

I didn't understand anything, but I replied hysterically: "But I've already walked this way, did you think about me at the time?" Now you know to ask me? ”

Now my little mom is my own mom to me, I don't have a mom, she doesn't have children. I only have her, she only has me. It is this reality that makes me closer and closer to her, and at the same time, it also makes me more and more distant from my father.

While my daughter was asleep, my mother tiptoed open the door to my room. "Did you sleep?"

I nodded and whispered, "Mom, come in and sit down for a while." ”

My mom said to me, "You haven't been home for so long. But your room has been spotless, so you can live with peace of mind. Your dad has been telling our nanny to clean your room every day. ”

"Mom, thank you. I know you and my dad both see me like life. Me too. ”

Under the light of the lamp, I could faintly see the gray hair on my mother's head.

"Mom, haven't you dyed your hair lately?"

My mom touched the top of her head: "Do you see the white hair?" Is it much? ”

"Not much." "It doesn't matter how much you have, old is old. You see your children are so old, I'm just going to be old." My mother was stunned for three seconds, and then said thoughtfully, "Your father's gray hair has grown arbitrarily with the years." "All of a sudden, I couldn't get the next sentence.

"Little Dai, do you know? There's so much you don't understand. You can't just look at the surface. You're the most loved person in the world by your father. Do you understand? ”

Do I understand? I know everything, but why can't I get over that obstacle in my heart? What kind of mistakes am I holding to punish us for being changed by the years?

My mom said, "Xiaoxuan can't always be like this without her father." Regardless of which half of the parents are missing, it is a disservice to the child. Xiao Dai, you finally broke the last line of defense and transformed into a financially independent woman. But there are some things that you still give too little to your children. Think about it. ”

Yes, my transformation is not complete enough, I just transformed my wings and learned to fly alone. Although the process of transformation is too profound and painful, the experience has really drawn an exclamation mark on my journey. At least, I still have money, but I only have money to live with my daughter. If I don't work hard, I'll just stop where I once was.

I used to be too indulgent with him because I was too confident.

I think I have a look, a figure, a mind, a background, and a superior qiē. I don't think I'll ever experience such an incredible thing as betrayal.

I didn't have a deposit and I felt like his wallet should be fuller than mine. He is one of my qiē, and he has more rights than I do.

I used to be so stupid.

But when I was ruthlessly baptized naked, I found out that I, the victim, had left the house.

I was hurt, and I got nothing. Even if he was willing to give me a piece of the pie, it was too much for me to have money that mattered to the people I loved the most. Until I left the relationship for 8 years, I was still willing to leave my share with my daughter to him.

But in hindsight, I realized that his life hadn't changed because of my departure. Whether or not I have a zài is just a dispensable accessory to him.

I, on the other hand, were penniless. No matter where I go, the fact that I am a divorced mother with children can never be hidden.

Ironically, I had nothing left of this relationship, but he didn't matter.

Now, I have the money to buy my favorite bags, shoes, clothes, car, and house. But I can't be happy.

The sad thing is that the most important asset in a woman's life is a good marriage. But the saddder thing is that I don't believe in love anymore.

But fortunately, since I saw through love, family affection can always move me for the first time.

My daughter suddenly woke up and asked me, "Mommy, are you going to get old, like grandma?" ”

"Of course, everybody's getting old! When you grow up, your mother will be old. ”

"I don't want to grow up, I don't want to grow up, I don't want my mother to grow old."

"Silly girl, everyone has to accept this process."

Before my drowsiness spread, my phone lit up with Zhou Xiaoshuai's call.

"What?"

Zhou Xiaoshuai on the other end of the phone yelled into the receiver: "Your uncle, where are you?" What about releasing pigeons? Sue you Ha Gu Ning Dai, limited to you tomorrow. If I can't see you tomorrow, I'll go to your house! ”

I grabbed the phone and was stunned for a long time before I came to my senses, today is the day when the company is discussing the release of a new film, and it has been postponed due to my absence.

I quickly nodded and said sorry, Zhou Xiaoshuai saw that I admitted my mistake and was quite sincere, so he reluctantly forgave me. Before hanging up the phone, he kept rambling: "Gu Ningdai, I have already given you an ultimatum, don't blame me for not reminding you." If you can't do this, you won't get a penny. ”

Early in the morning, I woke up my daughter, who was still asleep.

"Wake up, baby, we're flying to Beijing.

In the past year, every time I feel guilty, it is because of Xiao Xuan'er.

She followed me to the northeast and west, getting up early and returning late.

On the plane, my daughter fell asleep again. It wasn't until the plane landed that she woke up alertly.

In this marriage, it is not me, not him, but Xiao Xuan'er who suffers the most.

She is awakened in a sweet life, a nightmare that affects the innocent.

I was afraid that this dream that would plague the fish in the pond would leave a shadow on her life.

But she doesn't envy the child who has his dad to pick her up, and she never advances any memories of him in front of me.

In this cold-blooded world of the jungle, I can only take my daughter to gradually adapt.