In the morning, I squint and boil milk in the kitchen.

The laptop on the side was open for video, and before I could sleep, I was torn in half by reality and dreams.

Half of his body fell into a sleepy sleep, and the right half of his body listened to the chaotic sounds.

Every morning, I would be semi-paralyzed.

I vaguely heard the sound of horns on the highway, but what I heard the most was Zhou Xiaoshuai constantly muttering in my notebook: "I said Gu Ningdai, why are you always in a half-dead state?" Everyone else is in good spirits in the morning, and you are indeed like a drug-addicted woman! ”

Even if the state is not in place, I don't forget to correct Zhou Xiaoshuai's language disease: "It's a young woman, not a woman!" ”

"It's no different!"

"If you don't get down to business, I'll lock you in the screen, I'll close it!"

"Don't, you uncle! I'll talk to you about the script! Zhou Xiaoshuai was like a girl, took a sip of water and continued to stare at me on the other end of the screen, and said, "I said, can your script still be delivered as expected?" ”

He didn't remind me of my work, I really forgot, I signed an autobiography, and it turned out that it was almost a year, and I didn't even think of a title.

"We're still waiting to shoot here! After signing with you, our company has finished filming 3 movies, dare you haven't written the beginning yet!? ”

I originally wanted to praise him, and Zhou Xiaoshuai, who knew me, but after thinking about it, if I praise him now, isn't it equivalent to digging a pit and waiting for myself to jump!

I thought about it for a while and said, "Aren't I uninspired right now!" You said that every drama has advantages and disadvantages, don't you. Novels and human faces are actually the same truth, some of them look better the more you look at them, and some of them become more and more unbearable. If I submit the manuscript perfunctorily, won't I be blind to a drama! I'm telling you, I'm really waiting, waiting for the day when the hero of my story appears in my extraordinary world, reciting a spell, and all the literary and artistic cells that are silent in my body will be refreshed."

As soon as my literary and artistic cells were about to resurge, they were doused with cold water poured by Zhou Xiaoshuai.

"Wait! Waiting for your uncle! Hurry up and write, otherwise you will be compensated for breaking the contract! ”

This time, he didn't wait for me to hack his screen and ran away first, which is considered prescient.

I ran to the study with my notebook in my hand and started looking for a script title, but my inspiration seemed to be constipated, or I had rectal cancer, and it didn't work at all.

Before I had a name for the novel, I thought of the name of the inspiration, and I decided to call it Cao Cao in the future. I hope my inspiration can be like Cao Cao: Say Cao Cao, Cao Cao to!

As soon as my thoughts drifted away, I was dragged back alive by the ringing phone, and Chen Hao on the other end of the phone kept apologizing: "I'm sorry, Xiaodai, I had something to do yesterday, and I didn't mean to release your pigeon!" Otherwise, make up for you today, let's go to the gymnasium to play badminton! Today, I don't have a class. ”

"Okay, then I'll send my daughter to her grandmother!"

"See you or leave!"

I appeared in the gym with Chen Hao in casual clothes, if it wasn't for what I saw with my own eyes, if it wasn't for nowhere to dodge, I really wanted to pull out my eyeballs and step on them as light bulbs.

Originally, I didn't see Hu Xiaodong, but after we went in, I only saw Zhao Dongdong, who happened to meet me, so he waved at me.

I was overjoyed and ran over to greet him: "What a coincidence! You're there too! ”

The back of the person who had been sitting on the side resting turned back when he heard the sound.

"Hu Xiaodong?" "Gu Ningdai?" We spoke in unison, and then looked at Zhao Dongdong together: "You two know each other?" ”

Zhao Dongdong looked dazed, and quickly nodded: "I know, I know both of you!" ”

I hadn't woken up in surprise yet, Hu Xiaodong and Zhao Dongdong were sneaking aside and looking at me while muttering.

Chen Hao came over to me and asked, "Who are they?" Your friend? ”

My eyes glazed over: "Grace friend"

Jin Xiaoya arrived after a while, she absentmindedly took the racket and glanced around, and suddenly covered her mouth with excitement, I was just about to follow her eyes, she couldn't bear it: "That, that's Hu Xiaodong!" ”

I shouldn't have questioned her in the first place, after all, she knew so many more people in this city than I did.

But I don't understand, why did this illustrious prince lie to me in such a way, test my sincerity? That's unforgivable.

Hu Xiaodong seemed to sense the gloom of me behind him, and he turned his head to look at me vigilantly, and I can guarantee that the expression he saw had absolutely nothing to do with friendliness.

I wanted to rush over and ask him what kind of heart he had under this skin.

With me, he doesn't get what he needs, I don't talk sweetly, I don't know how to be seductive, and I'm tempted to ask if he's using me as a test to prove his charms, or if he's just curious about young women.

I shouldn't have taken his word for it, and I shouldn't have ignored the fact that men were a terrifying species.

Jin Xiaoya looked at me stupidly: "Gu Ningdai, this Hu Xiaodong is the person you said you wanted to date that day." ”

Seeing that I didn't answer, she simply asked the second half of the sentence: "Didn't he tell you about his family background?" ”

I turned to look at her: "Do you think if I really like someone, I care about his background?" "I tried my best not to move" Do you feel like I care about material things? I don't need to marry into a wealthy family at all. I'm already in a big family. ”

After I finished speaking, I handed the racket to Chen Hao, who looked confused, and then said to Jin Xiaoya: "If you like to marry into a wealthy family, then you can do it yourself, he is in front of you." ”

I was going to leave, but before I could move my steps, Jin Xiaoya couldn't wait to run to Hu Xiaodong's position.

I was very unhappy, I don't know where the anger that surged into my heart at this moment came from, I don't know if it was because his confession was unrealistic, or because this so-called friend was still at peace one second, and the next second the limelight turned to his yearning.

I needed a reason, if it was just an excuse.

I left a dashing back and walked away, leaving only the noise in the field and Chen Hao's scolding: "Xiao Dai, you are all useless!" Are you still you? ”

I listened to the shrill shouts behind me, and I didn't have the strength to turn back and answer my dear best friend's question.

I don't know what kind of character I am in the eyes of others, but in my own eyes, I am a clown with a lot of joy.

It's the kind of role that hits my pride, I don't like to be played with and applauded, and I'm the last to know the facts, which isn't fair at all.

It was a particularly hot night, and it didn't look like tomorrow would be a sunny day, as I felt at the moment, I wanted to scream, I wanted to shout out my anger and pierce the night sky.

But I can't shout, I can't vent, I can't even express it, because I am Gu Ningdai, I must be elegant and calm, and gaffes are always reserved for losers.

The haze in my heart piled up to the point that my head was breathing, and the moment I took out the car keys from my bag, the whole person was suddenly pulled into someone's arms, my body stiffened, it was Hu Xiaodong, I knew that this breath and this smell were exactly the same as that night in Beijing.

He buried his head in my neck, and the air coming out of his breath was so warm that I didn't have the strength to dodge.

His tone was gentle: "I didn't lie to you. I just want you to know that whether I'm rich or poor, I only have one true heart for you. Because I know that Gu Ningdai is not a woman who loves money, I don't want to rely on my background to get close to you, I don't want to approach you with a tacky look. Because I love you, the first time I saw you, I fell in love with you. ”

Afterwards, Chen Hao told me: "After you turned around and left, he was really panicked, you didn't see his panic at that time, Xiao Dai, do you know?" Standing on the outside is always better than standing on the inside, because the onlooker can see what the authorities can't see. He really likes you, no matter which Hu Xiaodong he is. At the very least, he loves your child. This is something that a lot of men can't do! ”

Chen Hao told me that her current boyfriend was very repulsive to her children. And said a lot of chilling things, he told Chen Hao: "You give your child to your ex!" I can't accept your child because I can't raise a child for another man. ”

I asked Chen Hao, "What are you going to do?" ”

"How? My ex didn't even know his own children, he was a gambler except for drugs, do you think I can give him the child? I'd rather die alone than give up my flesh and blood. ”

Many women choose to be sad and abandon the light.

It's because they can't give up their own flesh and blood.

For women, there is a kind of helplessness called bondage, a kind of bonding called flesh and bones, and a kind of eternity called the past. To say that it is eternal is also to be painful.

We always like to shut ourselves up in the gloom.