Maybe it was a conversation in the evening that touched my forbidden place. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info caused me, in my sleep, to cry until dawn.

A few days before Xiao Xuan'er left me, I beat her for not studying seriously. How hard the beating was, she had to lie on her stomach when she slept at night, just because her entire back was bruised. Not only did she not blame me, but comforted me, she didn't shed a single tear, endured the wounds in her heart and body, helped me serve tea and water, and clean up the housework. During those negative days, am I the devil in Xiao Xuan'er's heart? She's so small... but to endure so much.

I always call her, and sometimes I have to ask her to carry the tissue for me when it's within my reach. She always obeyed me and complained to me with a small mouth, and she always said, "Who is the baby?" ”

The night the crew finished, it was as if I was suddenly pulled back into the time and space from which I came. I cried in my dreams and ran barefoot as hard as I could. I subconsciously knew it was a dream, but no matter how hard my mind tried, I couldn't escape it. I was in an open space, shouting desperately, desperately searching, until the limit of my vocal cords, my subconscious heard what I was shouting in my dream.

I cried all night and shouted all night: "Xiao Xuan'er! Father! Where are you?! ”

It wasn't until the call from the mobile phone pulled back my soul bluntly, I picked up the phone, and when I heard Wu Feng's voice on the other end of the phone, I burst into tears instantly, and the voice that cried out was hoarse.

"What's wrong with you? What are you crying about? My crying interrupted his joy after several twists and turns.

I sobbed and replied in fits and starts: "I had a heartache dream..."

In the past, I used a stinger given to me by negativity to hurt the people around me who loved me one after another. I also kept trying to clear my name for my ignorance. Who doesn't know, it's just a play that I directed and acted myself, in this play I am a schizophrenic, wearing a mask to attack others at night, and taking off the mask during the day to disguise the most injured one. How long can I trade this gimmick for a depressed person for hurting others and myself? Is it possible to follow the example of Old Joe, either you die or I die?

I once vented all my negativity and unhappiness on the person who loved me the most. Because I'm alone, both losers.

If no one can take the demonic beast of the heart demon, then I have to accept it gladly. I thought I could try to defeat him and heroically drive away the trapped beast in my heart.

I want to atone for the ignorance that once was.

My heart gradually calmed down with Wu Feng's comfort. During the half-hour call, I could only hear him clearly except for my own crying: "You wait for me, I'll go to you." ”

In the long years, my feelings have been smoothed out by tea, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, at this time, I have no water chestnut in my feelings, just a comprehensive smooth ball. I have said goodbye to a well-loved marriage, to a budding romance, and to someone who gave up on me.

Wu Feng said, the past is not mine. It's mine, never just passing through.

In the youth with Gong Xiaoyi, I didn't understand, and he didn't give me a chance to understand. In the short time with Hu Xiaodong, I still don't understand much. It wasn't until Kun Yuan said goodbye to me completely that I gradually understood. It's just that it wasn't the three of them who really woke me up, but Wu Feng. He often reminded me that what I want to have is love, and what I want to protect is love.

The first thing Wu Feng did after he came was to take me to eat noodles. While eating, he sighed: "The lifespan of a person is really very related to the region. ”

"What caused you to be so embarrassed when you ate noodles?"

He put down his chopsticks and answered me seriously. "Let's talk about the master who made hot dry noodles, he looked very healthy in his forties, and he was killed prematurely in Wuhan because of his skills."

“…… Your appearance hasn't changed at all. ”

"No, then again, where do you live in Beijing? You won't be living on the streets all the time with your current economic conditions, right? Wouldn't you go to sleep on the overpass in the dead of night? ”

"Do you just remember now that I'm a homeless little pathetic? If you really care about me, why don't you send me a red envelope to help me! ”

"You go to see the WeChat chat history yourself. Every time I transfer money to you, it is a case of 24 hours when no one collects it and it is returned. I always thought you were dead! If it weren't for your whimsical WeChat news that day, I would have gone to the police. ”

I didn't believe it at first. Later, I took out my phone and looked at it, and it was really.

"Where have you lived these months?"

"During filming, I stayed in a hotel with the crew. Now that it's finished, it's going to be at Zhou Xiaoshuai's house. ”

"No, what are you mixing in his house, he is a big man, and he is not pure-hearted."

"No, how can you think so obscenely. He has always been a woman in my heart! ”

On this topic, I argued with Wu Feng for a whole hour.

I'm in a hurry. "No, what's wrong with me living there? Why haven't you seen you for a few months, you have become like a second dog, and you will bite anyone. Auntie, don't tune with you! ”

"That's it! Nothing else. You go to his house now to pack up your things and move out with me. Wu Feng's voice was suddenly very vigilant.

The more nervous he looked, the more amused I felt. I said, "You're sick." Moving out to live on a flyover, wow? Are you teasing me, Wu Qilang. ”

"My stepfather has a villa here, you live with me!"

"No, I didn't figure it out. Why should I live with you? Zhou Xiaoshuai is a man, not safe! You're not a woman either! Why should I? ”

"I'll ask you if you can move or not."

"I tell you adamantly! I! No! Move! "I scolded him hundreds of times in my heart, who the hell are you, if you let me move, I'll move?!

In other words, he really lived up to expectations. Although he did not drag away my profound skills, he had an unrivaled and shameless spirit.

At 7 o'clock in the evening, I returned to Zhou Xiaoshuai's residence, and as soon as I entered the door, I saw him walking out of the bathroom with only a bath towel on his lower body.

When he saw me coming back, he greeted: "I'm back!" ”

I said yes.

Wu Feng followed me without saying a word, until Zhou Xiaoshuai discovered his existence: "Xiaodai, this person is your friend?" ”

I nodded. Zhou Xiaoshuai continued: "Came here to find you something? ”

Wu Feng, who had been standing behind me, finally opened his mouth full of gunpowder. "I decided to stay here. Until Xiao Dai moved out. ”

Zhou Xiaoshuai's face was clouded: "It's not... What's the situation? ”

I looked at Zhou Xiaoshuai weakly: "Let him live in your attic." ”

"Oh..."Zhou Xiaoshuai's bewildered face lasted until the next morning.

Wu Feng sat across from him for breakfast, and the two of them blew their beards and glared as they ate.

In the days that followed, they would always argue while I was cleaning my room, either because they wanted to watch different channels, because they were watching an apple at the same time, or because they were rushing to the bathroom. Often when I see this, they are dead, because I tend to use force to deal with the two of them.

Later, under the help of my violence, they became smarter and wiser. They always pretend to get along well right under my nose, which makes it difficult for me to catch them. In fact, every time I turned around, they started fighting each other.

This kind of love and killing lasted until one afternoon, and they became extremely united because of Director Zhang's relationship.

Because, they saw the message that Director Zhang sent me: See you at the Hilton General Suite.

On this point, the two guys are exceptionally unanimous: "Rather be unemployed!" Don't lose yourself. ”

I replied to both of them with a blank face: "I didn't say I was going." ”

But these two guys clearly don't trust me. Even when I go out to buy groceries, they have to sneakily follow me.

I decided that if I had time, I would definitely attend classes with these two immature students. Educate them, it's better to kill each other at home. It makes me have to be followed when I go to buy underwear, which is really troublesome.