Going to see him is actually not good for either of them. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Empress Jingzhuang has long known this in her heart.

After thinking about it like this, Queen Jingzhuang decided not to go to the appointment.

She wanted to send someone to bring him a letter, but she was afraid that one would accidentally lead to right and wrong, so she had to give up.

However, she couldn't control her heart when she controlled her actions.

That night, she tossed and turned, and couldn't sleep.

She didn't go, could he have been waiting? With his character, it is highly likely. However, she really did not dare and could not go, she was afraid that she would collapse under his enthusiasm, leaving a situation that was difficult to manage.

From childhood to adulthood, every step Empress Jingzhuang took was deliberate and steady, and she did not allow her life to fall into a situation of spiraling out of control.

And whenever she feels that life is uneventful, he will appear in her mind, calling her to get closer to him like gravity and experience a different life.

But that was just a fleeting thought, she had never betrayed Zhao Gan in her behavior.

The heart can save lives, and blessings and misfortunes can be brought on people.

These are what her mother said to her on the eve of her wedding. She always remembered.

In the past 20 years as queen, she has always held this belief in the world.

The people called her the rose of the country, saying that she was a once-in-a-century virtuous queen and a woman with a perfect temperament.

For men, being able to marry such a woman is the greatest blessing in this life.

And the women of the kingdom also admired her and took her as an example.

Her virtuousness and beauty have been deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.

No one knows how much she has paid, how much she has persevered, and how much she has endured behind her glamorous appearance.

But she is already very grateful, after all, her husband always has her in his heart, and her son is so good. In her life, fame, wealth, love, and family affection are all there, and she really has nothing to be dissatisfied with.

That man, the man who intruded into her memories and heart from time to time, intellectually speaking, she should have crossed him out of her life a long time ago.

……..

The night was getting deeper, and Queen Jingzhuang had not yet come.

Zhao Teng was still sitting on the stool in the Vientiane Pavilion like a monk.

He knew that she needed to go through psychological struggles, and that she needed to weigh it up and down before deciding whether to come.

It doesn't matter, he will wait for her.

He's been waiting for twenty years anyway.

This time, if she doesn't come, he won't leave.

After all, it's autumn, and it's a little chilly late at night.

Zhang Shihe tightened his clothes, walked to Zhao Teng's side and sat down, looked at Zhao Teng and said, "Lord Wang, judging from the small, she may not come tonight." ”

It's all at this point, how she wants to weigh it and weigh it thoroughly, if she doesn't come, then she probably has already made up her mind not to come.

Zhang Shihe felt a little sorry for Zhao Teng.

Zhao Teng didn't open his eyes, and replied quietly: "I will wait for her whether she comes or not." ”

Looking at Zhao Teng, who couldn't wait for her to come and swear to give up, Zhang Shihe was also quite moved, but as the saying goes, bystanders are confused, Zhang Shihe was always a little worried that Zhao Teng's feelings for her would hurt Zhao Teng, so he whispered: "Lord Wang, is it too ...... to do this for a woman?"

He knew that Zhao Teng understood what he meant, so he didn't say the next half of the sentence.

Zhao Teng smiled and said: "You haven't encountered such feelings, you won't understand." ”

"We have learned benevolence from Confucius and Mencius, compassion from Mahayana Buddhism, and those who are monarchs should also have benevolence and compassion in their hearts, we ...... Is this time the opposite of the road? Zhang Shihe asked cautiously.

Zhao Teng smiled again and said: "Politicians can't rely only on benevolence and compassion, what politicians need more is an invincible force, and whoever this power is concentrated in can become a king." After a pause, he added, "She is the source of all my strength, the spark that kindles the fire of my life, and without her, I would not have that power." ”

Zhang Shihe looked at Zhao Teng quietly for a while, and said: "If you talk about infatuation, there are few people who can compare to the prince throughout the ages." ”

When Zhao Teng heard this, he felt bitter in his heart, so he smiled bitterly and did not answer.

There was silence all around.

Zhang Shihe got up silently and walked to the entrance of the pavilion to look.

The sky and the earth were dark, and the mountain wind blew through the trees in the distance, making a hula sound.

Zhang Shihe sighed softly in the dark.

It's almost early in the morning, and that person must not be here tonight.

It's just that the person sitting in the pavilion, his heart waiting for her is as firm as a rock.

Zhang Shihe looked back at Zhao Teng, who was waiting for her intently, and his heart suddenly became soft.

About a quarter of an hour later, the sky suddenly thundered.

Zhang Shihe returned to Zhao Teng's side again and said, "Lord Wang, it's about to rain." ”

"I know." Zhao Teng replied without raising his head.

"It's going to be a big rainstorm, should we take shelter?" Zhang Shihe asked.

When the heavy rain comes, this small pavilion can't hide from the rain at all.

"Not necessarily." Zhao Teng said.

Zhang Shihe did not speak again.

After a rumbling thunder and crackling lightning, it rained heavily in the sky.

The rain extinguished their only candle flame.

The two stood under the pavilion silently watching the heavy rain, and neither of them spoke.

Suddenly, Zhao Teng left the pavilion and walked into the rain, opening his arms and shouting loudly.

The rain beat wildly against his hair and clothes, flowing through every inch of his skin.

Looking at Zhao Teng like this, Zhang Shihe smiled.

Sometimes, life needs such a heavy rain to wash away the feelings that have been suppressed for too long in people's hearts.

Hearing the sound of the rain outside, Queen Jingzhuang, who had been tossing and turning, got up in her clothes and stood by the window looking at the torrential rain outside the window.

Is he still in the Vientiane Pavilion? She asked in her heart.

She put her hand on the window, pressed her face to it, and closed her eyes quietly.

She seemed to see the tall figure standing quietly in the pavilion waiting for her to go.

So lonely, so determined.

Suddenly, she felt the urge to meet him.

It's been twenty years, and she doesn't know how hard he has lived.

She had heard it long ago - he didn't love his wife, he didn't love the children, he closed his heart as if he were living on an isolated island.

She wouldn't be unaware of why he did it.

Let's go see him once, for the first time and for the last time, she said to herself.

Go and tell him - it's been twenty years, don't suffer anymore, let it go, even if it's for the sake of your family.

Go tell him - she's ...... I don't love him anymore.

Empress Jingzhuang immediately changed her clothes, put on a hat, and left the palace from the small gate accompanied by a personal palace maid who knew martial arts.

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Dear friends, the first watch is here. The second shift is around 17:30. Thank you for the peace charm that Xiao P gave you a reward, Mo Da. (To be continued.) )