I hate the smell of disinfectant water in hospitals. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info Originally, when I was in the second grade, my dad's driver came to pick me up from the classroom, and he said, "My mom woke up and wanted to see me." Although I was very young at the time, I knew that if my mother woke up, she would cook food and wait for me at home, instead of calling my uncle to pick me up during school hours. So, at that time, I was fully prepared to say goodbye to my mother.

When I was in the second grade, I walked calmly in front of hundreds of people who came to visit my mother, and I didn't shed a single tear. Thinking about it now, it was spectacular, the corridors of the hospital were crowded with people one after another, and you can imagine the social status of my parents at that time. However, at that time, those who shed tears were not necessarily sincere, and those who were sincere were not necessarily tears, such as me, I never shed a single tear. They said I was cruel and that my mother had a white-eyed wolf. It's ridiculous, my tears are dried when no one is around, can I say that my mother can wake up by crying in front of people? If I could, I would be willing to take out the tears of my life and dry them in front of people.

Now it's my turn, and sure enough, no one can escape. It's time to go, no matter how hard you hold on to the straw around you, it won't help.

Just like me now, time turns, and I'm 27 years old. I clutched the doctor's lab coat tightly, and I begged, "Give me a little more time, I can't die, I still have a lot of wishes to work hard to fulfill!" Really, it's just a little bit, give me a little more time... Is it good..."

The doctor was as if he had no ears, with an iron face, no expression, and no speech. This hospital is cold like hell. I was in the corridor not far from Wu Feng, he may be desperately awake, and my struggle may be desperately trying to save myself.

I'm really, really just a little bit close, just a little bit of time to fulfill my dreams and love the people I want to love. Why, when I'm finally about to get it, it's taking away my time?

I have never seen Zhou Xiaoshuai cry, this is the first time for him, he held my hand tightly, and the tears couldn't stop falling. He looked very self-reproachful and looked funny, and I pulled the corners of my mouth to make him feel more relaxed, but as soon as I tried to smile, he couldn't stop crying.

He sobbed and shouted. "You obediently went to complete every check, and the Grim Reaper didn't come to pick you up personally, and I won't believe what anyone says. Gu Ningdai, I only believe you, didn't you say that you won't die when the end of the world comes? Didn't you say that you want to save the universe? Listen to me, I believe in you! I really believe in you! ”

I finally laughed, but the more I laughed, the more he cried. I gestured at him to wait for me, and he couldn't cry anymore.

It's so helpless, so powerless, at this time, I don't feel heartache, I'm just reluctant. The past has become extraordinarily sweet at this moment. After losing it, I realized how valuable the experience was. The funny thing is that when you are about to say goodbye to the whole world, even the pain that you once wanted to forget is extremely precious.

Hey, Gu Ningdai, it's just a very realistic and long dream, right...

When I wake up, I'm still a kid, right!? Mom and Dad are still very young, and Mom will still cook meals for me and Dad to come home and eat with relish; The children around me still like to revolve around me; The little white dog in the garden is still called Doudou; The SARS period is still far away;

Isn't this a precursor to a parting between life and death? It may just be a joke about a medical diagnosis error. After a while, the doctor will say, I'm sorry, the diagnosis just now was just a farce, right?

I'm tired. I don't know how many tests were done. I don't know when I started falling asleep anyway. I don't know how long it took, I heard Wu Feng's voice far and near, my subconscious was still snickering, I thought to myself, hey, listen, it's Wu Feng's voice, he woke up. I'll have to drag him to drink, to sing, and to find him a daughter-in-law. Listen carefully again, and Zhou Xiaoshuai's voice. I thought again, just right, these two are here, it's lively now, I must go to Truth or Dare for a while, and ask Zhou Xiaoshuai how long he has had a crush on me. Finally it stopped for a while, there was no sound, and my subconscious mind could continue to sleep again.

Just as I was about to relax, I heard another voice, this voice was Gong Xiaoyi's, and I cried instantly. Deep down in my heart I was shouting, what are you doing here? You came, who took care of my daughter.

I was awakened by Gong Xiaoyi's voice. When I woke up, all I saw was the empty hospital room, and all I could hear was the sound of my breathing.

I guess Zhou Xiaoshuai must have gone to help me with hospitalization. Otherwise, he would have been by my side now.

My heart is surging, I don't want to lie in the hospital bed all the time, I want to write the script of "Hot Mom Times", I want to fulfill the dream that has not yet been completed, I want to take my daughter and dad to travel around the world, I want to take the rest of my life to accompany them.

I guess that when Gong Xiaoyi learned the news, it should be the news of Zhou Xiaoshuai's leakage. But I don't blame him, because Gong Xiaoyi brought Xiaoxuan'er to see me. Xiao Xuan'er combed her two pigtails, and the strength of the ward hugging me was so warm. She asked me, what's wrong? I said, I have a cold, and I just have a small fever.

At night, Xiao Xuan'er fell asleep on the sofa in the ward. Gong Xiaoyi cautiously spoke: "When did you find out?" Why didn't you tell me? “

I replied lightly: "I found it out yesterday." You'll find out today. ”

His face did not change, but he wept. I patted him on the shoulder and comforted him, "Are you crying with joy?" I'm finally going to die, and now no one is fighting for your daughter, and you can finally straighten your back and marry a new wife. ”

He glared at me. "That year, we were not very old, cardamom years, and said that love is a lifetime. The grievances you have suffered with me are all with me. He pointed hard at his heart.

For the first time since I was separated from him, I didn't feel like he was fake. I don't speak. There is nothing to say. We can't get around these detours.

He continued: "You are me, the only woman I have ever loved. I believe that no one will be able to replace your place in my heart in the future. Therefore, I only deserve to be lonely and live my life with Xiao Xuan'er. I don't deserve to ask you to forgive me. I will spend my life atonement. ”

Gong Xiaoyi, this man, is the only person I have ever loved with my life and love. I don't have a future, I can't say what he said later. But I believe that even in the future, Gong Xiaoyi is Gong Xiaoyi. No one can replace the love and hatred I have for him.

It's ridiculous to think about, how did it come to be like this? Two people who once said that love is life and life, why haven't they even finished their lives? Why didn't even one of the dreams that he once said he had come true? We are led by the nose by God and acted, and finally we are led by the hand by God and left.

I said, "I don't think we'll see each other again in the next life, right?" The vows of both of us have not even been fulfilled in this life. ”

He said: "In the next life, I will go to you and make cattle and horses for you, if you still remember me in the next life, can you give me another chance?" ”

Holding back my tears, not wanting to shed tears in front of him, I nodded and said, "Okay! If there really is a next life. You don't want to be like this in this life! ”