"Where are we going?" I turned my face to him.

"To the cash drawer?"

"Can I call Jin Xiaoya?" I asked tentatively.

Hu Xiaodong glanced at me: "What are you calling her for?" ”

"Call it, she said she was in a bad mood and wanted us to accompany her."

"A lot of my friends are there, it's not good for her to go!"

"What's wrong with being afraid of seeing people? Besides, both of you can blatantly go out to eat barbecue, but can't K song? ”

Hu Xiaodong was a little unhappy: "Whatever you want." ”

It's really incomprehensible.

We were silent for a while, and Hu Xiaodong explained when he saw that I was not in a good mood: "Gu Ningdai, how many times do you need me to explain to you?" I couldn't find you that day, and besides, it's not just me and Jin Xiaoya, isn't there still Zhao Dongdong? "I didn't want to listen, let alone answer, all the explanations were perfunctory.

Before pushing open the door of the private room, Hu Xiaodong asked me in a whisper: "Can you appear to be more affectionate with me?" ”

I replied with a blank face: "No." Then he pushed open the heavy door and stepped into the noisy world, drunk.

There were all kinds of women sitting next to these men, and because of the noise, I could only rub into Hu Xiaodong's ear and shout: "Can I go?" ”

Hu Xiaodong stuck to my ear: "Can't! With so many people, do you think it's appropriate for us to go? ”

"Nope! You are mistaken! It's me who goes, not us, you don't need to go. ”

I guess Hu Xiaodong was shocked by this noisy atmosphere, he didn't even think about holding my face and kissing it hard, just as everyone was coaxing, Jin Xiaoya pushed the door in and happened to see this scene.

I squinted at Jin Xiaoya standing at the door, and subconsciously broke free of Hu Xiaodong.

Jin Xiaoya was stunned for a few seconds, then came to her senses and sat down next to me.

I also deliberately observed Hu Xiaodong's expression, he didn't seem to react because of Jin Xiaoya's arrival, but he looked very proud because he kissed me.

Someone turned down the volume and turned off the flash, and the room instantly seemed much more harmonious.

At this time, someone saw my face clearly, and he pointed at me in surprise and stammered, "Aren't you Gu Ningdai?" "I could see his face by the way.

He is the son of the owner of this KTV, and I found out afterwards that he and Hu Xiaodong are iron buddies.

But I didn't expect him to brag in front of Hu Xiaodong that he knew my indiscretions very well, although I only found out after leaving, but I was also stunned.

It was a particularly chaotic night, and the air outside was lifeless.

If my cold war with Hu Xiaodong was just because of that man's words, maybe it wouldn't last for half a month.

Mainly because of the depressed mood after walking out of KTV, Jin Xiaoya said to me: "Let me tell you, it is impossible for you and Hu Xiaodong at all!" He is golden, rich and handsome, and you are a young woman with children, so you can say to yourself that his family will agree with the two of you? ”

Jin Xiaoyashun's amazing words attracted my attention, and I stared at her without squinting: "Do you feel that you are worthy of him?" Haven't you had a baby too? ”

Jin Xiaoya blinked her big innocent eyes and asked me, "How do you know?" ”

"Because I know Yang Xiaoer! You probably don't know who his boss is! But I think it is necessary for you to know what is the surname of Yang Xiaoer's food and clothing! ”

I turned around and walked to the side of the road, and Jin Xiaoya yelled angrily at my back: "Then you are not worthy of him!" Xiaodong already knows that you are a broken bag! I sue you that you are not worthy of him in your life. ”

I wanted to turn around and scold her, but the messy steps I took told me the truth: I really didn't deserve it.

Sometimes self-confidence is really not a good thing, it makes us not hide but also truth.

I staggered home and turned on the light.

Xiao Ke and Xiao Xuan'er both slept, and I walked lightly to the windowsill with a goblet filled with red wine.

The night washed by the rain seems that the world is incomplete, and the vague neon lights cannot wake up the sleeping city.

I sat by the window and looked at the night sky, blowing the wind, listening to lonely songs.

During this time, I was unconsciously swept into the huge whirlpool, first lost Jieyu at the beginning, and today I was inexplicably splashed with dirty water. And then tonight we faced a double decision.

I was in the mood to expose the hypocrisy of others, but I ended up seeing my own jokes. first saw Hu Xiaodong's disappointed face, and then tore his face with Jin Xiaoya. What exactly am I doing wrong.

Why do human beings always like to understand things with their ears, and you always like to judge me by what you hear, but no one ever feels my reality with their hearts!

There are so many people in this world who never know what kind of fear is filled with other people's worlds, and they have to keep getting more and more cynical. There are too many hypocritical people in this world, who know everything on the surface, but in fact they don't know anything.

I was physically and mentally exhausted, and it was funny that I was naïve enough to think that I could write a beautiful autobiography of love. What's funny is that the current process has made me understand that there is no beauty in reality, and the beauty in those TV series and movies is all fabricated out of thin air.

No matter how good you are, you can't stand the gossip.

I turned on my phone and Baidu wrote the first novel myself, scribbling forward to my past with Gong Xiaoyi.

I was thinking about what kind of mentality I had at the beginning, I felt like I had experienced a dream, and when I quickly reviewed the clips with him, I actually laughed at myself and hurt others. What makes me sad is the date uploaded in each chapter of the novel, looking at my own past, the words that echo the date, my heart is like an overturned five-flavor bottle, I ask myself over and over again, what I have had, and what I have lost.

I asked myself, do you still love Gong Xiaoyi? If love, why not go back? If you don't love, why can't you love someone else?

I asked myself again, do you care about Hu Xiaodong? I don't care, why am I sad? Care, why not say it?

I no longer have the same unhesitation as I did at the beginning, I seem to do my best, and I will never love as hot as I did at the beginning, and love without words. But the heart is easy to be cold, but it is difficult to transform. Estrangement? Distance? Time? We lost to one of these points after all

I looked at the vague figure downstairs that was washed by the rain, was it Hu Xiaodong?

The rain outside was so loud that I couldn't see each other's faces clearly under the rain curtain, so I quietly walked in and asked him, "When did you come?" Why didn't you call me? ”

He must have been standing here for a long time, soaked in the rain.

My voice was washed away by the sound of the rain, and he looked up at me.

I was so frightened by him: "Come to my house." Don't be here."

The rain blurred my vision, and I couldn't see his expression clearly, but I felt that the aura he gave me was oppressive.

I raised my voice: "Come home with me." Don't do that? I'm afraid you're cold."

He looked at me for a long time before he opened his mouth slightly and said, "Is it possible for you to move anyone?" ”

Although his words are not too embellishment, they sound very harsh to me, I am a single mother, and I know how much crazy words a woman can suffer when she walks alone in society with a child. But I'm not humble, I want love, not a sleep that comes to rely on.

At this moment, I actually wanted to pour out all the grievance tears stored in my stomach, I wanted to cry, my eyes were more sore than my heart.

I asked him, "Would you rather believe someone else's lies than believe my heart?" ”

He didn't speak, and continued to stare at me through the rain curtain.

"If you choose to listen to the gossip from the outside and wronged me without any verification, then we might as well go back to being strangers. Because I believe that people who love me will never choose to trust others. I don't care who you are. As long as you are in my world, your attitude towards me has changed and you can automatically knock yourself out. I calmed down and looked at him.

He glared at me angrily: "It's Gu Ningdai who you said yourself!" ”

"Yes, I said it myself."

The two of us stood trembling in the rainstorm, and it was really impulsive for such a bloody plot to appear in real life.

The moment he turned around, I could clearly see a row of silence standing behind him, and I could see it clearly even though it was raining and windy

I felt like a colic, obviously close at hand, as long as I stretched out my hand to touch the real him, but I felt that he was insincere, at first concealed his identity, and then made my heart ache. I put a thick barrier inside of myself.

I watched his back farther and farther away with inner trepidation, and I wondered if he would turn around and hug me without hesitation if I put aside a tangled chaser and hugged him from behind and begged him not to go.

I watched his car gradually leave my sight, and I suddenly wanted to cry, even if I couldn't cry, could I find a place where no one could see and cry? I promise not to cry out loud.

This rain washed my heart, and I found that the more people I knew, the more I liked livestock, and some people never knew how an unintentional word could hurt someone.

Should I break free from this rainy night, break through the circle of people surrounded by rumors, and then say goodbye to the past with my own qiē?

But what I need more at the moment is wine, and I need those playmates who are sloppy and even hypocritical to drink with me until I am numb.

What is the human heart, there are very few people in this world who are with you when you are in trouble, but there are many people who fall into the well, and there are many people who accompany you when you are brilliant, but there are very few who are sincere.

In the face of loneliness, if you need someone to accompany you, don't pick and choose. Sometimes hypocrisy can be used as consolation.

What's more, they are not stupid, each for what he needs, but some people like to be patient, and some people like to say it directly.

My mind is supported by grievances, and love can't stand the toss.

Jieyu, if you don't leave this city now, you can see my stupidity as you wish