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Tang Shaoqi was silent for a long time. Cai said: "Do you care very much?" ”

"If you want, I want to know, not only for him, but also for you." Su Mo smiled.

"For me? Oh, for him, for him, no need to make excuses. The smile on the corner of Tang Shaoqi's mouth was very disdainful, but if you look closely, you will find that what is hidden under the disdain is bitterness and sarcasm.

Su Mo's head tilted slightly, his big smart eyes blinked, and he didn't care about his denial, "You seem to be very resistant to other people's kindness to you." ”

"What do you mean?" Tang Shaoqi frowned.

"You're scared." Su Mo's voice was soft, faint, like a swirling leaf, falling on the surface of the lake with the wind, so light that it did not stir up any ripples.

"Do you know what you're talking about?" Tang Shaoqi's tone was raised, like a precursor to anger.

"You weren't happy before, no one could give you the love you wanted, you were disappointed. You have been unhappy, sad, angry, and later, you have lost hope, because you feel that only if you do not have hope, you will not despair, so you begin to subconsciously resist the kindness of others to you, and distort all your concerns into conspiracy with other purposes. Su Mo didn't seem to see Tang Shaoqi's anger, and his expression was as calm as ever.

"Enough!" Tang Shaoqi stood up suddenly, his delicate face, which was exactly the same as Tang Shaotian, was filled with all kinds of complex and indescribable emotions, making it impossible to tell whether he was angry, ashamed, or sad.

"You have wrapped yourself in a thick protective shell, others can't get in, and you can't get out, but in this way, are you really invincible? Is this kind of life without love and laughter really what you want? Are you doing well, happy? Su Mo slowly stood up, walked up to Tang Shaoqi step by step, and asked a question that hit his heart.

Is he really invincible?

Is a life without love, without laughter, really what he wants?

Is he living happily now?

"Why do you know...... Tang Shaoqi muttered blankly, "Why...... Why do you know if you've only known someone for less than a day......"

"Why don't they know...... Why don't they know anything about me for seventeen years......" He crouched on the ground with his head clutched, lost in his soul, helpless and confused like a lost child.

Memories came flooding back.

He's been there for as long as he can remember. I have seen the most is not the mother who should have the selfless maternal love that everyone praises, nor the father who should have the love of a father, not to mention the brother who is so good and how good he is from the mouth of others, but the doctors and nurses who wear white coats and shuttle through the ward.

In the past 17 years, he has spent at least 15 years in the hospital, even at home, he has to take medicine and injections on time every day, as if he was born in this world, not to experience the ups and downs of life, but to take all the medicines he can take, all the injections he can take, and all the pains he can taste.

As a child, every time he saw a nurse with a needle, he cried out in fright, hoping that someone would drive away the "bad guy" who hurt him, but no one paid attention.

Later, when he saw the needle again, he would still cry, but he would stay where he was and let the nurse finish the injection before crying, hoping that someone would come and touch his head, hug him, comfort him, and smile like the parents of other children in the ward, praising him for "what a brave child".

It's just that he is eager again and again, in exchange for disappointment again and again.

From then on, he would never be stupid enough to hope for anything.

Even if he had to get more than a dozen stitches a day, he just let the nurse fiddle with it, as if the sharp needle holes were not pierced on his body, as if the pain that eroded his bones day and night was not tormented by him.

He felt like a trapped beast in an iron cage. Struggling, but no one cares at all.

He wanted to live, he wanted to break out of the iron cage and see the sky except for the hospital, and the world under the sky.

He wants to know how wonderful and happy life can be, and he wants to motivate himself through these wonders and happiness, otherwise, he is afraid that one day, he will be tormented by illness and forgotten fate to lose the faith of survival......

"If a person has never received love, how do you make him believe in love?" Tang Shaoqi's voice was very light and light, so light that even he wasn't sure if he was just thinking about it in his heart or if he had already spoken it.

"Why do you think you haven't been loved?" Su Mo squatted beside Tang Shaoqi, whispering softly like a dream whisper.

"A six-year-old boy lives in the hospital every day, constantly taking injections and medicines, but no one visits him. When he was ten years old, he was so tormented by illness that even sleeping became a luxury, and his life could be lost at any time, but he was still asked by his family to learn all kinds of things that his peers didn't need to learn at all, just because he was a member of the Tang family, he couldn't lose the face of the Tang family. Tang Shaoqi raised his head, his eyes soaked in sadness were overflowing with tears, crystal tears slid down his cheeks, and his delicate and pure face like an angel was full of indescribable fragility and despair at the moment.

Su Mo looked at Tang Shaoqi like this, and felt that her heart hurt so much, so painful.

In a trance, fragments of broken memories in her brain emerged, and she saw Tang Shaotian when she was a child.

At that time, his face seemed to have such sadness, and he was also in tears like this, like an angel with broken wings, which made people feel pity and heartache, and people couldn't help but want to get closer, want to hug, and want to give him warmth.

Unconsciously, she had gently embraced Tang Shaoqi, who seemed to be bursting and disappearing like a bubble at any time.

That's because God has collected the love that should be given to you for 17 years, just for when you are an adult. Put all the love in front of you and give you a big surprise. Su Mo gently patted Tang Shaoqi's back, her voice was like a lullaby sung in a low voice, so that his heart, which had been wandering for a long time, finally found a harbor to dock.

Although he knew that her words were coaxing the child, it didn't matter, because what he wanted was not the comfort and persuasion of truth, but a warmth, a love, a care, and a proof that made him feel that his existence in this world was meaningful.

Tang Shaoqi stretched out his hands and hugged Su Mo tightly, tightly.

He used all his strength to keep this epiphany warmth forever.

……

I don't know how long it took, Tang Shaoqi's mood finally stabilized.

The two sat side by side.

"Thank you." Tang Shaoqi said.

"What I just said is true." Su Mo looked into the distance, and his voice was soft, "On your eighteenth birthday, God will definitely return all the love he has collected from you in the past, and he will give you a big surprise." ”

"Hehe, maybe." Tang Shaoqi didn't think much about it, but just took this sentence as Su Mo's comfort to him.

Su Mo smiled and didn't explain more.

"Don't you want to know why I hate Tang Shaotian so much?" Tang Shaoqi turned his head, his expression was very calm, and he never mentioned Tang Shaotian's hideousness and hatred for the first time.

"Hmm." Su Mo answered in a low voice.

"He and I are twins, and he was born half a minute before me, taking away not only my brother's identity, but also my health." The curvature of the corners of Tang Shaoqi's mouth was very bitter, "He seized all the nutrients in the mother's womb, so." He grew up healthy and healthy, but I was tormented by illness, and I took the hospital as my home every day, accompanied by acupuncture and medicine every month, and danced with pain every year. ”

"If it weren't for him, I wouldn't have lived so painfully, and I wouldn't have been neglected, ignored or even forgotten by my family."

"Heh, others call him Tang Sanshao among the four evils in Kyoto, and he is the prince of the princes, he is so happy and happy every day, arrogant and free, living a life of wanton enjoyment, wonderful and exciting, but I can only be trapped in the cage of the hospital, living woodenly."

"You say, I don't hate him, so who should I hate?" Tang Shaoqi turned his head. stared at Su Mo's eyes, as if he wanted to gain her approval.

Su Mo looked at his expression of persistent pursuit of answers, listened to his obvious question sentence, and knew that in fact, he had already shaken his answer in his heart, otherwise he would not have used the question to elaborate at all, and his eyes would not be so confused, so in urgent need of recognition.

"Your health is not under his control." Although the reason was very weak, Su Mo still said it.

"So what?" Tang Shaoqi sneered.

Su Mo was silent.

yes, so what?

What Tang Shaoqi wanted was not an explanation, but an excuse, an excuse to support him in struggling to live.

Perhaps, the hatred of Tang Shaotian in the past, the hatred of the Tang family, the injustice he encountered, the irony of fate, and the despair of the world are the obsessions that support him to live.

Even though he knew that his poor health was indeed not caused by Tang Shaotian on purpose, he still chose to ignore it to himself.

"Xiaotian used to live not happily." Su Mo thought about it and said.

"Hah! Not happy? Even if you make excuses for him, you have to find a decent one, right? When I'm a three-year-old, do I just fool around? Tang Shaoqi's eyes turned cold, and the irony at the corners of his mouth became stronger.

Indeed, in his opinion, Su Mo just opened his eyes and said nonsense, deceiving him like a fool.

"Why do you think he's happy?" Su Mo didn't care about Tang Shaoqi's ridicule.

"Every time he went to see me in the hospital, he would tell me through various examples how wonderful the outside world was." Tang Shaoqi said, "Hehe, let's be ironic, he knows that I am almost not allowed to go out because of my physical condition, but he still vigorously describes the colorful world of flowers and shows off the fun of his life to me!" ”

Speaking of this, Tang Shaoqi's emotions couldn't help but get excited again, "Doesn't he know that every time I hear him say that, my disgust with my body will only get worse, and my jealousy for him will only get stronger?!" (To be continued.) If you like this work. You are welcome to vote for recommendation and monthly passes, and your support is my biggest motivation. )