I longed to turn back ten years to recover the beauty that I had discarded. Pen %Fun %Pavilion www.biquge.info to love the big boy in the sun, to embrace the morning sun, to chase the sunset with the person you love.

I want to be younger, to make up for the lost years, to go cycling with three or two good friends, to go to the bubble tea shop full of post-it notes about secrets. However, I don't have Doraemon's magical pocket, Nobita's time drawer, or any door to travel through time and space. So, I had to keep my eyes closed.

I sometimes have whimsical ideas, using the unique imagination of writers, imagining that if I had a chance to travel through the past, I would not choose to start when I was a student, but I am afraid that if I really go back to the past, I will never meet Gong Xiaoxuan again.

I can be discharged from the hospital. Downstairs in the hospital, there were a few middle school students, and that was the immature appearance I longed for the most. Standing beside them, it was as if I felt like an adult, and the corners of my mouth couldn't help but turn up, and I couldn't help but smile.

I was wearing clothes that had been soaked in the rain yesterday, and after a night of drying my body, I was crumpled.

Walking through the sparse flow of people, the weather after the rain did not make me feel very pleasant, on the contrary, the weather was so fickle like a bridge in my life, which made me very unhappy.

At first, I thought it was Zhou Xiaoshuai who sent me to the hospital, but later it was confirmed that Zhou Xiaoshuai bought a night of drunkenness in a bar, and it was not easy.

I can't figure it out, who else? Could it be the living Lei Feng who sees uneven roads!? No name or surname.

I was like a homeless child, wandering through the stop signs, sitting on the bus and getting on and off the bus without any purpose. I feel that this terrible year or so is like a rubber band that has been cut and tied again and again, and it has been knotted and started countless times.

It wasn't until the bus returned to the main station that Gong Xiaoyi called and said he wanted to talk to me that I knew that he was the one who took me to the hospital after I fell asleep in the rain.

I really don't want to see him, he's the scar on my heart. However, he "hijacked" my soft underbelly. It made me switch from fear to expectation. I miss my daughter so much, especially when this storm surrounds me. I was lucky enough to see him, and I could see my precious daughter.

When a person lives, it is a calamity, and it is a calamity. Only when you leave can you find out if you can let go or not. Only by losing can we understand whether the past is worth cherishing. Everything in the world is contradictory, you don't necessarily have it if you grasp it tightly, and you don't necessarily lose it if you let it go. This so-called mixture of joy and sorrow is just a shackle imposed on me by the scar in my heart. Sadly, I saw it thoroughly, but I couldn't get through it.

He is still the first acquaintance, if the sun is brighter, he dresses as a teenager, this scene, really like our seventeen or eighteen years old. However, time flies, and he and I are frozen in two planes.

I sat in front of him and asked him the first thing I said, "What about Xiao Xuan'er?" ”

He said, "She didn't come!" I'm just here to see you on a business trip to Beijing. ”

"You're here, who's taking care of her."

"Babysitter."

"Gong Xiaoyi, I hope that before you start a new family, you can show the little mercy you have left and return my daughter to me. You know, I only have her but my dad. ”

He fiddled with the coffee cup on the table with his fingers as he looked preoccupied.

I was a little impatient: "What is the purpose of your meeting with me?" ”

It was a long time before he looked up at me. "Let's get married. I owe you a wedding, and now I give it back to you. ”

I was momentarily speechless, this man, what vicious words should I use to describe my disgust for him.

"Gong Xiaoyi, are you kidding me? Am I your personal belongings? If you say you will lose it, you will lose it, and if you say you want it!? You're funny, you know? ”

"It's been so long, you should be deflated."

"Why do you think I should forgive you in my lifetime?"

"Xiaoxuan's life is not to live with one of you and me. All she needs is a complete home! ”

"Complete? Am I the one who caused this shattered situation? Scold! Do you care about her completeness now? When you betrayed me and betrayed this family, did you think about it completely? "My voice was very loud, and many people looked sideways, but I didn't feel ashamed, I was just very indignant, did this man think that marriage was a family wine?

"Gu Ningdai, I was only wrong once, but you chose not to give me a chance for the rest of your long life. I know your temper too well, let your temperament go, I always feel that one day, you will want to open, you will forgive me. ”

"Gong Xiaoyi, I'm not the little idiot you knew at the beginning. You know there's a saying that is used to describe you men, dogs can't change eating. ”

Trust is like a blank sheet of paper, once it is wrinkled, no matter how hard you try to smooth it out, there will be traces. No matter how much you want to believe it, no matter how much the other party proves it, the root in your heart will never be forgotten no matter what.

What is he when I am? If you say betrayal, you will betray, and if you say sorry, you will apologize. Then what are all my grievances and tribulations over the years.

I had a hard time finding the right words to describe my inner feelings, and it was ridiculous and infuriating, and it made me feel helpless. I finally don't feel like I'm the director of this farce anymore. Because, when I heard Gong Xiaoyi say the word "marriage", I felt that I was just an actor who cooperated with him.

Neither of us was talking, and when he saw that I was very resolute, he didn't say anything.

There was a layer of sadness on his face, which seemed to me to be a little fake. I don't believe him anymore, that's kind of my straightforward reason.

We sat like this until the sky outside the window turned from dull to dark. None of us have the intention of going first, and I am very unprincipled, because I have been lonely for too long, even if the enemy sitting opposite me will not reject it.

The waiter came over from time to time to ask Gong Xiaoyi what else he needed. And I kept holding my heavy head with my hands and looking out of the window, and the Buddha was empty, and no one existed.

I lazily picked up the mobile phone at hand, and the text message said: "If it were us now, would the ending be different." ”

I pretended that he wasn't across from me, and replied to him unhurriedly: "Can you hide the scumbag smell of you if you know you later?" ”

Once, when he couldn't live without me, I always relied on him to like me to play petty, and if I didn't go along with my things, I would have a cold war with him, and he would tease me in all kinds of ways, and I wouldn't pay attention to him. There was no choice but to sit next to me and send me a message on his phone, such as "Baby, I was wrong, laugh." "Then there are some more meaty ones.

At that time, he was reluctant to delete every message I sent him.

At that time, I really loved him, and I confess that to this day, I have never loved another man as deeply as I loved him.

When I first parted from him, I woke up crying one morning, because when I opened my eyes, I could no longer see him smiling lovingly at me.

I don't deny that time is staggering, he is really him, and I am just me. Even if one day, we just pass by like strangers, I will still admit that I have loved this man with my life.

It's just that I can't be with him anymore. We're not the same anymore.