"Polo?" I don't want to talk about playing now, I'm afraid it's difficult to ride a horse.

"Yes," Qing Yang said with a smile, "Six years ago, the city lord went to the capital on an errand and played a game of polo, and the city lord's team lost, and when he heard the princess's name chanted on the field, he knew that he was defeated by a woman." ”

I used to be able to play polo, and I played so well, but why am I so helpless now?

Sullen returned to the house, lying in front of the window, thinking about things, watching the sunset, until Zhou Sinian came back.

"Is the sunset so pretty?" Zhou Sinian walked up to me and said with a smile: "You always like to watch the sunset, after sunset, the people should go to bed, and the day is over." ”

"Sunrise and sunset, this is the law of nature, look at the spring and autumn, simple." I say.

"You said this five years ago, so I'll take you out of the capital." Zhou Sinian said.

"Then why do you want to come back?"

"For our ideals, for the farmer who ploughs the land to have food to eat, and for the woman who weaves cloth to wear."

"Has the ideal been realized?"

"Something has to be done."

"Brother Nian, how did I become the way I am now?" I finally couldn't help myself and said, "I used to be able to play polo on horseback, what can I do now?" What have you done to me? ”

Zhou Sinian closed his eyes, his brows were tightly locked, and his chest kept rising and falling. After a while, he opened his eyes and said in a hoarse voice, "Shenglan, as long as you live, it's more important than anything else, isn't it?" ”

I said sadly, "Am I alive?" I don't remember anything, I can't do anything! It's a piece of rubbish! ”

Zhou Sinian's eyes were full of sadness, and he said, "Then what if you die? What else can you do when you're dead? ”

His grief made me so sad that he whispered, "You must tell me what happened, do you live if you have a breath?" ”

He said, "I've told you all." ”

I sneered and said, "If you don't lie to me, it's impossible for me to run away from anyone, and you slander me like this, just to make me feel that these things are difficult to talk about, and then avoid talking about them." ”

Zhou Sinian said: "Escaping marriage is something I thought of." ”

I looked at him as if nothing had happened, got angry, and said, "Isn't this fun?" ”

Who knows, his eyes gradually became resentful, full of hatred, and said: "But on the wedding night, the bride did not stay where she should be, but ran to another man's residence, and you said that it was not an escape from marriage, so what is it?" ”

I listened to him at a loss, and muttered, "Impossible, you lied to me, why do you always lie to me?" ”

Zhou Sinian stood up and walked out, and I asked, "Where are you going?" He stopped and whispered, "I want to go out and be quiet for a while." ”

I watched him leave dumbfounded, suddenly understood, hurriedly ran out, saw that his back was gradually disappearing, and shouted anxiously: "Brother Nian, you come back, come back!" ”

Accidentally stepped on his skirt and fell to the ground at once. I wanted to stand up and continue chasing, but I didn't expect my ankle to be sprained, I couldn't get up, my heart hurt so much, I think he won't come back, right? I felt so bored all of a sudden, there was a lotus pond not far in front of me, but it was so difficult for me to even die now. I was angry that it was useless for me to do this, and I slammed my head towards the corridor next to me, feeling the sweet smell of blood in the air, and a sticky liquid running down my forehead.

My heart was dripping with joy, and the surrounding qiē began to blur, is Zhou Sinian back? Then, I didn't know anything.

When I woke up, I only saw Qingyang sitting next to me, with a cloth on my head to stop bleeding, and I couldn't help but cry when I looked so haggard and pale in the mirror.

Qingyang also burst into tears and said, "What's wrong with you?" What does it do? ”

I didn't bother to pay attention to her, Zhou Sinian was not there, I was disappointed that I didn't wake up. He lay down again, his face facing the wall.

Qing Yang asked, "Do you want to eat something?" ”

I couldn't get irritable anymore and said, "Ignore me, go out, and close the door." ”

Qingyang got up and left, my feet hurt so much that I couldn't move and didn't want to move. I feel that the whole world is gray, and he will never come back. What will happen to me? Like the concubines who fell out of favor with their father in the past, will they live like this for the rest of their lives?

It's useless to regret it now, I shouted at him to chase him like that, and he wouldn't come back. It's better to die cleanly than to live a wolf bèi.

Thinking of this, I calmed down and struggled to sit up, my ankle had begun to swell, it didn't matter, I didn't want my life, and what was the pity for my feet.

As soon as his feet touched the ground, his heart hurt. Finally holding on to the table, I walked to the dressing table, and took off the cloth wrapped around my head, but the bleeding had stopped, but it was too dirty and ugly. I took some water from the basin with a handkerchief, wiped my forehead clean, wiped my tears away, and combed my hair neatly and tied it up.

When I stood up, my feet were already numb with pain, so I simply didn't care, took off the crumpled clothes on my body, looked for a long time in the closet, and changed into a light blue long gauze dress.

Suddenly I feel very cheesy, I'm going to die, what are you dressing up? After all, it's causing trouble, maybe it's a fire, does it matter what you wear?

I opened the drawer and took out a small box, and inside, there were bitter almonds.

I took the box and sat in a chair by the window and looked at the moon outside. Eat them one by one, will this thing really eat the dead? Anyway, I'm hungry right now, and it's really good that I can die and not be a starving ghost.

Suddenly, someone snatched the box from behind me. I was taken aback, and soon smelled the familiar fragrance of flowers, it was Zhou Sinian, it turned out, he had been there. If I had known that he was there, I would have been moved to death.

"That's how you want to die? If you can't kill yourself, then poison yourself? ”

"I remember I still had a mansion, didn't I?"

Zhou Sinian looked at me in surprise: "What do you want to do?" ”

"Die or go."

Zhou Sinian sat down and said: "On the day of the wedding, it was really messy, the fire was too big, many things were not clarified, and it may be that I was mistaken." ”

"Then why did I become the way I am? Even if what you say is true," my eyes blurred with tears, "the biggest thing that happened on the wedding day wasn't it?" What do you want to cover? What made me the way I am? Wouldn't it be cleaner to kill me? ”

Zhou Sinian wanted to speak and stopped.

I continued: "But now I don't want to know so much, after all, I am stupid, my father and mother are stupid, I am a king and a loser, I just want to find a place to live in seclusion." Is that okay, Zhou Xiang? Or, to ask the emperor? ”

Zhou Sinian stood up and said, "What if I say no? ”

"Then give me back my almonds."

"Is it really so sad to be with me?" Zhou Sinian asked, "Is there really another person in your heart?" ”

"I don't remember, not now."

"Okay, I'll send you back to the mansion tomorrow," Zhou Sinian leaned over and said, "I'll go to see you every day." ”