"That's how stupid I was at the time." Chen Ainan sighed with some self-pity, "I did an unworthy stupid thing for an unworthy man, and now that I think about it, it was really ridiculous at the time." ”

Then Chen Ainan smiled self-deprecatingly, it was a silent sadness, but her voice was very calm.

There are many things in the world like this, and it's not a big deal to figure it out afterwards, but at the time, I couldn't figure it out, I just felt that the landslide was cracking, and I didn't want to live, and it seemed that I didn't even have the courage to live.

So, I thought of facing death.

In general, in this case, there are two outcomes.

The first is that to be dead is to be dead, all grievances and grievances are wiped out with the passing of life, and when a person dies, it will naturally be a hundred, what else is there to dispute? Right and wrong don't matter anymore.

In addition, there is the second type, who has died but did not die, and finally saved his life on the verge of death, this kind of person who has died once will often understand life at the moment of death, and then he will be sober, and he will no longer be so stubborn, this kind of person will often cherish his second life more.

Now I am facing Chen Ainan, who must belong to the second type, she drank a glass of wine and began to talk to me about her past.

Chen Ainan, like all girls, experienced the youthful girlhood, and began to enter the palace of marriage, she married a man she loved, so at that moment she felt very happy, and at the same time had good expectations for her future, who doesn't want to live a better life?

But fate always seems to be unfair to some people, Chen Ainan's married life is not happy, and the biggest aspect is because of the most vulgar thing in life - money.

In fact, to be honest, most people in this world are poor, and the definition of so-called poverty is also related to a person's personality, and money is not the most critical factor.

Some people do not regard poverty as a burden, the most prominent manifestation is the kind of contentment and happiness mentality, since it is always happy, then naturally live a very happy life, rich and not rich, happy, because they (she) know what satisfaction is.

Indeed, whether a person is happy or unhappy is not too directly related to more money and less money, money is actually a virtual thing, it is not a real existence.

I've asked a lot of people before, what do you most want to have?

Then there was a significant number of people who answered that it was money, and the more the merrier.

But the problem is that money is just a virtual currency for circulation, and even if a pile of real money is in front of you, those banknotes are not real.

Because the kind of thing you want to have the most is what you want to get in exchange for money, and the kind of thing you end up getting is what you really want in your heart.

It's just that too many people can't see through the essence of this, such people are actually living in a mess, or they can also understand from another angle, this kind of people are actually very unconfident, so they can only enrich themselves with money.

Even if there are no relatives, no friends, no love, even if everything is gone, they (she) at least have money to numb themselves, after all, money can buy many aspects, even if those aspects are not what they really need in their hearts, but at least they can temporarily numb their nerves and feel that they are not really nothing.

So there is a saying that some people are poor and only have money left, which is the sad thing about this kind of people.

There is another type of people, that is, people with a character similar to Chen Ainan, the most significant feature of this kind of people is that their hearts are higher than the sky, their lives are as thin as paper, and they (she) really have no money, and some even have problems with the most basic living expenses.

Chen Ainan said that her life after marriage is like this, the reality is cruel, it is difficult, the happiness and beauty that she once dreamed of were soon shattered, and her husband has no ability, and her life is not as good as day by day.

But Chen Ainan is too strong, she almost changed her life against the sky and wanted to reverse her fate, but the sky did not obey people's wishes, even Chen Ainan's desperate struggle did not have too obvious effects.

What's even more ridiculous is that the more such people are, the more likely they are to have emotional crises, and if you think about it carefully, it is not difficult to understand that the reality is depressing, and there is no way, so you have to choose to escape.

And the best way to escape, and the easiest way to paralyze yourself, is to find relief from the emotional aspect, so Chen Ainan's husband had an extramarital affair and had that kind of disgraceful relationship with a woman who was far inferior to Chen Ainan.

The moment she knew the truth, Chen Ainan was on the verge of collapse all of a sudden, she couldn't figure out why her husband betrayed her, she was desperate in front, and her husband not only did not accompany her to work hard, but stabbed her from behind.

So Chen Ainan fell, not a person fell, but a heart fell, and her son Xiaohu was just three years old at that time.

However, Chen Ainan is strong after all, and later in the face of her husband's crying and tearful confession, Chen Ainan finally forgave him, after all, she loved him, and then Chen Ainan had a strong personality, and she did not allow herself to fall because of this incident, she struggled to stand up with the grievances of blood and tears, and she fought against fate again.

Then in the next few years, fate finally favored a little, Chen Ainan through his own efforts, and her husband did really regret it, after the two of them had no emotional crisis, they could naturally focus on life, so the days were getting better day by day, and the two of them began to have their own savings, and their lives were gradually on the right track.

At this time, Chen Ainan made a bold decision, she decided to quit her job with her husband, and the two of them used their savings for several years to open a coffee shop.

Chen Ainan is indeed a woman suitable for a career, the reason why she was poor in the past was because she had no chance, but now that she has the opportunity, she is naturally able to shine, the coffee shop is becoming more and more prosperous under her hard work, and the family's income is doubling day by day.

Life is rich, Chen Ainan's whole person has become radiant, a good mood determines everything, Chen Ainan feels that she can finally raise her head and be a man, she has exchanged her own efforts for her own dignity.

It's just that fate is really ruthless sometimes, Chen Ainan originally thought that she could finally start her wonderful life with her head held high, but an accident completely knocked her from the peak of her career to the hell of life.

The husband eloped with a waitress in a coffee shop and took all the savings that belonged to the two of them.

So overnight, Chen Ainan was beaten back to the original form of poverty, she could no longer withstand the second emotional betrayal, what is left of Chen Ainan now? Nothing is gone, not even self-confidence is gone.

So the scar on Chen Ainan's wrist appeared, she no longer had hope in life, she chose death.