I hummed a little song as I walked, the more I hummed the little song, the more desolate my heart became, I knew that Gillian loved me very much, but I felt more and more that this was not the love I wanted, her love was like a big stone, just like Siphzy in ancient Greek mythology, offended Zeus, was punished by Zeus for pushing a boulder up the mountain, I never dared to let go, and I could never regain my freedom.

I hate this kind of life, I hate living with guilt like this, I want to get rid of it, I have long wanted to make me and Gillian as beautiful as when we first met, but I can never go back.

The mobile phone in my trouser pocket keeps ringing again, I don't have to think about it to know it's Gillian, her mobile phone was also bought for her by Ah Liang in an Internet café, I never called her before, we were together, it always felt weird, I just didn't know what it was like.

The phone rang countless times, I wanted to vomit when I listened to it, I had the urge to change the phone ringtone immediately, or turn it off directly, and the irritability in my heart surpassed everything, but I finally answered, after all, she is Gillian, no love but feelings.

I desperately thought about Ma Rong, Lin Ling, Xiao Min, Xie Wei, Li Fei, Mu Wanbing, and I suddenly felt that I was better with anyone than Gillian.

I answered the phone and didn't speak, I didn't know what to say, Gillian said, "Don't bother me, you look back." ”

I stopped, stood where I was, looked back, didn't find Gillian's figure, and felt angry again.

"Are you sick, I can't see anything, what do you want me to see, what do you want to do, I'm not a dog, grass." I didn't want to hang up after I finished speaking.

Gillian on the other end of the phone cried, I found that I hated her more and more now, I used to think that seeing her was like seeing Jiangnan, but now when I see her, I feel that the whole world is dark.

"Why, what's wrong with me, what's the point of my life, why are you doing this to me, what did I do wrong, you tell me, can't I change it?"

I don't talk anymore, no one is wrong, what's wrong?

"If you don't look carefully, how do you know where I am, I don't want to live anymore, you go, I thought I could love you without caring about anything, and I would make you fall in love with me, but in the end I still can't get your love, what's the point of me living." Gillian cried louder as she spoke, the kind of cry I had ever heard the most hysterical.

"Gillian, don't come nonsense, don't think nonsense, I just want to be quiet alone, I just want to be quiet alone, can't I just be alone?" I was still a little angry in my heart, but I was really worried about Gillian.

I didn't finish talking when I heard the blind tone on the other end of the phone, and I immediately panicked, feeling that the high-rise buildings around me, the traffic began to turn, and I was trembling, and now I was scared of Gillian, I was really afraid that something would happen to her.

I ran and smoked desperately, ran for a while, walked for a while, walked for a while, and ran again, looking for Gillian everywhere, kept calling, and still had no news of Gillian, I patted the tree on the side of the road with my hand so hard that my hands were bleeding, and I couldn't take care of the pain, and I really wanted to cry.

I don't belong to this city, walking on the street, everything is strange, strange I want to find a hole to curl up and hide secretly.

I cried and laughed, smoking cigarettes one after another, my nails pinched my flesh, blood flowed, the flesh turned out, everything was a joke in the eyes of others, I was shouting in my heart who would help me, I thought about calling, to the Buddha, to Ah Liang, to the few people in Qiao's gang, I also thought about giving 120, 110, 119, 114, even if it was 10086, I wanted to fight, I just wanted to find someone to talk to me, let them help me, I really don't want Gillian to have an accident because of me.

But the big Buddha, Ah Liang, steamed buns, and planes are all people who have liked Gillian, it was Gillian who rejected everyone and gambled on me, and it was the brothers who let me take care of Gillian, how can I tell them.

120,110,119,114 After hearing what I said, they immediately scolded me and warned me, saying that I was obstructing official business, disturbing public order, and wanted to detain me. ”

The customer service of 10086 is a woman, her voice is beautiful, she kept saying after listening: "Sir, may I have any questions?" I said so much that she still kept asking, and I got angry and said directly: "I'm a grass mud horse." I hung up the phone, and after a while, 10086 actually texted me back, and I saw that I actually replied: "I am a grass mud horse." ”

I immediately got messy, and I felt all kinds of anger in my heart, and after a while, I texted back again: "Please comment on the service I just had, 1. Very satisfied; 2. Satisfied; 3. Dissatisfied. ”

I was angry when I saw it, and replied: "The grass mud horse is very poor." Then I chose a 4, and I thought that very bad should be the next option, and she didn't write it out.

Later, he sent me a text message back: "I'm sorry, I answered incorrectly, the system automatically defaulted to very satisfied, thank you!" ”

I grass, I was deflated, my heart was even more uncomfortable, I was walking on the road and still looking around, and I thought that Gillian asked me to look back, so I ran to Renmin Street again, and kept looking along the road I came from, and finally saw her.

From a distance, I saw Gillian sitting on the overpass very small, her legs hanging in the air, many people looked up, but no one went up to help, my heart trembled so much, I ran to the overpass.

I ran up and picked up Gillian off the bridge, hugged her tightly, she grabbed me tightly, her fingernails pinched into my back, and the two of us stood in the crowd crying, becoming a scenery in everyone's eyes.

"Where have you been, where have you been?" Gillian cried in distress, her voice was hoarse, and her whole body was trembling.

"Don't leave me, okay, I don't have my parents, I don't have anything, I love you alone, don't leave me, okay?"

I cried again, touched Gillian's hair with my hands, and held her in my arms, feeling very uncomfortable.

"It's okay if you beat me and scold me, I just like you, if you think I'm bad, you can be nice to others, but don't leave me, okay?"

"I won't leave, I won't, I'll take care of you for the rest of your life, don't cry, it's me who was wrong, I'm sorry." I cried and said to Gillian.

My heart really hurts, Gillian's love really hurts me.

"I just want to be with you, I just like you, don't treat me like this, where did you just go, I can't find you anywhere, where have you been, I'm sorry, it's me who is wrong, I shouldn't have said that about you just now, scold you so much, don't be angry with me, okay, I was wrong, I was really wrong."

"Jiao, you're right, it's me who is wrong, don't cry, okay? I'll take you home. "This is the first time I have called Gillian so affectionately, it is from the heart, I force myself to accept Gillian's love for me.

Then I left with Gillian in my arms, and when I was leaving, an old woman who was kneeling on the side and begging raised her head, her face was wrinkled, she wiped her eyes, and said with tears in her eyes: "Young man, live well, don't do stupid things, the little girl ran up to stand tall and see far, want to find you, don't feel that it's a burden, love is happiness." ”

I cried, took out a hundred yuan from my pocket and gave it to her, she said: "I don't want money, you young people don't make money, and you don't have much money, you take the money to buy some food for the girl, and play with it, it's good, you have to be responsible when you are a man, don't leave her alone." ”

"Got it, grandma, thank you." After saying that, I gave her the money, and then left with Gillian in my arms.

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