Xuan Yu was stunned for a moment when he heard me say this, I took advantage of this time to jump up and jump into the bedroom, the people behind me didn't follow at all, I leaned against the door and sat down, I didn't know what it was like in my heart, I was a little expecting him to come over and say that it wouldn't be like that, but I was afraid that he would really say that, and I had no way to refuse.

There was a knock on the door outside in the middle of the night, and then there was a magnetic voice from Xuan Yu, "Lin Luo, I hope you can think about the matter between us, I can't give you the promise you want, but I can guarantee to be good to you and satisfy you within the scope of satisfaction, as for who can guarantee it in the future?" ”

When I said the last sentence, I could obviously feel the sigh of that sentence, and I felt a kind of distress inexplicably, and I felt distressed for that sigh, this person must have a story.

At that moment, I really wanted to open the door and soak in the gentleness I had just had, but I heard footsteps outside the door, and I left slowly but with a resolute will.

Hearing the sound of the door being closed, I don't know why I feel a little sad, I always feel that this person is like a gift from God sometimes, how much he is like a baby when he is gentle and affectionate, looking at the sky through the window and smiling, but tears are in the corners of his eyes, my dear, are you okay in heaven?

I don't know how long it took for me to get up slowly, the swelling on my feet had improved a little, and I couldn't help but smile wryly at the bow, the wine had almost dissipated, but I couldn't sleep.

dragged my feet to take a shower, changed into a cotton white pajamas and lay on the bed, but I didn't feel sleepy, looking at the wall clock ticking, it was almost a point, I wanted to hypnotize myself to fall asleep quickly, but the more I did this, the more I couldn't sleep.

The so-called methods of counting sheep are all deceitful, I always count more and more awake, let alone fall asleep, looking at the moonlight in the cool night, I got up and rummaged in the drawer for a while, found sleeping pills.

This is something I had to eat all the time last year, because if I don't eat, I can't sleep, and the doctor won't give it to me, for fear that the depressed patient will take it away and die of it.

So the only bottle I bought from the guest, I had to eat it every day when I was in the dormitory, and after moving here to live alone, I rarely touched this medicine, because the environment here is quiet and the personnel situation is relatively simple.

I don't have a lot of psychological pressure every day, and when I come back, I feel that I am no different from ordinary office workers, and I can sleep with peace of mind, but today my heart lake was disturbed by Xuan Yu, I can't sleep at all, and my heart and mind are full of this person's figure.

I don't know what happened to me, but the feeling in my heart is lingering, knowing that I can't keep this person, but I was still moved by what he said, and I began to have this person in my mind.

I couldn't stand my brain confusion like this, so I grabbed the medicine bottle and poured two pills in my hand, drank a glass of water, lay on the bed and closed my eyes, trying to calm myself as much as possible.

Time slowly slowed down, the ticking of the wall clock kept ringing in my ears, and I began to feel a little sleepy, and then slowly closed my eyes and fell asleep.

The next day I was woken up by the alarm clock, the time has pointed to eight o'clock, the habit I used to develop when I went to school, I usually get up at seven o'clock, today because of the medicine, so I didn't wake up until the alarm clock rang.

But my brain was dizzy, I don't know if it was because I was drunk yesterday, or because I took too much medicine, the redness and swelling on my feet had almost disappeared, and my stomach suddenly began to rumble while sitting on the bed.

So I had to dress for this belly, because although I had a refrigerator at home, there was nothing in it except ice cubes and drinks, and I was a person who never turned on the fire, and I had to go out if I wanted to eat.

I often go to the breakfast stall of my second aunt's house near me to buy xiaolongbao and tea eggs, the stall owner is an old lady, her face is full of wrinkles, she looks like she should be almost 70 years old, but she comes here very early every day, but the tea eggs are very thick and fragrant, so I always come to eat.

When she saw me coming, she hurriedly beckoned to me, "Why is it so late today, if you come a little later, I will go home, don't you have to go to work today?" ”

"Well, it's the night shift today, so I'm up late!" I replied this way, in fact, I was afraid that others would know what I did, and every day when I came here to buy breakfast, I also told the old lady that I was going to work after buying breakfast.

"Night shift!" The old lady nodded, "Then you have to pay attention to your body, it's better for girls not to work night shifts, night shifts hurt your body!" Now you don't think that when you get married and have children in the future, you must not be able to work night shifts! ”

I whispered my kindness, but there was some bitterness in my heart, I also wanted to find someone to marry, have my own family and children, but when will I be able to get rid of this sea of suffering, when can I find someone who loves me to stay with me for the rest of my life?

I took a bite of the bun in my hand, and suddenly felt as if someone was looking at me, so I looked around, but no one saw it, I frowned strangely, and said that this is my own heart?

After eating the buns, I paid the bill and went back to the apartment, turned on the TV and kept changing the channel with the remote control, but I couldn't see anything, I just felt that the medicine on the coffee table was really an eyesore.

It always reminds me of the person who gently rubbed my feet yesterday, I can't help but despise myself in my heart, obviously people are just a whim, and even think that I am wrong for someone else, why do I have to think about him all the time here, I really can't find myself happy.

Thinking about turning off the TV, I got up and packed the big stuff on the coffee table into the big bag, and then picked up the bag and walked out, originally throwing it into the trash can when I was waiting outside, but when I got to the door, I still didn't get down, and finally took it back and stuffed it into a cabinet that I never opened.

After noon, I didn't have the 'desire' to eat, so I took out a piece of clothing directly from the closet, put it in my bag, and took a taxi to the club in sportswear.

Seeing me, Sun Yu pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled charmingly, "Yo, it looks good, I thought you were going to come late today because of a hangover, but I didn't expect it to be so early." ”

I looked at Sun Yu and hugged her with a smile, "How could it be, you are such a big beauty here, how can I bear to leave you alone!" ”

"Cut, come less!" Sun Yu twisted my waist and teased, "Lin Luo, you said that you always come to us in sportswear like this and then change, you don't have to bother, you come so early every day, and your time is wasted on makeup and changing clothes." ”

I just smiled and didn't explain, this kind of thing is a matter of opinion, many people may not care about what people look like, but I always care, I care about other people's eyes, I care about what others think of me, I care that others will look down on me.

Seeing that I don't speak, Sun Yu will no longer speak, there is a consensus in the circle, everyone has their own scars and secrets, if people don't want to say it, just shut up, this is the best solution.

At this time, Sun Yu's phone rang, and she picked up the phone after a sniffle at me, "Well, I miss you, but aren't you looking for a job, if you are free, be good, see you that night!" ”

After hanging up the phone, looking at Sun Yu's expectant look, it looked like it should be his boyfriend, so he looked at him and waited for him to explain, Sun Yu raised the phone in his hand at me, "The handsome guy on the new fish, especially the little fresh meat, let me tell you, I haven't seen such a pure boy for many years!" ”

As she spoke, she raised her eyebrows at me, her face was full of joy, and I couldn't help but laugh at her like this, "You won't be trapped, will you?" ”

Sun Yu's eyes stained with false eyelashes blinked, and he kept tapping his chin with his fingernailed hand, "There shouldn't be, it's just that who doesn't like such a handsome young guy, we can't reach those Korean stars or anything, it's good to find one in real life!" ”

I couldn't help but laugh when I heard Sun Yu say this, "The little fresh meat is not so easy to soak now, when the time comes, other people's families are not sad that you fall into it yourself, and then you will be miserable!" ”

Sun Yu raised his eyebrows, "Don't worry, I will definitely be able to win this position, even if I can't succeed, it's good to let my sister try it!" Ha ha! ”

I couldn't help but want to laugh when I saw Sun Yu smiling, this person is like this, always so optimistic, so I couldn't help laughing, there were more and more people in the lounge, and I also started to change clothes and put on makeup.

As soon as I put on my clothes and sat down, Sister Hong hurriedly rushed in from outside and said to me, "Lin Luo, your old patron Boss Guo is looking for you, go and have a look!" ”

I nodded and heard Sister Hong say to Sun Yu, "You also go over, there are a lot of people over there, you also go over and have a look!" ”

Sun Yu and I have always been used to being together, so I didn't say anything and went straight to a private room on the third floor, this floor is mainly for people with heads and faces in D City, but it's not the kind that can really cover the sky with one hand.

Walking into the room, Boss Guo saw the two of us coming in and beckoned directly to me, "Lin Luo, long time no see!" As he spoke, he pointed to a person next to him, "This is my business partner, I heard you say that you must come here to have a look, you have to help me accompany him!" ”

"That's natural, Boss Guo's business is my business!" I said with a light smile, in the middle of the two people, I only heard him say in my ear, "This person is my big customer, if you can help me get it, I will tip the two of you 10,000 yuan each today!" ”

Hearing this price, I was naturally moved, this person is a bald man who looks like he is 50 years old, his face is full of pimples, and he looks a little disgusting, but how can he be a young lady to pick guests.

So Sun Yu and I took turns to go up and drink with this person, who spoke a mouthful of Mandarin that we didn't understand very well, "Oh, it's really beautiful, come, drink~." ”

Sun Yu and I exchanged glances, a smile appeared on the corner of our mouth, it is easy to get drunk in the clubhouse, but this person is not as easy to get drunk as we imagined, but when we drank for a long time and were a little dizzy and packed, he was still excited, grabbed my hand, "Come on, come on, have another drink!" ”

Then he pointed at Sun Yu, "You can dance for me, dancing like you must be beautiful!" ”

Sun Yu was already used to being asked to dance by guests at this time, so he stood up and turned on the music and danced slowly, I have to admit that Sun Yu's charming temperament is indeed sultry, as a woman, I can't help but be moved, let alone these men.

After two glasses of wine, this person let go of me directly, and also stood up and jumped up with Sun Yu in his arms, Boss Guo looked like this and said to me, "Lin Luo, you go first, I see that he likes this girl very much, just let her wait, if it becomes money, I will give you a lot!" ”

Hearing this, I frowned, after all, the people in this room are all my regular customers, I brought Sun Yu over, and now I am a little worried about leaving him alone, so I looked at Sun Yu.

Sun Yu naturally heard this, and nodded at me, which means that it doesn't matter, he can handle it, I had to nod and leave, after all, the guests in the club are the first, and the finger set is required by others, as long as it can be done, it must be done!

I went out and closed the door, and walked back to the lounge, there was no one in the lounge at this time, everyone tried the test table, and the wine went with the wine, only Sister Hong sat on the sofa bored and smoked, and smiled when she saw me coming back, "It's over so soon, what about Sun Yu?" ”

I shook my head and sat down, "It's not over, the person brought by Boss Guo doesn't want me to accompany him, what type of Sun Yu does he prefer, so he asked me to come back first, and I will come back first if Sun Yu agrees." ”

Sister Hong nodded, lit a cigarette and looked at me in the circles under her eyes, "Sun Yu's charm is the biggest capital, I brought up these sisters with me, and I am really relieved to see that you have all become red cards now." ”

I went to Sister Hong's side, picked up a cigarette, lit it on the cigarette in Sister Hong's hand, took a puff and looked at her, "Sister Hong, why are you so sad when you say this, it seems that you are not the same today as usual!" ”

Sister Hong just showed a vague smile when she heard me, which was different from the usual kind of flattery, and the half-true smile on us, and it could be seen that today's Sister Hong was different.

Sister Hong deeply demagnetized the cigarette in her hand, "Today is my tenth year in the industry, a full ten years." ”

Hearing this, my hand paused, what is the concept of ten years, the best time of a woman's youth is only a few years, but Sister Hong has spent ten years here, and the most youthful age is spent here.

Seeing that Sister Hong was a little out of shape, I hesitated to open my mouth, "Sister Hong, haven't you made up your mind never to come back after so many years, so many people have earned enough money to change a city and leave to live again, why don't you go?" ”

Sister Hong laughed when she heard my words, and took a deep breath of smoke and opened her mouth faintly, "At the beginning, I was forced to enter the industry, and I also learned from others to leave, but it was only later that I found that I could no longer survive when I left this industry, and after all, I turned around." It's not that the money in my hand is not enough, but I have seen too many people in this industry, tall, short, fat and thin, rich and not, men raise their hands and I already know what they want, and I see the pursuit in the hearts of ordinary people, and I don't want that kind of life anymore. ”

Listening to Sister Hong's words, I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, how many people who do this line of work are willing, not desperate who wants to do this, they all have fantasies when they come in, but what Sister Hong said is not wrong, I have seen too many people, can I still be willing to live a dull life?

After Sister Hong finished speaking, she smiled at me, "But I just sighed for a while, you are still young, and you have opportunities, maybe you will meet someone in the future, or you want to leave to live a different life!" I also sigh with time, don't go to your heart, if you can really seize the opportunity, you still have to try your best to fight for it! ”

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