As a child of a miner from the countryside, Zhang Hao looks sunny on the surface, and in the eyes of others, he is an optimistic, cheerful, confident and motivated student. But only he understands that his heart is extremely inferior.

And his inferiority complex comes from his childhood, when he was in elementary school, he thought that his father was the most powerful person in the world, so he had a strong confidence in his father.

That year, he got into a fight over a classmate who insulted his father. When both sides were called parents, Zhang Hao learned that the classmate's father was the owner of his father's mine. Watching his father's groveling apology in order to keep his job, from that moment on, the seeds of inferiority were planted in his young heart.

He often thinks that if the roles were changed at that time, his father was a rich boss, and that classmate's father was a miner, would he dare to bully himself?

So, after going to junior high school in the city, I was in a new environment. Whenever someone asked about his parents' work, he would pretend to be reserved and say that his mother was a stay-at-home wife and his father was a mine owner. But because his father was very strict with his family education, he didn't want to be infected with the bad habits of the rich second generation, so he usually didn't give himself too much money. But as long as you need it, it's okay to take out tens of millions at any time.

Over time, this lie spread and became the truth in the eyes of most people. And he has become the rich second generation in everyone's eyes. Unsurprisingly, since then there really has been no one to bully themselves anymore, and some have even started to flatter themselves.

Zhang Hao enjoyed this feeling very much, and even unconsciously believed his lies to be true, Zhang Hao, who did not go home for a long time after arriving at college, continued to deceive himself and play the role of hiding the rich second generation, and sometimes unconsciously regarded his parents as a miner as a dream.

But what is fake is fake, and no matter how much you act, it will never become real. Once, a friend was in trouble and urgently needed tens of thousands of dollars. The desperate friend borrowed money from him because he knew that he was a rich second generation. But I know my own situation, and I don't have any money! For this reason, Zhang Hao made up a lot of excuses to prevaricate in the past, but at that time, it also aroused the suspicion of people who knew him.

Zhang Hao also had a girlfriend in college, and he was visiting the campus with his girlfriend that day, and somehow his father came and met him on the road. The moment he saw his father, Zhang Hao felt that the world had collapsed, how could he be round this time?

The girlfriend looked at her father, who was dressed as a miner and called her name, and then at herself, waiting for her explanation. I had no choice but to bite the bullet and say: "This is my father's worker, he came to the capital this time, and my father asked him to stop by to see me!" ”

As he spoke, Zhang Hao saw the surprise on his father's face and the complexity in his eyes, but before his girlfriend looked at him, he put away these emotions, and his face was so calm. It's as if what you say is true.

It wasn't until he asked his girlfriend to go to the dormitory first, and he and his father sat in a small restaurant on the side of the school to finish eating, that his father stared at him tightly. But he didn't mention what he said on campus, but asked himself: "Xiaohao, didn't you say that your school can't enter without a student ID?" Why did I go straight in, why lie to me? ”

I am speechless, do you want to say that I have been living in a lie woven by myself at school? Annoyed and angry, he was angry with his father: "What are you doing here? Look at your outfit, don't you think I'm embarrassed enough at school? ”

silent

Hearing Zhang Hao's words, his father was silent for a while. There was no anger, no sorrow, not even a word.

The father got up silently, took out the money from his pocket and settled the account, at that time Zhang Hao watched his father take out the ten, five, one, and even dime change from his pocket. At that moment, Zhang Hao felt not distressed, but embarrassed!

Yes, shame on your father for being so poor.

After paying the bill, the father looked back at himself, said nothing more, and turned to leave. At that time, Zhang Hao stretched out his hand and opened his mouth, wanting to grab something or stop his father. But he didn't make any sound after all, and watched his father turn away, leaving himself with a staggering back.

Since then, my father has not been to his school.

Although Zhang Jianzhong is honest and loyal, he knows many things. So no matter how heartache he was, he still silently agreed with his son.

He didn't want to embarrass his son again, he didn't want his son to lose face at school, so he never went to school to look for his son again.

Just because he is a miner and his wife is a miner. Their appearance will only embarrass his son. So the two of them endured their thoughts for four whole years, and did not look at their son again.

The old couple has paid silently for so many years without asking for anything in return, only hoping that their son can get ahead and live a happy life. As for himself, the grievances are nothing. As long as the son wants it, as long as they have it, they will not refuse. Even if the son broke their hearts again and again.

But that's Zhang Hao doesn't understand, he only knows that his parents are embarrassed by him, and he looks down on his parents' careers. Therefore, even if he knows that he is deceiving himself, he is still continuing his lies.

But my girlfriend gradually discovered that she was not pretending to be poor, but really poor. So I left myself in my sophomore year. But even so, Zhang Hao still hasn't woken up, and he is still dreaming of self-deception.

In his senior year, Zhang Hao met his current girlfriend. I was attracted to her at first sight. In order to catch her, Zhang Hao weaved lies one after another. In the end, he succeeded, and he wanted to share this joy with his parents. So he called his father, who rarely called, and told him that he had found a girlfriend.

But in the face of his father's request to let him take her home, Zhang Hao didn't know how to refuse, and he didn't dare to open his mouth to her. Because when I returned home, all the lies were self-defeating. Therefore, even if his father urged him again and again, he was just looking for excuses to shirk. Even his girlfriend asked to go home with him many times, but he found excuses to refuse again and again.

Until a few days ago, my father once again mentioned that he would bring his girlfriend home. Zhang Hao knew that he couldn't shirk it anymore, so he told his father the truth while his girlfriend was cooking in the kitchen.

He didn't know what kind of damage his words would cause to his father at that time, and he didn't know how disappointed his father would be by what he had done over the years. But he knew that once he returned home, his lies would be shattered, so he had to go all the way to the dark.

More than 20 years!

It wasn't until today that Zhang Hao knew that he was such a bastard, and now that he finally came to his senses.

Listening to the words of his father on the other side of the phone, even if he knew that he was such a bastard, even if he broke his heart again and again, when he thought he was in trouble, his father still said such things!

Sell your house? Sell-kidney? Just for the need for money for which I don't know why!

Looking at the computer screen in front of him, Zhang Hao was suddenly a little happy, he was glad that he saw this micro-movie today.

If it weren't for this video to wake me up, in the future, would I really have to ask my parents to sell their houses and kidneys to make money for themselves because they needed to use money to open their mouths to their parents? He didn't know if there would be such a day, and he didn't know if he would regret wanting to commit suicide if he did, but he knew that from now on, he would never let such a thing happen.

He had never regretted it once as much as he did today.

If only time could be turned back.

He would never lie to anyone that his father was a mine owner, and he would never weave that beautiful lie to satisfy his vanity for the sake of that boring face.

He will never let his father endure the longing for his parents and children for four years without seeing each other, just to prevent others from discovering that his father is a miner and exposing his lies.

He won't go home once in a few years, for fear that his girlfriend will find out that he is a miner's son, and use one lie after another to fulfill the previous lies.

If only time could be turned back.

He would stand in front of people and say with pride, with pride on his face, to everyone who asked him, "My father was a great miner." He carried the whole family with his not generous shoulders, and he used his unmajestic body to shield us from the wind and rain! ”

He will confess like his girlfriend: "My parents are both miners, they are ordinary, and they are great." They gave me life, and they raised me with their own lives. If you dislike them, then you can choose not to be with me. If you want to be with me, please accept them! ”

Listening to his son's crying voice on the other side of the phone, and listening to his son's apology and regret revealed in "Dad, I'm sorry", Zhang Jianzhong was stunned.

After so many years, he has been hurt a lot by his son, but he doesn't mind because it is his own son. As long as he is willing, he will not hesitate to take out his heart and give it to him.

Listening to his son's words, a trace of relief appeared on Zhang Jianzhong's face: "After so many years of dedication, it's worth it!" ”

Just for this sentence, it's worth it! All the grievances and injuries suffered in the past twenty years are worth it!

"Son, don't cry! I don't blame you! Zhang Jianzhong comforted his son over the phone.

Although he didn't know what had happened to make his son have changed so much, he was happy to see the change. His voice was very soft, but there was an inexplicable magic that made Zhang Hao feel at ease.

Listening to the ease and joy in his father's tone, Zhang Hao secretly swore in his heart: "I will never disappoint my father again in the future!" ”

"Dad! I'll take her home tomorrow. Zhang Hao's tone was full of firmness, "If she doesn't go back with me, I'll go back by myself." If she can't accept you, I won't have anything to do with her again in this life! ”

Listening to his son's words, Zhang Jianzhong's tone sank: "No! ”

"Dad!" Zhang Hao was anxious and wanted to say something, but was interrupted by Zhang Jianzhong.

"If I say no, I can't, if you dare to do this, I'll break your legs when you come back!" He knows that his son's situation is not easy, and he doesn't want his son to lose his girlfriend for the sake of their old couple! There is nothing wrong with their old couple, they just hope that their son can live happily. Therefore, he said this sentence with great momentum, just like when his son was a child, he often taught his son a lesson.

"Dad! I'm sorry, please forgive my son for being willful for the last time! Zhang Hao burst into tears, "No matter what, I must go back tomorrow, even if you break my leg!" ”

With that, Zhang Hao hung up the phone.

Listening to the busy tone on the phone, Zhang Jianzhong was silent for a while, both relieved and worried.

"Alas! My son is older and has his own attention! Shaking his head with a wry smile, Zhang Jianzhong put away his mobile phone, and at the same time, there was a knock on the door!