"Deira, I don't know why you would say such a thing. But as an older sister, it's sad to hear, and Mom and Dad will be very sad to hear it. Dinah shook her head helplessly.

Dinah felt that Della had gone too far by saying that they were like this. In their eyes, Deira is family. Because she hasn't been home for a while, her family misses her so much that they come here to look for her. And the friendship between family members cannot be measured by money and achievements.

But perhaps the frown on Dinah's face when she said these words was not a sign that her sister was very bad in her heart.

Perhaps in her heart, her family is an incomparably warm existence. It's like a child who lives in the sun, who can never understand a child who grew up in a dark corner.

The pain, despair and sorrow in their hearts cannot be shared with them. Maybe it's really only those who have experienced it. Or maybe only those who have seen it will understand, right?

"Is the friendship between family members measurable by money?" Dina didn't say what she thought in her heart, but she was quite dissatisfied with Della in her heart.

"If you are sad, you will tell me that it is sad, but my heart will be painful. And to force a smile in front of you, you know that sadness? That's the real heartache!"

As she spoke, Della pointed to the location of her heart, stretched out her head and said to Dinah, "That heart-rending pain will come to me every day." Every day I stay with you, I have to endure this pain and force a smile in front of people. Have you ever tried that kind of inconsistency?"

Saying that, Deira looked at her sister with contemptuous eyes again: "No, you haven't tried. Anyway, sister, you're really lucky! From childhood to adulthood, you have everything you want. If you want something, your parents will buy it for you without saying a word. There are also a lot of people around to help you when you want to do something. And study, you learn everything faster than me... Why does God favor a person so much, why can't he sympathize with me and share my love!"

Speaking of which, Deira was a little heartbroken, and these were words that she had hidden in her heart for many years.

Not to be watched, not to be understood. Forcing a smile in front of people and trying to show that I'm alive and well. It's a pity that if she was really alive and well, Dira wouldn't be complaining to her sister in such a hoarse voice.

When Deira is most relaxed, when she is alone in her room. After dinner and a few more small talks with her parents, Deira went back to her room.

She was glad that she didn't live with her sister, so that even the only bit of her time would be taken away in front of the excellent Dinah.

The door was closed by her, and at that moment Della leaned weakly against the door. The weak body fell down against the door.

Then there was a heavy breathing sound: "Whew~"

It's all over, and she finally doesn't have to behave like me in front of others.

With her eyes closed, she leaned lightly against the white carved wooden door, driving all the unpleasant moments out of her head.

What unpleasant things happened today?, Deira thought back in her mind.......

"It wasn't my turn to set off fireworks today. ”

Thinking of this, Dila's small mouth pursed, obviously dissatisfied.

But outside, Dira just smiled. In fact, she is using a smile to hide the embarrassment in her heart, and a smile to hide her mood of wanting to set off fireworks.

"Yes, that's just too much. Why can't I change the order? I'm the last one every time, and Dinah should tell her companions about the order. ”

Daila's dislike of Dinah: +1

"Also, Dinah and the boys were always dangling in front of me. It's really an eyesore, Dinah should go to the other table to talk......"

Daila's dislike of Dinah: +1+1

After class, Dinah is really popular with boys. In the blink of an eye, several boys came around, all of whom were good friends who usually skateboard with Dinah. There are a lot of skateboarders, but when I skateboard with Dina, I am the same age, and the boys are the first.

"Daina, have you watched this latest one, it's super good. Yesterday it scared me when I saw it. ”

A boy comes up to Dinah's desk and talks to her.

Deira sat behind Dinah, and at the moment she was reviewing the teacher's lecture in her mind. I was so noisy by the boy's sudden 'noise' that I couldn't remember anything.

At that moment, the memories that could have been captured a little bit were getting farther and farther away from her. Until later, I couldn't catch it at all.

Dai La closed the textbook and looked at the couple in front of her with great dissatisfaction. There were traces of fire flashing in his eyes.

"Really? I'll take it back and see. Dinah took it from the boy's hand.

"I recommended this to you after I read it. It was late after watching it yesterday.,The protagonist is really crazy.,After watching it, I lost sleep in the second half of the night.。 ”

Sure enough, the boy has obvious dark circles under his eyelids, and he hasn't slept well!

"Is it that scary? It's obvious that you're cowardly, okay? The last time you recommended me to read the book, it was also said to be scary, but it turned out that you were scared......." Deira replied domineeringly.

The boy was a little embarrassed by Deira's words, and scratched his head: "Anyway... I think it's scary... Even if you didn't think it was scary in the previous book, it was still good. ”

"That's right. As she spoke, Dinah took the book and flipped through it, intentionally or unintentionally.

And Deira, who was behind the two, was so noisy by their conversation that she was not in the mood to learn at all.

Originally, Deira wanted to have a big fight with them and have a good theory with them, but then I thought about it a lot. It's really hard to say, so I let them go.

"Annoying sister, you know how to show your good popularity in front of me!"

Daira, who was crouching against the door, was very angry.

"How do I feel that this day is not going well! No, I should say that every day is not going well. ”

Every night when della returns to her room, she leans against the door and complains about the unpleasant events of the day.

The one who received the most complaints from her today was Dinah, and yesterday she was a classmate. Because Daila asked her to borrow an eraser, and the classmate didn't lend it to her, Daila came back and complained for a long time.

But there was no way, others didn't borrow it, so she had to use a pencil to cross out the wrong place. But then there is a very ugly mark on the workbook.

On the originally neat workbook, there was an extra scratch, obvious. is very conspicuous, and this trace makes Deira more and more unhappy the more she looks at it.

And the day before yesterday, Deira plucked up the courage to ask Xiao Ming a math problem. Introverted, she did her own ideological work for a long time before the problem!

Deira sat in her seat in a panic, and kept talking to herself in her heart......

'Go, go, go. I'll just try this once, Xiao Ming likes to help others so much, he will definitely help me. ’

So Della plucked up her courage and came to Xiao Ming's side with the test paper.

"That's... Can you tell me about that?"

Deira was like a young girl, and the boy was also doing math problems at the time, and he was doing it energetically.

"Wait until I'm done with this question. ”

Deira stood there with some embarrassment, feeling like a sculpture, stiffly holding the thousand-pound roll paper in her hand.

At this time, Dina also came to Xiao Ming's side, and Dinah couldn't do the question that Xiao Ming was doing, so the two discussed together.

"This question should be about functions, I think it's ......"

The two of them just said each other, and Della was left hanging out.

God knows how embarrassed she was then......

The light in the classroom seemed to have dimmed, and the positions of Dina and Xiao Ming were bright, and the abundant white light shone on them without hesitation.

But Della was shone into a dark corner, stiff and in place, no one watching, like an invisible person.

Deira remained in the shadows for a long time, and she just watched silently, the two of them discussing in front of her.

"You see, that's it!" said Dinah.

"Well, this question is quite brain-burning, making such a big bend. "Xiao Ming.

The two looked at each other and smiled, and the atmosphere was infinitely beautiful.

At this time, Xiao Ming noticed Della who had been waiting beside him, his gaze stayed on Della and Dinah's gaze also looked at Della .

"Does my sister have any questions?" asked Dina a somewhat casually.

"I did have a problem that I couldn't think of just now, but I already know the solution. ”

With a panicked look in her eyes, Della hurriedly answered Dinah's words and returned to her seat.

God knows, Deira sat back in her seat, and her heart was mixed. I feel anything.......

"Really, I've obviously mustered up the courage to ask Xiao Ming a question, why does my sister still have to intervene. If you hadn't come over suddenly, maybe Xiao Ming would have given me a lecture......"

Daira's bag was casually thrown to the ground, and a roll of paper poked its head out slightly, and she stayed quietly on the floor.

"In the end, it's all my sister's fault. It's all my sister's fault!"

All the mistakes were categorized on Dinah, and she still wouldn't do that question, even after a few years, Della still wouldn't do it.

Of course she wouldn't, how could she! What she said at that time was just that she didn't want to be too embarrassed in front of her sister, and with a sister who was better than herself in front of her, Deira felt that she could only live in the dark.

Of course, she also tried to share this with her classmates.

"It's not a big deal, Xiao Ming is more drilled when he does the question. The person is still quite enthusiastic, and when he finishes this question, he will explain it to you. ”

After listening to this, the classmate felt that she was making a fuss. This made Della even more unbearable, and she felt that she was completely unable to communicate with the outside world and integrate into the outside world.

What seems small to her classmates is very important to Deira.

After Deira tried a few more times, her classmates couldn't understand her thoughts, so they simply didn't say anything, choosing to close herself off.

This is what she looks like now, she used to be very envious of her sister having so many bosom friends. Now Deira just wants to fully immerse herself in the music, because only when the melody of the tune rings in her ears does she not feel that the world is lonely.......

"If I'm going to fall, let me fall into boundless darkness......."

These are the words spoken by a girl in pajamas, gazing at the moon hanging high in the sky, the night before the performance.

A cold smile appeared at the corner of his mouth: "Anyway, I will never be able to be looked at, and I will no longer be able to have happiness." Then let me fall into the boundless darkness, and take those who don't love me with me - go to hell together!!"