Chapter 57: Waves
Yakumo's questioning sounded intensely personal at first glance. She is judging Feili's personality completely with her self-knowledge. The result was that she didn't trust everything the other party said in her heart.
But in fact, there is nothing wrong with her cognition.
The monster sage who has gathered the unknown inner essence under the glorious exterior, and still can't figure out the inside of the Eight Wills, sometimes feels that the brilliant golden eyes that seem to be burning flames always make her feel an inexplicable trembling heart.
Because of the shame, she didn't even say it to anyone, not even the trusted Shikigami and her best friends. It was a fear that only the youkai sage knew, and it was hidden deep in his heart.
On the other hand, the Valkyrie didn't seem to be able to detect the complex emotions of the monster sage at all, and he pondered for a moment with a relaxed attitude that he was clearly pretending to be stupid, and then said.
"No, how could it be. I'm not that bad."
He flatly denied Yakumo's questioning.
"Why is it that he is entertaining you?"
"And what are you here for?"
But the problems that can follow, there is no intention to let go. Although the stingy words of the monster sage were a bit like they were about to find fault with a fight, it would be better if the other party could sense Purple's spurning and leave on their own.
It's a pity that Feili is the guy who made Yakumo Purple never get what he wanted.
"Hmm...... I was a little surprised."
His hand caressed his smooth jaw, and his gentle gaze was fixed on Purple's face, as if he was reminiscing about something wonderful.
Although his gaze is warm and restrained, he will not be too bold to intrude into the realm of others while making people feel comfortable. It can already be said that it is the best sight to look at what others can use. Even Purple is not confident that she can grasp it better than him. However, the uneasiness that swelled up from the bottom of her heart still made the muscles in her face tense a little.
Why...... Because she always felt that when this man appeared in front of her, it would basically only bring some unpleasant moods.
"I'm used to seeing your sinister expression on weekdays, so I didn't expect you to be able to smile so innocently...... Should I say that Yuyuko of Xixing Temple is too powerful, or should I say that you actually have an innocent side? All in all, I was really blown away by the smile you just had."
The voice that came into his ears was clear and pleasant, but it had a deep masculine character, but if he had a choice, Yakumo would rather not hear a word himself.
Holding back the hot blood that was about to pour onto her face, she maintained a cold expression. However, in order to keep her expression from collapsing, Purple decided to immediately change the topic that made her feel inexplicably ashamed.
"Are you eavesdropping?! Your temperament is despicable."
Seizing on the loophole in the Valkyrie's behavior, Purple rebuked his fierce behavior in a strong tone that made people feel a little disobedient.
"No, I didn't hear what you said, I didn't use lip sync to pre-read your conversation, I just noticed your expression."
Fei Li shook his head without changing his face. There was no hint of lying falsehood or panic in his expression, only a convincing calm that showed his honesty.
Of course, this gesture of a man has no value in Zi's eyes. She had no intention of arguing about it. Even if it's heard, there's nothing she can do.,Although it's a conversation that makes her face hot.,But there's nothing unsightly in itself.。
"No, although it was a beautiful smile, I have some regrets."
「…… What are you talking about?"
Purple raised her thin, elegantly shaped eyebrows.
It's not out of anger, it's out of confusion. She couldn't even figure out what the other party was talking about.
As if he was about to add follow-up troubles to Purple, Fei Li said the words of confession with a serious look that couldn't tell that he was joking.
"You should be in that way too...... In the face of me."
The stunned feeling similar to being punched head-on made Purple just stare at the white-haired man in front of him for a few seconds. And when she came out of the strange nothingness, Purple finally smiled at the man for the first time.
It's just that...... That's a mockery, I'm afraid.
"Hahahaha...... What kind of vulgar joke are you playing?"
"It's a pity, every word I just said was sincere, and there was no perfunctory meaning."
There was no retreat at all, and the vigor of still maintaining his own ideas made Yakumo Zi frown. She looked into the other's eyes inquiringly.
Bright and brilliant eyes reflected her own figure, and Yakumo Purple couldn't see the slightest panic and wavering in them.
Realizing that he might not be telling a vulgar joke, the Monster Sage put away his mean face.
「…… Then you should understand that if I have a sincere smile on you one day, then the whole world must be just you and me at that time."
-- A harsh declaration.
That's right, Yakumo Purple and Yayi Feili are enemies who share the sky. At least that's what she thought.
"No, I'm not talking about smiling, I'm talking about your relaxed state. You don't understand what I mean."
However, Fei Li shook his head as if he had heard some boring words. From his heart-wrenching calmness, there is no trace of embarrassment in rejection.
After all, he wasn't confessing in the first place. It's about a deep relationship that is entangled between the two, but Yakumo Purple hasn't been able to detect it yet.
「…… What?"
"You're afraid of me."
The swiftness of such an assertion is full of unquestionable flavor.
However, this statement almost made Zi laugh dumbly.
If she was the martial god of the past, then she was indeed afraid of it. Just by looking at it, the Phoenix Martial God, who could feel the great pressure, was sprinkled with the terrifying coercion of ghosts and gods.
However, at this moment, the white-haired man sitting in front of her, even if he could still sense the surging power that overflowed from him, he no longer had the invincible power he used to have.
It was like an aging lion -- the majesty of the past still existed in that solemn form, but the power that really determined the battle had long since passed away. Only a layer of shiny skin remains.
Although it is not to be said that he despises the Eight Meanings Feili because of this, no matter what, the combat power of the Martial God is probably still above that of the Monster Sage. But Yakumo Purple would never be afraid of this man who had long since lost his invincible power.
He said this, probably because he was too immersed in the glory of the past and overestimated himself. This is a rare gaffe.
But Yakumo didn't plan to take the opportunity to be sarcastic.
"Seriously...... There's really no truth to what you're saying. If you're just here to tell me this nonsense......
"-- -- Inferiority complex."
A smug smile suddenly turned into a stiff arc on Yakumo Murasaki's gorgeous beauty, as Fei Li's mouth, which could almost be said to be extremely rude, interrupted her false words that even she was aware of.
Unmoved, he spat out another seemingly unrelated word. This kind of performance can't help but make people wonder if he and the youkai sage's thinking circuits are on the same level.
「……」
I don't know what the reason is, when this inexplicable word comes out. Zi, who originally thought that she had the upper hand, seemed to suddenly realize something, and lowered her bright eyes gloomily.
Her wordlessness is the best proof that what Feili said is true.
"On top of power, I'm in a realm you don't understand, and with my past experiences, you have an inferiority complex for me - but it doesn't matter, the inferiority complex itself is just a small ripple in your heart."
As he spoke, he picked up the wine glass that Yakumo had put down, and looked at it carefully with an inexplicably calm look.
Powerful words and movements come out of a state of complete separation. It is undeniable that his meaningless movements are surprisingly appropriate, and they do not feel so abrupt.
"I've had this kind of senseless turmoil before...... But I didn't reveal it, probably because I was too old to take it to heart. However, if we allow this turmoil to remain in our minds and turn a blind eye, our inferiority complex will soon turn into uneasiness and fear, which will breed hostility. That's a meaningless attachment. It's just a futile attempt to turn other people into their own enemies. That's why you want to liberate yourself."
The flying words were like a cool breeze sweeping through Zi's heart.
Even now, she has to admit that the other party's words are not untargeted. Because of her hostility, she will be passive every time she encounters Feili. This shallow attachment made her narrow-minded.
But the question is, why did he tell her about it?
「…… So, how do I get free from this mood?"
I didn't understand it, and I don't plan to figure it out at this moment. Yakumo decided to solve the problem at hand first.
Although this may go according to the other person's wishes, as long as it is the right choice. Then even if it makes this guy proud, it doesn't hurt that she won't ignore the real power for the sake of a momentary mood.
…… And if you can free yourself from this senseless hostility and let your every move no longer have a trace...... At that time, Yakumo Murasaki, who has returned to the true nature of the monster sage, will have to Jiaofei to experience the horror that angers her.
"Letting go of resentment is the best thing to do, but it seems that neither you nor I have the possibility. …… So, the way is obvious, isn't it?"
Feili chuckled at her.
It was a smile that would not be disgusting, but of course, Purple, who was staring at the Valkyrie with cold eyes, did not smile back at the man.
"I don't see anything obvious, and-- can you not rely on the sellers to show that you are unfathomable?"
Her tone can undoubtedly only be described with contempt. The pungent rhetoric combined with the narrowed eyes is a blow to any man who wants to show off.
However, Fei Li couldn't see the shadow of wavering and embarrassment, and he shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly. Explained to Yakumo Purple in a relaxed tone.
"Yes. Then I'll get straight to the point. But before I do that, I have to make it clear that you also like to use this method to make yourself unfathomable? Why can't I?"
Judging from the truth alone, Feili's words are indeed flawless. However, he didn't realize how stupid it was to reason with women. However, after getting Yakumo Zi's cold gaze in response, he simply gave up his confession. Instead, he answered Purple's original question straightforwardly.
"Low self-esteem leads to insecurity, which turns into fear, and fear breeds hostility. And in the end, it is the hostility that leads to unnecessary strife. But this can be avoided if you dispel hostility, fear, or insecurity."
He changed the wine glass belonging to Yakumo Purple in his hand to the other party's hand, he said.
"As long as you know me well enough, you won't be unnecessarily afraid."
"Indeed......"
Taking the wine glass handed by Feili, Purple muttered an acknowledgment of his words.
It's human nature that fear and insecurity come from the unknown. But what I didn't expect was that a guy like her, who called herself a monster, ended up being so similar to a human?
Sensing a certain degree of sarcasm, Purple couldn't help but snort coldly.
「…… Hmph, it's obviously a monster, but in the end, it's exactly the same as a human in this regard. But then again, why should I get to know you better?"
Zi, who reacted, glared at the Martial God, only to find that the other party had stood up unconsciously.
"That's your choice. I'm not afraid of you, though, Purple. Because I know you."
This is the first time Feili has simply called her by her name.
Of course, what was filling Zi's heart at the moment was by no means moved. Rather, it is the opposite of the feelings.
Although it is called the whirlpool of uneasiness that flows in the heart, it seems that it is not so easy to surpass it for a while.
"What do you know about me? Valkyrie?"
"You're so much gentler than you think. You may not have noticed it yet, but you can just keep it that way. Because in that case, sometimes I think you're a little cute."
Saying some strange and frivolous words, he walked away from Yakumo Purple without a trace of nostalgia. It was as if he had come to the Monster Sage to add to her troubles.
「…… This guy."
Looking at the back of Fei Li and leaving in a dashing manner, Yakumo Zi did not feel the slightest relief.
She slammed the glass in her hand, crushing the shards of white porcelain into powder.
It was supposed to be an innocuous conversation, but this frustration that was not as good as the other party mentally made Yakumo deeply unhappy. Moreover, his last words also made the monster sage unbearable.
…… Because it was only for a split second that she sensed the other party's malice.
His accosting seemed to dissuade the uneasiness and hostility, but in fact it was equivalent to tearing open her shell and exposing her inner emotions to the outside. Not only that, but he also enjoyed it.
Wait for me!
Secretly cursing his enemies deep down, the Yokai Sage waits for the time to wash away his shame.
…… That's not going to be very far.