The beginning of Zhao Xia's extremely miserable life originated from Zhu Huaijun's work-related accident.

Zhu Huaijun fell down from a ladder several meters high, and after being unconscious for so long, he was able to recover, everyone said that it was a miracle, that he would not die in a catastrophe, and that Zhao Xia was also a blessed person, avoiding the tragic fate of being a widow.

At that time, Zhao Xia also thought so, there was no man in a family, and it was always sad that day. Especially when she still has a young child to raise, Zhao Xia thinks that she is not a big woman, and she can't support half the sky like the Iron Lady, she is used to Zhu Huaijun's broad shoulders to rely on.

When Zhu Huaijun just woke up, Zhao Xia cried with joy, eager to worship the gods of the Quartet, thinking that it was a miracle, but she didn't expect that this was just the beginning of her nightmare.

What everyone saw was that Zhu Huaijun's temper was getting more and more irritable, as if he had completely changed as a person, and only Zhao Xia, the pillow person, knew the real reason why his temper had changed so much.

It was the second month after Zhu Huaijun was discharged from the hospital. Zhu Huaijun's health has improved significantly, the doctor has allowed him to go back to work, Zhu Huaijun seems very excited, lying in bed for more than half a year, he doesn't want to stay at home for a while. Helplessly, his wife was frightened by his injury this time, and almost regarded the doctor's instructions as a holy purpose to worship, what the doctor said was what it was, and he implemented it meticulously.

Lying in bed like a waste person all day long, Zhu Huaijun's mood can be imagined. It was easy for the doctor to relax, and his wife became easier to talk to, as a man with normal physiological needs, Zhu Huaijun wanted to be close to his wife who had not been intimate for a long time that night.

The two of them drove their son to bed as soon as it was dark, and then they couldn't wait to get into the bed, and it was only then that he felt something strange about his body, and he obviously couldn't think about it, but the place where he was proud was as if he was drunk. I couldn't stand up all the time. Tossed until midnight, Zhu Huaijun's fiery heart became cold, and his wife didn't say anything at the time, but was still comforting Zhu Huaijun. But Zhu Huaijun can sensitively see the deeply hidden disappointment in his wife's eyes.

He thought he was recovering from a serious illness. The body has not fully recovered. It still took time, and although he was a little depressed, he didn't take it to heart at that time. Another week passed. Zhu Huaijun is still powerless, he still deceives himself, his body is still weak, and he can't be in a hurry. But many months have passed, Zhu Huaijun has not had any improvement, even if his wife secretly bought a lot of vegetables with aphrodisiac effects, and specially bought stews such as bull whips and sheep whips for him to eat, at first he was quite patient to cooperate with his wife, pretending that nothing had happened, eating and drinking and working hard to nourish his body, but as time went by, Zhu Huaijun felt more and more hopeless, and the emotions that were infinitely magnified along with despair, as well as the shame brought by being a man, inhumane.

He didn't want to, but he couldn't control himself, he suddenly felt that his wife didn't look pleasing to the eye, his clothes were not washed in time, the food was not served in time, and even his son's crying could easily provoke him, he just felt that no matter what he did, he would always be in a state of irritability, and living was a painful thing for him, and he felt that it was an illusion that others looked happy and happy family.

He began to find fault with Zhao Xia intentionally or unintentionally, and always kept finding excuses to fight with her, no matter how good his wife's temper was, she kept following him, but she still couldn't offset his desire to fight. Because all the resentment in his heart needs to find a channel, and a virtuous wife is his best choice now. The Zhu family has no peace from this day on.

He only pulls his wife to quarrel twice a day, and then kicks his son twice, will he get a trace of peace in the depths of his heart, he knows that it is wrong for him to do this, but he can't control it, his temper is getting bigger and bigger, and when it comes to it, whether at home or in the outside world, he can't think of saving some face for his wife, because he feels that the most pitiful, sympathetic and innocent one in the world is him.

After all, Zhu Huaijun used to be a good family man, and there was still something called conscience in a small corner of his heart. This conscience was most embodied when he saw his wife's tear-stained and haggard face when he got up inadvertently a few times. He knew that he couldn't hurt his wife and children like this anymore, or maybe one day he would really lose them.

Except for a small physical obstacle, Zhu Huaijun is still a normal man, all his physical desires still exist, but there is no longer a channel for catharsis. He was crazy and wanted to enjoy the happiness of **** again, so he didn't see a doctor or take medicine, all kinds of home remedies, as long as he heard about it, he would definitely try it. In a small city like L City in the 90s, when almost everyone knew each other, Zhu Huaijun's approach was very bold.

But the miracle did not appear again, he spent a lot of money, he suffered a lot of sin, and there was no curative effect at all, he even used the method of watching pornographic films at home and stimulating himself, seeing the **** men and women in the picture, when he heard the beautiful moaning, Zhu Huaijun knew very well that he wanted it extremely crazy in his heart, but his little brother did not cooperate at all, lying there softly, and there was no tendency to raise his head at all.

So in desperation, Zhu Huaijun turned his target to the young and beautiful girl, he thought that maybe his wife Lao Zhuhuang was not attractive to him, so he couldn't stand up. The streets were full of beautiful young women outside, and he should try them out with someone else.

So for the first time in his life, Zhu Huaijun took his hard-earned money and went to find a young lady. Miss is well-informed, proficient in blowing, playing and singing, but let her use eighteen kinds of martial arts without reservation, but Zhu Huaijun's little brother just didn't cooperate, the young lady was tired and half dead, and couldn't help but complain a few words, the meaning of the words was that if Zhu Huaijun couldn't do it, don't come to make trouble and delay their business.

Maybe the speaker didn't mean to. But Zhu Huaijun obviously listened to it, and the young lady almost pointed at his nose and scolded him for being a waste snack, which finally became the last straw that broke the camel's back. Zhu Huaijun no longer has a reason to deceive himself, he must accept a fact, and from then on he will be considered a eunuch.

What about the wife? What about the wife? My wife is just in her twenties, and she still has a lot of life, is she just guarding him as a wasted person? My wife often touches herself in the middle of the night, and she must have desire.

What if his wife wants a divorce, he doesn't even have a reason to force her to stay. No, never! His wife is the love of his heart. Even now they love and kill each other. He would rather die than let go.

He began to try to refrain from it, and perhaps he could not give his wife the enjoyment and happiness of a woman, but now at least, he could try to make himself look as gentle and reliable as before. Anger that comes from the depths of the soul is not so easy to suppress. Zhu Huaijun had to find a way to divert his attention.

Under his diligent search. One day when he was checking the line. The young woman who was passing by was seen in his eyes. She was so full of youthful energy, and the smile she showed made him so confused.

He unconsciously followed in her footsteps. I was moved by her smile. Zhu Huaijun seemed to have returned to the age when he was in his early twenties and unmarried, and with such an inadvertent glance, his heart seemed to have been shot by Cupid's arrow again, and he felt that he was once again in love with someone.

He loved everything about her, this wonderful feeling, it could not be described in words, even if he had been married to his wife for many years, he had not felt this heartbeat of happiness for a long time, and he even faintly felt that if this woman was under him, he would definitely be able to carry a gun and drive straight to the other side of bliss.

This kind of thing, ********, will slowly accumulate over time, and once the toxin explodes, it will go out of control and drown all his sanity.

At first, he just casually patrolled the route repeatedly, expecting a boyish heart, as long as he occasionally saw the goddess in his mind, he felt that the sky had turned pink and happy. Gradually, only occasionally, he could no longer satisfy his surging love, and he began to carefully follow her home, just like his intimate boyfriend sent his girlfriend home who returned home late.

That day, as usual, he sent her home. Just as she was about to enter the house, she suddenly turned around and smiled at herself, and that smile was like the sun suddenly rising in the night, illuminating Zhu Huaijun's entire world.

He felt that she must have seen him, she knew that he was silently guarding her, and she responded, encouraging him to get closer to her.

So the next day, Zhu Huaijun specially asked for leave from the unit, cut his hair, changed into new clothes, put on shiny leather shoes, and even bought a fiery red rose on the way there.

Before going out at last, he hesitated a little and took a small dagger. Even Zhu Huaijun himself didn't understand why he would hold such a dagger in his hand, maybe subconsciously he knew that he might use it. Maybe he thought about it too much, and the so-called looking back smile may just be a delusion that he missed too much in his mind and wanted too much, and he took the initiative to contact the other party this time, probably when he really woke up from his dream.

Zhu Huaijun is actually very self-aware, he is 30 years old this year, he is already married, he has a son, and his work is dirty every day, how can he be worthy of her white-collar background, she is so good that she will not even look at people like herself. I am uncertain about my own fate.

Sure enough, Zhu Huaijun came to the door while she was on vacation, and introduced herself shyly, but the other party was at a loss, she didn't know her existence, she never knew that there was such a person who was silently paying attention to her.

She looked scared and asked Zhu Huaijun to leave immediately, threatening to call someone.

All his wishes were frustrated, and he was beaten from heaven to hell in an instant, Zhu Huaijun was out of the ground and angry, not only did he not get any return for all his efforts, but he was also treated as a bad person.

Is it tolerable or intolerable? So in anger, Zhu Huaijun waved his dagger and stabbed down one after another, and for a moment he felt that the body was not his at all, and it was completely out of his control. When he came back to his senses and stopped moving, the originally beautiful young woman was already unrecognizable, and her flesh and blood were blurred.

He fled in a panic, but luckily the new shirt he was wearing today was brown, and soon after the blood splashed on it, it lost its vivid color and became less conspicuous. Zhu Huaijun ran all the way home and did not attract anyone's attention. Fortunately, there was no one at home, so he took off his bloody clothes and stuffed them in a hidden corner.

When everything was dealt with, he felt afraid, the warm touch of blood seemed to still stay in his hand, he really couldn't believe that he had just ended up with a fresh life, it turned out that killing someone was such a simple thing, just like killing a chicken. No, unlike killing chickens, which didn't bring him such thrilling satisfaction, he felt that the place that had been silent for a long time was starting to stir.

That night, he and his wife frantically tossed for a long time, and in his wife's ambiguous begging for mercy again and again, he seemed to have regained the manhood that he had lost for a long time.

The passion of this murder lasted for a whole year. Zhao Xia felt that God was too good to her, and they waited for the second miracle in their lives.

However, when one day she finally found the bloody clothes that her husband hid in the closet, and the fact that he accidentally said in his sleep, and learned that her happy life during this period of time was actually bought by a young woman with life and blood, although Zhao Xia thought that she was not a selfless person who could kill her relatives in righteousness, but she was also not indifferent to watch her husband go to a point of no return without knowing how to dissuade her.

As soon as this layer of window paper was pierced, Zhu Huaijun immediately changed his face, and the secret he hid in the deepest part of his heart was nakedly presented, if his wife did not keep her mouth shut to help him, what was waiting for him would be severely punished by the law.

How could he be willing? His life has just begun to move towards perfection, and the police have no clues to pursue him in that case, who would kill themselves when they can live well?

In an instant, Zhu Huaijun's eyes swelled with a bit of murderous intent, Zhao Xia had been married to him for many years, knew him very well, knew that he couldn't deal with him physically no matter what, seeing that he would be stupid and hit him headlong when he was going to suffer, he hurriedly followed Zhu Huaijun and said a few words, indicating that he absolutely did not mean to go to the public security bureau to report him, so he appeased him, but after all, there was still a thorn in Chaoxia's heart. (To be continued.) )