Chapter 22: The Hero's Sin

"Hey! Hoodlum! Come to Mommy's arms! Rest assured, it's soft and not hard at all."

Hearing this call from behind him, Feili couldn't help but have a smile on his face, which was both funny and helpless...... The latter accounts for more of the ingredients.

Feili didn't expect his mother to say such a thing, so let's listen to it as a joke. He had no intention of returning to his mother's arms, even if it was comfortable.

My own mother...... What a woman who has nothing to say.

What is rolling in my heart is a feeling that is not a complaint. The rest of the Yuedu probably wouldn't have thought that Yayi Yonglin would have such a character that made people not know what to say, because Yonglin would only show this in front of people who were closer to him.

However, is it especially excessive in front of yourself? Fei Li sometimes can't help but think so. In fact, he also knew that there was no reason to stand up to this kind of thought, but he still couldn't help but think so.

Is that because he wants to be a unique person to Yonglin? Whether he has this kind of idea or not, let alone God, even Feili himself doesn't know very well. However, what is certain is that Yonglin is definitely an irreplaceable family member for him.

「…… Let's go find Kira."

Removing this kind of distraction from his mind, he redefined his goal.

That's right, it's not Yonglin who has to worry about it now.

Compared to the mother who will not suddenly disappear from the face of Feili no matter what, or the girl who is now at a loss is more worthy of his help.

It's just that...... How do I tell her?

Thinking of the girl's rare blank posture just now, Fei Li rarely felt tricky.

No way...... The boat will naturally go straight to the bridge.

With this idea of going with the flow, he walked steadily to the room just now. …… Then, when he saw Kira's state, he couldn't even speak.

"Hey, hey! Are you really the one I know? If Musashi Izumishita had known something, he would have been worried about the way you are now."

It can be said that it is an extremely grim word. But Feili didn't want to say that, but Qiluo's dejected appearance made him helpless.

It's like having lost souls...... On weekdays, her clear and firm gaze was unfocused, staring ahead in confusion, and she didn't even notice that Feili had arrived in front of her.

This is inevitably too much of a contrast from the usual. I couldn't stand it and had to say this kind of thing.

Although Genji's reaction was undoubtedly due to Yonglin, he still couldn't help but think a little sadly, was he so scary?

Hearing that you want to marry yourself can scare such a martial arts daughter like this? If that's the case, that's sad.

…… Of course, Feili can't be that scary. If Kira had to make a choice about how he felt about Feili, whether he liked it or hated it, then the answer would be the former.

Kira is just ...... Pure shock arrived. I was shocked by the possibilities that unfolded in Yonglin's words.

He practiced martial arts with the attitude of questioning his own body, and trained himself with the desire to become a noble person, and after a lot of tempering, he finally had his current posture, like a warrior with a flawless blade. From beginning to end, she has also walked firmly on this road. No, that's probably not true...... This girl, Kira has never seen a second way other than that.

Therefore, when she saw the new possibilities in front of her, she couldn't help but feel very shaken.

The orthodox bloodline of Genji, the daughter of Minamoto Musashi, from the moment she was born. No one but her parents just saw her as a girl, and everyone saw her as a symbol of Genji, and everyone told her so. By the time Feili met her, even the girl no longer regarded herself as a girl.

Feili always thought that this was the girl's temperament...... Maybe she is a natural warrior, a martial artist with high roots. He never thought that maybe this kind of character was formed unconsciously after tomorrow.

-- Even now, Fei Li has not been able to fully perceive this.

「…… Ah, I'm sorry, but my words made it a little difficult for me to accept for a while."

Even as he said this, Kira, who had largely returned to normal, still looked shaken...... And, perhaps an illusion, Fei Li always felt that her gaze was evasive, and she didn't seem to dare to look at him at all.

Obviously, all of this in front of him is thanks to what Yonglin said before. Now Feili can only try to restore the relationship between the two to its usual state.

"Oops, I didn't expect your reaction to be so violent. Of course, Yonglin did say something stupid, and please don't take this to heart."

"No, it's okay with Eirin-sama...... It's my practice that isn't enough. I would be shaken by such words, I am still too far away. At the very least, you have to be as calm as Lord Feili."

That's because you haven't seen the quiet scene of me being played by Yonglin--Fei Li really wanted to say this to her, but considering the current atmosphere, he still gave up.

I have to say that Feili's words played a little bit. Kira, who is falling into self-blame for her gaffe, now looks no different from usual.

What to do now is to divert her attention further, and it just so happens that Fei Li has something to say to her.

"Then again, Kira, your relationship with the Peace Clan has been very bad before."

"I'm not biased against the Ping family."

Genji was uncharacteristically hesitant to express his feelings.

"It's just that she doesn't like her."

How do you tell Kira? Her so-called displeasure was actually a matter of prejudice -- which was put aside for the time being and put on an irrelevant note.

But putting aside this seemingly logical question, Feili understood what Kira was trying to say.

The so-called unbiased probably means that she can judge everything Ping Qingle does objectively. As for the unpleasant ...... That's because Genji is fundamentally a person who has a very bad relationship with the Peace clan.

But this can be changed...... At the very least, Fei Li thought from the bottom of his heart.

"I think if you try to understand each other a little better, you might be able to become good friends."

Rarely, Genji looked at the person she had always respected with a rather rude gaze. It was a look of disbelief, re-examination.

「…… Is Lady Fei Li joking?"

"Nope."

Too crisp, decisive answer.

But Genji's answer is the same.

"I don't have anything to understand with that Ping, I know what kind of person the Ping clan is, I can't-"

"Do you know what kind of person Ping Qingle is?"

Without waiting for Kira to finish speaking, Fei Li asked rhetorically. In contrast to his usual calm tone, he seemed a little aggressive at this time. This was not an illusion, and after asking this sentence rhetorically, he took a step in the direction where the girl was, as if he was going to oppress Kira.

"Can you tell me? Kira."

"I admit that Taira is an excellent warrior, but he is not a martial artist......

"So is there any difference between a warrior and a warrior?"

Do you need to ask this kind of question?

Kira really wanted to say this, but looking at Fei's sharp eyes, she couldn't speak for a while.

"Compared to a warrior who will do anything to win on the battlefield...... Or is it that martial artists who advocate martial virtues are more noble, that's what you want to say."

Of course, the reason why Kira doesn't have a good impression of the Ping family is that it's just because of this, and the Taira family's dissolute personality and the style of acting that is not upright and bright are also important factors.

But......

"You're looking for a noble warrior, aren't you...... I understand your sentiment and agree with it. If you want to be noble, this will should not be criticized in any way."

No matter how you listen to these words, it should be approving...... But why, exactly? Why did Kira feel that Fei's eyes were so heavy?

"Then do you think I'm a noble person, a noble warrior?"

A strange rhetorical question. This is simply a fact recognized on the moon, and it was actually asked by Feili as a question. No matter how many times you ask Kira, the answer to this question is the same.

"Does that need to be said? I admire Lady Fei Li as a role model for a martial artist, and I want to be a person with the same noble character as Lord Fei Li."

He didn't answer very sonorously, and his tone was not impassioned. But from that sincere look, you can see the admiration and admiration for Feili...... It's a gaze that will make people get carried away, and even if it's a martial god, I'll be happy.

Indeed, Qiluo, who has been learning martial arts with Feili since he was a child, will never forget his desireless posture.

Unexpectedly, although Feili did laugh, it was an out-and-out bitter smile. That bitter look is really incommensurate with his heroic appearance, but it is also more and more impressive.

"Did I say something wrong?"

Seeing Kira's expression, he was like a child who had made a mistake.

"No, no, you're right. Kira, I think so too, I am not only a noble man, but also a noble warrior, and I have lived a dignified life without any stain - at least, I used to think so."

The words that seem to be demanding of oneself are full of self-defeating.

Kira was speechless. There were too many shocks today, first Yonglin, and then Feili, and the mother and son were almost exhausted.

Although Kira was already speechless from shock, Feili had no intention of stopping.

"Your will is commendable, but it is only a child's childish dream. Although very reluctant...... But people will grow up one day, and I think that time is about now."

「…………」

Kira didn't react to these meaningful words as if she hadn't heard them.

But Feili didn't allow that to happen.

"In Kira's eyes, the difference between a warrior and a warrior seems to be very different. But...... That's not true, let me tell you -- there is no difference between a warrior and a warrior...... Both are murderers!"

"Nonsense!"

Sweeping away the silence just now, Kira roared with a momentum that was not lost in Feifei.

For the first time, it was the first time in history that Kira had roared loudly at Feili...... Maybe it's the last time.

"How dare you say it...... Then I ask you, Kira, you are the head of the samurai family, the head of the Genji family."

"Exactly!"

The momentum just now had not subsided, and although Kira didn't understand why Feili was asking such a meaningless question, he still subconsciously answered.

"So, if an enemy comes to attack, you will slash it by the sword in dignity on the battlefield, isn't it?"

"Yes."

"So, what is the difference between Taira and you? She is on the battlefield to get rid of the enemy by any means...... But since the result is the same, what is the difference between a warrior and a warrior?"

「…… This ......."

Kira hesitated, but the belief she had insisted on for a long time still made her subconsciously retort.

"As Lady Fei Li said, the process is not the same. Is it the same to fight the enemy fairly and kill them with all the vile tactics of warfare?"

"Utter quibbles......

Fei Li sighed.

"So what's the difference between the two? Yes, there are differences. But the difference is only for the living, and it is not any comfort for the dead."

Kira's teeth clenched, which was undoubtedly a symbol of anger. But the anger was not only because of the words that almost meant negating her, but also because of the disappointed gaze she had never seen before.

"It's also murder, and no matter how much you modify it, its essence will not change. The essence of a warrior is to be a killer. The same is true of the nature of martial arts...... Do you understand this? Kira."

Feili set his eyes on Kira with hope, and the answer he received was......

"I don't understand! What are you talking nonsense? I don't understand it at all!"

Saying this, Kira ran away.

Even honorifics are useless, and she calls Feili "you", which can be seen how excited she is.

Feili's words almost fundamentally negated the belief she had always cherished...... It is not surprising that there will be such a reaction.

But............

Looking at Qiluo's figure without saying goodbye, Feili did not stop him.

It is indeed a bit excessive to say such a thing suddenly. But a long time ago, it was the same with Feili.

He suddenly realized this truth one day -- before that, he had no guilt every time he killed someone, just because he killed them openly, and he was on the right side. Because of this legitimacy, he even immersed himself in the illusion that he was a hero.

However, perhaps it was fate to punish Feifei's arrogance, and he finally understood this truth.

He cannot be exempted from murder because of his own legitimacy. No matter how heinous the other person is, he who kills the other person is also a murderer -- this is one thing he has learned.

Maybe it was just too nervous, but Fei Li didn't want to ignore the fact that it was too sharp to be human. Warriors who charge on the battlefield are worshiped as heroes, aren't they?

But...... If everyone kills without hesitation or guilt because of their own legitimacy. Perhaps, then, the war, which was supposed to end soon, will also expand unlimitedly...... It's a terrifying scene to think about.

However, that doesn't mean that Feili has to turn a blind eye to some inhuman guys...... He just understood that he was not a hero, and that he could not take killing as a hero's merit, nothing more. He still kills the evil who brought terror to the world. There was no change in his actions.

The only thing that has changed is the heart.

Fei Li didn't want Kira to attach a needless psychological burden because of this. It's just that he found out that this girl had made the exact same mistake as before, so he hoped to be able to correct it in time.

Face up to your sins.

It's still too late, or else...... Maybe one day, she will lose even the bare minimum of dignity.