Winter 2018.

In a small area of BJ, in a small room, a man who couldn't see his face clearly was lying on the bed, tossing and turning, this was the third day of his fever, he thought he would recover soon, his vision began to blur, distorted, until calm. There was no sound around, and the snowflakes outside the window slowly drifted down, landed on the windowsill, and disappeared without a trace

Autumn 1999. A small room in a community in S City, full of 30 square meters, simple furniture, separated by a curtain in the middle of the room, and a bed on each side.

On the left bed lies a teenager, 11 or 12 years old, handsome, 170 tall, but with slightly mature eyes that do not match his age. "It's been 3 days." , the boy opened his eyes and looked at the faintly bright sky outside the window, and muttered in his mouth.

The boy's name is Lotus, a very strange and feminine name, and it is said that it cost a few hundred to find someone to calculate this name.

Lotus, born in 1987, is a native of S City, and his family is not wealthy, and even a little embarrassed. It can be seen just from the small room.

He studied very well in junior high school, but later due to some changes, his father died of a sudden illness, so he didn't have the heart to study. Messing around all day long, haunting Internet cafes. His mother left the country when he was 14 years old, and since then he has lived alone, sometimes staying at his grandmother's house. His mother often mailed him money, and the family's conditions gradually improved, but his people were even worse. Even before finishing high school, I started to crawl around in society.

Fortunately, he has a good skin, a height of 180, but his appearance follows his mother, and his angular face with clear eyebrows is even more attractive. But he didn't have a job until he was thirty years old, let alone married. The lotus has never been short of money to spend, and the girlfriend has been changed and changed, and she is in a mess all day long. His family had long been disappointed in him, or rather hopeless. He thought maybe he wouldn't live to be 40, or maybe he didn't want to live to be 40. He understands his problems, he doesn't know if he will change in this life, and he has long forgotten his ideals. But I have to say that he is very filial and has never taken the initiative to ask his mother to do something for himself, nor will he complain to his family. He knew very well in his heart that he was to blame for all this time. His biggest flaw is that he has a bad heart, is not firm enough, and at the same time does not reject people, which leads to his constant peach blossoms, and he is exposed to things that should not be touched in the grade that he should not have. The elders were not around, and he neglected to discipline, so far he became a waste.

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But!!! It can all be done all over again!! The young man who was still immature on the bed clenched his fists tightly, and a hideous expression suddenly appeared on his delicate face. He hated, he repented, but at this time, there was no remorse in his heart, only a fire, outside the window, it was already bright, and the clouds in the sky were red.

Silently dressed and packed his schoolbag, he was the only one in the family at this time, and his mother ran a small clothing store, getting up early every day and being greedy for darkness.

What to do? Lotus has a lot of ideas in her heart, to make money, not to let her mother go abroad to suffer, and not to face the cold eyes of relatives. But to put it bluntly, in his previous life, although he has reached the age of establishment, he has not learned the culture well, and he has no skills, stocks? I've never touched it at all.

Take your time, I can. He secretly cheered himself up in his heart.

Walking on the street, I don't know if it's because of my heart or something else, Lotus feels that the sky in this era is so blue and the air is so fresh.

"Lotus, hurry up." A student outside the school gate shouted at him, and the call made the empty lotus come back to his senses, and when he raised his head, he saw the little fat man jumping at the school gate, and the corners of his mouth hooked up a smile. Chen Cheng, this is his friend, although he only maintained a friendship in junior high school for 3 years in his previous life, that short but innocent friendship often makes him nostalgic.

"Here, let's go." The lotus ran two steps and walked into the campus with Chen Cheng.

Although he has been back for 3 days, looking at the immature faces, his heart has never been calm, because he knows that he will be different from then on!

Walking into the classroom and returning to his seat, his table mate was already reciting books, and his table mate in junior high school for 3 years had not changed, it was a quiet girl named Li Jiani. The long and supple hair is tied into a ponytail, the white skin is not a trace of dullness, the eyebrows are not thick, the eyes are shining, a very ordinary girl, but she is also a very clean girl, although she was at the same table for 3 years in her previous life, she did not have too much contact. I can't remember what she looked like.

Lotus took out his textbook from his schoolbag and began to study, the classroom was still chaotic, but this did not affect him in the slightest, because from the first day he came back, he found that he could remember and his mind was extremely quick, which was probably a benefit!

Li Jiani secretly glanced at the lotus, and she found that this table was a little different these days. Although he is usually considered an employee, he has never been so concentrated... And does he really understand the speed of turning the book? Li Jiani tilted her head and thought in her heart.

Lotus noticed her gaze, looked up with some curiosity, and found that her table mate was dumbly tilting her head and staring at herself in a daze, not knowing what she was thinking.

Li Jiani came back to her senses and noticed that Lotus's gaze was red, and she hurriedly lowered her head and pretended to study, but her little head was thinking nonsense.

It's inexplicable, but he doesn't care, girls at this age are always weird, children, alas, the lotus in the heart of the uncle sighs.

Class, class, and school, the lotus does not show any difference from usual, and if I have to say change, it is that I am confident when asking and answering questions, but this will not attract the attention of teachers and students.

When he got home, Lotus's mother had already cooked dinner, and his eyes were full of happiness when he looked at his busy but still young mother at the table.

"Hey, Mom, I'll come, I'll come, you will rest." The lotus flower who had eaten took the initiative to clean up the dishes and chopsticks.

"Okay, okay, be careful." Mother Zhang Li smiled, the child has grown up, Zhang Li thought secretly.

After cleaning up, the lotus began to study, and time passed little by little.

After reading it, he rubbed his sore eyes. That's right, he learned all the basics of junior high school in just 3 days. It's a shame to say, although he studied in his previous life, he has already returned it to the teacher. But relying on strong visual ability and brain power, it's not a problem at all!

Daybreak.

The sleeping lotus flower was woken up by Zhang Li.

"Lotus, get up quickly, let's go to grandma's house." Zhang Li said. Basically, every Sunday he has to go to his grandmother's house with his mother, in the heart of the lotus, the most concerned in his previous life is his grandmother and his mother, he was brought up by his grandmother since he was a child, and his grandfather was also very good to him, and then his grandfather died of illness, and he lived with his mother. Grandma lives alone, but fortunately, relatives and friends also live nearby, and my uncle and aunt basically go to visit every day. After coming back, this is the first time to see grandma, and Lotus is very excited and grateful!

"Here we are." He shouted energetically, and a carp stiffened, but did not get up, and fell back on the bed.

Zhang Li laughed, "You kid, what are you doing early in the morning." Get up. ”

The lotus flower blushed, and she got up and began to wash and dress.

"Grandma, open the door, it's me." Lotus's voice trembled a little.

The door slowly opened, and Grandma scolded with a smile: "Why can't you talk anymore?" Are you hungry? ”

Looking at the old man with still black hair, Lotus grinned and said, "Yes, you don't know what kind of cooking skills your girl has?" I'm going to starve to death. ”

"Poor mouth, come into the house." Grandma heard the lotus's words, and while talking, she brought him into the house, and she went to hot the meal with a smile.

The lotus entered the house, looking at the house in her memory, the slightly old decoration, and her heart was full of happiness

At the dinner table, Zhang Li and her grandmother chatted. The lotus raised her head and looked left and right, smiling silly!

"Mom, do you still buy lottery tickets? That's a waste of money. Zhang Li said dissatisfiedly.

"Oh, it's fun, it's fun." Grandma was a little embarrassed and wanted to fool the past.

Lotus suddenly remembered when she heard this, and her grandmother was keen to buy lottery tickets in her previous life, and fragmentary memories slowly surfaced in front of her

Lotus's eyes lit up, that's right, it's this time!! In the previous life, grandma complained for a long time because of missing two numbers, and thus had the habit of insisting on buying lottery tickets, and I remember it clearly, 03, grandma wrote 04, the tail number is 8, grandma wrote 9! Thinking of this, Lotus's hands began to tremble.

"Grandma, show me your lottery ticket." He asked, trying to maintain a steady tone.

"What are you looking at, little doll?" Although Grandma said this, she still handed it to the lotus.

The lotus took it tremblingly, and her powerful memory instantly memorized these numbers. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, his heart beating vigorously in his chest!

"Mom, grandma, I'm out playing." After a few bites of food in a hurry, Lotus ran out without waiting for them to react.

"You stay safe, slow down." Zhang Li's voice came from afar. The lotus walked out quickly, with a big smile on her face and a grin on the corners of her mouth, looking like a fool. But what about fools? If all goes well, then today he is willing to be a fool.

"Boss, I'll buy these numbers, 10 times." Lotus took the pocket money of the past two days, endured the excitement in her heart, wrote the number she remembered on a piece of paper and handed it to the boss, and said calmly.

The owner of the betting shop took the note and didn't say anything, happily betting, and handed the ticket to the lotus.

He stared at the paper, checked it a few times, and then carefully put it in his pocket.

Leaving the lottery station, he slowly walked home, walking turned into running, running turned into jumping. His heart is already boiling!

Ten times, the first prize, how much money you have to get it!! , everything that I didn't dare to think about before, everything I envied, will not be far away!

After the initial excitement, Lotus calmed down and began to think, he knew that his mother was a very capable and courageous person, getting up early and running a clothing store to maintain the family, and then went abroad alone to work hard, but he did not have self-discipline, neglected discipline, and eventually became a waste.

But in this life, the trajectory of life is different!