Lin Dawei, who is responsible for psychological counseling for Jia Yi, is young in the counseling center introduced by Fang Quan, but his ability is not inferior to that of Meng Tiangao, a middle-aged person, but he feels much more comfortable than Meng Tiangao, maybe because of the similar age, Jia Yi feels that communicating with a psychiatrist like Lin Dawei is not as nervous as he imagined.

Lin Dawei sat in his office chair as usual and rotated slightly, if he needed to get information or get close to Jia Yi, he would directly lean on the chair with pulleys under him to "walk".

Lin Dawei asked: "Yesterday, when we talked about family life and the era of studying, you said that you chose to talk about family life, right?" ”

Jia Yi nodded, and he continued, "So we can start, where to start?" Dawei lowered his head and asked, but he didn't look like he wanted her to answer, and immediately said, "Does the family know that you have something unnatural about your contact with the opposite sex?" ”

Jia Yi shook her head and said, "I...... In fact, I never told them about it, and my family knew very little about me. ”

"Why do you know so little? I remember you saying that you and your brother have two children at home, and your parents are ordinary workers, and they go home to be with their families after work. ”

"Yes, but ......" Jia Yi frowned, not knowing how to continue.

Lin Dawei didn't force him to ask, but changed the topic and asked: "Then when was the first time you had this unnatural feeling, and what was the situation at that time?" ”

Jia Yi tried to recall, saying: "The first time I went to junior high school, about the third year of junior high school, I was confessed by a boy, and then my body was cold and shivering, and finally I vomited ......"

"What were you thinking at the time?"

"His behavior made me feel disgusting, as if ......"

"Seems like what?"

"It's like a ...... alone"

"Who?"

"My Father ......"

"What happened to your father?"

"He, he's cheating......" As Jia Yi said the secret, it seemed that something had finally come out of his throat that had been choked for years, but the core seemed to have already taken root in his body, with no end, constantly pulling a longer and more heart-warming blockage.

"Oh, so is this what you saw with your own eyes?"

Jia Yi frowned vigorously, and the uneasiness in her body quickly reached her stomach, and once again she felt something churning there, and she tried to try to get it into her mouth.

"No, it's my mom who said it, she told me herself......" Jia Yi tried her best to endure the discomfort of her body.

"Jiayi...... You okay? Lin Dawei saw that her face was pale and beads of sweat were on her forehead, so he quickly handed her a tissue, spun his chair again, poured a glass of lemonade, and put it in front of her.

But she didn't drink, just gasped.

"Did you ask him, then?" Seeing that her condition had eased, David continued to ask.

Jia Yi shook his head and said, "No, I don't dare to ask." Every time I see him, I feel uncomfortable...... I felt that he had betrayed the whole family, but he could appear in front of my brother and me so calmly, and every time I thought of what he had done with another woman...... I think he's dirty......"

When she spit out the last word in her mouth, the pulling, oppression and churning all acted on her stomach and mouth for a while, and some sour feeling gushed out, she finally couldn't help it, rushed to the bathroom of Dawei's office, and fell on the washbasin retching, but she couldn't spit it out.

She looked at herself in the mirror, her mother always said that her eyebrows and eyes were very similar to her father, but she strongly denied this, how could she be like her father?! But she still tried to make it, only to find that she had been so blurry with her father's face, that since junior high school, she had paid little attention to it, no, to be precise, she was trying to ignore, distort and forget it.

When she walked out, David still slipped in front of her against the chair, handing the towel. If she hadn't met him standing on the road when she entered the door, she would probably have thought that David was a person who couldn't walk on the ground and was disabled.

"Thank you." She took it and continued to sit in front of Dawei, saying that she could still accept Dawei's treatment.

"Okay, let's move on." Dawei paused and said, "So about your father's cheating, in fact, you don't know if it's the truth, is your father good to you?" ”

"That's it, he's patriarchal, he's not so good at communicating with me, and he always says that I'm withdrawn and have psychological problems..."

"What about the parents' feelings?"

Jia Yi shook his head again and said, "They often quarrel, they quarrel day and night, I can't stand it in high school, so I live on campus, even if the third year of high school is so hard, I don't go home, even though the school and home are only a few streets away." ”

"What about Mother? Are you close to your mother? ”

Still shaking her head, she said, "I don't like her weakness, I don't like her complaining to me about her marriage, counting her father...... She could have divorced, why...... So I was very resistant to being close to my mother, and I spent most of my time with my brother, but he was too young and still in his teenage rebellious years......"

"Do you think it's possible to get your parents to come along for counseling?"

Jia Yi suddenly raised her head, patted the sofa hard, and said, "Of course it can't be!" The tone was resolute, and even David was frightened.

Dawei didn't mean to persuade, and said directly: "That...... Okay, it's better to go home for a few days, not to your home here, but to the family's home. ”

Jia Yi looked puzzled and said, "Why? ”

"Because your current situation is closely related to your original family, first of all, you must want to know the truth about your father's cheating, but you don't dare, but this is a question that you can't let go of all your life, so to solve it, you have actually accepted the worst result for a long time, in this case, are you still afraid of the worse? Second, the discord between your parents and your mother's face when your father falls on a certain course causes you to lack a sense of security now, not only are you afraid that the boy you meet will be similar to your father, you are more afraid that you will live like your mother, but blood is the most primitive source of intimacy in the world, if you isolate this intimacy from the beginning, then you will not be able to accept it from other people later. ”

Jia Yi walked out of Dawei's office with a strong shock, she had not digested his words, she could only remember the advice he had made up her mind to let her go home, but she had not made up her mind to follow his advice.

She pondered all the way, unconsciously attracted by the aroma of coffee, she walked into the coffee shop yesterday, the second half-price discount continued, only this time, she was alone.

"Let's have a matcha latte today." She was just about to pull out her purse when a man's voice sounded hoarsely: "I was with her, caramel cappuccino, thank you!" ”

"Gao Qu, why are you here?" She looked at the familiar man in front of her in surprise, and the hand holding the purse did not let go for a long time.

Gao Qu didn't seem to care at all, pressed her hand, took her wallet and stuffed it back into her bag, smoothly took out his bank card to pay, and finally took the two cups of coffee handed by the waiter and walked out.

But she still stood still, and he had to turn to her and say, "Come here!" ”

Jia Yi came to her senses and quickly followed him out, the two of them sat on the chairs outside, she still looked surprised, and said, "Hey, why don't you answer?" ”

Gao Qu first blew and drank it himself, and then handed her another cup and said, "I'm making a deal with you." ”

"What deal?"

"I'll take the time to leave Xiaoyin's ward, give Qiao Le time and space, and then I'll see you."

"It's not like you, you'd agree with Qiao Le......" she muttered.

"So your focus is on...... Forget it, let's not talk about it. He pursed his lips and pretended to be angry, and continued: "I don't agree, I have to agree, Qiao Le seems to be a little different from before, his eyes are very firm, and he looks like he is going to do it if he doesn't reach his goal, I was injured last time, but I don't want to hang any more colors on my face." And...... When I said to make a deal with you, he didn't seem to hesitate too much. He said lightly, continuing to sip his coffee.

"Hello?! How long are you going to use me as a shield? I warn you Gao Qu, Qiao Le and I are very simple now, and we hate to be tried like this by you the most. Jia Yi couldn't help but yell at Gao Qu, she was indeed dissatisfied with Gao Qu's treatment of Qiao Le like this, but she was even more dissatisfied that Gao Qu always regarded her as a threat to Xiao Yin's love, although this did not conflict with his previous confession, but for this "cousin control", this has revealed that his motives for approaching her are by no means so simple.

Gao Qu was stunned for a moment, his face collapsed in half, but he quickly laughed and said, "Then I said that I really want to come to you, will you be happier?" ”

"I don't want to see you right now." Jia Yi held the cup of matcha latte in her hand tightly, but she was afraid that because of her excitement, all the green pulp in the cup would be squeezed out, revealing her heart.

Gao Qu pressed her slightly trembling hand and said, "Okay, I really miss you, but I must admit that the reason why I want to appear at this time is indeed because of Qiao Le and Xiao Yin." ”

Jia Yi deliberately bypassed his hand, brought the latte to her mouth, and sucked it up with a straw, pretending not to care about his presence, even if she had been waiting for it for a long time.

He put down the coffee in his hand, looked at her and said, "Are you okay?" ”

"Look at the doctor, who knows if it can be cured," she said angrily.

Gao Qu knew that she still cared about what he said last time, but he was not the kind of person who was willing to hit the muzzle of the gun, he only smiled lightly, and immediately changed the topic, saying, "So, do you want to continue this transaction?" ”

"Didn't you see me? The deal is done. She also put the drink on the table, and unconsciously crossed her hands on her chest.

Gao Qu shook his head, picked up the coffee on the table and drank it all the time, there was a faint burst of low air pressure in him, but it was not oppressive, at least Jia Yi didn't care too much, she looked at him, he was dressed very casually today, the gentlemanly style of the color-blocked shirt was unobstructed on him, watching him raise his hand slightly and drink coffee intently, the Adam's apple moved up and down, she watched like this, at that moment she was in a trance The scene of the first meeting with Mark last year, but the voice was not so pleasant.

It's not pleasant to hear, but it's not necessarily true - because he said such a sultry thing after drinking coffee -

"I want you to stay with me, and what I said that day...... It's all true. He pursed his lips after speaking, as if smiling rather than smiling.

Jia Yi was suddenly stunned for a while, her body was sensitive and ready to move, she was afraid that she would lose her temper like she had just in Dawei's office, so she quickly avoided his eyes, shook her head and said, "No, no...... I haven't been available lately, so I don't want to think too much, and you know ......" She looked up at the billboard of the counseling center upstairs, and suddenly caught a glimpse of gray in those colored lines, it was not qualified for brilliance at all, and Jia Yi lowered her head and continued, "I...... Recently in counseling. ”

"I just want us to ......," Gao Qu still didn't give up.

But Jia Yi had already gotten up, although she hadn't drunk much of the matcha latte in front of her at all, she said, "Gao Qu, I want to go back first, you see, I still have a book to read, let's break up here." As he spoke, he showed out of his bag that he had borrowed Dawei's book to Gao Qu before leaving.

But his eyes widened and he was full of surprise, and said, "What, break up?" ”

"Uh...... Isn't that a breakup? That's what it means to say goodbye and see you again in the future. ”

"So, don't break up?" Gao Qu said with a wicked smile.

"Of course ......not," she realized that the man in front of her was just as insidious even if he changed his clothes, and she tried to stuff the book back into her bag but couldn't get it in, so she had to push it into her arms as if she were angry, and walked forward angrily.

Gao Qu hurriedly trotted around to her, stopped her and said, "Okay, I'll ...... today I won't bother you, but I really thank you...... Those words you said to your aunt last time. ”

"No thanks, I just don't want to bother others, I'm just talking about things......"

"I'm thankful for believing in me, then trust me." His tone was very sincere, but he still pursed the corners of his mouth after speaking.

Just now, Jia Yi thought that his stomach was about to make a fuss again, but he didn't expect that a warm current suddenly swelled, comfortably smoothing out a qiē restlessness, which was much more useful than the hot towels and lemonade that Dawei handed over several times.

Jia Yi then remembered that the last time she talked to Qu Yaying in the hospital, he had been standing outside the door, and he naturally heard every word said by the people in the house-aunt's repeated questioning and her trust that she had argued for him several times, she actually said her trust in him when his family questioned him, just as he stood in front of He Nana that day and said that he believed in himself, and picked up himself who fell to the ground when Wu Yan was making trouble.

Even she didn't know where the courage came from, she looked up at the man in front of her, she should be a stranger, but she clearly saw her figure in those dark brown eyes, she was so obsessed with those eyes.

"Are you alright?" He asked softly.

"Huh?" Her face turned red, and the red glow had burned behind her ears, so she couldn't help but lower her head, moved a few steps back, and said, "I'm fine." ”

Seeing her suddenly move away, Gao Qu had no choice but to say, "It's okay if you're okay." Then you...... Let's go back first. His gaze was fixed, and he wanted to speak, but he still waved goodbye to her.

(To be continued.) )