Chapter 90: Am I Not Here?
The days passed like this, and Gao Qu, who returned to N City, didn't say anything more except for "I'm here, don't worry about telling Uncle and Auntie", and Jia Yi also understood that he must have a lot of things to do when he went back this time, and she understood.
Of course she had to understand, and even though she didn't want to, she was expecting that he would be available to message her and call.
Fortunately, she did not forget the original intention of coming back, and she reported the latest situation to Dawei while reading the book.
"So you think your parents are also loving, and your family isn't that bad, right?" David asked on the phone.
"I can understand the way they get along, but ...... I may not be able to support ......."
"That's okay, after all, it's not your marriage, it's your parents, it's just that they're responsible for it......"
Dawei said in a relaxed tone and continued: "What about you and your father? ”
"I ...... I haven't talked to him yet, I'm ...... I don't know...... I'm still scared, or I'm afraid, that my hostility towards him is far deeper than I thought......" she said.
Indeed, during this time, she learned more about her father, but she would still unconsciously avoid his gaze, afraid to be alone with him, and eager to flee when he spoke.
"So, you haven't tried to talk to him any further, have you?"
Jia Yi didn't answer, and David continued, "You didn't ask him what you want to ask? Don't you want to know the answer? ”
Of course, she thought, this was the source of the pain, and she came back to remove it.
Even if Gao Qu said that communication is not informing, and she came back not only to seek an answer, she agreed, but she also knew that there was no better way to end this qiē than a simple and powerful answer.
Just as she made up her mind to go out of the room and ask her father for this answer, she noticed that the two outside the house were arguing again.
"I told don't do it, now it's all your fault!" Mother said.
"You don't have a share?! Stinky bitch, don't keep talking nonsense here if you don't have any knowledge! What do you know, just blame me?! The father scolded mercilessly.
"Blame me?! Do you dare to ask her, who is the victim? Her mother's words made Jia Yi realize that the "she" in her words was mostly referring to herself.
But she was not sure, so she closed the halfway door and put her ear to the door, listening carefully.
"Of course you have to ask, what about it? What can we do? You don't even use your brains! ”
"I don't have a brain, how can you be like this when you have such a brain? If she can't get married for the rest of her life and has a bad life, I don't think you can talk about your brains, you don't even deserve to live! The more my mother spoke, the more excited she became.
"You keep quiet, you have to make a fuss, don't you?" Her father's voice was suppressed, and Jia Yi felt that it seemed to be coming from this side of her room.
Their voices were really quieter, vague, and couldn't be heard clearly, which made her even more determined, what they were arguing about was related to herself, and she was afraid that she already knew something.
She didn't go out after all, she stayed in the house until Jiaxing came back from school, and she and her brother walked to the dinner table with a chat.
Jia Xing said while eating: "When I came back, I saw that the next street was repairing the circuit, and my classmate said that he had to go out to eat tonight, how cool!" ”
"Is it cool to go out to eat?" Jia Yi asked.
"It's cool to eat, it's even more refreshing to don't have to do homework without electricity!" Jiaxing said excitedly.
The father glanced at his son, but he was not as strict as usual, he smiled as if he had heard a joke, and beckoned his mother to bring his favorite Xinghua Village.
"Drink again? You can make money by drinking! The mother scolded as she took the wine out of the cupboard, took the clean glass, and threw it vigorously on the table.
Seeing that the two quarreled again, Jiaxing hurriedly finished the rice in the bowl and went back to the room, while his mother was still cleaning up in the kitchen, and for a while only Jiayi and his father were left on the dinner table.
Both were silent.
Jia Yi took several capers, put them in her mouth and chewed, this was the first time she felt that chewing capers could make such a loud sound, clattering, deafening.
The father took a small sip of the wine in his cup, then ate a chopstick dish, and then took a small sip of wine, and then made a sound after smacking, cup after cup, one after another.
Jia Yi felt that neither of them was quiet in their hearts, he was noisy, she was also noisy, there was always something blocked there, which made people breathless, and they had to make some movement.
But soon there was movement.
Suddenly, the power went out in the house, and the lights seemed to be sucked away, and in its place was a magnet-like darkness.
The whole building seemed to have exploded, adults shouted, children ran, and all kinds of pots and pans seemed to be eager to escape from prison in the dark.
The house was also dark, and the mother first shouted, "Come and light up the kitchen!" ”
Jia Yi had been sitting at the dinner table, and the sudden darkness made her feel uneasy, and her body felt like she was glued to a stool, and she did not respond to her mother's cries.
His father was still at the dinner table, but Jia Yi couldn't see clearly, and he didn't even try to identify his cunzài, but he could only feel that he seemed to stand up several times, and the table was shaken violently.
"Jiaxing, go to the bedside of our room and get a flashlight for your mother!" Father suddenly shouted.
"Good ......," Jiaxing responded in the house.
"Boy, don't grind! Hurry up! Father was stern again.
"Got it!" Jiaxing responded again. After a while, the kitchen brightened up, and the silhouettes of one tall and one short, the dishes and chopsticks became familiar with the water again amid the mother's chatter and complaints.
But it was still dark in the living room, and the chopsticks on the bowl somehow slipped and fell to the ground, making a crisp sound, very loud, and she was still sitting motionless, and suddenly her feet seemed to touch a pair of human hands.
Yes, it was warm, soft and thick, and although it was not clear, she could confirm that it was the hand! She immediately screamed, her feet lifted up, and her body trembled with fear.
"What's wrong? Did you fall to the ground? Father asked eagerly.
"Someone touched me! Someone touched me!! Jia Yi roared into the endless darkness, and the whole person jumped up and stood on the stool, her movements violent, and the table shook violently.
When her mother and brother heard the sound, they immediately rushed from the kitchen with flashlights, and the room immediately lit up, and Jia Yi realized that there was no one else at her feet, only her father squatting on the ground, holding the table with one hand and her chopsticks that had fallen on the ground in the other.
"What are you doing? It's not noisy enough, is it? Don't step on the stool, dirty! Mother blamed, took the chopsticks from his father's hand, and entered the kitchen with the flashlight with Jiaxing, and the house was occupied by darkness again.
Jia Yi still did not relieve, still standing on the stool, but his father stood up as if he had already felt dark, sat back in his place, and the table shook again for a while.
The two men at the dinner table were silent again.
The embarrassment of silence was struck in the boundless darkness, and the frightened Jia Yi wanted to go to the room to get his mobile phone, but as soon as he moved, the sound between the tables and chairs made his father notice, and he hurriedly shouted: "Why are you going?" ”
"I'm going to get my phone, I have a flashlight on my phone!" Jia Yi whispered.
"What to take, the power of the mobile phone has to be kept, and I don't know when these people will be able to fix the circuit."
"But I'm afraid ......," she said, her voice was extremely weak, as if the words were about to be swallowed up by the night as soon as they came out.
"Afraid of what? I'm not here! Father said.
There are people coming and going outside the door, listening to each other's news of the circuit, whose children are being scolded by their parents while playing in the dark, the neighbors are greeting and shouting left and right, the old building is crumbling, and even the old wood of the dining table is about to move, shaking more and more in the dark night, babbling and making dissatisfied sounds.
But Jia Yi still heard this, and its voice was extremely loud, like a huge wave in the darkness, engulfing the noise around it at once, and filling all the gaps in life at once.
She really eased her mood a little, and sat back in her seat, she still couldn't see her father clearly, but she could feel his breath, wrapped in a faint aroma of white wine, very plain but also heavy, heavy like - at least Jia Yi will never forget that smell in her life.
"Don't be afraid, I heard the sound of chopsticks falling to the ground just now and thought you had fallen, how can there be anyone, there are only four people in the family, and you know it when you use your brain," the father continued to drink the rest ......of the wine in the cup, his hand resting on the table, and Jia Yi could feel the table falling towards him.
"I ...... I thought ......" She was speechless for a moment, lost in a sudden cloud of fatherly doubts. She had to admit that she was too unfamiliar with this emotion and had not yet adapted to it, after all, at the moment it arrived, she had misunderstood, questioned and rejected it for a while.
Its face is actually proudly revealed in the dark.
"Think someone? Who dares to touch you in front of me! The father put the wine glass on the table, and the table moved slightly, as if he wanted to pour the wine in the dark, but obviously failed, and the fragrance of the dripping splash made him quite reluctant.
But the smell of the wine immediately touched a cultist—Jia Yi was intoxicated, infatuated, desperately trying to remember the refreshing fragrance.
After a while, there was a spiral of the cap and the bottle on the other end of the father's side, and the table shook even more, constantly rubbing against Jia Yi's upper body with the rhythm of the other end, and she had to move back out of the space, away from the broken table.
"Sit down! You can't see what you are doing? The father's hand rested back on the table, and the table was instantly frozen again.
Jia Yi didn't answer, she never thought that this tone was asking herself, she took it as a command, she just had to obey the instructions and sit down in peace. She is trying to get used to the subtlety of her father's expression.
The father, who had no drink, kept moving the glass, and the bottom of the cup hissed when it touched the table, and these sounds were a little harsh but appropriately filled the silence, and it was a long time before he said, "That's how you react...... Is it related to your current physical condition? ”
Jia Yi was stunned for a few seconds before she realized, she looked in her father's direction and asked eagerly, "Did Gao Qu say something to you?" (To be continued.) )