The Queen Mother looked at Sikong Cangling, and the self-blame revealed in her words was so clearly visible, but even she couldn't refute her words at all.

She loves Mei Xuedie and Luo Xue's mother and daughter very much, and she really wants their mother and daughter to get the best she can give, but the world is impermanent, and she herself didn't expect that what she thought she gave them was forcing them to go to a dead end.

The Queen Mother looked at Sikong Cangling and continued: "Ling'er, grandmother thinks she has no regrets in this life, even if her grandmother is not perfect in this life, and even has deep resentment. However, at this moment, I don't hate anyone or blame anyone, life has been rushing for decades, no matter what it feels like, and the rest of the days, my grandmother just wants to live in peace. ”

The Queen Mother paused, and an extremely gentle smile appeared on her kind face, but then there was more bitterness and guilt on her face, "Grandmother has only owed two people in her life, one is Xiaoxue's mother Snow Butterfly, and the other is Xiaoxue." ”

After the Queen Mother said this, she sighed slightly, and then as if she was caught in a memory, her voice was slight and ethereal: "Back then, I fought with the first emperor everywhere, although I also kept the peace of Moliu, but I also made countless enemies, especially when Moliu was not peaceful in the country. ”

"The first emperor is not the crown prince of the first emperor, but the fourth son of the first emperor, when I married the first emperor, the first emperor was just an unfavored prince, the party was particularly fierce at that time, and the first emperor did not care about the position of the prince, so every prince who wanted to get the throne knew that the first emperor was no threat to them. Moreover, the mother of the first emperor was just a lowly concubine. ”

"Maybe it's because I'm not favored, and I don't want to stay in the capital and see my own brothers killing each other. Mutual persecution, so the first emperor asked for a private visit to investigate the people's feelings, and it was that time that the first emperor met the emperor's biological mother, but the emperor's biological mother was just a peasant girl, and the first emperor mentioned this matter to the ancestor emperor after he came back, and the ancestor emperor who had fallen into deep irritability because of the party dispute was even more furious when he heard this request. Then he married me to the first emperor, and I didn't know that the first emperor already had a heart. I already knew that my fate was not up to me, so I only thought that it would be enough to live in peace after I got married, and I never thought about anything else. ”

"My father was a confidant of the Ancestral Emperor. He was the general who guarded the frontier at that time. So all the princes hope to marry me, so that the Xu family becomes a big obstacle for them to compete for the position of the East Palace, but what makes everyone feel incredible is that the ancestor emperor actually married me to the first emperor, I think, the ancestor emperor's move is actually to hope that those princes who are about to move can let go of the desire to fight for the throne ~ hope, but I didn't expect this move. dragged the first emperor who had no intention of taking the throne into this whirlpool of power. ”

"After I married the first emperor, the first emperor, who was originally no threat to them, suddenly became a thorn in the side of all the princes. Some people even began to design to frame the mellow personality of the first emperor, and I, who was originally a chess piece, married the first emperor, and the first emperor hated me because of this. ”

"The first emperor did not marry the woman he loved as he wished, but fell into this crisis, in the first emperor's opinion, all this is my reason, he never paid attention to the persecution of those princes, it seems that he is bent on death. Finally I couldn't stand it anymore, because it all seemed to be my fault, so I secretly began to frame and assassinate the other princes, and eventually, without the knowledge of the previous emperor, he was put on the throne. ”

These things have long been ordered to prohibit the spread of words, so even Sikong Cangling has not heard of it, and now they suddenly heard that the throne of the first emperor turned out to be like this, and they were really surprised for a while, and looked at the queen mother's eyes, inexplicably.

They knew that the Queen Mother didn't say this to show off how great she was, maybe it was just because she suddenly remembered the past.

The Queen Mother suddenly stopped when she said this, and when she saw Sikong Cangling frowning, Sikong Yixuan looked a little surprised, and smiled, "Alas, people are old, and they actually say this to the juniors." ”

The Queen Mother smiled, and then continued: "After the first emperor ascended the throne, not all the courtiers were actually willing to recognize his throne, and the first emperor was also addicted to wine and meat all day long, which was not conducive to the government, no matter how I persuaded him, he was indifferent, and kept saying that he hated me, just when I was about to give up, the frontier war report was urgent, the enemy country raised troops to attack, and wantonly burned and looted in the Moliu frontier, the first emperor who heard the news, finally decided to fulfill the responsibility of this emperor, and began to fight on the battlefield in person with Moliu's soldiers. ”

"We spent five years on the battlefield recovering Moliu's land and driving the enemy out of Moliu, and it was during those five years that my relationship with the first emperor eased, and I really fell in love with this responsible man. It's just that when the enemy country was repulsed, when we returned to the capital, the old subordinates of those former princes began to stir, and in the process of rectifying these people, we don't know how many times we were assassinated. Later, also because of the assassination, the first emperor met the emperor's biological mother again. ”

"Later, the first emperor died, and soon after the emperor's biological mother died because of too much grief, I raised the young emperor, and when he was able to take charge on his own, I really retired. But even after so many years, those remnants of the past still hate me to the core, and when I was on a trip, I was assassinated again, and it was on that occasion that I was injured and saved by Luo Xue's biological mother. ”

"Snow Butterfly's appearance is exactly the same as Xiaoxue's, and Snow Butterfly's personality is very gentle and kind, and the days I spent with her during my recuperation were really easier than ever. I had no children or daughters in my life, and at that moment, I felt the warmth of a child for the first time. ”

"When she knew my identity, I asked her to go back to the palace with me, and at first she was reluctant, but when she heard about my situation in the palace, she agreed. I accepted her as my righteous daughter and lived with me in the Cili Palace, and she lived happily here at first, but what I didn't expect was that the emperor met her. And fell in love with her. ”

When the Queen Mother's words fell, Sikong Cangling and Sikong Yixuan were surprised, and at the same time, Sikong Cangling also understood why he was in the imperial study before. When Sikong Wodi saw Luo Xue, what was the reason for the kind of look he showed.

"Father likes sister-in-law's mother-in-law?" Sikong Yixuan said in surprise.

The Queen Mother nodded, "That's right, your father likes Xiaoxue's mother, and that kind of liking has reached the point of obsession." At first, I didn't know until your father mentioned it to me and asked me to tell me about Snow Butterfly marrying him. I realized that everything was going for the unexpected. ”

"It's fine if Snow Butterfly likes the emperor, but Snow Butterfly doesn't just like the emperor. And he also resisted the emperor very much, let her marry the emperor, unless she was killed, this is what Snow Butterfly said to me personally. And what made me even more unexpected. Snow Butterfly actually stole my token. She crept out of the palace in the middle of the night, and we never found her again. ”

"I owe her, because if I hadn't taken her back to the palace, she wouldn't have met the emperor, and she wouldn't have been forced to live incognito, but what I didn't expect was that she didn't leave the capital and married Luo Wengong. When I first saw Luo Xue. I knew she was Snow Butterfly's child, because of how she looked. There will be no one else but Snow Butterfly's children. ”

"And this time, with a sense of compensation, I once again made a decision for Xiaoxue, among all the princes, only you are the most important to me, and I also believe that you are a responsible person, you will definitely be able to give Xiaoxue happiness, and you have no one you like, I also firmly believe that you will definitely like Xiaoxue."

"But I was wrong again, you are too obsessed with your mother's death, you are unwilling to let go of the past, you can't let go of the past, and it is impossible to accept love, so Xiaoxue is in the Cangwang Mansion, and she does not have the stable life I imagined, but has a very rough life."

"I don't blame you for this, but Ling'er, can you grant grandmother a request?" The Queen Mother asked suddenly.

Sikong Cangling guessed what the Queen Mother wanted to say, so he nodded and did not object.

"If Xiaoxue wants to leave, you let her go, this time let her choose the life she wants, grandmother knows, although you and Xiaoxue have been married for a year, but you and her are actually not round, I used to be angry about this, but now I am a little lucky, at least Xiaoxue has other opportunities."

This request was not difficult for Sikong Cangling, but when he thought of that indifferent face and those wise eyes, he couldn't say anything to agree.

Just when the Queen Mother looked at him in confusion and hesitated, Sikong Cangling said, "Not yet? ”

The Queen Mother was slightly stunned, and subconsciously asked, "Why?" ”

Sikong Cangling was silent and didn't answer, why, he was also asking himself, is it really just because Luo Xue hasn't completed the conditions he asked?

Seeing that he didn't speak for a long time, the Queen Mother actually had a bold guess in her heart, but she didn't say it, but lowered a request, "Okay, I don't force you to let her go now, but there is one thing you must promise me, that is, she lives in the Cangwang Mansion and must not be hurt at all." ”

The Queen Mother's attitude was resolute, but Sikong Cangling did not object to this request.

Besides, Sikong Cangling suddenly thought of Luo Xue's cold appearance, is she like someone who will be hurt? All the ladies of the Cangwang Mansion together may not be able to shake her at all.

Sikong Cangling and Sikong Yixuan accompanied the Queen Mother for a long time, but they never saw Luo Xue come back, at this time the Queen Mother said with some worry: "Why hasn't this Xiaoxue come back yet?" Ling'er, you and Yixuan go and find her! ”

There is no news from the imperial study, which proves that Luo Xue is safe in the imperial study, and the emperor has not done anything to her, but there is no guarantee that she will not be dangerous in other places!

Just when Sikong Cangling and Sikong Yixuan were about to nod and agree to go out to look for it, Luo Xue walked in from outside the door, but her face was still pensive, and she didn't notice the expressions on the faces of Sikong Cangling and the three of them.

"Xiaoxue, why are you only coming back now?" As soon as the Queen Mother saw Luo Xue coming in, she took Luo Xue's hand and asked.

Luo Xue came back to her senses, only to find that the Queen Mother's face was full of worry, and she said: "The emperor knows my mother, grandmother, you also know my mother, right?" ”

The Queen Mother seemed to have expected her to ask like this, so she nodded not at all surprised, and when Luo Xue decided to go to the emperor, she knew that she couldn't hide it.

Luo Xue held the Queen Mother's hand, "Grandmother, can you tell me what's going on?" ”

Although Sikong Wodi also told her a lot about her mother, she was still skeptical, and for her, what the Queen Mother said was more credible.

The Queen Mother nodded, and then pulled Luo Xue to sit on the seat, "Xiaoxue, what do you want to know, grandmother will tell you." ”

Immediately, the Queen Mother told the events of the year again, and then apologized to Luo Xue, "Xiaoxue, I'm sorry, it's my grandmother's fault that will hurt you and your mother." ”

Luo Xue listened to the Queen Mother's words, and she understood, she shook her head: "Grandmother, it's not your fault, I believe that Mother has never blamed you." ”

Immediately, Luo Xue's brows suddenly furrowed, and she said with some suspicion: "Grandmother, when I went to see the emperor today, I always felt that the way he looked at me was very wrong. ”

As soon as Luo Xue finished saying this, she found that the Queen Mother's face changed, and there was an inexplicable coldness beside her.

Luo Xue turned her head slightly to look at Sikong Cangling, who was sitting next to her, and felt the increasingly heavy cold aura emanating from his body.

This is the Queen Mother said: "Xiaoxue, if the emperor summons you alone in the future, you must tell me and Ling Er one of them, must know?" ”

The Queen Mother took Luo Xue's hand and said with a serious face.

Luo Xue asked, "Why?" ”

The Queen Mother frowned, "Don't ask why, you will understand later, grandmother will never harm you, promise grandmother, you must not see the emperor alone again, okay?" ”

Luo Xue looked at the Queen Mother's somewhat anxious look, and then could only nod.

When the Queen Mother saw Luo Xue nodding, she said reassuringly, "Okay." ”

Then she called outside again: "Mama Xu." ”

When Mama Xu heard this, she walked in, "Queen Mother." ”

"Go, let people start preparing lunch, prepare more dishes today, Xiaoxue, Yixuan and Ling'er are all in the palace."

Mama Xu nodded and went out.

After lunch, Luo Xue went back to Cangwang's Mansion with Sikong Cangling, Sikong Yixuan originally wanted to follow out of the palace, but there were some things to pack, so she decided to go to Cangwang's Mansion the next day.

Luo Xue and Sikong Cangling sat together in the carriage of the Huicang Palace, both of them were expressionless and didn't say a word, halfway, Sikong Cangling suddenly spoke: "What did the emperor say to you?" (To be continued.) )