Chapter 23: Apologies
In the courtyard of the large house of the Duke of Wuguo.
Lin Yan is sitting on the couch embroidering her wedding dress, her wedding date with her cousin Dou Yu is scheduled for February next year, although the dowry does not need her to embroider, but her wedding dress always has to embroider a few stitches by herself.
But she was a little uneasy today, and after embroidering a few stitches, she put down her wedding dress and sighed softly.
Dou was sitting on the other side to settle the accounts, and when he saw her sighing like this, he raised his eyes slightly to look at her and asked her, "What's the matter, sigh?" ”
Lin Yan shook her head and said, "It's nothing." Then he picked up the wedding dress and continued to embroider.
Dou did not intend to get to the bottom of the matter, and continued to bow his head and settle accounts.
Lin Yan embroidered a few stitches, suddenly put down the needle and thread, and then looked up and asked Dou Shidao: "Mother, does Yuan Yuan really want to marry the emperor?" ”
Dou put down the account book in his hand, took a sip of the tea bowl on the table, and then said: "This Nacai ceremony has been ordered, is there any fake ritual in this palace?" ”
Lin Yan said with some indignation: "Actually, it doesn't necessarily mean that Yuan Yuan has to enter the palace, there are still so many girls in the Lin family, but there are no concubines, and there are so many in the family, why do you have to let Yuan Yuan go." Yuan Yuan is such a good girl, she shouldn't sacrifice her good years in the palace. ”
Dou said: "You shouldn't have such an idea, when you enjoy power and wealth, the people of our descendants go to take the lion's share, and when you want to sacrifice your daughter to make efforts, you let the side branches go, how can there be such a reason." What's more, the identity of the girl in the side branch is not enough, and the queen is not something that everyone can do. ”
Lin Yan also knew that her words were a little inappropriate, so she lowered her eyes, and after a long while, she said again: "Mother, I just feel a little sorry for Yuan Yuan." I am older than Yuan Yuan, and I am the eldest daughter of the long house, so it stands to reason that I should have entered the palace, but now...... I always feel as if Yuan Yuan is taking on the fate of the family on my behalf. ”
Dou Shi frowned, his voice was a little colder, and said, "I don't allow you to think like this, if you think like this, it will hurt my heart." ”
Lin Yan regretted a little, and called "Mother" guiltily, and was about to say a few words of apology, but Dou Shi continued at this time: "Mother is the only one left with you now, Mother has no other thoughts, I just want to watch you happily marry and have children, if you marry into the palace, it is better to kill me with a knife." ”
Lin Yan said a little anxiously: "Mother, don't be sad, I didn't mean that." ”
Dou sighed, softened his voice, and then said softly: "Niang, my mother knows that you and Yuan Yuan are on good terms, don't blame your mother for being selfish, my mother also knows that as a member of the Lin family, she has to take on the responsibilities of the Lin family." Your father took your brother on the expedition, and your brother was sixteen years old at the time......"
At this point, her face fell into painful memories and she continued: "I told your father that your brother is still too young and let him go back in a few years. But your father said that he is the eldest grandson of the Lin family, and he is the heir of the Wuguo Mansion in the future, how can he ignore his responsibilities and hide under the wings of others, not to mention that whether it is him, your second uncle or third uncle, or the old Guogong, they all started to enter the army at the age of thirteen, and your brother is no longer young. I was reluctant to worry and fear at that time, but I couldn't stop them from taking on the responsibilities of the Lin family. But as a result, your father and brother died on the battlefield together. Everyone said that they died with the glory of their deaths, but I hope they were not born in the Lin family. ”
Dou pulled himself out of the painful memories, and continued: "After your father and brother died, your grandmother asked me if I would like to inherit a child from the second or third room, no matter which child is adopted, this child will be the son of the world in the future, and I will become Mrs. Tai, but I refused. I know that the children of the Lin family are good, but no matter how good these children are, they are not my children, I can't love them like I love your brother, in this case, why should I snatch them from their parents. I proposed to let the second room inherit the Guogong Mansion, although your grandmother and I never said it, but there has been a tacit understanding between us, I will let the Guogong Mansion as a cost, in exchange for a result that you do not have to bear the responsibility of the Lin family in the future. I think I have given my husband and son selflessly, but I can always selflessly keep my daughter for once. ”
"I'm sorry, mother."
Dou shook his head, and continued: "You are not the only one who feels sorry for Yuan Yuan, isn't your grandmother distressed?" It was her in-laws' granddaughter. In order to keep her, your grandmother even had the idea of letting Ramie Niang enter the palace, if it weren't for Ramie Niang who couldn't mention it, I was afraid that Yuan Yuan would really stay. In fact, your grandmother regretted it in her heart, regretting that she ignored Lai Niang in order to be angry with the old grandfather, and let her grow crooked by Aunt Xia's side, if she had been taught well, it would have been time to let Lai Niang enter the palace on behalf of Yuanyuan. Everyone has their own fate, this may be Yuan Yuan's fate, who can guarantee that entering the palace will be a curse rather than a blessing for Yuan Yuan, Yuan Yuan...... She has the image of a mother. ”
Lin Yan lowered her head and said no more.
And on the other side, in the courtyard of the second room.
Qi served Lin Yong and took off his coat, and asked as he took it off, "Have you made it clear to Yuan Yuan?" ”
Lin Yong nodded, and then instructed the Qi family: "In a few days, I am afraid that the palace will come down to teach the rules and etiquette of the Yuanyuan Palace, you should pay more attention." Take care of Yuan Yuan more these days, if she wants to do anything, try to achieve it for her. ”
Qi nodded and said, "I know." As he spoke, he sighed softly, and continued: "You say I'm selfish, but I'm glad that I was born a few years late." ”
Lin Yong was silent, in fact, both of them understood the meaning of this.
The real inheritance of the Guogong Mansion is the second room, if you want to sacrifice your daughter, the first consideration must be the second room, but there is no suitable girl in the second room, and in the end you have to choose Yuan Yuan.
If Lin Wu was born a few years earlier, then it should be Lin Wu who is now entering the palace to marry the emperor.
In fact, being born in a family like them, being a queen is actually a question of whether the clothes can be more patterned, whether there can be more people around them, and whether the meals can be more exquisite. But there are only so many things a person can wear, and there are only a few people who can call, and whether the meal is exquisite or not will not affect the appetite much, but when the queen has to take on more responsibilities and encounter more dangers, not to mention marrying an uncle who is a generation older than himself, he will be surrounded by all kinds of beauties like flowers and jade.
If she could, why would she let her daughter suffer this sin. Marrying their daughters into an ordinary family, and having no worries about food and clothing for the rest of their lives under the care of their parents and husbands, this is what they expect as parents.