Chapter 285: Those who have a choice and those who give up
"For girls, whether they like it or not is actually not important, try to minimize their own damage, which is the most important thing!"
Kato's words, made Kazuya stunned, what the story just hinted at, he knew very well, so when Kato said the conclusion that "girls don't like boys", although there was a little strange frustration in his heart, but he had a sense of relief - as long as Kato said that she didn't like herself, then she wouldn't hurt her too much, right? Kazuya's idea is as simple as that, even with a little escape.
However, Kato's last sentence made his initial idea of wanting to pretend to be confused no longer exist. Like it or not, in fact, it doesn't matter, the most important thing is to minimize the damage, although there is no problem with this sentence, but whether you like it or not, Kato blurred the problem at this time.
"That, Katoβ"
"-I'm sorry, but we were talking about the English pear just now, right? I'm sorry that something suddenly went out! However, Kato did not give Kazuya a chance to ask his question.
"No, Kato, we'll talk about this later-" Kazuya knew that it was not a good thing for him to bring up this topic at this time, but the indescribable dissatisfaction that welled up in his heart made him unable to stop.
"--Aragaki san," however, Kato's restrained voice came in a more serious tone, interrupting Kazuya's speech again, "I remember I said something to you before!" β
"What?"
"Since you have made your choice, you should be enlightened from the moment you choose. I think this sentence applies to all the situations that Aragaki is facing now. Kato's calm voice came out without a hint of waves, and by the time Kazuya looked at her with a dumbfounded Kazuya, the smile that seemed to be like sunshine just now had disappeared and was replaced by a calm expression, or more seriously, a calm closer to indifference.
Kazuya looked at Kato in a daze, from the other party's expression and words, he could clearly feel the breath of the other party's warning, it was a kind of "sorry, I said too much, but now it can only end here", at the same time, he can also feel the weakness and camouflage in Kato's breath of this warning made with all his strength, if he becomes tougher at this time, he believes that Kato's current defense net made with his usual expression is more fragile than usual, It's also easier for you to get the information you want.
However, Kato seems to know this, exposing his weaknesses, his own thoughts, in front of Kazuya without reservation, and the two of them face each other silently as if they have mastered all the thoughts of the other.
In the end, under Kato's gaze, Kazuya's head was still lowered, giving up his intention to inquire about Kato's thoughts. If Eiri wasn't his girlfriend now, he might have been greedy to ask the question, but at the moment when he chose Eiri, as Kato warned, "From the moment you make your choice, you should be conscious", and this awareness includes not only the awareness of Eiri's feelings, but also the awareness of giving up on other people, especially the consciousness of suppressing one's own impulses in this situation.
Swallowed back the words that almost rushed himself to his lips, Kazuya reluctantly squeezed out a smile and said, "Well, I'm sorry, Kato, I led the topic away, obviously I came to ask you for help." β
"No problem," Kato nodded, with a serene expression, "so let's discuss how Aragaki-san should reconcile with Eiri Riri, okay?" β
"Well," Seeing Kato's calm and serene appearance again, the unhappiness in Kazuya's heart has not been able to get rid of it, but, even so, he can only suppress his thoughts a little almost cruelly, and continue to say according to Kato's train of thought, "Kato just said that there is no big problem with Ying Li and my thoughts, so the key is, how do I understand Ying Li Li, is that so?" β
ββLet me be considerate of Yingli Lili, so I don't have to be considerate of you? Is that what you mean?
"That's right, in fact, from the perspective of an outsider of ours, the relationship between Aragaki and Ying Lili is still very good, if you think I'm perfunctory to you, you can ask your other friends, it's not an exaggeration to call your performance a model couple for more than a month!"
"Model couples don't quarrel." Kazuya showed a self-deprecating expression.
"If it were an ordinary couple, it was true that there would be no quarrel, so, the reason for the quarrel between the two of you is, in the final analysis, because of Ying Lili's insecurity, as for the reason for the insecurity, I think you can understand Aragaki classmate." Kato showed a slightly embarrassed expression, she saw that Kazuya knew the reason, and realized that Kazuya actually understood that she was actually one of the sources of this instability.
"To be honest, this kind of unrest is very difficult to get rid of through your words." Looking at Kazuya's clear eyes, Kato continued, "I think what Aragaki-san's words on the day of his confession must have been firmer than I could have imagined, but Eiri will still be afraid, so words are useless, the important thing is action." β
"However, even if I want to make up for it now, with the current state of me and Ying Lili, I can't ask her out on a date, right?"
"I've also considered that I'll trick Ying Lili out and let you talk to each other in person, but I think with your level of communication with girls, it's estimated that the two of you will quarrel again before the date starts." Kato also showed a rare headache and rubbed his forehead.
"Although this is true, it is still very uncomfortable to hear you say it so bluntly!"
"So," Kato once again ignored Kazuya's complaints, and continued, "What Aragaki needs most now is a proof, a proof that you have completely decided on your choice, with this proof, at least you and Yingli have a basis for communication, and what to do after that can only be done through your daily performance." β
"So, what is this proof?" Kato's words sounded particularly convincing, and Jean Kazuya couldn't help but straighten up.
"This proof, Aragaki is actually already doing it!"
"What do you mean?"
"Now, Aragaki-san, I still remember what you talked to me about last time!" Kato leaned his body completely on the back of the chair, looked at the blank ceiling above the classroom, and said leisurely.
"What was the last time we talked?" Kazuya was stunned, and then reacted, "The matter of Senior Sister Shiyu?" β
"That's right, if you can completely defeat Kasumigaoka-sani in this battle in February's novel, that's a proof, right? A strong proof that Aragaki-san has given up on others, after all, if it was the soft-hearted Aragaki san from before, he wouldn't be willing to be an enemy of Kasumigaoka-senpai, wouldn't he? β
"Even if you say that," Kato's tone suddenly became a little ruthless, which made Kazuya subconsciously take a step back, "It's strange to use the competition with Shiyu-senpai as a premise to apologize to Eiri or something, isn't it?" β
"What's so strange?" Kato's voice seemed to be a little sharper than usual, "After that conversation last time, hasn't Aragaki-san-san already made up his mind to fight Kasumigaoka-sani to the end?" And if I'm not mistaken, it was Kasumigaoka-sani who offered to fight against Aragaki-san, right? So, you just need to do the best job of what you've done, and then use that as a proof, isn't that okay? β
"But even then, I don't want to be outright enemies with Shiyu-senpai, if I can-"
"ββIf you can, Aragaki-san, you still don't want to have the consciousness to make a choice, is that right?" Kato's somewhat cold tone reached Kazuya's ears.
"Now, Aragaki-san, did I just say that? All the questions you are facing now can be answered with this sentence! Gently, at the moment when Kazuya was stunned by these words, Kato's curse-like words once again surrounded Kazuya's body.
The consciousness of choosing, the consciousness of giving up, the consciousness of accepting Ying Lili, the consciousness of not considering other people's thoughts, and the consciousness of ignoring even if the other party tears their own wounds with a smile in front of you. That's the kind of enlightenment!
Although the tone of voice when he was persuading himself just now was obviously a little excited, it was not like the normal voice that Kato would have, but now, Kato has obviously returned to a normal state, and even the indifference at the beginning no longer exists, just the lack of a sense of existence, but it makes people feel very relieved Kato.
"Aragaki-san, I'm not persecuting you, but I hope you can see your heart clearly." The direct words that did not conform to Kato's subtle style slammed into Kazuya's heart again, "I just don't want to be hesitant anymore by Aragaki-san, and if you still hesitate in this situation, Aragaki-san, you will hurt everyone." β
Didn't you say that the ending you wanted was one in which you would suffer the least damage yourself? Is this what you think will give you the least hurtful ending? Kazuya looked into Kato's eyes.
I think it should be, right? And Kato's eyes seem to understand Kazuya's thoughts, so Kazuya conveys a message.
"Moreover, doing your best to win this competition with Kasumigaoka-sani has another benefit for Aragaki-san, right? That is, it can improve your status in the eyes of the editors of the fantastic library, your status can be improved, and it can also be convenient for you to introduce Kirino to the editor, right? Kato continued.
"Introducing Kirino?"
"I think that if Mysterious Bunko thinks that Kirino's novel physical book publication plan is a feasible project, then it must prove that Kirino's novel has enough market potential, and if Fantastic Bunko is told this, they feel that this is another opportunity to suppress Myster Bunko, Fantastic Bunko should be happy to publish Kirino's novel, isn't it? At least it would be a little better than the attitude of the Mystery library. And the direct fuse of the quarrel between Aragaki-san and Ying Lili is Kirino's novel, right? Being able to help solve this problem is also an opportunity topic for Aragaki to reconcile with Eiri Pear, isn't it? β
"So, does everything have to start with a complete tear with Senior Sister Shiyu on the publication of the novel?"
"I don't know if this is the best plan, I don't even know if it's the right plan," Kato's eyes became hesitant, "But, this is my suggestion, Aragaki-san, should I think about it?" β
Looking at Kato, who had always been firm before, but in the end showed a hint of retreat, Kazuya was a little surprised, he didn't understand why Kato was suddenly a little reluctant to accept it at this time.
However, he could no longer think about this, and the phrase "when making a choice, you have to give up something" came back to his mind.
"Understood, I think,I should have adopted Kato's plan.,Although I'm sorry Kasumigaoka-sani.,I don't even know if I'll forgive my senior sister if I ask for forgiveness.,But,For me,Eiri pear is the most important person right now.γ
Now, Kato, if that's what you persuaded me to do, then I'll do it!
"Yes, no matter what, Ying Li Li is the most important person for you!" With a heavy sigh of relief, Kato showed a look of complete relief.
I'm sorry, Kasumigaoka-sani, I let Kazuya do this, you might hate me, right? But isn't it normal to be treated as an outer? Moreover, at my instigation, this result led to this, and Kazuya will naturally alienate me in the end, right?
That's bad! Even the emotions have become a little strange, obviously, I wouldn't have been excited, but why did the voice unconsciously become sharper, why did the speed of speech unconsciously become faster, why did the volume unconsciously become louder?
But none of that matters, right? Maybe it's not the ending that hurts me the least, but it's the one that hurts the least together for everyone, isn't it? Your own injury, which can also refer to the damage you see, played a word game, which is awkward, right? γ
Finally, Yingli Li, I'm a good girlfriend! When the time comes, you can't leave me alone!