There was a sharp pain in her throat, and Litmus felt that life was passing rapidly, and when she didn't have time to fear, she didn't understand until she died, why this seemingly humble and insignificant, harmless to humans and animals, even if she said a word to herself, she would bow her head shyly, and she didn't dare to resist even if she was bullied. Her beautiful almond eyes stared, trying to see the true face of the person who hurt her, but in vain, as far as her eyes could see, there was nothing but the dazzling scarlet, and with nostalgia and unwillingness to live, Litmus swallowed her last breath.

The hateful woman who had hurt his face lay on the ground and pretended to be dead, motionless. Zhu Feng kicked her impatiently: "Hey! Get up, don't play dead! Just now he was so angry that he stabbed her, and he didn't want to kill her directly. How could he bear to stab such a cute prey to death? He hadn't experienced the feeling that his father said made his heart beat faster and his blood was exciting.

But litmus lay on the ground without moving, Zhu Feng bent down suspiciously, and after meeting litmus's dead eyes, he realized that he had really accidentally killed someone. He turned Litmus's body over with great interest, a three-inch-long cut on her neck, hideous and terrifying, her face was covered with blood, she had long lost her previous beauty and cuteness, which only made Zhu Feng feel a little disgusting. He didn't understand why his vision was so bad, and he liked such an ugly thing, and he quickly took a few steps back with some discomfort, away from Litmus's corpse. Because the movement was too fast and too violent, the hand that belonged to his father that he had been carrying in his arms fell out, and the blood stained with litmus was still warm and rolled twice on the ground.

Father~~ Zhu Feng's eyes moved with the palm of his hand, and his gaze became a little blurry. He remembered that many years ago, not long before his father's death, and in the hot summer like now, his father, who had eaten and drunk but did not drink, would not beat or scold him as usual, and rarely hugged her tenderly and sat at the door of the building. There's a hall of wind there. It's always cooler than anywhere else.

The father would start rambling about his childhood, about his job, about his family, and then mysteriously. Begin to talk about his great achievements. The influence of fathers on sons. It's multifaceted. Every boy adores his father when he is young, consciously or unconsciously, and they will follow his example and hope that they will grow up to be like that. In their subconscious, they automatically and unconditionally accept whatever their father instills in them.

Zhu Feng explored in his memory for a long time, but he couldn't understand the indescribable touch of the warm blood that his father said at that time when it was splashed on his wrist. He began to reflect on what he had been doing, how different it was from what his father had done, and then he slowly tightened his grip on the dagger, and stabbed it at the dead body of Litmus, and then again, and again, and again.

No, it's not. That's not true. It shouldn't feel that way. The viscous liquid was tinged with a fishy smell on his hands, which only made him feel extremely nauseous, and he couldn't stab anymore, but only wanted to rinse all the blood off his hands.

The conditions of the staff dormitory were very simple, and there was no room for a bathroom in the room of the eight-person room, so Zhu Feng had to drag a towel hanging on the clothes pole, wipe off the blood on his hands and dagger indiscriminately, and take off the blood-stained shirt and roll it up in his hand, and sneaked out of the dormitory building while there was no one around.

He was just a thirteen-year-old half-old child, shirtless and no one cared, so when he took back the bottle of antiseptic solution and walked away from the dormitory building, even if there were already many pedestrians on the street, everyone just glanced at him in a hurry, and stopped paying attention, even if the murder case in the staff dormitory building was later exposed, no one would contact a half-old child. For the first time, Everest escaped the law.

Zhao Xia is a housewife, she doesn't have to work, of course she will stay at home in such a hot summer, Zhu Feng doesn't dare to go home, Zhao Xia knows him too well, she will definitely find clues from his words and deeds, this kind of thing is his privacy with his father, and he doesn't want his mother to know. So he did not go home at the first time, but ran to the stream outside the city, and threw his bloodstained clothes into the river to wash them, hoping to destroy all the evidence that made him suspicious of his mother.

It's a pity that although he went to find litmus after making two preparations today, in order to leave a good impression on the other party and increase his chances of success, Zhu Feng wore the most popular outfit for half-grown children at that time, white shirt and black pants. I believe everyone knows very well how stubborn the blood stains are, especially now that the weather is hot, he hurried all the way to the river, and it has been more than an hour since his clothes were stained with blood.

The blood on the clothes gradually dried up, taking on an unsightly dark red, like mold. Zhu Feng didn't know how to wash clothes, and he didn't even know that there were cleaning products such as laundry detergent in this world, until he rubbed his hands red, and the blood stains on his clothes were only slightly lighter, and he was far from completely eliminating. Seeing that he couldn't wash it off, but he had to go back home, Zhu Feng's eyes rolled and he thought about it. He is also a ruthless character, ruthless to others, and ruthless to himself. As soon as his heart was crossed, he hit a crooked-necked tree not far from the river, adjusted the angle, and hit the trunk of the tree with his nose, and immediately blood flowed. So he took the water from the stream, froze his forehead, stopped the bleeding, and then scooped up his wet coat, and hung it on the branches of the crooked-necked tree, and when it was almost dry, he put it on, and then went home.

Sure enough, Zhao Xia was preparing to cook dinner at home, and her son quietly slipped into the house along the root of the wall, this strange action attracted Zhao Xia's attention, she saw that her son's nose was red and swollen, and there were spots of blood on his body, and he threw down the kitchen knife with a pale face, hugged his son and began to shush the cold and ask for warmth.

Zhu Feng has never hated his mother as much as she does now, she has never really understood herself, and will only pay attention to those small things, which makes him feel suffocated by constraints. He was 13 years old and no longer a child, but his mother always treated him as if he were the same eight-year-old child. How can he live such a life?

He pushed his mother away with some irritation, threw down the sentence "I'm fine", took off his clothes and threw it on the floor, and went into his bedroom. When Zhao Xia hugged her son just now, she had seen clearly that he was fine, as if someone had punched her in the nose, she was distressed, but she also knew that her son was becoming more and more impatient with her now, so she just sighed and picked up the clothes that her son threw on the ground and helped him wash them.

Everest took advantage of his mother's distraction to wash clothes and didn't pay attention. Carefully hide the dagger and canning bottle that you have just left outside the door. They were all quietly brought into the house, carefully hidden, and thought about how to get rid of their mother's entanglement.

His current life is like a pool of stagnant water for him, and he can't be interested in the slightest. And the mother is the quagmire by the backwater. Firmly tied to his legs that wanted to be free. If you can. He wished to leave Y City immediately, and from then on the sky was high and the clouds were indifferent to let him fly freely.

He suddenly thought of a possibility, it seemed that his mother had relatives on his mother's side. Although her mother never mentioned it, a black and white photo she carried with her was often taken out to see, and Zhu Feng also seemed that every time she asked who the person who mentioned the photo was, her mother squeaked and refused to say.

Can I leave my mother under the pretext of leaving my relatives, and then secretly save a sum of money, and then disappear from my relatives' house, and then I can live the kind of free life that I think I think? So while he was having dinner, he cautiously tested his mother a few words: "Mom, why have you never heard of your relatives over there?" My grandparents and grandfathers, aren't they all here? Zhao Xia obviously didn't expect her son to ask this question, her face stiffened, she paused with her hand that was holding vegetables, and wanted to make a smile at her son, but because it was too stiff, how awkward it was, she wanted to make up a lie, but in the face of her son's expectant gaze, this lie couldn't be said anyway. They don't have any relatives in Y City, and the son is indeed a little lonely, otherwise her good son can't be with a group of gangsters every day and not learn well, if there is a cousin, cousin, cousin and the like to play with him, he can't get to this point today.

Zhao Xia's parents were still alive when she left G City, and the reason why she resolutely chose to marry Zhu Huaijun at that time and left the relatives who gave birth to her and raised her was nothing more than that they felt that they were not close to this daughter.

G City is located in the vast prairie, at that time there were no mineral resources found, every family relied on grazing cattle and sheep to support their families, the income was limited, and the families with many children lived tightly. Zhao Xia has seven brothers and sisters, she is the third, eight children and two adults, plus 2 old people, the family of twelve often eats the last meal without the next meal, and the hunger pang runs through Zhao Xia's entire growth history. At the age of 18, she was as thin as a bean sprout, and when she looked at her from afar, she couldn't tell that she was a girl.

That year, G City was hit by a blizzard, cattle and sheep froze to death I don't know how many, the family was about to starve to death, his eldest brother was bitten off by a wolf when grazing, walked with a limp, and couldn't do heavy work, the second brother went to be a soldier in order to save some food for the family, and now he has been in the army for more than a year, and he can send so much money to his family every month, but at that time, the subsidy for being a soldier was low, and such a little money was saved from the second brother's teeth, but it was also a drop in the bucket. The family couldn't live anymore, and Zhao Xia, who was just the right age, was discussed by her parents to marry out and exchange some food for the winter to support her younger brothers and sisters.

In fact, at that time, Zhao Xia was not opposed to getting married, this family was about to starve to death, she was not a selfish ghost who only cared about herself, regardless of the life or death of others, if she got married, if her husband's conditions were better, she would be willing to borrow some food from their family to survive this difficult winter.

But he didn't expect that the man his parents picked for him was a well-known gangster in ten miles and eight towns, relying on a few stinky money in his family, he enlarged the belly of other people's girls in the seventies and forced other girls' girls to jump into the river. Her parents are trying to force her to death! For the sake of his younger brothers and sisters to have a way to live, don't you care about her as a girl? Zhao Xia yearns for a better life, but also yearns for a better love, like all eighteen-year-old girls, unwilling to succumb to her tragic fate, so when she begged her parents to no avail, she ran away without hesitation.

She was only eighteen years old, and she didn't understand, in that era when it was difficult to move an inch without a letter of introduction from the unit, the consequence of her running away was that she was arrested as a spy, and when her parents came to take her home, her face was as black as the bottom of a pot, and then she was tied up and locked up at home, received the other party's financial gifts, and waited to marry her.

Although at that time, the national law stipulated that women could only get married when they were at least 20 years old, but there were policies and countermeasures, and the poor couldn't manage so much, most of them got married and lived together, and then went to the certificate when they reached the age, and the phenomenon of early marriage and early childbearing was not uncommon in this vast grassland, and Zhao Xia was just one of them.

In those two years of miserable life, Zhao Xia never wanted to think about it again. That scumbag not only has a chaotic style of men and women, but also has a serious tendency to violence, and often beats her. Finally, after she was almost killed and stumbled back to her parents' house, she finally regained a little pity for her mother and was unwilling to send her back. It happened that the second brother came home that year, and the two younger brothers also grew up, and beat the scumbag who came to the door like a pig's head, and the two families completely fell out.

At that time, people were not interested in divorce, and even if Zhao Xia had not received a certificate, she was already a second-hand product that had been married once, and there was basically no market in the local area. Zhu Huaijun is an orphan, the family has no permanent property, once he went to G City with the people of the unit to support the construction, was introduced, met Zhao Xia, she knew that Zhao Xia had been with a man before, but her family was so poor that she didn't mind, and led Zhao Xia back to Y City.

The nightmarish experience of two years was pressed in the bottom of Zhao Xia's heart, and she thought that she would never think about it again in her life. She couldn't forgive her parents for what she did at the beginning, so after marrying Y City, she didn't go home for 14 years, and she didn't hear a word about her parents again.

With such a big family and a large number of people, my son will always find someone who fits his eyes, right? Alas, forget it, after so many years, what is the deep hatred and hatred! Since her son wants someone to accompany her, she will send him to live in G City for a period of time, the vast prairie is the place where she was born and raised, and she has not said it for so many years, but she also misses it in her heart.

After all, her parents will be nearly sixty years old, and if she doesn't go, she may never have the opportunity to meet in her life. After losing her man and son to depend on each other, Zhao Xia really felt the preciousness of her relatives, and her thoughts had already loosened. (To be continued.) )