One day in early September 2010, a women's and children's hospital in N City.

Just after 8 a.m., there was a long queue in front of the obstetrics and gynecology clinic. In the process of waiting for the number to be called, the father-to-be, or the grandmother-to-be, etc., took care of the pregnant woman with a big belly, served tea and water, and was very attentive. Now basically every family is an only child, and of course the child is expensive, and the expectant mother, who is a great contributor, naturally gets the best care of the whole family. Therefore, it is not surprising that there are either young men or elderly ladies queuing up outside the obstetrics and gynecology department.

Xiaoyou took another day off from school today, one quietly registered and received the number plate, and one sat quietly in the corner. Compared with other expectant mothers who are full of expectations and enjoy the stars holding the moon, she is so out of place when she is alone, and it is the season when the autumn tiger is in charge, wrapping herself in a mummy, and lowering her head as much as possible to reduce her sense of existence without saying a word.

Gossip is everywhere, especially during such a boring time period as waiting for an inspection. The expectant mothers who are about to look forward to their grandchildren, the emotionally charged elderly, and the expectant mothers who are raising a baby at home and trying to turn themselves into a pig can be regarded as the two most idle groups of people. People don't gossip about teenagers, there is that sharp-eyed old lady, I have already seen that Xiaoyou should be very young, and it is very likely that she is still underage, their gossip fire is burning, and they hit it off, whether they know each other or not, they will talk about it first, and they will start to talk to the people in front and behind them in a whisper.

"Alas! It's really the world is declining, and people's hearts are not ancient. Now the post-90s, tsk tsk. It's really lawless. Why are girls so self-loving? Let's play with the fire now. Old Lady A whispered to Old Lady B.

The old lady interjected with a smile: "Old sister." You're rare and weird. Today's children start to engage in objects from kindergarten, hand in hand. Kiss the mouth, their parents are still taking pictures next to them as a joke, thinking that their children are playing, and now the children are really mature! When we were 8 or 9 years old, when we came back from school, we would go out to cut pigweed, clean the yard, feed the chickens and ducks, and talk to the boys, and we would be laughed at by our peers for a long time. People are 8 or 9 years old, and after school, they go to the dessert shop to eat desserts, and then love and love come out with anything. ”

Old Lady A thought so: "Yes, that's the truth. Two days ago, I saw a news report about a little girl who had just entered junior high school and had four boyfriends at the same time. What else to play***, but I was made belly bigger, and I don't know who my father is, she is with so many men at the same time. Who knows whose seed is in the belly, and in the end, these unlucky boys shared the cost of the operation. Such a shameless girl grows up and doesn't know whose good man she is going to harm. Now it's expensive to marry a daughter-in-law, and you want to buy a car and a house. I have to give gifts and buy jewelry, which costs the lives of our old people. This gritted his teeth and stomped his feet to take out the coffin book. Married back is such a second-hand goods, you say that you should not be awkward, you don't love yourself at a young age, you have a miscarriage when you are a teenager, and you can't give birth to a child at the age of twenty or thirty, this is not a pit for your future in-laws. ”

The old lady B continued to eight: "This is still lost, and it is embarrassing not to be born." Last time, my granddaughter watched the news on the Internet and told me that there was a fourteen-year-old girl who didn't know that she was pregnant, and the parents at home were also confused, so I thought it was the little girl who gained weight during puberty, but then her stomach hurt so badly that she went to the hospital for a check-up. You said that you have to keep this life that was born to cry, right? The whole death is intentional homicide, the child is fourteen years old, and the parents are in their early thirties, but they are all grandfathers, think about it, they are ashamed of their panic, how to hold their heads up in front of relatives and friends in the future. ”

"It's just that now the children are really not like words, they don't take responsibility at all, and they don't care for their bodies. You don't know, yesterday my daughter-in-law and I came late in the afternoon, and the line for the prenatal examination was not lined, and we waited until 5:30 when the doctors got off work, and I was very impressed. It's this little girl, who was dressed like this yesterday, alone, when the doctor got off work in 10 minutes, she entered the obstetrics and gynecology department with a thief, but the door was not closed tightly, I vaguely heard the doctor ask her, if she wanted to do something in a few months, and then she seemed to pay for an appointment to have surgery today. Sure enough, she came this morning. "A group of people who don't gossip about the death star came together, and they were a little scruple at first, but then they talked about the excitement and became louder and louder.

Xiaoyou didn't know that they were talking about themselves behind their backs, their faces around the scarf were flushed, and she also hated that she was young and ignorant, and as soon as she was coaxed by words, she did something that she regretted. Now she is accidentally pregnant, but the scumbag disappeared without a trace when she called him for the first time, the phone has been turned off, she went to his rental room yesterday and waited all night, and she didn't let her find anyone, leaving her sad and sad alone.

She regretted it so much, regretted that she was ignorant and couldn't find out the abnormality of her body earlier, until her stomach was already bulging, she felt that something was wrong and hurriedly came to the hospital for examination. The words spoken by the doctor directly stunned her like thunder, and she didn't think about it, so she said that she was going to have surgery. The only thing that is gratifying is that her family conditions are acceptable, her parents divorced when she was very young, no one wants her, she grew up with her grandparents, and her parents don't see each other once a year, and the way they express their love is to hurriedly put 1000 yuan on her card when she calls, and then impatiently tell her that they are busy and hang up.

She is never short of money, but she is very short of love. She also wanted to experience the feeling of being loved, so when someone confessed to her, the moth pounced on her like a fire, and gave herself stupidly, never thinking about the consequences. She sat stiffly on the chair, holding her stomach slightly with her hands, maybe it was caused by her psychological tension, maybe the child in her belly knew that she had no chance to be born in this world at all, and she was making the last struggle, she only felt a pain in her belly, and after a while, fine beads of sweat oozed from her forehead.

She felt the urge to get up and turn around and leave the hospital immediately. But she knew she couldn't. She didn't want this fateless child to be like her. Born in an environment that lacks a complete family and love. Stumbling and growing up. And she doesn't have the ability to raise a child, she is still a child herself, a child that no one loves and no one loves. Since yesterday, I learned that there was a little life in my womb that was pregnant, and the backlog of sadness, regret and reluctance all came to my heart, coupled with the endless discussions of the people around me, Xiaoyou finally couldn't help it, tears came out of her eyes, and she bit her lip for the last trace of her ridiculous dignity. Let the tears slide silently.

For one morning, she sat on a chair outside the obstetrics and gynecology department, always smiling, and politely asking the pregnant women behind her to go for prenatal check-ups first. Of course, those people wanted to hurry, so she didn't have much effort and was in last place. Xiao You just thought, even if it's only a little later, let her feel this little life.

At 12 o'clock in the afternoon, the doctor left work on time. Although he was surprised. Why did this little girl, who began to wait in line for surgery yesterday afternoon, sit outside tightly wrapped and not go in, but he has been doing this for many years, and he has met all kinds of people. It's already strange, and I don't have any desire to go up and talk about being a bosom sister, so I quickly disappeared into the corridor.

The maternal and children's hospital was noisy for half a morning. Because the doctor is off work and the patient is home, it gradually quiets down. Soon only Xiao You was left on the entire floor, sitting quietly like a clay sculpture and wood carving.

"Little girl. What's wrong with you, little girl? The doctors are off work and come to work at 2 o'clock in the afternoon, so you will come back then, okay? Let's go home first. Xiao You was in a trance for a while, and then she reacted, and the sweeping aunt on the other side, who was dressed plainly, slightly chubby, smiling kindly, and was about forty or fifty years old, was talking to her.

People are also caring about her out of kindness, and they should answer a sentence because of reason, but now is the time when Xiaoyou is at the lowest mood in her life, she doesn't want to say a word, so she pretends not to hear anything and ignores the other party directly. The aunt didn't leave immediately, but sat beside her and put her arm around her shoulders: "Girl, look at your age, how many months are the child?" "Auntie has long noticed this girl who has been sitting in the outpatient clinic all morning.

How many months? Xiao You thought about it in his mind, what did the doctor say just now? When was your last menstrual period? She doesn't even seem to know how many months the child in her womb is, and she probably has failed to do this as a mother.

Knowing what, this is a child who should not exist in this world, and he is destined not to have the opportunity to take a look at this wonderful world. The more I know about it, the more reluctant I am afraid. She clutched the B-ultrasound list in her hand tightly, forcing herself not to look at it, but in her heart she was unconsciously outlining the outline of the little baby, her nose was sore, and tears slipped down again.

The aunt gently comforted her: "Silly girl, don't beat it if you are reluctant." After being born, find a good family to send it out, and know that it will live well in the future, no better than killing it directly. Seeing you so unwilling, my aunt felt distressed. "The aunt kept whispering in Xiaoyou's ear, how many couples can't have children because they are infertile, and the technology of doing IVF is immature, and they are afraid that they will have unsound children after being sinned, which is more troublesome than nothing, so they are willing to spend some money to find some newborn babies that others are unwilling to support, and take them back to themselves. This child, who raised him and who kissed him, he didn't know his own background, he was by his adoptive parents from birth, and he was no different from his own child.

Xiao You was gradually attracted by the prospect described by the aunt, yes! Since she learned the news of her pregnancy yesterday, she has been in a daze, thinking that she is still young and unable to raise a child, so she wants to kill it, but she has not considered the possibility of giving it away.

She quickly calculated, it is now September, according to the approximate month of the child in her belly, she will give birth to this child around the New Year, as long as she takes half a year off from school, and then goes back to school after giving birth to a child after the New Year, she will not delay anything, if she arranges it carefully, she can do it without knowing it.

Your child doesn't have to die, it can grow up in an environment with good economic conditions, someone loves and loves you, even if it never knows who its biological mother is, as long as Xiaoyou knows, this child is healthy and happy somewhere in the world, isn't it the most basic expectation of every mother?

The aunt is obviously familiar with this kind of thing, and knows which words can touch the hearts of these young girls the most, although Xiaoyou is sitting here with a haggard look, but the clothes on her body are not bad, and she doesn't look like a master who is short of money, so she didn't propose money to buy this child at first, but said it directly, so that the child can live, Xiaoyou really took the bait, like grabbing a life-saving straw, pulling the sweeping aunt and not letting go: "Auntie, I beg you, help me, I want this child to live." ”

Xiao You is only sixteen years old, and when she encounters such a big thing, her parents don't care about her, and what this kind aunt says is reasonable, which makes her instinctively want to believe it.

"Good boy, don't worry, Auntie will find a way for you. Auntie knows some people, now go and give them a call, you wait a minute, I'll give you the news. Xiaoyou nodded like pounding garlic, but the hand holding the aunt's arm said that he didn't want to say anything, for fear that as soon as she let go, the aunt would disappear.

The aunt was also refreshed, took out her mobile phone and skillfully dialed a phone number, briefly explained the situation here, and then hung up the phone, smiled and nodded at Xiao You, who was full of anticipation: "Don't worry, aunt, aunt, everything is done." You wait a while, and an older sister will come and pick you up. She will arrange a place for you to live and take good care of you until you finish your confinement. You don't have to think about anything, you should eat, eat, sleep, and give birth to the child with peace of mind, now you are eating two people alone, look at this little face yellow, the aunt is distressed, but you have to eat white and fat, so that the child born is healthy, you are young, you don't understand this, you have to listen to your sister's words, you know? "People who don't know it think that this aunt and Xiaoyou are a mother and daughter, and they tell it to be careful and thoughtful, and every sentence comes from the bottom of their hearts. (To be continued.) )