Death of a writer

Here, it is the first city in the Far East, the little Paris of the East, and the S city of Hong Kong in the mainland.

The alleys of S city seem to still stay in 80 years ago, the old people who gather downstairs to play mahjong, the teenagers running in the narrow alleys, the local dishes of the old restaurant with thick oil sauce, and the traditional dance hall of Shanghai at night, make people have the illusion of going back in time, immersive, and let people feel the infinite charm of Shanghai at night. The new buildings in the Eastern District, with their high-rise buildings rising from the ground, are like energetic young people, ready to meet the challenges of the future.

It's a veritable city that never sleeps. In other cities, which had fallen into a deep slumber, it was still brightly lit, lovingly watching the revelers who had been slow to return home. The S city at night is a big stage, you sing and I appear, drunk and golden, prosperous.

However, behind this prosperity, the darkness always follows. It seems that light and darkness are natural rivals and closest brothers, entangled, intertwined, fighting, compromising with each other, acquiescing to each other's existence.

The ghost market is a special existence after the wrestling of light and darkness. The so-called ghost market, listen to the name and know the meaning. For most of the aborigines who live in Panjia Lane in the West District, they have always heard about the ghost market, and they also know a little bit about it, but after living here all their lives, no one has ever seen what the ghost market looks like, let alone its specific location.

If you are introduced and brought into the ghost market, you don't have to worry at all, if you want to explore it in many ways and uncover its mystery. Then congratulations, you can experience the desperation of the legendary iron shoes with nowhere to be found.

Because it's always behind you, watching your every move, and when you turn around, it retreats as if it never existed.

Some people say that this is a paradise for the rich, as long as you can afford the price, the ghost market can provide you with everything, no matter how ridiculous your requirements are; It was said. This is hell for the innocent. As long as you are chosen, it will be difficult to completely get out of the ghost market and return to normal human society.

Of course, most people only think that the ghost market is another legend left over from the old S city. I didn't go to my heart. What era is it now? Broken four old and broken for decades. How can you still believe in these cows, ghosts, snakes, and gods? We are the builders of socialism in the new era, firmly believing in Marxism-Leninism, Mao Zedong Thought and Deng Xiaoping Theory. Absolute atheist. There is no god, where does the ghost come from? If there really are ghosts in this world, then ghosts will only appear in one place, and that is in people's hearts! There is so much work to explore and fool around, so let's earn money to support my family.

Di Limin is a writer, and his works are very in-depth - of course, this sentence is what he thinks it is. In the eyes of his wife Jiao Jiao, this Shanghai man who is a bit of a wretched man is useless except for making good dishes and being keen on the life of a careful geographer, so she can bear him.

She regretted countless times that she was blind at the beginning, how could she think that the elegance and bookishness of the literati in him were extremely handsome, and she was willing to be a moth to the fire for thirty years.

The sons have already started a family, and the grandchildren are about to have them, why is their family still dreaming of an unrealistic Nobel Prize every day, killing time with a pen every day, and not producing?

Half a lifetime of hard work to support her family, Jiao Jiao's appearance has long since aged, she is in her fifties, she looks like she has been retired for many years, but Di Limin looks like she is only in her early forties, handsome, and an absolute middle-aged female killer. Jiao Jiao inevitably tasted, although he knew that this man's brain was bad, rather than killing time on the woman's side, he would rather read and write hard in the stacks of books, but the insecurity brought by the woman who lost her beauty and the psychological sensitivity of menopause, she didn't quarrel with Di Limin every day, and her life couldn't go on.

Jiao Jiao sometimes regrets that her two good sisters, who are a year or two older than her, are still beautiful, but she hardly dares to look in the mirror again. After more than 20 years of working in three shifts, she felt extremely tired, and the meager income of her family made her dare not waste every penny easily, she never bought cosmetics, and even skin care products only picked the cheapest.

Who let her pick a husband who can't support the family herself! Di Limin has been writing for 30 years, what is the result? In the past 30 years, he has only published works with a total of less than 3,000 words in a few newspapers, earning 387 yuan and 5 cents in manuscript fees. wanted to rely on him to support his family, and the family starved to death eight generations earlier. But just like that, Di Limin is still insisting, he thinks that he is talented, he will definitely succeed, even if Jiao Jiao wears out his mouth, he also sticks to the pen that is dozens of centimeters, and resolutely "does not bend his waist for five buckets of rice"!

Fortunately, although he can't write a good article, he can make a good dish, even if it is cabbage and radish every day, he can make something more delicious, and most of the unevenness in Jiao Jiao's heart is consumed by this simple hot meal.

So the husband and wife have a tacit understanding that the male protagonist is inside and the female protagonist is outside, and the family affairs are all inclusive, and the burden of supporting the family is borne by Jiao Jiao.

Half a month ago, the roof of their house fell. Jiao Jiao, who was about to reach retirement age, fainted at work and was almost swept into the machine, if it wasn't for the worker next door who quickly pulled her, she would have died at that time.

Sent to the hospital, when Jiao Jiao learned that she had advanced stomach cancer, she really wished that she was directly swept into the machine and died! At least if she dies like that, it can be regarded as a work injury, and the unit will lose money, and now she can't be cured of her crimes, dragging down the whole family.

After living in S City for a lifetime, their poor savings are only tens of thousands of yuan, although the serious illness medical insurance can reimburse a lot, even so, the remaining part of their own responsibility is not a small amount, Jiao Jiao's first thought is to give up treatment and go home until death.

Unexpectedly, Di Limin, who had been incompetent all her life, resolutely opposed her cowardly evasion, and immediately went home and took out all his savings and handed them over to the hospital, where he must be treated.

"The doctor said you still have a chance, as long as you have a good mentality, don't be afraid, I'm here. This little money in our family is earned by you with one hand and one foot, and it shouldn't be spent on you. Di Limin touched his wife's calloused hands, inexplicably sad, it turned out that she had been married to him for so many years, and she lived such a life. The words that the doctor said when he was called out were still ringing in his ears: "A large part of her illness is due to dietary problems, eating pickles all year round, and malnutrition. How did you become a husband? She must have had stomach aches for a long time, why didn't you bring her to the hospital for a check-up? ”

yes, why didn't I care about her? Several times, she saw her holding her stomach with a hot water bag, curled up on the bed in a cold sweat, he thought she was just having menstrual cramps, and made a cup of brown sugar water for her, how old is she, how can she still come?

Damn it! He deserves to die! Di Limin hated himself so much that he rushed home, threw out the waste he had written for many years, and burned it all to the door!

Seeing his works gradually turning into ashes, he was so distressed that he couldn't help but take the risk to save a few photos, looking at the contents of those in his hand, he couldn't help but fall into deep thought.

In the past few days, it has been a happy time that Jiao Jiao has not enjoyed in her life, her son has come back from leave to see her, her elderly parents have also come, and her brothers and sisters have gathered. Thinking about the last time the whole family got together was a few years ago, they were all glamorous, and they were terminally ill, and Jiao Jiao's smiling face was a little stiff.

What a shame to see them! Life is like this, and relatives have to worry about it, Jiao Jiao's old face is a little red.

Di Limin, who swore two days ago that he would accompany her for treatment, was nowhere to be found, his son called him to turn off the phone, and there was no one to look for at home, she knew that her parents were angry and distressed.

Lying on the hospital bed, it can be seen how much the man usually neglects his daughter, and letting her marry is really the most wrong decision they have made in their lives! Eighty-year-old people, and white-haired people send black-haired people!

Because of the medication, Jiao Jiao vomited a lot, and her stomach hurt and she couldn't eat at all, all she spit out was bile and sour water, and people saw that she had lost a lot of weight.

"It's gone, it's not cured." was hospitalized for five days, spent 20,000 yuan, tossed off half of Jiaojiao's life, and Di Limin had no news.

If it weren't for knowing that the family really had no money, Jiao Jiao would have thought that the one who had no conscience was not seeing her sick, so she left her and ran away. But for half a lifetime, although Di Limin has no ability, he has never done anything to be too sorry for her, and he can't leave her alone if she has a few days to live, right?

The son Di Ming saw his mother suffering, his father's whereabouts were unknown, and the corners of his mouth were full of blisters in just a few days, and he was tired of taking care of his mother, while he had to run around to find his father, and at the same time he had to comfort his wife, who was pregnant at home alone, and he didn't even have time to cry.

Father is like evaporation in the world, everything is as usual at home, but there is no one with him, and a few old friends don't know where he goes, only Uncle Ma, who has the best relationship, said that his father borrowed 10,000 yuan from him three days ago, and briefly talked about his wife's serious illness and hospitalization, and said that he found a way to make money, and he will definitely save Jiao Jiao at all costs.

Di Ming later went to the hospital to check, and his father handed over the borrowed 10,000 yuan to the hospital, but his whereabouts could never be found again.

In desperation, Di Ming reported the case to the police.

Unexpectedly, he had just introduced his father's physical characteristics to the Luochu Police Station in the Western District, and the police officer in charge of recording frowned and said "You wait a minute", and then threw down the pen and went out.

Just when Di Ming was angry about the attitude of the police, the man came back again, and with him came back the director and deputy director of the police station, and the three invited him to get into the police car and took him all the way to the Western District Bureau.

On the way, the three of them vaguely said that they wanted to take Di Ming to identify the body.

What the? Identifying a corpse? When Di Ming heard these two words, his eyes darkened for a moment. Could it be that my father is dead?

In the past few days since his father disappeared, Di Ming has imagined all kinds of possibilities, and death is one of them, but they were all immediately thrown out of his mind. He couldn't imagine what he would do if he was about to lose his mother and his father.

It must not be my father's! He thought so, but his heart couldn't calm down. (To be continued......)