Chapter 320: A New Beginning?
Kazuya looked at Ayase in a daze, even though he had a vague premonition that Ayase might say something that worried him, but he didn't expect it at all, and in this situation without warning, like an explosion, she confessed to herself without a trace of hesitation.
Moreover, the two of them are now in the small space on the plane, and they can't escape, and they can't even turn around to avoid Ayase's eager eyes, and in the end, he can only look at Ayase and hold back a sentence from his mouth: "Why?" ”
"Why does Ayase like her brother?" Ayase gently brushed the sideburns on her forehead, with a hint of style, and asked softly.
"It's not about that," Kazuya shook his head and said, "Why, at this time?" ”
"So, isn't my brother surprised that Ayase likes his brother?" Ayase blinked, asking with some curiosity.
"I was surprised when you said it, but after you calmed down, you found that it wasn't impossible, right? After all, part of the reason may be my own cause. What I really don't understand, though, is, why are you saying this, and why, are you saying it now? Kazuya asked with a wry smile, and the peaceful, calm tone made him a little impressed by himself.
"If you want to say it, just say it!" Ayase smiled softly and said a little mischievously.
"That's not the answer I want to hear!" Kazuya frowned, "It's always a bit too coincidental to say it here, if you say it in other circumstances-"
"--Brother can fool him around, right?"
And didn't speak, nodding silently.
"Yes, in fact, my brother doesn't like to face these things, right? So I've been procrastinating to solve problems.,I've been unwilling to face these problems head-on.,Whether it's Ayase's thing.,Or other seniors' things.,Didn't my brother do it? ”
"I know it may be bad to do this, but didn't the reckless choice of the pear last time also lead to the consequences of the current entanglement? Sometimes, being decisive is not necessarily a good thing for the subsequent results! ”
"Well, Ayase is understandable," Ayase nodded, and said, "It's very likely that you will regret making a decision quickly without careful consideration—but didn't Ayase say it?" My brother is not good at doing these things, so let Ayase help my brother! ”
"That's what you call help?" Kazuya asked with a wry smile.
"Actually, it's really just a coincidence to say this," Ayase shook her head and said, "I really just thought about it and said it, I think it's natural, I think I should say it, although I was a little apprehensive at the moment I said it, but after saying it, my heart settled down a lot, because, after saying it, Ayase understood her mood even more - if I was still a little hesitant and resistant before, then, now, I have nothing to worry about!" ”
"But Ayase will know my answer, right?" Kazuya, who slowly calmed down, looked at Ayase's eyes quietly and said.
"Of course, my brother will definitely refuse, right?" Ayase replied without hesitation, "Although my brother is really not good at dealing with emotional problems, my brother is an unexpectedly principled person!" To respond to Ayase's confession, of course it's impossible, isn't it? ”
Feeling that all his thoughts have been grasped by Ayase, Kazuya suddenly has a depressed feeling that he wants to lose his temper but has nowhere to vent. Although he was very angry at Ayase's sudden confession, although Kazuya also knew that he would definitely reject the other party, but, after all, Ayase was his sister, and he also knew that Ayase's idea may not be without his own intentional or unintentional cultivation reasons, so at this time, he always felt that if he wanted to be angry with Ayase, it would be too unjustifiable.
"So, now that you know my answer, why do you want to confess?"
"That's why Ayase said it, and I really just thought about it and said it in passing—although it seems that I just chose an occasion where my brother could face the problem directly." Ayase shook her head, and then whispered, "And, indeed, I'm a little nervous, after all, now, it's also Ayase's best chance, right?" If you go back from the United States, my brother will see her seniors again, right? At that time, wasn't Ayase no longer a unique person? ”
"But, when you're in the U.S., there's a lot of opportunity, isn't it?" Kazuya replied a little weakly, "If you confess to me now, I will definitely refuse." ”
"That's not the case, confessing to my brother in the United States, my brother will definitely refuse," Ayase shook his head and said with some bitterness, "Because my brother is always like this, abiding by principles, wanting to take responsibility that he can't carry, and wanting to think and prepare for something that other people don't care about at all, my brother has never changed." Although my brother is a very emotional person, my brother does things a lot of the time without considering his true feelings in his heart. ”
Kazuya looked at Ayase with wide eyes, he didn't realize at all that Ayase had an unexpectedly thorough grasp of his character, and, after thinking about it carefully, Kazuya felt that Ayase's evaluation was indeed a perfect portrayal of himself.
"I've heard about it too, when I was a child, the reason why my brother and Yingli seniors were separated was that my brother felt that he had done something wrong, and he should make up for it by alienating his seniors, right? For example, in the relationship between my brother and Senior Sister Hui, I always feel that I have an agreement with Senior Sister Hui about that diary, and I have been forcibly suppressing my feelings, right? For example, when my brother helps Kasumigaoka to write a script together, he always has to make his style match the other party, without considering that Kasumigaoka may not mind, and my brother himself has to put in extra effort, right? Actually, my brother knows, doesn't he? These things, even if my brother really can't do it, the seniors won't care about it, right? Ayase continued quietly.
"It feels like Ayase really knows everything!" Kazuya patted his head and sighed helplessly.
"Of course, because Ayase has been looking at her brother - or does my brother just think that only someone like E-sena will be the kind of person who keeps looking at her brother?"
In this regard, Kazuya was a little speechless again, although according to Ayase, she was unprepared for this matter, so her rather organized words were actually brewing in her heart for a long time, right?
I really don't understand my sister's feelings! Kazuya thought with a wry smile, compared to Ayase's attention and understanding of himself, he was still too far behind Ayase.
"So, now on the issue of Ayase, my brother is like this too, right? Ayase didn't dare to speculate on her brother's true mood without permission, but Ayase also knew, not so much that Ayase didn't know her brother's true feelings, but rather that Ayase knew that her brother was now hiding his true mood - by social rules, sense of responsibility, and ethics, these brothers may think that Ayase will value it very much, may think that other people will value it very much, and may think that something more important than their true mood is hidden, right? ”
"What does Ayase mean by these words to prove to me that I like Ayase?"
"Of course, Ayase can feel it, and my brother also likes Ayase, definitely not the kind of simple brother and sister like, it's the kind of, really, between men and women. My brother sometimes looks at Ayase's eyes, but it's not just because of the care between relatives! Ayase nodded and replied confidently.
"Do you think you know my feelings better than I do?"
"That's because Ayase is trying harder than her brother to feel her brother's mood! In other words, my brother excludes all other thoughts and thinks about it, what is my brother's feelings for Ayase! In the face of Kazuya's somewhat provocative questioning, Ayase did not show convincing as she had been doing recently, although her voice was very soft, so light that she could only hear Kazuya, but the firmness in her tone could not be concealed from Kazuya.
"Does this need to be considered? My feelings for Ayase, of course—" Kazuya subconsciously retorted, a little irritably, but at the moment when the rebuttal was about to be spoken, he stopped-as if something was holding his neck and preventing him from speaking.
Kazuya tried hard for a long time, struggled for a long time, but in the end, he lowered his head in some frustration - even he didn't know why he couldn't say these words so easily, or rather, he knew, but he was still deliberately restraining himself and deliberately hiding himself - Kazuya was a little surprised to find that he might also realize that he was hiding himself.
Looking at Kazuya's depressed expression, Ayase didn't want to continue to ask, she just gently pressed Kazuya's somewhat trembling hands, and said quietly: "Actually, I don't want my brother to give me an answer right now." ”
"What do you mean?"
"From the beginning, Ayase said it," Ayase smiled sweetly and patted her hands, "When Ayase said that idea, she just thought of it, so she said it, so even Ayase herself didn't know, if her brother could really give an answer, what should Ayase do, Ayase just felt that she should tell her brother about it, and what decision her brother was going to make, there was still time, didn't it?" ”
"So, is this just a confession, a confession that doesn't ask for any response?" Kazuya muttered.
"That's right, it's just a confession, just to tell my brother about Ayase's feelings, the purest, and there's no confession that wants to ask for results."
"And then, you told me that I could think about it slowly in the United States, is that what you mean?"
"That's right, does my brother think there's anything wrong?"
"Of course—no!" Kazuya originally had some words that he wanted to defend, such as how he should get along with the other party when Ayase expressed his feelings to him in this regard, and he didn't immediately give the other party a clear response, such as how he should respond if Ayase did something beyond the norm during this time.
-- However, what Kazumi did not realize was that these things had nothing to do with the so-called moral and social principles that he had adhered to at the beginning, but had something more purely and emotionally attached.
"Of course, until my brother doesn't respond, Ayase is still my brother's sister, so this won't change, right? Even after my brother rejected me, Ayase was still my brother's sister, and my brother wouldn't doubt that, right? At all times, we're still relatives, aren't we? Ayase continued to wrap Kazuya's right hand with her two hands that were not so big, as if she wanted to convey her feelings to Kazuya's heart.
"Yes, of course!" Looking at Ayase's expression of understanding, Kazuya had mixed feelings in his heart, but he nodded seriously.
No matter when, no matter what his identity is, his concern for Ayase will not change, and Ayase's meaning to himself will not change, as long as he knows this, he will understand that he will not lose his way.
As for whether he and Ayase are sisters or couples or something, Kazuya thinks that he should go with the flow!
After all, going to the United States is to relax, and if you think about solving this problem, it will be too troublesome.
This is Kazuya's self-consolation in his heart, and of course, it is also a kind of self-anesthesia.
"And, I know," Ayase smiled serenely at Kazuya's expression, "If it's just feelings, in fact, my brother has already given me a satisfactory answer?" ”
"Huh?"
"It's nothing," seeing the pensive Kazuya turn his head to look at him, Ayase shook his head and smiled softly, "Actually, Ayase is already very happy as her brother's sister, isn't it?" ”
Subsequently, Kazuya saw that Ayase's eyes slowly bent, and then, Ayase, who was exposed with a beautiful arc and a look of happiness and satisfaction in her eyes, looked exceptionally pure and beautiful at that moment.
If I had to give an example, it would be like a shepherdesss at the foot of the pure and immaculate Alps in an oil painting, serene, calm and beautiful.
Kazu, who didn't know how long he had been watching Ayase like this, was only vaguely aware that in the sound of a rumble, halfway around the world, the plane had landed on another land that was alien to him.
Perhaps, this is an escape, but this is also a new beginning.