Chapter Ninety-Eight: Collapse
Why, why is this the case? I've avoided it as much as possible, so why is it still like this? Obviously he should have known this ending and behaved very cautiously, why did he still become like this? Obviously, my sister should be different from the one on the other world line, why hasn't anything changed? Obviously, there seem to be more people to rely on, why is the ending worse?
Although it was summer, the rain hit his body, which still made Kazuya feel extremely cold. It's not the first time he's seen Ayase angry with himself, it's not the first time he's seen Ayase crazy for himself, but this time the feeling is completely different from the previous feeling, no matter what, as long as she calms down, everything can be solved slowly, but, this time, Ayase's last shock and panic, until the last indifferent expression, made him feel like something was suddenly going to be lost.
Kazuya thinks it's the kind of natural trust that belongs to the brother and sister.,Before,Even if Kazuya lied to Ayase.,It's a white lie born in order not to worry Ayase.,Before,Even if you do something that makes Ayase unhappy.,That doesn't hinder the relationship between brothers and sisters whose blood is thicker than water.。 But this time, it's all different, for the sake of himself, in order to conceal it, and also with Kirino to strip away the trust in Ayase's heart together, for a thing that seems ridiculous to Ayase, the two "betrayed" her together, the two closest people to Ayase, betrayed at the same time.
"Aragaki-san, are you alright?" Kato slowly paced forward and made an apologetic gesture in front of Kazuya, as if regretting that he hadn't been able to help before.
Kazuya shook his head, smiled bitterly, stabilized his mind a little, lowered his head and said to Kato: "It's okay, it's not your fault, I should have realized this result a long time ago, it's okay if I confessed earlier, today's situation can only be said to be fate!" ”
"That's right," Kato nodded, no longer speaking, she is not a person who will push people too hard at such a moment, and mastering the scale at the right time is the most comfortable thing about Megumi Kato, "So, what's next?" ”
"I should have something to deal with," he said, glancing at the car carrying Ayase that had disappeared into the rain curtain, and then at the crowded venue, which had become sparsely populated, and remembering that Eiri Ri might still be waiting for him in the venue, which seemed to him to be a way to make himself a little redeemed.
"Well, do you need me to come with you?"
"Don't use it?" glanced at Kirino who seemed to have been hit harder next to him, and shook his head a little painfully, without his intervention, Kirino who was suddenly hit by such a big blow, at least there was Kyosuke by her side to enlighten and help, at least, there was also a Kyosuke who did not have a stiff relationship with Ayase to help Kirino solve the problem, however, now, under Kazuya's interference, Takasaka Kyosuke didn't know about his sister's situation, and was good at hiding himself in front of his family, And at this time, the relationship with his brother is still in the same cold state as before, and Kirino will not even let Kyosuke know about it.
"Sure enough, the selfishness of selfishness and self-consideration caused by self-care are really bad! At that time, I was talking to Kirino for the sake of Ying Lili, right? Now that my own problems have not been solved, the problems on her side have been magnified, and I was really a scumbag before! ”
However, although I have such thoughts, I still have to try to make up for the problems I have caused, and I also paced a little heavily to Kirino's side, and said, "I'm really sorry! It's all my fault for messing this thing up! ”
"If it's about the broken bag, then there's no way, if you didn't show the stuffing before, it's also no way," Kirino looked up at Kazuya and said, "Besides, you're the same, and for you, Ayase is more important!" ”
"No, I don't mean this, I should be able to remind you, after all, I know what she has to work on today." Kazuya shook his head and said with some pain.
"You have no way of knowing when and where she will appear, or that the two of us have been hiding in front of her, and we will be found sooner or later, right? You can't hide this kind of thing for too long, right? At least I think it's a miracle that you've been hiding from her for so many years. Kirino smiled reluctantly, "I'm fine, I have to go to the group camp of the track and field club next, and the matter will be solved when the group stays back, right?" Probably! Anyway, you still have something to do just now, so I'll go and get busy with you first, right? Sister Hui too, don't worry about me. ”
And I didn't expect that the usually bad character Kirino would say such a reasonable thing at this time, but this also seems to represent her current extremely low mood, perhaps, at this time, it is a better choice to let her fight with the black cat for a while, but, looking at the black cat on the other side who is hesitating to join the comfort camp here, and Kirino's pale appearance, Kazuya still feels that it is better to be cautious.
"It's all right! Leave it to me here! Kato's calmer tone interrupted Kazuya's thinking, at this time, Kato Megumi faded away from the usual image of Akarin, and did not occasionally have the feeling of being black-bellied, showing a calm attitude of a senior sister.
"Okay, thanks!" Hesitantly looked at Kato and Kirino for a long time, Kazuya finally sighed and chose to agree, however, he didn't give up, a little angry, and some wanted to swear an oath turned his head to Kirino and said, "Anyway, Kirino, you listen!" This matter started because of me, although I have problems with Ayase now, but no matter what, I have to solve your problems, because of me, I must solve it by myself! I'll just put that here, you understand? ”
"Hey, this, didn't you say it's not your fault? And in your current situation, Ayase's attitude towards you can't be good, right? Kirino visibly looked a little flustered.
"I don't know! I've done so much wrong, I've made your problem even more complicated, so I can't delay any longer! Remembering that his intervention did not make the relationship between Kirino and Ayase better, but brought more harm to both of them, Kazuya felt a strong anger against himself in his heart, "So, I must solve this matter!" ”
"But ......" Kirino still wanted to defend himself, but Kato on the side opened his mouth first, staring at Kazuya's eyes tightly, and Kato asked, "Aragaki-san, are you really okay?" ”
"In short, if you can't, you can do it!" Kazuya nodded.
"Alright then!" Kato pulled up Kirino, who seemed to be a little anxious, and said, "But, don't be too reluctant!" ”
“OK!” Kazuya nodded and turned to the venue on the other side, "Before we settle this matter, let's settle the other person's affairs as well!" ”
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"Hey, you guy, wait a minute!" And just as Kazuya was about to rush out, another voice stopped him.
"Ah, this, black cat? I'm really sorry to forget you. Looking at the black cat who was a little dissatisfied, Kazuya scratched his head and said.
"I've been watching it for so long! I don't know if the relationship between you is really painful, I don't know how to intervene, I don't know how to persuade you, I don't leave first, and it's awkward to continue to stand. And then you guys are going to dump me in the end, and that's really not interesting for you guys! The black cat's eyes widened, and he kept shaking the bag in his hand, venting his frustration while locking on Kazuya with a hint of elusiveness.
"Well, well, I'm sorry to let you see such a farce. I just hope you don't have any prejudice against my sister. ”
"Well, that's not what I meant!" The black cat's face turned red, "Actually, I want to say that I also have a sister at home, so I can understand your feeling that your sister is far away from me, so you must reconcile!" ”
The black cat's expression became inexplicably serious, so that Kazuya on the side was also infected, and nodded solemnly, he also had a certain affection for this girl: "So, although the second is a little bit second, but overall it is still a good child!" ”
"One more point! It's not just for the relationship between you and your sister," looking at Kazuya's inexplicably softened expression, the black cat pouted and said, "And that narcissistic girl!" It's really unpleasant that guy looks so depressed, how can this kind of person compete with me! In this case, I won't be happy even if my novel wins her. ”
"You guy also cares a lot about Kirino." Although I roughly know the love between the black cat and Kirino, such an obvious expression still makes Kazuya stunned.
"Okay, okay, that's all I'm going to say, I'm not going to waste your time, you still have something to delay, right?" The black cat pushed Kazuya a little anxiously and said.
"Well, to solve the problem! Ayase's problem needs to be solved, and so is the problem of Eiri pear, which is the first thing to be solved next! ”
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To be honest, despite the encouragement of many people, despite boasting about Haikou in front of many people, Kazuya still has no basic ideas about how to solve Ayase's problem, and now he is just rushing forward with a strong drive, he doesn't know what the road ahead is, and he doesn't know what kind of setbacks he will face in the future. With such an emotion, he came to the door of Yingli Lili's society.
Switched his emotions.,Forcibly switch yourself out of her sister's affairs.,Recall all the feelings that Ying Li Pear poured into her book.,Now it seems,The causes and consequences of many things have been solved.,Why it's clear that Ying Li Pear has been preparing for a long time.,The book that is also going very smoothly has to drag on for so long to complete.,Why Ying Li Li chose to let Kazuya and Lun also help when the progress of the book was still average at the beginning.,But at the critical moment, he abandoned the two of them and chose the help of Kato Megumi., Why at that time, Ying Li Pear had to let Kazuya come to participate in the doujinshi of his own club with a semi-forced meaning. The reason for all this is this new.,The book that pins on Ying Lili's expectations.,I want to let Kazuya see.,Want to reconcile with Kazuya.,This is the key to her somewhat awkward attempt to express her intentions that she didn't dare to express in person.,This is also how sad she was complaining to herself in disguise about the estrangement between the two caused by her estrangement from her at that time.。 I understand this mood of Ying Lili.,With guilt and apprehension.,And also a little hesitant to stand at the door of Egoistic-Lily, who was ready to call it a day.。
"Uh," he said, stopping a staff member and asking nervously, "Is Kashiwagi-sensei still here?" I'm her friend, and she asked me to look for her after the comi ended, but I was delayed before, so? ”
"Kashiwagi-sensei's friend? She asked you to comi to end up looking for her later? The staff member on the other side asked suspiciously.
"That's the case, so, is Kashiwagi-sensei still there?" Kazuya suddenly had a bad premonition, and the next answer also made this premonition come true.
"But Mr. Kashiwagi left not long ago."
"Didn't she leave anything behind?"
"Because the teacher left with her mother, I don't know what the message was. If you're a friend of the teacher, can you give her a phone call and ask her? There are not many people in the venue now, and the signal should not be bad. ”
"Oh, well, yes, indeed, I can call!" And also took a few steps back in despair, and the confidence that had just been forcibly established suddenly collapsed, and he naturally understood what Ying Li Li didn't continue to wait for him, which meant that Ying Li Li gave up this opportunity to reconcile with him, or rather, because she didn't have time to see Ying Li Li before the end of the comi under various special circumstances, she felt that she didn't understand the meaning of her book, or she didn't want to reconcile if she understood, so, Ying Li Li was disappointed, even if he called Ying Li Li again now, With this girl's proud character, she will not accept it.
And the reconciliation with the pear pear has ended before it has even begun. And the sudden situation on Yingli's side made him even more ignorant of how to think about how to solve Ayase's problem.
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And I don't know how I got out of the egoistic-lily booth.,And then paced to the outside of the venue.,He only knows that in the short hours that have been given.,He seems to have ruined everything.,The relationship between his sister and himself fell into a freezing point.,The opportunity to reconcile with your childhood sweetheart was also given up by yourself.,Failed to stop my sister's good friend from making enemies with my sister and couldn't think of a solution.,Even in the case that it's obviously difficult to do it to yourself.,And make a promise without permission.,Finally, let Kato、 Black Cats and others are disappointed in those who have hopes for themselves.
Sitting on the chair in front of the tram stop, Kazuya stared blankly at the speeding tram, and experienced the most helpless feeling in his life: "I promised them, I promised to solve the problem, I promised to solve it myself, but I am a person, a person who does not dare to respond to Yingli Li's good feelings, a person who lies in front of his sister, and a person who thinks he is very capable but can't do anything in front of everyone, how can a person like me do these things!" As a result, I'm still an idiot! ”
The train roared by, the raindrops outside the platform kept falling, and Kazuya's heart kept sinking.
"So, can someone come and tell me what to do now?" Kazuya laughed at himself helplessly, "No! Everyone who will be here must have already gone back, right? When I went back, I was also alone. ”
At this moment, a slightly clear and clear voice sounded in Kazuya's ears, and he turned his head in surprise.
"Kazuya-kun?"
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Suddenly I feel that this paragraph is advancing a little fast.,The psychological description is still not enough.,But if I can put the psychological description together into a chapter, I think I can also go and write the galgame script.,So let's do it first.。 All in all, the current state of the protagonist is quite annoying, but I guarantee that after all the contradictions erupt now, it will bottom out.